ReleasedSoul's blog: "Too Lost To Care"

You know that moment in your life that you might be making a bad choice, but don't care and want to go through with it anyways? How about after being laid-off, wrecked you truck, bills to pay, Christmas is here, and you have nothing to give? That is my year. The story of my life. If you have, then do what makes YOU happy. Live on and be free. But this is my entry for this day.

Sometimes I worry about alot of the little shit and not enough about the big shit. And when I do get caught up in the middle of any of it, I'm the asshole. Well FUCK that. Who cares? You know, we ALL have choices. We all have the ability to walk away. I know, I am a dickheead... And an asshole... And what ever else you want to call me. But I don't care. Why waist valuable brain cells on those that piss you off? I learned the hard way that it is easier to walk away and forget than to dwell in the past. So, just move on if you are one of those that are what I am explaining, then leave me alone. Just let me go... Let our past go, and burn me out of your mind...

Have you ever wondered why a person wants to hurt you or goes out of their way to piss you off? It happens everday... But the worse part is when you miss those people after they are gone. Evan though you are so mad at them to not ever want to talk to them again. That is who and when it hurts the most (you)... But we never think about that until we ourselves are in that moment of our lives. I miss alot of people everyday, but can't let myself go back to the days of my past. Only hope that I survive tonight. If that makes sence to anyone. Because I stress out on the little shit. And when I am mad, EVERYTHING bothers me. And I never get a chance to sit down to collect myself or my thoughts. And we all know the best advice is the best advice not given. Because when we give our advice, we normaly drive a person in the wrong direction. Life is short... Just live it up and do the things that make YOU happy. I am (at times). But I am a surviver in my everyday life. Even though at times I don't want to know what will happen next, that is why I stick around most of the time...