SyKoGoDdEsS's blog: "The Dance"

created on 12/01/2007 | http://fubar.com/the-dance/b162045

posted on 02/21/2010&nbs-08:00;@&nbs-08:00;09:02&nbs-08:00;pm

~ My So Called Life~
http://fubar.com/the-dance/b162045-1102843

My life has been so hectic almost crazy like. Their has been drama, pain and strugging. I'm trying to get my life together. There have been good things going on course. right now Im just so indifferent feelings so much left up int he air and unsaid. Alot of emotional stuff and bs has been going on... I don't knwo what to think nymore about things and people expecially certain ppl... I feel like I am on my own most of the time and everyone who was close to me is falling away and becoming so distant for me. Ppls advice is confusing my life is confusing and relationships are very weird/odd with people... I realy hope that things will get better for me soon and that things will get sorted and figure out cuz Im just tired offeeling the way I have been feeling, so indifferent, confused and left with things all whatever up it the air... My life is what is though and I can only control so much of certain aspects of it and the rest is left to "fate" I suppose annd whatever things will be they will be whatever happens, hapens it is what is it is and I just got ot hang in their and keep on going and do what I have to do... Most of the time im left thinking to myself of so much I think so much that i cant sleep late and night but then wheN i do go to bed its way late and i want to just sleep my whole sleep has b een off... I should relaly just do some journaling writing on paper and get my feelings out and just spend time writing it all out to get it out on paper...but yeah life is still like the dance, I could of miss the pain but Id a had to miss the dance..... and thats really all I can say at this point...before go and ramble on about crap....

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posted on 02/21/2010&nbs-08:00;@&nbs-08:00;09:02&nbs-08:00;pm

New pics
http://fubar.com/new-pics/b162045-1102841

I really need new Pics...LOL

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posted on 09/04/2009&nbs-07:00;@&nbs-07:00;04:09&nbs-07:00;pm

So In
http://fubar.com/so-in/b162045-1060892

I am so totally madly deeply in <3Love<3 W/the sweetest most Amazingest Guy In The Whole Wide World!!! No Joke,,,I hope he knows who is he,also. ;) Plus he is sooo Adorable/Adorkable ;) *hehe*

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posted on 09/04/2009&nbs-07:00;@&nbs-07:00;04:09&nbs-07:00;pm

long time..since logg in.
http://fubar.com/long-time-since-logg-in/b162045-1060885

OMG CAN'T BELIEVE I ACTUALLY REMEMBERED THE PASSWORD...OMG I HAVN'T BEEN ON HERE IN SOOO LONG OR EVEN LOGGED ON OR EVEN THOUGH BOUT IT...LOL

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posted on 03/28/2009&nbs-07:00;@&nbs-07:00;05:03&nbs-07:00;pm

...Long Time...
http://fubar.com/long-time/b162045-1001846

Wow, I have not really logged on or even been on FUBAR here for a long time, it feel like 4eva. I don't even know excactly really how long it has been. Anyways man My pics seem like they look kinda old.lol.... I dont know excactly why I havnt used Fubar in so long, I think that I was just maybe possibly getting bored with it and other stuff,things have and were just happening and stuff and have had other things going on in my life that I guess I just kinda forgot about it and like was like eh Idk just idk tired of it I guess. Anyways so I undecided about it, I mean I will prob use it once a while but not all that often as I use to when I first started using it... So I apologize , things happen...and ya so take care people. Peace out

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posted on 12/01/2007&nbs-08:00;@&nbs-08:00;09:12&nbs-08:00;am

Idk
http://fubar.com/idk/b162045-629396

Basically Idk, I just want to dedicate this song to someone, and to things changing. I guess a part of me is glad for one thing but another has been sad about the pain that has happened but it might be this way for a reason. We are hopefully moving forward. I am thankful for the time I spend with the person and other thing(s),but yeah Im sorry it happened the way it did , but now it's time to go on in life. Hope that makes sense....Anyways I think I first heard this song cause of them and it just randomly came on now and reminds me of this. "The Dance" Looking back on the memory of The dance we shared 'neath the stars above For a moment all the world was right How could I have known that you'd ever say goodbye And now I'm glad I didn't know The way it all would end the way it all would go Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain But I'd have had to miss the dance Holding you I held everything For a moment wasn't I a king But if I'd only known how the king would fall Hey who's to say you know I might have changed it all And now I'm glad I didn't know The way it all would end the way it all would go Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain But I'd have had to miss the dance Yes my life is better left to chance I could have missed the pain but I'd have had to miss the dance

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