Hopeless Romantic's blog: "Writings"

Through all the words I’ve spoken, in a life thats been so true How can I pick the perfect ones to say how I feel for you? I have to think on everyday, Right back to the high school play. Right back to the car rides home. Every moment spent with you alone. The nightly calls and weekend stays, Ceramic pigs and painted trays. The crying beds I held you tight, And told you we would never fight. From senior year with way too many lates. To Glyn going shopping for pots and plates. Through floods and proms and double dates From the Spring of 03 to the heavenly gates I called you my angel, and I’ll never take it back. You save my life daily, and make sure I’m on track. Without you there’s no vision, just colors and a blur. If stricken by this blindness, your love will be my cure. I’ve given you my heart and soul; I didn’t have to wrap them though. You had them stolen from the time I finished writing the first rhyme. And by the time I write the last I hope our sorrow’s in the past. I hope we both live to the day We see each other old and grey. And reading this with bad eyes and ears, We made it through these years my dear.

Memories I found reminiscing, In the moonlight silvery glow, Bygone dreams I remember, On the paths where lovers go. Dreams never need to be lost, I could share mine with you, Step 'neath the stars tonight, As the moon comes into view. As I remember dreams shared, Whilst harmonising the tune, I play your love songs again, 'Neath the light of a silver moon. Dreams within lovers embrace, In moonlight upon the shore, I capture what matters most, In continuous love forevermore

The night I lost my innocence, in the winter so cold and still. The hunger that drove us in, and turned into something real. I was far from home. By myself a long ways. Fooling everybody around me, as I took my chance that day. Deep down I feel its wrong, but my desires took in place. I was lost in the night of wonder, as I looked into his face. The heated passion that we created, made me feel different inside. Can't explain it though, its too hard to describe. Like I swam into the deep, not knowing how far it went. I must have touched the bottom, because the whole night was spent. I knew I was playing with fire, but it was something I wanted to do. I fell into the arms of a man, that desirably wanted it too. Although he is much older, I learned with every touch. A whole other world to me, one that is different very much. Just me and him, in that restless, winter night. A hunger was in the air, but was finally unleashed inside. The night I became a woman, is a night I don't regret. My youth is still young. With a memory I won't forget. Every time I see familar surroundings, or blue eyes close to his, the faint pressure I feel, of the power with his kiss. The night I lost my innocence, in the winter so cold and still. The hunger that drove us in, then turned into something real.

So much not said, So much I wish you knew. These feelings in my heart, I’ve been holding back from you. When you speak my heart leaps, When you smile I catch my breath. Can’t share these feelings with you, Keeping them locked away is best. A friend I try to be, A friend with secrets I hold. If I told you what I felt, Would I be being to bold? Instead I keep my distance, Instead I try to hide. I’ve taken the coward’s way out, I’ve tried to save my pride. I know you don’t feel for me, I know you never will. But inside I hold on to the hope, And my feelings I’ll reveal. With tears I pray for the day, When you come knocking at my door. That you and I will be together, From that day forever more. So secretly the feelings stay, A love that is just a seed. I’ll smile to appear o.k., When really my heart bleeds. For you I wish the best, Even if it’s not with me. While somewhere I will dream, Of what may never be. The future is in your hands, The future happiness of me. I hope my dreams are realized, And you will also be in love with me.