Sometimes we build walls around our heart at one point or another in our life. for whatever the reasons...it's how some of us survive. It's the only way we know how to deal with pain, loss or trauma...and whatever else life may throw our way. Sometimes we build that wall so high..that we can't even see beyond it. we work so hard to keep others out...and in the process, let all the good things go to waste. maybe not intentionally...but that's what happens when the wall is so far up there.
It's because of this wall that we are unable to sometimes move on in our life. The fear of the past repeating itself keeps us from ever letting anyone in. I mean, sure we take the wall down a notch or two...but never all the way. It's a security feature that's always set on "automatic"..ready to go up at the first sign of danger. Once that happens...everything else shuts down.
The thing is...you can't continue to live your life in fear of the past. Cause then you're really not living at all. We become a prisoner of our own fears. And fear controls your life...your relationship...and you. Do you rally want to let fear control you...or would you rather control fear?! No one says you have to take your wall down... to take it down would leave you vunlerable, and you never want to be too vulnerable. But try opening up sometimes...and let someone in..and you'll see that there's still some good out there...if you have fait and just believe. Things won't always be easy...and sometimes you might even get hurt again...but with each fallen step, you get stronger and wiser along the way. What's the point of living...if you're going to live in fear?! Hell I ain't no expert on life or even when it comes to matters of the heart...but I let my heart lead the way for me. and if somewhere along the line i end up getting hurt...I'll deal with it...let my heart mourn, then pick up the pieces and move on.
Life is to fucken short to stay in the corner. I'd rather be out there and quite frankly..sometimes I'd rather be vulnerable. Because it's only then can you really live for the moment...live for today, cause hell...tomorrow may never come and today... maybe all that we have!
Thought for the day:
"Your heart is never truely open...unless it's been broken"
