Fubar Blog Posts 2

I Dont Know What To Do
Im just going to let my feelings flow right now im depressed down and dont feel like any one wants me or im not good enough i gave a man 5 yrs of my life just for him to tear it down and tell me he could never be with me again what am i suppost to do i feel like i cant move on cause he still has my heart and wont give it back and is still hurting it everyday every moment every sec. i want to move on so bad but i feel as if i am stuck and i cant move i loved him with all my heart gave him everything he ever wanted and needed i had a few blow ups but shit who doesnt right he keeps saying i love you i love you BUT WHY DID HE LEAVE me and why cant he be with me cause he has fell out of love with me is that it or is it just cause he wants to hurt me and he wants to see me cry i feel so bad so guilty is it something i did or something i did not do or just plain out nothing to do with me at all . i feel as if i cant go a day with out him popping up in my head why cant i just move on or let hi

I Don't Need
I Don't Need I don’t need for you to say you’re sorry for what you did I need for you to show that you’ve changed I don’t need excuses, the whys or where-fores to explain your actions I need to know what plans you’ve made to resolve your excuses I don’t need promises I need action I don’t need candy and roses I need tenderness and trust I don’t need shattered dreams and broken dishes I need a future, with peace I don’t need tears and bruises I need laughter and love I don’t need to hear the words “it will never happen again” I need for it not to happen I don’t need the chaos of your violent storms I need the calm of quiet seas I don’t need the terror of a war zone I need the playfulness of a schoolyard I don’t need a calendar and stop watch to monitor my day I need freedom to come and go as I please I don’t need you looking over my shoulder I know there is no one standing there I don’t need jealousy, outrage, or distrust I need sanity, peace, quiet I don’t need

I Dont
i dont feel it anymore i think im numb to the pain i dont know it anymore i think it all feels insane. I dont cry anymore i think its all just the same. I dont hurt anymore i think its all part of ur game. I dont ask anymore wats the point in knowing ur name. i dont want it anymore cuz i end up to blame. i dont care anymore you just hurt my gentle side i dont think anymore i just leave it to be abide. i dont love anymore wats the point in no return. i dont like anymore cuz all then i feel the burn. i dont tell you anymore i hate to repeat myself over again i dont want you anymore your supposed friend.

I Dont Want To Feel This Way Any More
Forgiveness... Tonight was a very big learning experience. I have come to understand that people are who they are. What you percieve is something that you could never truely understand unless you have seen the other side of the leaf. But that doesnt make you feel any differant. Doesnt make you see any clearer. And certainly it will give you a new page to a book that you thought you had finished. Forgiving someone for hurting you is the first step in many. They are slow. They are painful and they are very dificult. Forgiving yourself should be harder but should pay big. Asking for forgiveness should be the one thing that makes your heart race and makes you feel like throwing up. make your hands shake and make your head spin. Asking for forgivness is the first step in admitting that you have done something to someone that made them feel just the same. Getting it should make you feel clean and right in only that you have taken your first step in getting back on the pat

I Dont Want To Hear It
Ok so recently there has been a few women telling me oh i can believe your single(theyre not) or I like you your sweet(too nice to date) Or im interested in you(ill never date you) thats what im getting out of all these comments(lies) that im hearing I think what im figuring out or trying to say is dont bother telling me anymore because you know what i dont want to fucking hear it.. theres nothing against anyone or to any women out there in particular, think ive just had it and would rather remain single for the rest of my life.. E

