hotrodcowgurl's blog: "Niki"

Never done one of these before but I'm bored so what they hey........ I'm Niki, single mom of 4, 1 living at home on a permanant basis older 3 off an on as the mood strikes them and or is home on leave from the military. I work 6 days a week 12 hour days on nights so that's 5pm-5am its murder for the dating scene. Murder as in non-exsitent for me. Do I like it hell no. but a gils gotta do what a girls gotta do. There isn't exactly a line of men waiting to sweep me off my feet that's for damn sure. Beside that what's a girl gotta do to be datable and worthy of ones time....... example: I have been talkin to a guy on here for about 3 months texted him everyday and half the time get no reply, but when he did oh the things he would say ..be still my heart. But all to no avail I've tried at different times to meet even offered to drive the 4 hours between us only to hear excuse after excuse he's working' he's sick' his mom is sick ' his son' is sick so on and so forth. Then I log in stop by his page to show some love and find that another posted on his wall about how "she can't wait to be in his arms"..... Well alrighty then go for it. All I want to know is why play these twisted mind games and fuck with somebody's emotions like that. Am I mad? YES I'm mad as hell. Am I hurt? If I'm being honest which of course is the only way to be YES I AM. I am 39 years old not 16 the time for games is over, I want to find a man that is loyal, honest, funny, and spontanious someone that loves animals ( cause if I find a stray most likely I'm bringing it home till I find its owner or find it a new one js) Someone who's ok with the fact I cant have more kids ( for medical reasons had to have a full hysterectomy) Someone that's understanding. My life thus far hasnt been the greatest, but I'm still here living on my 2 feet and making the best of it the only way I know how. The grammar in this is probably atrocious but I never was a English major and I'm by far perfect but I'm perfect at being me