you say you know what I went thru
you say you felt the same way
you say your sorry you put me thought it all...
but you weren’t the one that was bleeding
laying silently on the floor
crying for the pain to end
but pain only came more
you weren’t the one that sat crying
on a back porch step unknown
you weren’t the one left out in the rain,
when nobody’s ever home
I waited for years and years more mom
for you to see what was happening to me
but even now you don’t see the full truth
that I've blocked so far from my memory
I’m begging you
Don’t leave me here crying just yet
but you jut left again
you say all the pain will be over soon
but you listen to much to the lies
you don’t realize I'm dying inside
you say you felt the same pain
but you didn’t even feel half
Don’t you know what I went thru?
All those years I faked a laugh
don’t you see what I did to myself?
dying on the cold floor
bleeding behind the house
the knife in my dresser and one under my pillow
weapons of destruction I caused
smash my head against the back wall
nothing but my vision ceased
now I’m laying here crying
waiting for you to realize I’m still dying
But you'll never listen to me
this isn’t just a note to you mom,
but to everyone else that knows
Or thought they knew…
Wont someone come thru…
And save me
Now you try to protect me
Everyone of you that never realized I exist
But a simple look in my eyes
Will show you what I hide
All the pain that’s left…
Or was left
I’m dead inside
I died the day you left
You never came back for me
And you still haven’t yet
I hope you realize
Life means nothing more
I’m lying dead, on that cold bedroom floor
you cant save me now