I Don't Know If I Can Post This.? If I Can't Tell Me.
I found this NOW GET UNDRESS. OK NOW START PLAYING WITH YOURSELF. BEFORE IT'S OVER YOU WILL CUM FOR ME. HOW ABOUT A NICE LONG SLIPPERY TONGUE. SLIDING UP & DOWN & IN & OUT OF YOUR SWEET JUICY PUSSY. I WOULD GET YOUR PUSSY SO WET. THEN I WOULD BREAK OUT SOME WHITE PEARL BEADS & HAVE YOU SIT UP ON MY FACE. THEN I WOULD TAKE THE PEARLS & PUT THE NECKLACE LONG WAYS IN YOUR PUSSY SLICE, & SLIDE BACK & FOURTH ACROSS YOUR HARD SWOLLEN CLIT & UP TO THE TOP OF YOUR ASS HOLE. I WOULD THEN TAKE A FAT MINI VIBE & PUT IT IN YOUR ASS. SO THAT WHEN THE PEARLS ROLE OVER IT. IT SENDS SHOCK WAVES TO YOUR CLIT. & WHEN IT GETS TO THE POINT YOUR REALLY GETTING CLOSE. I START FLICKING MY TONGUE SIDE TO SIDE. WHILE AT THE SAME TIME. TAKING THE PEARLS BACK & FOURTH. BY NOW YOUR CUMMING SO MUCH MY FACE IS SOAKED WITH YOUR CUM JUICE. & WHEN YOU THINK IT CAN'T GET ANY BETTER WITH ALL THAT GOING ON. I THEN TAKE & SUCK IN YOUR CLIT AS FAR AS I CAN. I SUCK & SUCK YOU START BUCKING WILDLY YOU CAN;T HANDLE THE TENSE

I Dont Know Anymore
MAYB IM NOT THE RELATIONSHIP TYPE.. EVERYTIME I THINK I HAVE SOMETHING GOOD I DONT.. WHY DO FEMALES ALWAYS TRY TO FUCK SHIT UP WITH UR RELATIONSHIPS DAMMIT U WOULD THINK THAT WHEN A FEMALE KNOWS THAT UR N A RELATIONSHIP THAT THEY WOULD SOME WHAT BACK THE FUCK OFF.. BUT IM GUESS IM WRONG.. IDK.. WHEN U REALLY DO CARE ABOUT SOMEONE THAT KINDA TAKES A TOLE ON U.. U END UP DOIN SHIT OR SAYIN SHIT THAT U HAVE NEVER EVEN THOUGHT ABOUT SAYIN.. I KNOW THAT IM NOT PERFECT I KNOW THIS BUT DAMMIT ALL I ASK FOR IS SOMEONE THAT IS UNDERSTANDING N NOT GOIN TO GO AROUND BELIEVING WHAT OTHER PPL ARE SAYING.. IT REALLY HURTS WHEN SOMEONE THAT U LOVE STARTS TAKEN THE WORK OF ANOTHER PERSON.. N NOT YOURS THAT REALLY TELL YOU HOW MUCH THEY REALLY CARE N TRUST YOU ... MAYB ALL MY FRIENDS ARE RIGHT.. THEIRS NO SUCH THING AS LOVE.. IT ONLY LAST FOR A SHORT PERIOD OF TIME THEN IT FADES AWAY.. I DONT EVEN THINK I BELIEVE N IT ANYMORE... BUT THEN U GOT THOSE PPL THAT TRY TO BREAK UR RELATIONSHIP

I Dont Understand.
There is so much cheating out there, and you want to know something We are not talking the little flirting here Heck we all do that . Those are smiles. What i am talking about is The other stuff the stuff that you do that you know isnt right that you know will cause tears for someone. Online...You know the girls who hit a guys page knowing that he is involved ( its all there for everyone to see) Or more so Taking it farther. There are millions of people online if they are with someone just go away. In real life why go after a taken person is it a thrill..oh wait the married person is the one who does the hitting. Then be a bigger person and walk away...It all will END IN PAIN SO you know what guys and gals. Take a step back and see how someone always gets hurt. THIS ISNT FOR ANYONE I JUST SAW THIS VIDEO TODAY AND IT MADE ME REALIZE HOW MUCH OF IT THERE IS OUT THERE AND HOW MANY TEARS THERE ARE BEING SHED OVER IT (the song is

I Don't Want To Say Good-bye
I don't want to say good-bye I wish the sun will never rise, In my arms you'd stay all night, I can see forever in your eyes, When I hold you close and tight. I wish your kisses will never end, If just for a moment time stands still, Not only my lover, but my best friend, My most treasured dreams you fulfill. I wish that our hands will never part, Stay beside me, I'll guide the way, Your the reason for my beating heart, The thought that starts and ends each day. I wish that together we will grow old, Nothing makes me smile the way you do, We'll be the greatest fairy tale ever told, I promise my love will never be untrue. I wish the sun would never rise, When we're apart I want to die, I can see forever in you're eyes, And I don't want to say good-bye.

