you know I try, I really do, but I just cant figure it out, I try to take the time to get to know people, learn the good and bad of them, make informed decisions, hell even choose girlfriends, yet I find, if they dont lie, the hide, if they dont hide, they disrespect me, if they dont do that, they walk all over me, if not that, they ignore me, if not that, they simply dont care about me
right now, whole bunch of those I feel like, my supposed girlfriend talks a big talk about us, after she's done school this, I love your that, yet, when it comes to backing up anything she says, she's nowhere to be found, well be online talking and run out of things to say for awhile *1hr or more* and she'll just log off without a word, she disappears for days on end without any warning, she's now been gone for almost 9 whole days, she didnt say she would do this, and it took 5 days to just get any reply from her, and it was a whole 3 words
I've tried to be supported, affectionate, caring, I've slipped up from time to time, I wanted to do what was right, thought I had made a good choice, but since making that choice, I've been ignored, disrespected, shown absolutely no concern for how I feel, and made to feel like I dont even matter time and time again, I've even tried to show her what she was doing, tried to encourage her to go after the chance she had, not just do nothing with it, I mean, is it so hard to take 5 seconds out of ones day to say I'm not gonna be around, guess it is, guess like always, I'm not important enough to make even the smallest effort for, guess taking me for granted and expecting me to be there when the other isnt is good enough for her
so really, explain to me how this is any different than the first time round when I was made to feel just like I do now, cause I told her that if this turned out to be like the first time, I'd walk
WELL I'M WALKING!!!! catch me if you can
