Your Future Addiction's blog: "WHY?"

IM AT THE POINT IN MY LIFE I THINK IM SERIOUSLY WITHOUT A DOUBT DONE WITH MEN! EITHER THERE CRAZY, POSSESIVE, ABUSIVE, UNPREDICATABLE, ASSHOLE, AND TO PUT THE ICING ON THE CAKE SUICIDAL! I DONT KNOW WHAT THE HELL IS WITH ME FINDING THESE TYPE OF MEN ALWAYS BUT IT NEVER SHOCKS ME TO SEE THERE TRUE COLORS WHEN THE TABLES GET TURNED! LAST NIGHT MY EX CALLED ME REPEATIVITELY IM TALKING PROBABLY 35 TIMES IN 1-1 1/2 AND LEFT ME CRAZY ASS MESSSAGES LIKE I SEE YOU DONT WANT TO TALK TO ME WELL YOU BETTER ANSWER THE PHONE OR YOU WONT LIKE THE OUTCOME! OR EVER BETTER THIS MAYBE THE LAST TIME YOU HEAR FROM ME SO IF I DO SOMETHING STUPID TO MYSELF YOU'LL HAVE TO HAVE THAT HARBOR OVER YOUR HEAD THE REST OF YOUR LIFE, IM NOT HAPPY UNLESS IM WITH YOU, YOUR MINE WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT! IM MEAN WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH HIM WHO SAYS SHIT LIKE THAT! I KEEP TELLING HIM OVER AND OVER AGAIN IM DONE WITH HIM HES FINALLY ADMITTING THAT HE WAS WRONG AND HE SHOULDNT HAVE TREATED ME THE WAY HE DID BUT WONT TAKE A NO FOR AN ANSWER SO WHAT THE FUCK SHOULD I DO, RUN, HIDE, MOVE? I REALLY DONT KNOW ANYMORE THE PEOPLE THAT I TRUELY CARE ABOUT IN MY LIFE EITHER DONT HAVE TIME FOR ME OR MOVED ON WITH THERE LOVE LIFE! THAT RIGHT THERE IS THE WORST SITUATION IM FACING I CAN DEAL WITH CRAZY MEN BECAUSE IM USED TO THAT BUT LOSING A FRIEND/ SOMEONE ONE I TRUELY CARE ABOUT BREAKS MY HEART INTO A MILLION PIECES! IT MAKES ME FEEL COMPLETELY EMPTY INSIDE LIKE ALL I AM IS JUST A CAVITY! I REALLY HOPE THINGS START TO LOOK UP BECAUSE I HATE FEELING LIKE THIS!

LIFE HAS ALWAYS BEEN A STRUGGLE FOR ME MOST OF THE TIME ITS BEEN A BAD EXPERIENCE BUT IN THE END I LEARN A LOT OF VERY GOOD LESSONS! NUMBER ONE I NEED TO STOP PUTTING MY HEART ON THE LINE FOR JUST ANY BUDDY BUT WHEN IT COMES DOWN TO IT MOST OF THE PEOPLE WOULDNT DO THE SAME FOR ME! NUMBER 2 DONT ALWAYS BELIEVE WHAT YOUR HEAR OR WHATS TOLD TO YOU! WHEN IT COMES FROM THE MOUTH OF YOUR CLOSEST FRIENDS OR ACQUITANCES IT COULD BE NON-FICTION(MEANING ITS JUST SAID TO MAKE YOU HAPPY OR FEEL BETTER ABOUT SOMETHING OR SOMEONE)! NUMBER 3 STOP GIVING EVERYONE THE BENEFIT OF THE DOUBT THE WAY I LIVE YES ITS NOT THE GREATEST YES I KNOW IM NOT PERFECT IVE DONE MY DIRT AND IM DEFINITELY NOT PROUD OF MY ACTIONS SO I DONT JUDGE ANYONE FOR THEIR ACTIONS AND THERE LIFE SO WITH THAT BEING SAID IM TIRED OF LIVING THROUGH THE DAY WHEN PEOPLE (EVEN SOME OF MY OWN FRIENDS IVE CAUGHT) DOING THIS TO ME! WITH ALL HONESTY IT MAKES ME SICK IN MY FUCKING STOMACH! SO IM DONE WITH ALL THE BULLSHIT, DRAMA AND EVERYTHING THAT ENTITLES A NORMAL HUMAN BEINGS LIFE! IM CHANGING MY LIFE AROUND FOR THE BETTER SO WHEN "THOSE CHOSEN ONES" NEED MY HELP WHEN IM SITTING IN MY NEW PLACES WITH NO FINANCIAL WORRY AND THEY NEED HELP THIS IS WHATS GOING TO BE SAID AND I QUOTE "WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT, GO FUCK YOURSELF AND ILL SEE YOU IN HELL"! ANYWAYS HAD TO GET THAT OFF MY CHEST BECAUSE LATELY IVE BEEN FEELING REALLY ALONE AND ALMOST USED IN THE MOST ULTIMATE BAD WAY POSSIBLE! SO IM JUST GOING TO CONTINUE MY NEW LIFE WORKING MY ASS OFF GETTING UP IN THE COMPANY SO I CAN FINALLY ACHIEVE MY GOALS OF BEING SOMEONE IMPORTANT (TO MYSELF) THERES SO MANY THINGS IN MY LIFE THAT I LONG FOR AND CANT HAVE BECAUSE I LET A LOT OF PEOPLE INFLUENCE IM NOT LONGER THAT WEAK INDIVIDUAL ANYMORE I REALIZE ITS TIME TO GROW UP AND MOVE ON WITH MY LIFE! IF ANYONE THAT HAS READ THIS GONE THROUGH THE SAME EXPERIENCE OR IS GOING THROUGH GIVE ME SOME INSIGHT ON HOW TO COPE AND DEAL WITH THE FUTURE OUTCOME, I WOULD APPRECIATE EVERY COMMENT WHETHER ITS GOOD OR BAD EVERYONE IS ENTITLED TO THERE OWN OPINIONS!