wildcherryx 2nd alarm hottie's blog: "xpaper dollx"

 

shadows standing in the shadow of myself i can't move, scream for help no one hears, i feel like someone else why can't you see past my face? have i lost my place or have i just lost faith? all my life, as i lose it all i watch time make its call i feel the pain way before the fall pull me out of the corner i've lived in for so long give me a place where i can't belong _chorus: i can run, i can hide nothing helps, but i'll still try this shadow is my home for now at least until the one to call my own is the one named me_ looking at the shadows on your face i see now what time calls space but the stolen kiss has come too late i'm breaking now watch me cry i bet you wish you had tried no one came to bring me hope no one said time could mend i can't cope it won't end it's empty inside, cold from the pain you could've at least said my name repeat chorus darkening clouds, pouring rain cast the shadows beyond shame i told you all just how it would be but no on believes the one called me look what you did locked inside, clawing away at my soul i'm lost and in pain, i bet you didn't know darkness crowds, i'm scared and without it's cold within, i need you now pushed away, always the last in mind take a look at me, you're wasting time hold me up, until we both fall until once again, i can lose it all i close my eyes for the last time stop hurting, get back in line _chorus: all you had to do was give me your hand say your love for me won't ever end but instead, you said we'll never win oh, look what you did i tried letting you know what i needed you say you know, but never leave it and you've won, i'm done with all of this now look what you did_ on the ground, i try crying out to you your voice plays past me, i don't move disconnect, you'll be the first to know spinning rooms, where'd it all go? say good bye, i'm leaving it now you can't still say you don't know how screeching lungs, i reach for you you don't hear, oh , but they do repeat chorus _bridge: lay a rose by me forever light a candle for my sake just like the flower, i wither that's the choice they all make_ repeat chorus love or hate i'm breaking down, you just laugh why can't i just ignore the past? chained to your heart, i just cry i can't get away from what's inside should i still stay, do i go? that's the choice but i don't know you turn your head, look away why do you always treat me this way? _chorus: how can so much love lead to so much hate? does it show? i can't take the pain but i'll be here still, and holding out for you still running back for more like i always do_ you're yelling now,i fall down with my heart stomped in the ground i've seen that face, you stare straight not with love, but with hate you leave me there nothing's left where's the heart i thought you kept? repeat chorus once you leave, i can't stop thinking are you the one that i've been missing? i'm scared but falling fast how much longer can i last? leave me there, i'll be fine maybe one day i'll get what's mine here i am (VERSE 1) you gave your love you gave me all you gave the things i needed so i let you in you took control but i'm leaving you with the most i know (HOOK 1) oh when the loving gets good, you leave me there to cry always thought you were the love of my life i knew the way you acted (around me) was so strange you always told me i need to make a change (CHORUS 1) so here i am, on my own again but still holding on to the love you held within i know i need to be strong i need to carry on but how can i make it through, ooo without you (VERSE 2) i held my love inside for you i gave the best to you that i could do i thought the love we had was so true but i guess the good times are through for you (HOOK 2) oh all the things i've been through, i felt so safe with you never thought you'd make me feel so betrayed i felt like i was fading into you with me in my heart you should have stayed (CHORUS 2) but here i am, still crying out for you why can't you see the love i held was true be the one i'll always need and guide a way for me tell me the things i need to hear, ooo hold me near (BRIDGE) i've tried opening up my heart to you but your love is always gone you say i'm the only one you need in your arms i know you say you need my love but you never leave me strong you always build me up then you leave me all alone i need you now, please tell me how....you left my life so cold (repeat CHORUS 1&2)

cope
when you've tried your best to find the one
to bring you joy and steal the sun.
if the world caves and leaves you broken,
hold this memory of which i've spoken.
i've got a minute and perhaps a lifetime,
to remind you of such a pastime.
when our world could mend the fear
and help each other wipe the tears.
we were the best through the worst of friends,
i'm glad to see it will never end.
even though we've had our days
where the moon didn't hang a certain way.
but through the pool of sorrowed smiles,
together we can walk such miles.
so when you're down and lost all hope,
here's an Angel to help you cope.

i'd forgotten
you came through and put hope back into my life.
i'd forgotten how to feel.
i'd forgotten how to breathe.
i'd forgotten how much i loved you.

