country's blog: "Why do I f&$#&(ng bother?"

what would I do without him, He met me while I was married to an abusive, controling, hope killing asshole. He saw what he wanted and he wouldn't take no for an answer. Even during our darkest times, he still loved me. And now a full 11 years later, I married him, something I told him I would never do ever again, I did it with no pomp or circumstance, Infact the day I said I do, I was sooo ill, but I forced myself out of bed just to call him my husband. He loves me more than I deserve, He wakes me up with kisses every morning, he watches me sleep before he goes to sleep, He holds me when the whole world around us has gone mad, and his smile soothes me, his voice melts me, his body owns me, his heart has captured me, his goodness, inspires me, and he is the only one on the face of this earth who can stop me. I crave his hands on me, I yearn for his warmth, his talents his....well my body He is everything I never thought I ever deserved and so much more than I could of ever hoped for. He is my Life, My Love, My confidant, MY Very Best Friend, my sanity, my temperance, my King, my everything.

Is it just me or has the world gone nucking futs? just wondering, when did going to work ill, become a fireable affair? when did wanting what's best for the people you are closest too, become meddling? when did doing the right thing, make me the most hated person on earth, or made to feel like that at least, when did giving a damn, become a bad thing. when did having the tools of being a responsible dog owner instantly make my dog aggressive? and why in the hell do police need to be called because some stuck up cunt can't control her dog enough to leave mine alone. when did my dog become the anti christ? when did owning a beautiful dog become harbouring a vicious blood thirsty menace, when did having the dog you want become illegal, because of some fucking list made up by all the animal hating, anal retentive, momma's boys who have screwed over enough people and paid there way to be in some kind of goverment. Why did we allow this list, this is just a way for money grubbing insurance agents, and beaurocrats on all levels to dictate what we can and can't do. A breed of dog isn't instantly the enemy, it's the owner and the way it was raised and the training if any, that it gets, I've seen chiaahua's cause more damage than my shepard mix's ever did, and I did the right thing, I got them from the humane society, I rescued them, I gave them a way better life and for that I am persecuted? well then I am guilty as charged and it will be a cold day in hell before I will give up my dogs, or the right to own such dogs.

You know just when I think I have had enough from my younger, shithead, half brother, he goes and proves to me that not only is he a lying, cheating, manipulative , selfish Bastard. But also that he so does not deserve My mothers blood coursing through his veins, I have helped him, housed him, encouraged him, fed him, and treated him more like family than his own family I have been living on less than a shoe string budget before my way ward shit head moved in with us, and I gotta say from the moment he moved in, our lives were sent straight to Hell. I handed him 3 jobs on a silver platter, and he pissed them away, one of which started at 16 bucks an hour with full benefits, but he was pining over some stupid, smelly (takes a shower every 3 weeks whether needed or not) sexless slut, who will sleep with EVERYONE but him, yet still she bellows and he screws whoever is needed to to do her bidding, as far as I am concerned they fucking deserve each other. that way his FAT ASS can sit dormant while he collects SSI for some disease he doesn't even have. In all my life I have never met such a fake, worthless, back stabbing, two faced, whinny bitch. (Considering everytime we come to blows he goes running to the nearest family member cause he's so fucking pathetic he can't or won't fight his own battles, So also known as Jet black heart on here, He is not worth any more of my time, oh and I am mourning his peverbial death. Because he is dead to everyone he has screwed over.