I bet By the end of this everyone will remember every heartache an it just might open old wounds. for that i apologies. you may even look at relationships differently. every person deals with heartache differently.For some they become lethargic. Others do not care for they have justified it in their Mind. Others do not.they are the ones that feel it on a molecular level.They can feel it tear them apart down to their adams. In a way they have "died" inside a slow and horrific death. They can remember every thing from that day. Not only that but they can remember everything from the day they met that person down to the smallest detail like whom was wearing what an other minute details. Everyday i drive by a school ,which hold very sentimental value to me, an smile about days gone past. Events that helped shape me into the being i am now. One day, while driving by there, i had an epiphany. I finally understood how to gauge you will feel if , unfortunately, your relationship ends. The more intense the feeling is when you first meet. The more devastating the heartache will be. love is the most powerful of all the emotions. It can make a pure person question their own chastity. It can make a honest person a criminal.An can make a deep person become empty and unfeeling. some say exquisitely hollow, for they enjoy the void that is inside them. Others feel that void grow. As beautiful as Love can be. Is it worth the pain? Most would say yes. others no.For they are the ones that hide behind walls. Toughen their skin up. Appearing to be void of all emotion around society, yet when they are alone they show what they can. They show only little to most. They more closer someone is to them. the more they show. They also say the eyes are the windows to the soul. Well most would agree.Some hide their eyes behind dark glasses, or they just do not look people in the eyes. only making it appear they are. for they do not believe that anyone can handle that much cold.they also do not want people getting lost in the void.some make a list in their head of people they will get with.An if they do not get with them then they shall never be with anyone again. But there always seem to be that one person,no matter how good your defenses are, that can walk thru them as if they did not exist. i know,by now, some have grinned or started to slowly shake your head in agreence . Now you do not feel so alone. An it is ok to hide. Well just think before you do. yes you will avoid the pain, but you will also miss out on life. What you do in your life is what you choose. but to help you out some. use these rules of thumb...
1: think at least 3 times before making your first move.
2: Think out every possible out come of each thing
3: if there are any negative Repercussions..is it worth it.
4: Fate. Everything happens for a reason.
5: an finally, sometimes waiting is ok.
this all might not help anyone, But Love is not a bad thing for some.Others believe that no matter how beautiful moments can be they are just to evil when they are gone to even let people close.well which ever steps you choose know you are not alone. There are others out there that feel as you do. some just do not have the courage to say it or the ability to express it. I hope you happiness. I wish you luck in all your ventures through out your days. An i wish for you to,one day, to have that special someone who thinks it is worth saving you.
Signed
Forever
The Crow
Written:August 2, 2007 12:00pm
