My Friends

In life we are often times taken advantage of in one way or another. We often take advantage of others
weather we mean to or not, its just a part of life. I have been very lucky to have some pretty good friends
in my life.

Friends Not meaning those that are there to rate you once a week or pimp you out for some fubuxs.
Friends meaning those that are there with you threw the good times and the bad. Those that Pick up the
phone or send you a text message when they KNOW you are having a bad day.

I am very lucky I have some of the best people as my friends and I'd like to achkoweldge them here. 

I have to be the 1st and admitt that sometimes my judgement gets clouded, and I forgive alott. I forgive sometimes too much the wrongs that are done to me, but that's just me and I never want to stop being myself, its what makes me ME.

this list is by no means done its going to take me a bit to add those people that mean alott to me so just bare with me!

 Mah karizma.....This one is more complex than all the rest....and Keep in mind its all a work in progress. karizma and I have been friends a few years. As close as close can be for 2 friends. Granted at times our judgement would get clouded and we'd turn, well stupid but in all the time that we have been friends we've had ups and alott of downs but I am not the kind of person to turn my back on someone I call a friend no matter how I have been screwed over by them or because of them. Yes karizma and I have had alott of problems and he as I have both apoligized for whatever part we played in whatever arguments we have had. Shit happends but its how you handle it and move on from it that really tests the bonds of Friendship. 

Ok next I guess is Tre We have not been friends for too long but Tre is always there to listen when I am having a bad day hell he is always there when i'm having a good day too :p  I could not ask for a better friend It really means alot to me that you have choosen to be by my side eventho there's been alot of BS going around It means alott to me that you are the kind of man you are! Thank you for listening to me go on and on about random BS even when sometimes I make you want to smack me! lol and yes I AM Freeee.... Just saying 

Ok next is my other Candy. This girl is like a little sister to me. She has been there with me threw alott and has always tried to make me feel better. I can not even begin to put it into words what your unconditional support and love has meant to me. I feel very honored to have you in my life eventho your so far away one day I promise I am going to go up and see you! I hope that our friendship just gets better and stronger in time. Thank you candy for always supporting me and beleaving in me when I Didn't and couldn't beleave in myself!

 ENQUIRING MINDS WANT TO KNOW

WELL WE KEEP GETTING ASKED WHERE WE ARE AND WHY WE ARE NOT AROUND AS MUCH ANYMORE.THE SIMPLE FACT IS KARIZMA AND I HAVE BEEN LIVING TOGETHER FOR ALMOST 3 MONTHS NOW. WE ARE CONCENTRATING ON OUR REAL LIVES INSTEAD OF ONLINE STUFF. SHOULD MAKE SENSE RIGHT???

NOW THAT WE ARE LIVING TOGETHER WE DON'T REALLY NEED TO BE ON HERE AS MUCH ANYMORE. GRANTED WE DO LIKE TO COME IN TO CHECK IN WITH OUR FRIENDS AND WHAT NOT.

NOW TO CLEAR UP A FEW THINGS. YES THERE ARE COUNTLESS MUMMS THAT HAVE BEEN POSTED IN THE LAST YEAR FROM A 3RD PARTY BRINGING PRIVATE BUSINESS FOR ALL OF FUBAR TO SEE HEY MORE POWER TO YA IF YOU NEED TO AIR ALLLL THE DIRTY LAUNDRY. BUT UMM NOT TO BE MEAN BUT I MEAN ITS BEEN A YEAR ISN'T IT TIME TO JUST MOVE ON?

SOMETIMES RELATIONSHIPS DON'T WORK OUT AND ITS BEST TO GO SEPARATE WAYS BUT TO CONTINUE TO GO ON AND ON ABOUT IT AFTER A YEAR MAKES YA LOOK WELL UMM UNHAPPY?

NOW AS I STATED BEFORE, SOME MUMMS HAVE BEEN POSTED AND WELL I'VE BEEN BROUGHT INTO IT BECAUSE WELL OBVIOUS REASONS I'M NOW THE NEW LADY IN KARIZMA'S LIFE.  AND TO MAKE ONE THING PERFECTLY CLEAR THIS BLOG IS NOT ABOUT BASHING ANYMORE. THIS BLOG IS ABOUT SETTING SOME THINGS STRAIGHT SINCE WE ARE BOTH BLOCKED FROM POSTING ON 3RD PARTIES MUMMS ETC ETC.

I'VE BEEN MADE FUN OF BECAUSE I TAKE CARE OF MY DISABLED MOTHER 24/7 AND BECAUSE I GET PAID BY AN AGENCY FOR TAKING CARE OF HER.

I TAKE CARE OF MY MOM AND THE PROBLEM WITH THAT IS WHAT?? I MEAN AT LEAST I MAKE SURE SHE IS TAKEN CARE OF INSTEAD OF DUMPING HER IN SOME RETIREMENT HOME OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT WHERE AT TIMES THEY ARE NOT TREATED WELL AT ALL. NO ONE CAN TREAT MY MOM BETTER OR GIVE HER THE CARE THAT SHE NEEDS BETTER THAN I CAN AND I AM NOT ASHAMED FOR TAKING CARE OF HER.

LETS SEE I'VE BEEN CALLED A SKANK, HO, A HOME WRECKER AND A FEW OTHER THINGS....

