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What are you waiting for?
Sometimes we never really know what is missing in our lives, until we stop living them.
I suppose that missing just one person can cause us to just stop living. Especially, when they aren't
there anymore. We try and block all others from touching our hearts in the same place they lived.
When in reality what we should be doing is letting that little spot brighten everyone we touch,
enhance the Love we have, share the little spot with the ones we Love now or are wanting to have
Love us as we are after them. Today I was crying because I watched a movie I had seen before, but
never really let the meaning of the emotions touch me or open that little place in this heart.
Sometimes I feel this old heart is just that, old. But, it isn't old. It is as young as I wish it to be.
Maybe, I just didn't think I was worthy of anyone else Loving me that much.
Could that be the truth of what I was doing??
Destroying myself because I felt I do not deserve to be happy and Loved again??
OK, sometimes we're our own worst enemy, our own worst critic.
We need a kick in the ass, a jump start to our heart.
Well I am considering this day my kick, my jump start,
to allow the one person that has asked to know me.
That single woman willing to give a chance on me, I think it is time for a real
Love to grab me again, give me a shake and say, "Wake up fool!!!"
We get one chance at this life, but we are given this chance many times over.
Yes, I believe that we live many times, I am glad I can see all of mine, sometimes
we make the same foolish mistakes live after life. Yes, most of us never believe,
believe that we have had more than one life. Yes, stop and think, think about it.
How in the world do you, really, know all those things you know.
We were born innocent, or so they tell us. I think we stop believing in the things we see
the reality we know to be there. Like Love. We stop believing, we stop caring,
we stop really Loving. I did. I thought I had my heart open to Love.
Boy, was I wrong. We cannot fully Love anyone, until we we are open all the way.
Yes even that little part we cut off from others, so they cannot see our hurt. The pain of what was.
It is strange you never realize that such a small insignificant place is so important.
Important in Living, Loving and Life. But, we are humans trying to live spiritual.
When in reality, we are Spiritual entity attempting to be in a Human existence.
And as spirit we cannot cut out a tiny part and still be spirit, remove a small part makes us human.
I look at Buddha, Taoism and Zen, they teach us we make several journeys in life to learn.
Learn to accept that the smallest of insects, to the largest mountain all have a spirit,
spirits we can learn from.
But, I see an even larger picture, an eternal, never ending tapestry.
A tapestry that can be seen if we want. It will show use the life, the death, the the beginning of
this existence and the end of all your existences.
We need to look for our thread, the threads it touches, the knots, the double threads that become
one. The Knot further from the break.
Copyright 2012
RW Fryer
