Sharky's blog: "Things to think about"

Why some soldiers go into battle without even wondering why just do as they are asked even when others ask them why they have no answer other than my country needs me?

A country boy will survive anywhere he is placed but continues to look for the country however a city boy can't survive outside the city?

A soldier will lay down his life for what he believes in and protect those around him with no questions asked but come home at times to ridicule and say that is why I fight?

Why is it easier to go with the flow of things and complain rather than make a suggestion to do the change that you see needs to be done?

Why do we tend to push those away we love at times to protect them instead of drawing them closer into us?

Did you know that it takes less muscles to smile than it does to do anyother facial expression.

Never figured this out why do we need peace and quiet to think cause we should be able to think at any point and time shouldn't we cause we have to make decisions in life constently?

Why do we question somethings but except others freely?

Why when the military needs the experience of soldiers that have been in combat do they push the ones to the side that has problems and cant deal with the life any longer?

I wonder how I am going to be a husband, a soldier, a father and love my wife all while working a full time job and still make her happy. To me this has never really crossed my mind much. Looking around at some of the people I know I have no clue how they do it. Cause I know an Army Girlfriend is hard to find but an Army Wife is a very rare breed of woman. To me she has to be as strong as the soldier, independent and love her man just as much as he loves her cause he can be called away at any time to defend the country and beliefs of those that they disagree with.

So far I have come close to accomplishing this but failed. Guess with some of this being took from me it was to much and then I couldn't handle the little things I messed up to much and cheated on the girl of my dreams and now have lost her. Nothing I touch or seem to come in contact with ever comes out good it always goes bad.

How is it that when someone you love wants and meets the real you instead of the pretend you for the rest of the world  but when you are having to deal with everything the shell you created comes out and messes everything else up how do you supposedly protect them from that person because it is who you have been since a life changing event and you cant really express what is going on in yout head. I just wish I could find the person who sees me instead of the me I choose to show the world.