remember me
i was the quiet one who never needed a soul. i stepped on little boys' hearts; the kind that were filled with childish passion towards me. i would run and pour my feelings to the ones who cared most.
remember me?
i probably pushed you away or tore down your trust because i was unhappy with myself. i didn't need the world to cry on. i only needed patience. i wore hope.
remember me?
i was the one who threw myself to my knees for you. when i felt i needed to be free, i pleaded for you. i never meant to cause pain. i didn't mean to make you wilt; i was unhappy.
remember me?
yes, remember me when i get strong. where i can find my fear and rip myself apart.
remember me when it's your turn to cry. when i feel invincible and you're all alone.
remember me when i'm there for you. and when i get older and grey, i want you to remember how brave i was for you.
just remember my love, remember me.

untitled
broken lover
twisted fate.
secret lives
at golden gates.
twenty years
with severed hope
sacred words,
they don't know
that the way they love
the way they breathe
make up for the fights
and all they see.
useless tears,
tethered souls,
tainted pain,
takes its toll.
hidden smiles
of a pampered child
all the hurt
is worth their while.

deception
what's the use for a man to lie?
when he says he loves you, then says goodbye.
secret virtue hidden in selfish eyes
if only you could tell me why.

four months gone with the timing of you
you played my love just like a fool.
your mind is set to be with her
with my heart, why did you bother.

in your eyes i'm this girl
who never believes what's in this world.
you've come in and broken my fate
this feeling you neglect is what i hate.

i'm closing my eyes, to wipe the fear
and this lie, i'm holding against you dear.
for i know you'll only be back
to knock my esteem back off its track.

i've got a new you to free my soul,
another promise to make me whole.
and with this breath i'm saying to you,
i'm sorry my love, no friend will do.

mr.boy
i'm broken.|though you cannot see.|i'm whithered.|take a good look at me.|i give you a smile.|you give me pain.|though it's not worth my while.|we're all in this game.|together.|that's where we'll stand.|forever.|it's not all that grand.|i feel what you say.|i hear you cry.|won't you please stay. i'm broken.|though you cannot see.|i'm whithered.|take a good look at me.|i give you a smile.|you give me pain.|though it's not worth my while.|we're all in this game.|together.|that's where we'll stand.|forever.|it's not all that grand.|i feel what you say.|i hear you cry.|won't you please stay.|stay until we die.|i'm broken.|though you cannot see.|i'm whithered.|take a good look at me.|i give you a smile.|you give me pain.|though it's not worth my while.|we're all in this game.|together.|that's where we'll stay.|forever.|you can bring no shame.|i need you to feel me near.|i need you to hold this love.|and never let it fear.|i know the time can tell.|and i know we still may break.|but if we can stay together.|forever for our sake.|i'll promise you my life.|if you can hold it safe.|and return this love i have for you.|and never let it waste.|i feel you now right there by me.|i said i'd leave you breathless.|now i'm sayin this to you.|in hopes you will love me

cry for me
i'm a beautiful thing
until you get close up.
i'm everything you need
until we break up.
if love could be a burden
i know it will be me.
if time can hide a promise
i know i'd set you free.
i'm a wild one
until i'm in your arms.
the world that seems so heavy
can suddenly do no harm.
tears on my pillow
and a fear in my eyes
i can't find the reason
why i hurt your precious pride.
i've got this promise
to never let you go.
but if i had the words to say
then i would let you know.
you're the world inside my eyes
never to leave me down.
if there's ever a time you need me near
i'll always be around.
i'm a beautiful thing
until i rip your heart
i've always been the one for you
right from the very start
i love the joy you bring to me
each and every day.
still i wish i could hold you now,
but what would i say?
i love you more than ever
this i wish you knew.
i know the world will soon not turn
and leave me a part of you
so if i can't hold onto you
it would kill the rest of me.
if i can't stay where i am
please don't cry for me.

essential
*broken promises and one's fear
cannot be known without her tears
she cries and bleeds for the time before.
she pleads in time when he's at her door.
she loves him like the world and so.
only to see he doesn't know.
if she can take the time to feel.
then tell him her love is real.
she needs you now, she'll do her best.
to take you here and lie at rest.
hold you there and never let go.
i wish i could say i love you so.
i'd kill the world to bring you home.
never leave you there alone.*

accomplished
i'm an angel. i've given my time. i'm your savior. soon we'll be entwined. given the breath, i'd hold you dear. i'll give you me. bring on the fear. i love you now. and forever more. promise me you'll never walk out this door. close your eyes. begin to dream. when you wake. i will be me.