I Dont Care
I DONT CARE WHAT ANYONE SAYS THE CONFEDERATE FLAG=RACISM If the US Flag represents Freedom, Liberty, Blah Blah Blah then the "southern" flag represents what was going on at the time it was created...SLAVERY it represents the darkest time in American History, a time when people with god complexes though they were better then other people, because of skin color, because of where they came from. the funniest part is..that the "confederate flag" isn't even the flag that represented "the south" Actually..nevermind...fly the flag....not much has changed. I challenge anyone who feels otherwise about that flag to debate me...you may win, you may lose, but we both might be entertained.

I Dont Get It
If all someone does is give give give.. put herself on the backburner to make sure other people are taking care of first be called a selfish bitch.. i am confused.. makes me feel like a failure as a wife.. i dont know what to do or think.. will it get better?

I Dont Deserve To Be Black
I am working on a new playlist.... all i can think of is the Beach Boys (old school) I need to find some thongs to go with it maybe i will make it funny and put the beach boys with gangsta rap .... yea i'd need help on that one too

I Don't Care
This says it better than I ever could!!! The lady who wrote this letter is Pam Foster of Pamela Foster and Associates in Atlanta. She's been in business since 1980 doing interior design and home planning. She recently wrote the following letter to a family member serving in Iraq....... WHAT'S ALL THE FUSS? "Are we fighting a war on terror or aren't we? Was it or was it not started by Islamic people who brought it to our shores on September 11, 2001? Were people from all over the world, mostly Americans, not brutally murdered that day, in downtown Manhattan, across the Potomac from our nation's capitol and in a field in Pennsylvania? Did nearly three thousand men, women and children die a horrible, burning or crushing death that day, or didn't they? And I'm supposed to care that a copy of the Koran was "desecrated" when an overworked American soldier kicked it or got it wet? Well, I don't. I don't care at all. I'll start caring when Osama bin Laden turns himself in and

I Don't Get It!!!
Are we headed for the days of prohibition on this site???? I mean pic prohibition! I have had, in the past two days, 2 pictures marked as NSFW that are anything but! A CARTOON of Santa's elves mooning him and just now, a beautiful personalized comment sent to me by a friend! It had less skin showing on a PICTURE, not the person who sent it, than I see everyday in school! I guess the pic gestapo is out in force...wait excuse me, more like the "KGB"! It is amazing what is being marked NSFW! Anyhow, that is my rant for now!

I Dont Like This
i am not used to this site at all! what does nsfw mean? i keep getting logged out. why do you guys send me pictures of your thing? i dont want to see that. i would appreciate it if you dont do that. Megs

I Don't Know If Anyone Will Really Read This....
I don't know if anyone will read this... or will even care to read this. At the current moment, I can't sleep, my stomach is all queasy, and I don't know what's going on anymore. Life... is... I don't know how to describe it. Life is down right crappy. I wish I knew where to begin, but I don't even know if anyone reading this will even care, or will they post something "upbeat", or "uplifting". That isn't what i need. I know what I need, but I know that I'll never be able to have that again. I know that I fucked up somewhere. I know that there is no turning back, 3 years removed from everything. If I could turn the hands of time backwards, and change it all, would I be the same person? No, I wouldn't, but then, I don't even know if I'd be happy even then.

I Dont Have 2 Work
well i dont have to work today and that is good. but i still have to be up there so i can go to a meeting today that really is going to suck too. cause i have this feeling that im going to get my ass chewed out. but oh well i can deal with that. well anyway i do have to do some work today i have to wash clothes and clean what ever mess i have. but i think i just might go back to bed instead. but we wil see on that. have a good day everyone.

I Do Not Know You Well But What I Know
I do not know you well, but what I know Enchants me, like a song sung far away. I cannot hear the words, but what they say Hangs softly on the hills where I must go. I see you furtively and note your eyes, Hazel and dreamy, your spirit half elsewhere; I note the sheen of your dark, lustrous hair And wish I knew your thoughts and shared your cries. This love brings me sweet pain, but I want more, Driven by a dream I can't control. I want the truth of you, untamed and whole; In frantic hope I haunt your open door.

