Suicide
I lay awake and stare
looking out nothing there
My minds eye searching
I try to fool myself into believing
I`m wanted, I belong
The sun rises to another day
What is right or wrong I hear myself say
I won`t let go, I`m to proud
Eyes are blind covered by a shroud
As I drift away my body dies
Gone is all that I despise
I`m the one who carry`s on
All forgotten now I`m gone
Hiding the hate that burns inside
Which only fuelled my selfish pride
Free me from my dialy chore
Grant me death for ever more
No time to grieve
Just let me leave
Let me go, I`m not wanted anymore
I`m held captive with shadows on the pavement
Losing all my reasons, Only I hold the key
I don`t care I want to leave
Bring death upon me
My heart is so heavy my chest it does heave
I`m unforgiven in this world I believe
To share the thoughts and all the lies
Making us hate and despise
I`ve had enough I want to go
I got no more, got nothing to show
I`m not here.........................................
Paul E Davies (FluffyBuns 2001)
