Saxxy PLZ sign my Guest Map's blog: "Introduction"

Today I introduced myself to my own feelings. I'd rather regret the things I've done, than the ones I never did. So if you truly want something, you will never know unless you go after it! Now I sit here waiting patiently and wipe away a tear, wishing that your vision would suddenly appear. Hoping you'd say "Hello Darling?" and great me with a smile, come sit beside me and chat with me a while. It's hard for me to understand just what I'm doing here, What happened to my lover that used to say he cared. How come I've been abandoned like some old worn out shoe, what crime had I committed what bad thing did I do? It's true I have two daughters and shelter from the rain, But there's precious little else to ease my lonliness and pain. I'm only one of many that ponder through the day, and find the price of loving is much to high to pay. That picture could be quickly changed if you would spend, a little extra time paying attention to me not just as a friend. I've been shut away from all the things that once I held so dear, and now I need to be reminded that you want me to be near. Can you take me by the hand and say "Hello Darling" with a smile? Can you sit with me and love me for just a little while? I was the one person you loved but didn't take the time to appreciate, I loved you back, but it didn't matter. You always wanted to do things your way - stubborn, yet I did everything I could to make you happy - my heart was left to shatter. You never noticed all I did, you never paid attention, you neglected to see what I needed and wanted. You took me for granted and played with my emotions, my heart was so broken and overwhelemed I was oh so taunted. I wanted to see you look at me, but I couldn´t see your face. I wanted to walk forever with you, but I couldn´t keep your pace. I wanted to have you by my side, but I couldn´t find you there. I wanted to hold your heart forever, but I knew you didn't care. That stubborn streak of yours kept you at a distance, the smallest spark can either warm the heart or leave you with a frown. You pushed me away and refused to let me in, And now...that spark...has burned the house down. Today I introduced myself to my own feelings and what we think or what we believe is, in the end - of little consequence. The only thing of consequence is what we actually do. Sharyn~ 19Jun06

Today I introduced myself to my own feelings. I realized it's much better to be apart and wish we were together than to be together and wish you were apart. I realized we conserve only what we love. We love only what we understand. We understand only what we were taught. I realized that of all the places in the world I enjoy - I enjoy being in your arms most. I realized I'd rather be kissing you instead of missing you. The more I know you, I realize what a complex person you are. Private thoughts - hidden dreams - Know that I will always care and search out who you are for I truly love what I have found. I realize all of this brings together a rare delight, being together, richer rapport, deeper laughter, truer understanding, and growning compatible. Today I realized - I walked away - it was all just a dream. Sharyn~ 07Jun06

Today I introduced myself to my own feelings. I closed my eyes so I didn't have to see, but I can never close my heart to the things I try not to feel or be. Love isn't about the words we say, and sometimes not even the actions we take, the things we do, or the hearts we break. Love is about people who can look at each other and just know. No words need to be spoken or actions need to be taken. It's about how we connect and stand side by side where ever we go. Open ones' mind to the beauty it is, feel free with your spirit - let love in. Don't be afraid to take the first step toward this wonderful journey, Enlighten your soul and grow deeper in love while learning more about you. I believe in a system of checks and ballances best represented by karma or more broadly viewed as the universal principle of cause and effect. The conquest of karma lies in intelligent action and dispassionate reaction. Today I introduced myself to my own feelings. I opened my eyes and now I can see clearer... I realized too, that a real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out on you. Sharyn~ 12May06

Hi First I want to say I write a lot when I have something to say and my emotions are on the line. All of these blogs are on MySpace so they are all cut and paste from there. I hope you enjoy my inner thoughts, feelings, words, and where I am going...so here goes...