KinkQueen Bella Deviance's blog: "Poetry By Kiera Lathan"

Feeling sad and feeling blue,
Feeling so distant, so far from you.
Feeling like I'm falling fast,
Feeling like this feeling will always last.

Wrought with worry and with fear,
Wishing I was closer or you were near.
I don't want a repeat of yesterday,
Feeling oblivious to the words you say.

The images run rampant through my brain,
So many and frequent, making me insane.
I keep seeing you running away,
With that beautiful girl of yesterday.

I don't feel how you say,
Calling me beautiful, just like the girl of yesterday.
I don't feel worthy of your grace,
I don't feel the love of your place.

I ache and I sob, I don't know why,
I just want to run away and hide.
If only you saw the tears on my face,
Maybe you would help my lonely place.

I'm so scared of losing you again,
My heart aches and I fear it so.
I don't want to hear it,
And I don't want to know.

:(

"Silouetted Night"

by Kiera Rose Lathan [ Do not steal/use/take without permission!]

I was sitting,
Waiting.
Pressed against the falling day,
I was sitting,
Waiting.
As stars shrouded me,
Veiled me in their love,
I was still there,
Waiting.
My head on my knees,
I watched them twinkle,
I watched them dance,
I was there,
Waiting.
I watched the moon rise,
I watched the brilliance glow,
But I sit untouched,
Only by celestial friends.
I look, and against the darkness,
A tree, where I sat and thought.
I hadn't visited in a while, so I'd go.
I climbed into my tree,
And sat there, smiling.
Breathing in fresh air, being alive once again.
I thought I died,
I was only in a coma and needed to wake up.
Time cannot erase what has been done,
But that is behind me now, just as the day was,
While I sat in my tree,
Unceaselessly smiling.
I danced beneath the streetlight,
A waltz, hummed to a quiet tune of my voice.
One-two-three, one-two-three...
We spun on the street, laughing.
I was no longer waiting, or alone.
Though I still feel some twinge of hurt,
Some angst of past,
I smile because I have a future.
Come what may, but I'll take it day by day.
And finally I might see,
Where I'll finally be.
Never have I seen such a beautiful sight,
As two bodies dancing in the moonlit night.

"This Feeling That I Have" [2006, Written For My Future Husband, Ian]

by Kiera Rose Lathan [Don't Use/Steal/Take/Be A Douche]

From tears and torment,
To smiles and laughter...
This is what I love.

I never thought that someone could just come into my life,
Look at me and smile,
And then make me feel positive, like there's hope left.

I don't want to rush this,
I just want to trust this..
This feeling that I have.

For a moment, I was a wasted void,
Ambling down the railroads of life,
Trying to find my train to happiness.
It startled me, the train.
Out of nowhere, it came for me.
I grabbed on tight,
And watched my horizon bloom.

Underneath the sparkling stars,
Looking into your glittering eyes,
I just know that I'm safe.
And this comfort I have not yet felt before,
Is taking me by suprise.

I don't want to rush this,
I just want to trust this..
This feeling that I have.

Many times have I been betrayed,
Berated and delayed.
I have just sewn the wounds,
Scared to enjoy life again.
But you've given me a sense of confidence,
And I can see your honesty in your smile.

The simplest thing can make me laugh,
And the smallest remark can make me smile,
And all of a sudden, I feel like I'm on air,
Like no one can touch me.

When you're beside me, there's really no hiding,
My pain diminishes and my sadness disappears.
I just want to try this, I don't want to deny this.
I want this chance.

I don't want to rush this,
I just want to trust this..
This feeling that I have.

"One In The Same" [A Poem Of Love For My Husband, Ian]

by Kiera Rose Lathan [DO NOT TAKE/USE/STEAL Without Permission!]

As I sit here smiling,
And think of what I've got,
I think random things,
And of course, there is a lot.

But the thing that makes me smile,
And the thing that makes me weak,
Are truly one in the same,
And I've ceased to continue to seek.

For when I'm by your side,
I'm breathless yet I breathe,
And when it's time to part,
I never want to leave.

My hand, so small in yours,
Clenched warm and tight,
Finally feel protection,
And feel safe throughout the night.

I can lay there in silence,
And never say a thing,
For calm and happiness,
Are the feelings that you bring.

Though our marriage is young,
As are we, too..
Honestly, I've got to say,
I'm the happiest when I'm with you.

"Uncertain Destiny"

by Kiera Rose Lathan [Do Not Use/Steal/Take Without Permission!]

"Charade" [Prose That No One Knows]

by Kiera Rose Lathan [Do Not Copy/Use/Steal/Ect Without Permission!]

Elegant.
Intelligent.
Quiet.
Introverted.

Hiding so the rest of the world can't see.

Loud.
Obnoxious.
Ridiculous.
Ludicrous.

How the world always sees me.

I'm sick of this charade.

I wish you knew.
I wish you knew.

Couldn't hear the words,
Couldn't feel the hate,
Couldn't bear the fate,
Couldn't feel.. at all.

I wish you could see through my eyes.
Look in that mirror,
And not be dismayed.

I'm waving my white flag.
I give up.
Finally, last breath,
And sigh.

Rest assured,
My heart still beats in frailty,
Broken by all the bats,
Shattered with the barbed wire.

I wish you could think my thoughts,
Feel the world through my fingers,
Then maybe..
You would understand what it is...

To be me.

I make life look effortless.

But behind the laughter and the smiles,
The jokes and the goofiness,
I'm silent.

And nobody would know.

I guess it's just the upset talking.
But i'm sick of it screaming in my ear.
I need a release..
And what better than poetry.

Maybe this is all some sick effort to see who actually reads these things.

14 hours separated from the world,
Nothing I want to see more than you,
But the only thing close enough..
Is my dreams.

And you're always smiling.
The way I remember you.
Happy.

"Pieces from my heart and we're never far apart"

I walk alone.

I wait for someone to catch up,
Wait up,
Slow up.

I still walk alone.

Am I strong enough for this world?
I'm strong enough for mine.

For what I've been through,
The half you have no idea,
And the other seems so simple,
You're lying to yourself.

Stop and breathe.

Look outside and adore the moon.
The eclipse hasn't ended.
It has merely moved on.

Wish upon a star... to take me so far.

To where?
Anywhere.

"Rest The Insomniacs" [A Poem Of Resolve]

by Kiera Rose Lathan [Do Not Steal/Use/Ect Without Permission!]

Rest the insomniacs,
Challenge the slayer,
Lead the maniacs,
Swallow the eternal fire.

And still I find myself crying for your embrace.

For my bloodstains upon your walls,
Repeatedly read and misunderstood.
Keep steadfast in your train,
As thoughts of doubt overwhelm you.

Ficticious, as though the rain pours,
Exercise my love for one alone.
Believe what you will,
Life shall change still.

Don't assume to know what is in my mind,
From time to time,
You don't know this from that,
And that is a cold hard fact.

You can't understand,
You can't even know,
What roams through my head,
Will never be so.

You think I yearn.
You must be mistaken,
For I am happy in love,
Happily and serenely taken.

Never was he mine,
Never shall he be,
I shall not want,
He's just not for me.

Say what you will,
Do what you please,
Your jealousy and doubt,
Will bring you to your knees.

Rest the insomniacs,
Challenge the slayer,
Lead the maniacs,
Live and let live.