unwanted
i don't know how to make you see.
all you've done to me.
it's really torn me down.
i don't know what to say.
you always get your way
you don't want me around.

vacant
sunlight shines through broken trees.
comfort fills the air of silence so deep.
windblown hair, and frozen smiles light the fiery of desire.
a kiss of passion so full of fear, tells the story when he holds you near.
a dream left broken and a mind of pain can only read her tears that stain.
satan's touch and lighted torch suddenly fall within the storm.
he runs to think with shattered grin and brings the hand he holds with sin.
listen my child at what you feel. he tells you now that nothing's real.
shattered thoughts and vacant eyes, i told you never to say goodbye.

mistaken
twisted fingers of hope remains.|to light the mask within their dain.|quietly sneak upon and about.|wipe away that precious pout.|hold the lies of tethered souls.|fear the never ending holes.|she speaks with pain and riddled tongue.|she holds the life before it's begun.|brew the world and other's too.|tell the spell of that you do.|

never
you've got a voice of fear and hand of stone. still i wish i could stay alone. i say i'm sorry, i know you hear. tell me, my friend, do you still fear? i love you and i'll always stay. i never want us to fade away.

salvation
she says she's in love with the man she used to know. you tell her you care for her, but that don't make it so. she says the world is in your eyes, just tell her you love her too. then she'll make the pain of time disappear with everything you do. just hold her tight and whisper things to make her feel proud. tell the words she loves to hear, just only not so loud.

unbreakable
you've been there...though only inside of me..when i lost all hope..you believed in me...i saw you once..though only in a glimpse...but still i can't forget...what you told me hence...said you'd always stay...you made it a promise...never to lead astray...to tend to my wish...since then you've proven so well...that time is a broken glass...yet always half-filled...the cracks begin clash...i've been there...through sickness and health...i know i said i loved you...maybe it's what i felt...but the love back is what i really need..not to be wilted...not to fight in plead..i felt so stupid..how could i let you...how come i cried...did you think i was unbreakable...is that why you lied...you know i gave you love...you know i gave you pain...but does everything must...all end in heartache?

if you can't
open up to me
for i cannot see through
open up to me
let me find the real you
you gave me love
you gave me all
but i never thought
i'd begin to fall
now i have
and i can't arise
fallen so deep
you know i've tried
pull me up again
show me why i'm here
be there til the end
just hold me near
tell me the words
say i love you
don't let me hurt
i still need you
open up to me
tell me what you feel
open up to me
suddenly, nothing's real
but if you can't
please tell me so
if you won't love me
then let me go

if you could...if you did
if you could take me in your arms, forever
i will not bother, or weigh you down
if you could hold me there, us be together
i will not falter, i'll stay around
if you could love me with everything
i will not show hate, or push you aside
if you could keep me with the hope you bring
i'll promise you the rest of my life
if you could say we'll never end or break
i will not protest, or blockade my heart
if you could give your fears and your pain
i will not hurt you, or tear you apart
if you could see all you've done for me
i will show you more, and my love will stay
if you could believe i'll never leave
i will hold you and keep you safe
if you did ask to take my hand for life
i would be honest, i'd stay true
if you did place the date and time
i would follow, i'd say i do
but
if we begin to break and start to fall
i'd give my best, i'll never flee
if we couldn't get through, we'd lose it all
i'd try to keep you, try to make you see
that
if you did go, leave my heart torn
i would still cry, not beg you to stay
if you did leave,you'll never mourn
i would still wonder why you'd treat me this way
if you did stop your love for me
could i ask you, would you listen?
if you did not feel the same as me
does my love for you have to end?

9/11
children crying
where could they be?
people dying
it's on tv
beneath the rubble
it's my family
they're in trouble
what happens to me?
firemen come
we need help
pray it done
in God, we knelt
on that day
what a tragedy
all that pain
it's so easy to see
we come together
in a nation of unity
we'll stay forever
in this community
the world went crazy
what do we do?
in all this frenzy
we'll make it through
so take my hand
and may Justice for all
united we stand
divided we fall