I look in my heart and i see
Nohting but black where love should be
I know i love her, and always will
But how can i love when my brain says kill
Rage is all i feel within
Like the black of night, it has always been
It is only myself i truely hate
Maybe to die now is my fate
Suicide is something i consider
I wish I knew Why i was so bitter
I hate this world, and i hate my life
My only saviours are my kids and my wife
Without them I would already be dead
Because i would put a bullet in my fucking head
Because of them I am still alive
For them I will continue to strive