1 I AM NOT A SKANK :) BUT IF IT MAKES YA FEEL BETTER TO CALL ME ONE WELL ITS KINDA SAD SHOWS YOUR INSECURITIES 

2 I WRECKED NO ONES HOME. BLAMING ME FOR YOUR FAILIRS IS YOUR BIG FAIL NOT MINE. IF IT DIDN'T WORK IT HAD NOTHING TO DO WITH ME. BUT IF YOU BLAME ME, WELL I GUESS THANK YOU FOR GIVING ME THAT MUCH POWER AND INFLUENCE UMMM THAT DOESN'T SPEAK VERY HIGHLY OF YOURSELF I GUESS.

3 I STOLE NO ONES MAN/BABY DADDY BUT IF IT MAKES YOU SLEEP BETTER AT NIGHT TO MAKE YOURSELF THINK THAT WELL GO RIGHT AHEAD.

4 NO MATTER HOW MUCH YOU TRY TO CONVINCE YOURSELF THAT I AM THE REASON HE WANTS NOTHING TO DO WITH YOU OR ANYTHING HAVING TO DO WITH YOU INCLUDING AN INNOCENT CHILD IT IS NOT BECAUSE OF ME BUT BECAUSE OF YOU AND YOUR OWN ACTIONS. I HAVE ZERO TO DO WITH HIS DISSENSIONS AS TO WHAT TO DO IN THAT SITUATION THAT IS ALL YOU AND YOUR ACTIONS THE CONSTANT HARASSMENT THREW TEXT MESSAGES/EMAILS AND ON FUBAR, MAYBE IF YOU HAD HANDLED IT LIKE AN ADULT HE WOULD HAVE CHOSEN TO BE INVOLVED INSTEAD OF RUNNING FAR FAR FAR AWAY FROM YOU.

MY LIFE IS NOT PEACHES AND ROSES. I TAKE CARE OF MY MOM AND I WONT APOLOGIZE FOR IT THAT ITSELF IS A HARD ASS JOB TO DO.

NOW UM WE KEEP GETTING INSULTED THAT WE ARE LIVING OFF THE GOVERNMENT AND WE ARE COLLECTING THIS AND THAT BLAH BLAH BLAH. ALL I HAVE TO SAY ABOUT THAT IS, PEOPLE WHO LIVE IN GLASS HOUSES SHOULDN'T THROW STONES.

THESE MUMMS/STATUSES AND EVEN HARASSMENT ON FUBAR AND IN FUBAR LOUNGES IS JUST DOWN RIGHT FUNNY AT TIMES BUT MOSTLY ITS JUST DOWN RIGHT SAD.  HAVE YOU TAKEN A LOOK AT YOURSELF? I DON'T THINK SO BECAUSE YOU KEEP THROWING STONES YET YOU LIVE AN A GLASS HOUSE AND THE GLASS IS VERY VERY THIN....

WE GET ACCUSED OF LIVING OFF THE GOVERNMENT YET WE ARE NOT THE ONES CLAIMING ON FEDERAL DOCUMENTS THAT WE ARE UNEMPLOYED. WE ARE NOT THE ONES CLAIMING ON FEDERAL DOCUMENTS THAT OUR EX'S HAVE BEEN SUPPORTING US FOR OVER A YEAR. (looks at the documents to make sure thats what it says) SO HOW DARE YOU PASS JUDGEMENT ON US WHEN YOU POINT THE FINGER AT US, MAYBE YOU SHOULD START BY LOOKING AT YOURSELF AND WORRY ABOUT YOU INSTEAD OF WORRYING ABOUT US AND WHAT WE HAVE OR DON'T HAVE. YOU ARE JUST MAKING YOURSELF LOOK LIKE A JEALOUS WOMAN. AND YES WE ALL KNOW YOU WILL SAY I HAVE NOTHING TO BE JEALOUS ABOUT I AM HAPPY YADDA YADDA.

IF YOU WERE TRULY HAPPY LIKE YOU CLAIM THEN WHY CAN'T YOU STOP WITH THE DRAMA AND STOP AIRING OUT ALL THE PRIVATE BUSINESS. DO YOU NEEEEEED ATTENTION THAT BADLY?

WITH THAT SAID HOW CAN ANYONE IN THAT PREDICAMENT THROW STONES AT US?

ALL WE ARE GUILTY? OF IS FINALLY REALIZING WE WERE BETTER AS MORE THAN JUST FRIENDS AND WE ARE LIVING LIFE TOGETHER AS BEST AS WE CAN ENJOYING EVERY MINUTE AND LIVING ONE DAY AT A TIME. WE DON'T HAVE SLEEPLESS NIGHTS. WE TRY NOT TO LET THINGS GET TO US BUT HEY AFTER ALL WE ARE ONLY HUMAN. 

IF IT MAKES US BAD PEOPLE TO BE WITH EACH OTHER AND TO BE HAPPY WELL THEN I GUESS WE ARE BAD TO THE CORE. I HAVEN'T SEEN HIM SMILE SO MUCH IN A VERY LONG TIME AND NOW A DAYS 90% OF THE TIME HE IS SMILING. I THINK THAT HAS SOMETHING TO DO WITH THE PERSON BEING HAPPY RIGHT?

ANYWAY LIKE I SAID THIS WAS JUST A BLOG TO SET SOME THINGS STRAIGHT. IN THE END EVERYONE MAKES UP THERE OWN MIND. YOU BELEAVE WHAT YOU WANT TO. WE ARE HAPPY AND THAT IS ALL THAT REALLY MATTERS. 

MUCH LOVE TO EVERYONE WE DO MISS YOU GUYS BUT REAL LIFE IS A LITTLE MORE IMPORTANT THESE DAYS. WE HOPE EVERYONE IS DOING WELL!!