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What are you waiting for?
Every time I see you or talk to you I smile from ear to ear. I do not know why you make me smile but I am glad that you do. You call me every mourning to tell me I love you. You call me when I go to bed to say good night and sweet dreams. Every day I wake up thinking is this a dream that is just going on and on that I am not waking up from. Do I even deserve to have a dream like this much less a real life love. I have loved before and been heartbroken. I told my self many times over that I would never go threw the pain of heart break ever again, and that I would never love again to avoid that kind of pain. But when you walked into my life everything changed. It changed so fast and I have no idea what is happening. I am so deeply in love with you that I don't think I could make it from day to day with out you. I know that I am no perfect man and that I have alot of flaws. You are a way better person then I could ever be. I hope that I never disapoint you in our time together. I don't think I could handle ever disapointing you. I would love to grow old with you by my side. I just hope you feel that same way with me. I know their is a large distance between us. Some day that distance will close and I will let you in. Their are alot of things that you don't know about me and the things that I have done. I will not hide anything from you so anytime you want to know anything about me please ask. I will not tell you that you wouldn't understand or you really don't want to know. I do have alot of night mares about my past that I am not sure that you would want to know about but anytime you feel that you can't handle my waking up screaming or my thrashing I will understand if you walk away for you will not be the first to do so. As a kid my father (sperm donar) always told me that I was stupid or I would never amount to anything. I alway got beat for the things my little brother or little sister done and blamed me for it. I left home at the age of 17 after droping out of high school and joining the Army. I spent 13 wonderful years serving my beloved country and I wouldn't ever change a thing. I have been deployed several times over my 13 years. Not only Iraq. I have done alot of things for my country that I am not proud of but it had to be done. If you can handle my past then I know you can handle our future. I am set in alot of my ways and I know they need to be changed. So I am hopeing that you can help me with that. If you can then I know you and I will last forever. I love you and hope to hear your voice again soon.
