Well...im having a bit of a depression spout....I just got offline with my mother {Yea i know my real mother, never thought i would talk to her again..}and found out some terrible news.
She had been to the doctor and had test ran and after several years of her being in pain she found out that within a year she will become a paraplegic because she has degenerative disk disease in her neck and back...
Its depressing to hear her talk about it because she keeps telling me she rather die than be in a wheel chair, and as much as i hated the things she did, I dont know what I would do if she passed away, it would kill me......and knowing my mother, she has made attempts..........I dont know how to deal with it.....im sitting here typing quietly not able to hold back the tears streaming down my face because it hurts so much......