I Don't Expect
I don't expect you soon to love me, Nor are my own feelings clear. Passion is the ornate entrance To a world we crave and fear. We cannot know where this will take us, Nor whether we will ride for long, But pleasure is the overture That flows into the larger song. So come with me with open mind And heart, and we the time will prove With laughter and with joy unfettered, And, perhaps, someday with love.

I Don Git It. Whut's Thu Problim??
Mich. Councilman Pushes Chicken Law Dec 2, 3:07 PM (ET) ANN ARBOR, Mich. (AP) - People who want fresh eggs should be able to keep their own hens around the house or yard, even in this college town, a city councilman said. Stephen Kunselman said a number of business people and residents support the idea and said he plans to bring a resolution before the council. Many communities allow chickens but not roosters, which can make a lot of noise at dawn, Kunselman said. He said regulations typically require a 25-foot setback from other homes to avoid disturbing neighbors. The chicken talk enlivened Saturday's council retreat in the hometown of the University of Michigan. "What's with the chickens?" Councilman Stephen Rapundalo asked Kunselman. "Chickens lay eggs," Kunselman said. "I want fresh eggs. It's just a simple ordinance change." "I want to have fresh milk," Rapundalo said. "Let's change the ordinance to allow cows or goats." "You can live in New York Ci

I Don't Know.. I Hate Titles
If anyone ever said a kiss couldn't stop the world, They never knew you. All I've ever known of heaven and earth Could melt in the inky darkness of your eyes. My back to the wall, I was ready for anything, I was never prepared for the soul I've seen in your smile. I never expected all the evil of this world To fade away with your touch... damn

I Don't Understand Men At All!!!!!!
I Am Not Trying to Hate On Ya men Cause I love Yas Dearly But Yall Confuse Me! You Like When I Leave Ya Comment's Ok Fine But When I Put Tht You Are hot As Hell (Not All Of you Do this) You Get All Freaked Out And Say OMG Your Married I Can't Beleave ou Would say that Or How Can you Say Stuff Like that Don;tYour Man Get Mad HeLL No My Man Is Secure In Our relationship He Konw's I Am Not going Anywhere i Love Him More Than Life Itself Ok So No I Am Not Cheating On My Man I Am Simply Leave Comment's And If you Can't understand That Then Delete Me Or Block Me What Ever you Have to Do !!!!! So Please Dn;t Freak Out When i Write Stuff On your Page~! I really Am A Great Person And No I Am Not tring To Get Your Man Or your Wife So Take A Chill Pill And Just Sit Back And Laugh At The Stuff I Wright Cause Some Of The Shit Is Funny As Hell Soime Is Kinda Naughty!~!!! (EVIL SMILE) KISSES AND HUG"S TO YOU ALL

I Don't Give A Shit!
Don’t you hate when people say that phrase? “I don’t give a shit.” Well, who wants to receive a shit? Or when people say, “I’m going to take a shit,” is it the same shit the people who do give a shit gave away? It’s questions like these that keep me up all night. And I wonder why I can’t ever seem to keep my eyes open at work. But then again, I really don’t give a shit. I don’t take shits either. I leave them. I don’t give them, but I leave them. If someone else wants to take them, so be it, but I’m not a shit-giver. I hope I’m making my point here. But we have to look at this through multiple angles. Some people just say, “Shit!” when something goes wrong, as if that’s going to do anything to rectify the situation. Then there’s the whole, “shit out of luck” phrase that doesn’t make any f***ing sense. But we still listen to it, try to understand what it means, and then use it ourselves. I know for a fact that this is why I can’t have nice things.

