xmas this year and everyone after will not be so mary for me for the only day ill have with my boys is xmas eve i wont have them for a week only one day then its back to my boaring fucked up life if u have u"r kids and wife try not to lose them im still not sure wat i did to lose mine but i did get something out of it but not my kids i only have them every other weeekend and it sux i dont get to speend as much time as id like with them and it hurts me so bad so dont do anything stupid to lose u"rs cause in the end u will end up like me wondering wat u did so wrong so for all who have your families marychristmas and a happy new year and for me i hope i survive the mother fucking holidays