PONDERING....
As I sit and wonder what will tomorrow bring ...
are any of us really sure ... or do we just guess ....
do we wake in the morning and decide today the day
i am going to have a shitty day ...
or i think will I find true love
does anyone ever really know ...
what tomorrow brings ...
could I WAKE up to see my kids one last time and walk out the door
just to never see them ever again ...
I often wonder where are u now
who would u be...
and would i still be in ur heart ...
do u ever wonder where I am
who I became ...or remember me as I was
every night I close my eyes ...in search that maybe
when I wake u might still be there
but then when I do ..i knew that wouldnt be
ever wonder why ur afraid of things
why are people afraid of love
I had friend that was afraid to live ...never had the courage...
to fight for herself ....
every man that claimed to love her ... left with no intension of returning....beat up her heart ...and before she realized what she was really worth ...all the people who did love her....who stood by her ..believed in her..even when she couldnt believe herself ....
when I 19 I got in this really bad accident ... and as my car was fliping over ... in my head the only thing I was thinking was I dont die a virgin ....lol and as silly as that was .... still today I am afraid to die not because of that partial reason now .. but for ones more important like
my kids...my family ... my friends ... more importantly myself
it took me a long time to realize that everyone deserves to be loved even myself ......
and maybe I will never find what I seek .. but as I remain surrounded by the people who love me ...put a smile on my face ...make me laugh .. even if its at myself ... :)
i know who i am ...who I wanna become.. and who i am today ..
if u choose to look past whats on the outside ....... and concontrate on what on the inside ... most of time u wont be disappointed.... a truly beautiful person .... reply not w what someone thinks of them
but more importantly what one thinks of themselves ..... and if u dont like who u become ... only u can change it ....
i think my thoughts here are done ..... smile someone somewhere is thinking of u........ hugs