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You son, love for possession.Calling a GROWN MAN out his name b/c YOU don't possess the ability to gain your woman's attention, trust, and heart . All you are really doing is giving her lack of faith in you substance. You raise voice and hands struggling to keep what can be taken from you with much less effort. Don't be mad at the MAN she sees in me, i'm just her fantasy. Be mad at the lack of man she see's in you, you're her giving up.... Game Over

Between Us No one knows about you and I , but us. Yet even we don't know what we are. We have been conversation. We have been heated kisses and passion filled hugs. We have been maybe, what if, what could have been. Are we ready to be more? Are we ready to duck in the shadows and bring those what ifs to life. Are we ready to hug and not let go? Kiss and not stop? Make love and? What do we do once the climax has subsided? What do we do once i've filled you with the last unknown? Don't answer the question. Let's keep it like everything else... Between Us

I'll create a martial arts style just to make love to Your soul. the fluid motion of me inside You might lead to a solid version of dreams blown into fulfilled wishes.. i wanna know the motions your body imitates as well as the meaning of everything Your imagination creates. i want Your heart to rule in my honor and serve as a treasured servant. Beat to give me a sense of yesterdays smiles and proud to show me more. Your smile limits the ability for me to inhale a needed moment as it consumes idle thought ...EDML

Time seems to stand still as I soak in the depths of our conversations. Hours seems like seconds and a brief hello is a pleasant yet cruel torture. You flow through me as if you've been injected into my soul, leaving me addicted. The circulation of you continues to intoxicate me when a fix isn't an option. I'm inhaled by and consumed with a Princess. Knighted by your grace and crowned King by your affection . You have slayed the beast of illusion and lit eternal flames of attainable desires. I want you for more than a moment and no less then forever... EDML

The Official Girlfriend Application THE OFFICIAL GIRLFRIEND APPLICATION Just a reminder: be completely honest with all your answers. Any false information will automatically nullify any chance you might have had. Thanks, and have fun.This application must be filled out in its entirety in order to be considered for the position that you are applying. Photographs may sway my opinion one way or the other, feel free to attach any that you think may help you gain this position. BASIC INFORMATION 1. Full legal name 2. Age 3. Height 4. Eye color 5. Natural hair color 6. Current hair color CONTACT INFORMATION 7. Home phone 8. Cell Phone 9. Email GETTING TO KNOW YOU 10. Are you a virgin? Y N 11. Do you smoke? Y N 12. Do you use any illegal substances? Y N 13. Do you have kids? Y N 14. If yes, how many? 15. Are you currently employed? Y N 16. If yes, what is it you do? 17. Do you drive? 18. Highest level of education 19. Do you have a history of mental illness? Y N 20. Favorite sport & team 21. Have you ever cheated on a boyfriend? Y N 22. Do you cook? Y N 23. Do you have any siblings? Y N 24. What is your religion? 25. What is your political persuasion 26. Do you have piercings? Y N 27. If YES, What are they? 28. How many tattoos do you have? 29. What is your current favorite movie of all time? 30. List your three favorite genres of music in order of most favorite to least favorite: REASONS I SHOULD PICK YOU 31. What is your idea of a perfect date in three sentences or less? 32. Explain why I should pick you as my girlfriend in one sentence: 33. List any special skills that you may have that are relevant to this position: 34. What do you want out of a relationship, specifically one with me? RELATIONSHIP BACKGROUND List the details of your past three relationships starting with the most recent. Start Date: End Date: Were you in love? Y N Does either of you want the other back? Y N Sexually active? Y N Reason for breakup: Sexual Inquiry 35. Ever been to a strip club? 36. Ever been to a bar? 37. Ever been kicked out of a bar or a club? 38. Ever been so drunk you had to be carried out of somewhere? 39. Kissed someone of the same sex? 40. Thrown up from drinking too much? 41. Had sex in a car? 42. Had sex at the beach? 43. Had sex in a movie theater? 44. Had sex in a bathroom? 45. Had sex at work? 46. Have you ever been in an "adult" store? 47. Bought something from an adult store? 48. Have you been caught having sex? 49. Are your breasts real? 50. Does anyone have naughty pics of you? 51. Favorite position 52. Do you like cuddling afterwards? 53. Do you give Oral pleasures? 54. Do you like to recieve Oral Pleasures? 55. Wildest sexual experience? 56. With as much detail as possible , explain the sexual fantasy you'd most want to fulfill.