I Don't Care
I don't know who wrote it but they should have signed it. Some powerful words. This woman should run for president. Written by a housewife from New Jersey and sounds like it! This is one ticked off lady. "Are we fighting a war on terror or aren't we? Was it or was it not started by Islamic people who brought it to our shores on September 11, 2001? Were people from all over the world, mostly Americans, not brutally murdered that day, in downtown Manhattan , across the Potomac from our nation's capitol and in a field in Pennsylvania ? Did nearly three thousand men, women and children die a horrible, burning or crushing death that day, or didn't they? And I'm supposed to care that a copy of the Koran was "desecrated" when an overworked American soldier kicked it or got it wet?...Well, I don't. I don't care at all. I'll start caring when Osama bin Laden turns himself in and repents for incinerating all those innocent people on 9/11. I'll care about the Koran whe

I Don't Get It!!
I was checking out my "friends" blogs and he came up and started spewing filth on me and then rerated me a 2. I don't understand why he has to be such a dick!! I was just reading the blog and agreeing with the content and even rated them a 10. Geeze...what the hell???

I Dont Understand
MY GRANDPA SAYS HE DONT FEEL GOOD AND WANTS ME AND MY DAD TO TAKE HIM TO THE DOC BUT EVERY TIME WE TAKE HIM TO THE DOC HE WONT DO WHAT THEY WANT HIM TO DO AND HE IS RUDE TO THEM. THEY DONT DESERVE THAT. THEY ARE JUST TRYING TO HELP HIM. I WENT TO SEE HIM TODAY AND HE TOLD ME HE WANTED TO GO TO THE DOC AND I SAID GRANDPA IF WE TAKE YOU, YOU WONT STAY. MY GRANDPA IS SUFFERING AND THERE IS NOTHING WE CAN DO ABOUT IT BECAUSE HE WONT HELP HIS SELF. HE TOLD ME HE WONT MAKE IT TO CHRISTMAS AND I SAID YES YOU WILL. I DONT NEED ME CHRISMAS TO BE A SAD ONE AGAIN THIS YEAR. I DONT KNOW WHAT DO YOU GUYS THANK I SHOULD DO. I FEEL LIKE I CANT HELP HIM BUT I KNOW THAT THERE IS SOME WAY JUST DONT KNOW WHAT IT IS YET. WELL TAKE CARE ALL MY FRIENDS AND MUCH LOVE TO ALL OF YOU.....LIL RED

I Dont Think I Have Ever Been This Pissed Off With A Member Of Fubar Before
Out of the blue, this little punk started sending me messages last night in the most crude manner last night. I checked his profile and saw that he was 18. From his looks he looks more like 15 so I stated to him that I understand now why he is speaking to me in that manner ... he was a little boy. He comes back and states "Fu*k you bitch!" I told him that you are about to be blocked and he states "Fu*k you bitch!" So... I did. He is now blocked. I then went to his profile and left little comments on some of his pics and for profile comments. To let his little girlfriends what kind of a BOY he really is. Plus he is one of those wanna be gangsta kids who wears his ball cap cockeyed ... a real loser. The pathetic thing is that he has a cute girlfriend in some of his pictures. I even left him a message on some of his pics of he and she that SHE was definitely too good for him. Anyway... I want to save his link so I am going to do it here so I can come back to th

I Dont Understand
Ok I don't understand guys i guess its a mars venus thing. I don't understand how someone can tell you that they love you more than anything and want to be the one that takes care of you and helps all your dreams come true and then all they do is hurt you left and right. I don't know why people always try to have someone that tells them things that they think people want to hear and not the damn truth. I am so tired of being hurt,used and everything else in the book. I have to think about everything i say to everyone so that i don't lead someone on or i don't hurt there feelings and that sucks. But people don't stop and think about what it means to hurt me..... WHY I try so hard to never hurt someone but it seems that all i get is people useing me and hurting me.... So when does it stop. When does the hurt and the pain go away.....

I Don't Know Who Cares...
...but I will put this up, just in case some one does... I have made a few great friends here, whom I wish the best of everything to... There are choices for all of us, every day, some are easy, some come quickly and are never thought of again, and some are a true mother fucker. I am currently making one of those mother fucker choices. I don't guess I will know if it is the right choice, because there are a lot of options that will never be explored, to test their merit. (Ha! fucking Irony, here... One of my favorite songs just came on the radio, and it is SO FUCKING FITTING! Radio Head, Creep) I hope that there is no pain for others in this decision, but I think it is naive of me to think that there will be none... and if I do hurt anyone, I am truly regretful of my actions, but such is life, the things that have been done and said can't be undone, or unsaid... I am deleting my account here, as well as the other sites that I am on... I think this is the only one that I w

