If you have ever heard the song *Stay* by Sugarland, then you may understand why I am unsure for sure.
I love him soooo much but it is so hard sharing someone. I am like 3rd or 4th on his list, yet other times I am number 1. I am sooo confused!!!
When he is around I doubt nothing, yet when I am not with him, I wonder so much.. who else is he with??
I wish i could find someone that I was number 1 with. It seems for all my relationships, but one, I have never been number 1. Always after some other female. I do not know why I put myself through this. I do not look for these guys, they seem to find me... WHY!!!!!!!????????
SOME DAY I will learn to stop trusting so easily and be cynical more often. OH WELL!!!