How do I tell you that you have taken away everything.When you do not want to see the damage. My daily keeps moving as my mind , body , and soul remain stuck in moments of u. My heart looses sight of heaven only to wallow in hell's madness. My mind races a marathon of us. Only to have the starting line the repeated desire, the finish the hangman's self imposed sentence. My only ruler of love is disappointment. Disappointment's greatest accomplices are expectation and desire. I wanted you from day 1. I expected to want you forever. Now I just need to forget. I need to forget those kisses, but how?... When in a moment you're tasting the flavor of granted wishes and the next, GOD reveals heaven. How does a man go back to the line at heaven's gate after he has already been in...E.D.M.L.

My letter to me...Self Love I'm sorry I've let you down. I've let you fall for those that abused instead of appreciated. That drained instead of filling. That took your all willingly yet gave sparingly. I never wanted you to be hurt. I never wanted you to feel left out. I never wanted you you to ache. I am sorry Martin for letting you down and not protecting you. I'd plead for your forgiveness but forgiveness is for the part that neither one of us can seem to control. We give without care and we give completely. How do we learn to short change desire. Addicted is how we approach want. We, my friend, are gamblers in the truest sense of the word. We bet our most sacred on want and hope love hits. Win at the cost, is it worth it? Well I guess the pain of it not, is the answer. Yet we still bet. Not considering we could just bet time and cash out whenever necessary. Time is what we never can get back. Love is what we want back. Both out of our control and both our master. I'm sorry Martin that I am addicted to love MORE than I love you. I guess I'm just not worthy of you. The price U pay for me loving so intensely isn't worth the cost of us. I DO love you and that love is more important than the love that could ever be given from anyone else. We share forever...E.D.M.L.

My letter to me...Self Love I'm sorry I've let you down. I've let you fall for those that abused instead of appreciated. That drained instead of filling. That took your all willingly yet gave sparingly. I never wanted you to be hurt. I never wanted you to feel left out. I never wanted you you to ache. I am sorry Martin for letting you down and not protecting you. I'd plead for your forgiveness but forgiveness is for the part that neither one of us can seem to control. We give without care and we give completely. How do we learn to short change desire. Addicted is how we approach want. We, my friend, are gamblers in the truest sense of the word. We bet our most sacred on want and hope love hits. Win at the cost, is it worth it? Well I guess the pain of it not, is the answer. Yet we still bet. Not considering we could just bet time and cash out whenever necessary. Time is what we never can get back. Love is what we want back. Both out of our control and both our master. I'm sorry Martin that I am addicted to love MORE than I love you. I guess I'm just not worthy of you. The price U pay for me loving so intensely isn't worth the cost of us. I DO love you and that love is more important than the love that could ever be given from anyone else. We share forever...E.D.M.L.

I don't want to create a fuss. My heart is in a state of who, what, when, where... I'm dazed by the impact losing you has caused. Your smile shielded so much of the extra and your arms distracted my everything else. I crave you. My lips aren't as soft as when against yours. I crave your smile which soothed every ailment my heart has known. I'm ready for the surprises being in love brings. I want to love you as completely as forever is long. I want to inhale the exhaust of your heart and let you breathe my spirit. You make me the man that my destiny has told me that i am. Because of you I am the words that give love description. Now I ask you to let me be more then you ever imagined. Let me be your more then love. Let me be to you as you are to my life. Let me be your reason...E.D.M.L.