A Man On His Own's blog: "thoughts...."

You walk in the room, suddenly i feel my heart beat harder than a drum roll, i look at you and see my future in your eyes, a reflection of you me and them, 1 day away from you is like a year after the creator called you home, time seems to come to a halt when i am around you, my heart aches when i know that i have hurt you, my soul soars when i make you smile, suddenly my life have so much more meaning, i feel you in everything i do, the whisper of my name across your lips, the taste of your love still on my tongue, i wake with thoughts of you next to me, only to to slapped into reality that your not there, just the view of your skin sends thrills thru out my body, i fear you and want you all in the same breath, you make me strong when i dont want, you weaken me when i want to be strong, you show me that a 4 letter word is still worth sayin, doin and trustin, you freed my wintery heart, and yet caged my soul in your hands, i wish only to share one starry night alone with you, and yet thats not enough.

the gift, i cant touch the ground, my heart beats uncontrollibly, my vision is only of u with starry clouds around you, your touch like that of a childs, your voice, like the sounds of an angel cryin to be in the gates of heaven. how you make me feel as i stand in the rain, dreamin of you and the sun shines thru a hurricane in my world. the curse, im alone, the silence is like a thousand screams of pain and i cant stop it, lookin at your pictures, like watching you walk by and not even saying hello, as if we never meant anything to each other, wakin to empty thoughts and not knowing how to think about the day, watchin lovers walkin hand in hand and all i have is a fist of air and a heavy heart, i want to cuss love but it wont bring you back ... yea what dont kills you makes u stronger but love can weaken you, just gotta get up and stand up to love .... dont let love bully u down.

funny how life works and changes you in what seems like overnight, one minute your on the bottom of the sea, the next your on the highest mountain lookin down over everyone just to find out theres someone sittin higher than you. what makes us think of ourselves as greater than the next person, if we could stand next to our ownselves would we be quick to judge ourselves as quick as we judge others? And who said that we all are perfect? we all have our imperfections and blotches that we all try to mask with either make-up or point the finger at someone else, but what we sometimes fail to remember that there are 3 other fingers pointed back us when we point that 1 finger at someone else. would the world be any different if we were all the same? would anyone judge each other if we all shared the same look, emotions, feelins, desires? would there be 1 that stood out the crowd and yelled "HEY WORLD I REFUSE TO BE THE SAME!!" and would anyone listen to that person? just something to think on ...