Why is it that the people that we think we know go to grave lengths to hurt us, when all that we've done to them is love them, support them and give them out hearts unconditionally.
I love someone who claimed that they loved me until the bitter end. I was faithful to them and did whatever was necessary to keep our relationship strong and healthy. These days its no different loving a man or a woman because neither is any better than the other.
They can both go behind your back and rip your heart to shreds. I went from being a straight mother, to a lesbian wife and i was happy, i thought that God had given me the world. The person that I loved more than myself hurt me, ripped my heart right out of my chest and just stomped on it. She was suppose to be 100% lesbian, but now she's pregnant by someone that i hate with a passion.
Oh God tell me what did i do to deserve this, to not only have someone cheat on me, but get pregnant. I am so heartbroken and mentally and emotionally a wreck. I'm physically sick because of this.
How do you get over something of this magnitude and even begin the healing process???
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.
--Reinhold Niebuhr