I Dont Do Sadness
Awful sweet to be a little butterfly just winging over things and nothing deep inside. Nothing going going wild in you, you know, you're slowing by the riverside floating high and blue. Or maybe cool to be a little summer wind like once through everything and then away again. With the taste of dust in your mouth all day but no need to know like sadness you just sail away. Cause you know, I don't do sadness not even a little bit. Just don't need it in my life don't want any part of it. I don't do sadness, hey I've done my time looking back on it all then it blows my mind, I don't do sadness so been there. Don't do sadness just don't care. ---------------------------------

I Don't Believe It
omg i don't believe this... it seems my pets are all trying to tell me something... in the last month my cockatiel has laid 6 eggs *all empty* & i discovered about half an hour ago that my fish tank is full of eggs... i'm so not ready to become the g/mother of a hundred little fish LOL so 2moro after i've been down the shops i'm gonna give the tank a good clean out

I Dont Know
i dont know every day i wake up and feel like "fuck this world" cuz i value my own life like its a ex girl... i mean its cool while it lasts but never last long enough to truly BE COOL... like travolta, i will play it but will NEVER BE the fool... im cynical to a point but i think im just a old soul... cuz i already know this shit aint coming with me so why try to set goals??? all happiness is temperary too, and u can never BE HAPPY... i dont care how lucky u feel there's shit u want, besides most just ACT sappy... they dont really care or identify with most of the shit they see... their fakeness is a plague of low self esteem and act like some shit they cant be... so yeah i guess im back to that...so im gonna drink another fifth and yack... maybe it will get out all of the poison and self destruction.... i doubt it though cuz that would take a miracle of epic proportions.... u dont have to slit ur skin for self mutilation..... u can scar

I Don't Know Anymore
is it the law of nature that when it rains shit...you totally get dumped on ??? i can't decide if i should just give up...and let things go the route to hell that they're going...or if i should stand up, and try my 8est to make a life in a place that makes me misera8le. i want to do what's right for my lil ones...8ut what sort of decision is that to make...there's two completely different roads i can take. which one should i chose? what's the 8est decision? how can i try and make a 8etter life for everyone...when i can't even decide what's right @ this very moment? i want to 8e @ peace...for once, just once.,..in the last 6 years...i'd like to 8e ok. is that too much to ask?

"i Dont Like Your Pics"
I had a...woman...message me and told me she didn't like the pic of me holding a pistol. She said she didnt like having a gun pointed at her. THEN she procceeded to tell me that I am harming people and that since I dont give my money that I get from shooting in tounaments to children, that I am an asshole basically. THEN she spewed forth statistics about Switzerland and how well they do...blah...blah...blah. Well...ITS A FUCKING PICTURE you whiny ass bitch! I seen a picture of a garage....it doesnt make me a fucking CAR! And YES...I have given to charities. I have given money to breast cancer research because I feel that between whales,the rain forest and all that other shit....titties should be saved first! And Switzerland? Fuck em! Let THEM assholes ski...I am keeping my guns and since YOU dont LIKE it...DONT BUY A GUN. When someone breaks into your house and threatens your family and does WHATEVER THEY WANT TO becaue THEY have a gun..Call the police. Me..the coroner wi

I Don't Know About Anything Anymore
I don’t know about anything anymore.... Current mood: depressed Life just sucks in general right now. I hate the holiday season. I hate change. Especially when there is nothing you can do about it. I was comfortable where I was at, now everything is being fucked up. Now I have a new job. Something I've never done before. I'm so fuckin scared about it, as well as excited. It's gonna be more hours, but at least I will get days off. I never get any days off with the job I'm finishing up. I'm sick of it. I'm so tired. I can never get anything done at my house. I never see my daughter. I miss my son. Why can't he be here? I don't feel right. Something is terribly wrong. I can feel that. I don't know what to do anymore, I thought I could do all this on my own, but I can't. I can't do it anymore. But in another way I have to. I have to prove myself. To everyone. I can't go back. I guess I need to make some decisions and make some sacrfices. I want to be everything to ev

