INXS421's blog: "Poetry and Thoughts"

Sitting here during a spring storm, My heart chilled to the core. Wondering when it will end, Alone never more. Years ago, she walked away, Alone to this very day. A special someone walks into my life, I must not let her see this pain and heart ache. A warm smile, a gentle kiss, Many nights filled with filled with passion. Heart thawing, heart ache leaving. Does she know that she has melted my soul. Occasionally we meet, touching and sharing, Passions sweet taste, too many days apart. This spring storm now seems not so cold and dreary, For she is my friend, now and always. by INXS421 04/14/07

I am caught in glow of your smile, how it is slow and loving, It always seems to stretch completely through your face. The way your hair curls around that beautiful face, Or frames those soft eyes when you leave it straight. The twinkle of quiet mischief in your blue eyes, That always remind me of places I have never been. The feel of your warm hand in mine, Let’s me know that I am not alone. The sound of your laughter, That rings in my ears when my thoughts turn to you. It's that I cannot stop thinking about your lips on mine, Since that day we met and shared our first kiss. Your face fits perfectly into a reoccurring dream I have, Though I am older then you and considerably less then you deserve. I am, none the less, Your friend forever. by INXS421 04/05/07

When I think of you I sit here and smile, You have done so much for me though you may not know. The way you came into my life, In a chat room, no one would believe it. A few cute little remarks, some funny private messages, They made my sit here in my loneliness and smile. As the days and weeks went by we talked more and more, Then we started talking on the phone, loneliness no longer. A weekend spent together, then another came along, You have no idea what you have done for me, do you? An opportunity has come along, there just might be a chance, For me to live in a place where only time and not miles keep us apart. Yes, I want this job to come through, how could I not, It would mean I would be closer to the one who has a place in my heart. Now when I think of you, and the possibility of being so much nearer, Maybe we can spend a little more time with each other. I will always think of you in ways that make me smile, You have driven the loneliness from a place I was sure it would always remain. What the future may hold, I don’t have any plans, Just to get a chance to spend more time holding your hand. by INXS421 04/08/07

I have kept my heart locked away, To keep it safe from the pain and hurt. The walls I built were thick and high, For this world had been so cruel. When she walked out that day, Alone and afraid I sat there and cried. What was to become of me, how would I go on, I felt so alone I wanted to just leave. A world that was cruel really had no need of me, Silly thoughts yes I know this is true. For months I survived, Just living my life, alone and afraid. This I have learned since that day long ago, Walls are not meant to stand forever. For there always comes a day be it months or years away, That one will come along to shatter the walls that I have made. by INXS421 04/03/07

They say that those who have loved and lost, Know that it comes with a cost. When I told you that I Love You, The happiness in your voice told me you knew it was true. Though the years may come and go, I know my love for you will continue to grow. There are days that will be a test, Those of us who have loved and lost know this best. by INXS421 03/28/07

There have been days, My heart has sung a song of joy. There have been days filled with sadness, Those that I love have gone away. Happiness at times, Seems like such a passing thing. Finding happiness and love, They always appear when we least expect it. Since that day I met someone special, My heart has been hers just for the asking. At the first meeting, My heart was hers, though I tried not to show it. If there comes a day, My heart is taken to the final level. Forever will she know, My heart beats strong and true for her. What we share now, The friendship, joy and love are more than I had hoped for. by INXS421 04/05/07

I know I am not a rich man, not in material things that is, But what I am rich in is the love I have to give. My heart and love are yours for the taking, Maybe one day you will claim that which is already yours. Now is not the time for this I am well aware, Too long trapped in a box not of your making. There is so much of the life and living for you to see, Now is the time to experience all you have missed. This dream I have, of the two of us sharing love, life and joy, You cannot fault a guy for such a pleasant dream. As friends together we share so many things though it may be miles apart, Those miles mean nothing since you have captured my heart. I know that the friendship and love that we share will sustain me, For this Pleasant Dream will always remain within. by INXS421 04/01/07

Yes my heart is aching, how much you will never know, If you could only know how much I love you and want to see it grow. I understand it may take years, And maybe even some tears. I will always support you in all the choices you make, Even though some of them may make my heart ache. For the dream of that day that this world and our hearts will know, It is now safe to let our love grow. Even though I have lost so much in my life and dreaded each day, That all changed the day I met you, I would have it no other way. by INXS421 03/30/07

There is this place deep within my soul, That knows how love should feel. A place that has been closed and dark for so long, That I thought it would never see the light of day. Then one day as I sat reading the people in chat, Watching them talk and laugh. This Lady started talking to me, teasing me, A shower grope, little cute remarks, they sure made me smile. I thought to myself that she is so cute and funny, Then a link to a website was shared. I was struck by hers eyes how beautiful they are, They seemed to look right into my soul. A few days go by as we talk each day, Does she know that she has cracked the door I have shut on my soul? If she could only see the smile on my face when I see her logon, Could she know that she has entered my soul? That place I have kept locked and dark for so long, Has now seen some light, can it really be true? A phone number shared, long conversation in the night, This place in my soul, no longer seems so dark. She has somehow brought light into a place I long thought would be dark, Just by sharing that special place in her heart. by INXS421 04/04/07

Life has taught me many things, But the one that is never easiest to handle is loss. One must Love Large. No matter the cost. I have know a several small loves in my life, These are some good memories to have. But of the few Large Loves I have had, My Love for you has been strongest. How this happened in such a short time I do not understand. Please don’t ask me to try and explain why this is so, Even though I have thought long and hard, I cannot explain it. I hope one day you will understand my love for you. Until then, I am now and forever will be your friend. by INXS421 03/30/07