Through the tears in my eyes, I gently wipe away, I have so many questions that fill my head... Why does it feel like the whole world is crashing down around me? Why do I feel like I am losing everything that matters the most? I have so much love to give and only one person to give it to, yet my heart has to be pulled in so many different directions. I want to be happy and feel secure. I want to know that the person I love, loves me just as much in return. How hard is it for one person to ask so little and yet it seems like the whole world is put on their shoulders every waking minute of the day. I am me, accept me for who I am, ask no more of me than you know possible and dont ask me to be someone Im not or cant be.
I cant stop being the person I am. If being a nice, caring, loving person makes me so bad, or even ends up hurting someone, what can I do? I want so much in life to just be a bitch and stop caring about anything or anyone, but then my life would be a complete lie. So as I sit here with a heart of gold, torn to pieces from the hurt I have caused others, I go back in the dark corner of solitude where no one else I can hurt anymore! 
