When u know that you are trying to make things better and nothing seems to go right I just look to my soul mate for support. I don't have to say a word because she knows how I feel and I don't ever want that to change. I love her so much that I dont know what I would do without her. She holds me when I cry and trys her best to tell me things will be better. I had a really bad morning my son made it really hard for me to even get up enough energy to go to work. But again she was there to tell me that I could do it. I needed to do it. But the energy was not there. My son really put me down, he called me every name in the book and told me that I was fat that I couldnt lose weight and that I was a bad mom and I wouldnt let him see his dad and I was just speechless. I didnt know what to say, I felt like I was on the playground being bullied. My friend was a savior today. My son will come around. But I think that he feels alone and I try to make him feel like he is wanted and loved but yet he keeps pulling away and I cant read him like I used to. I really miss my little boy he is growing up so fast. I dont know what to do anymore I feel like I am left out of the loop. Some people tell me what to do to help the situation but I have been in a different loop for so long that I dont know how to react so I just do what come natural to me. I hope that I will be the good mom again someday....