petrichor badwolf's blog: "just some stuff"

i need a night of dreamless sleep.  my eyes feel like they are on fire and my brain is shutting down.  I am trying very hard to keep my outward actions positive, but my insides are going numb.  i like the new job because its repetitious movements, and busy work...not difficult, but there is some precision involved...it doesn't hurt that I can leave to go get Z from school and she is allowed to be there...she is having a blast because my boss is, to her, *grampa*....it is a small company, quiet, and peaceful.  it is like a 180 degree change from what I was doing...

i know correlation doesn't always equal causation, but ever since i left the stress of my last job, the dreams have been coming , closer together....they are more vivid..more real...sometimes, its like i am walking around in 10 years ago and when i wake up it takes me a moment to remember where i am.....one of the things about traveling with the carnival that i could never get used to was waking up terrified because I didn't know where I was.....i have been in the same place for 4 years now, and I still manage to wake up like that sometimes...i need a night of dreamless sleep.