I Don't Want To Miss A Thing Baby
This Song is decicated to the man in my life that I love with all my heart ... I could stay awake just to hear you breathing Watch you smile while you are sleeping Far away and dreaming I could spend my life in this sweet surrender I could stay lost in this moment forever Well, every moment spent with you Is a moment I treasure I don't wanna close my eyes I don't wanna fall asleep 'Cause I'd miss you, babe And I don't wanna miss a thing 'Cause even when I dream of you The sweetest dream will never do I'd still miss you, babe And I don't wanna miss a thing Lying close to you Feeling your heart beating And I'm wondering what you're dreaming Wondering if it's me you're seeing Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together And I just wanna stay with you In this moment forever, forever and ever I don't wanna close my eyes I don't wanna fall asleep 'Cause I'd miss you, babe And I don't wanna miss a thing 'Cause even when I dream of you The sweetest d

I Don't Believe In Love
I awoke on impact Under surveillance from the camera eye Searching high and low The criminal mind found at the scene of the crime Handcuffed and blind, I didn't do it She said she loved me I guess I never knew But do we ever, ever really know? She said she'd meet me on the other side But I knew right then, I'd never find her I don't believe in love I never have, I never will I don't believe in love It's never worth the pain that you feel No more nightmares, I've seen them all From the day I was born, they've haunted my every move Every open hand's there to push and shove No time for love it doesn't matter She made a difference I guess she had a way Of making every night seem bright as day Now I walk in shadows, never see the light She must have lied 'cause she never said goodbye I don't believe in love I never have, I never will I don't believe in love I'll just pretend she never was real I don't believe in love I need to forget her face, I see it sti

I Dont Fucking Care
People say I talk to much I don't care I talk to much Momma say I failed in life I don't care I failed in life Daddy says I drink to much I don't care I drink to much People say i'm headed nowhere And I don't fuckin' care Jimmy Johnsons gonne die Sarah Suzies gonna die Everybody Dyin' slow I don't give a fuck though I'm always short like $50 bucks I couldn't give 50 fucks I could really use some help You can go and fuck yourself Everybody's gonna die, terror fallin' from the sky Mothers wit' they children cry, and I could give a fuck why They say you'll never walk again Well plug the Sega in I think somebody stole my truck Tell someone who gives a fuck My entire World is falling, entire World is falling- Repeat twice How much do they charge in there? Wait a minute, I don't care Ima shoot you in the face I'll tell ya how the bullets taste Critics say you imitate I don't give a fuck-u-late 50 million people dyin Aww...i'm cryin (tounge sound) You te

I Don't Care
'Are we fighting a war on terror or aren't we? Was it or was it not started by Islamic people who brought it to our shores on September 11, 2001? Were people from all over the world, mostly Americans, not brutally murdered that day, in downtown Manhattan , across the Potomac from our nation's capitol and in a field in Pennsylvania ? Did nearly three thousand men, women and children die a horrible, burning or crushing death that day, or didn't they? And I'm supposed to care that a copy of the Koran was 'desecrated' when an overworked American soldier kicked it or got it wet?..Well, I don't. I don't care at all. I'll start caring when Osama bin Laden turns himself in and repents for incinerating all those innocent people on 9/11. I'll care about the Koran when the fanatics in the Middle East start caring about the Holy Bible, the mere possession of which is a crime in Saudi Arabia .

I Don't Want To Be A Jerk About This
Please people understand I love Everdreamer's Babygirl. I am happy and want nor wish no one else. I don't ask that you respect me, but please respect my feelings. My heart belongs to her, and You are NOT going to change my mind or heart on the matter. I don't want to see your nude photos, or your NSFW photos. I do not want to visit your personal website. Nor am I interested in "secret rendevous"(yes you know who I am talking about!!). And I do not wish to be a Fu-Husband, I am loyal and Love MY Everdreamer's Babygirl. If this continues I will block and have nothing to do with you. All I do is rate photos, help in contests, and occasionally will talk to my fans, friends and family. Really the relationship I am in is the one I want so please respect that. Thank you, ahead of time for your consideration.

I Do Not Know
12-28-2001 I Do Not Know I do not know What to do What to think Or what to feel I want you I want to love you Then I heard things Are they true? I do not know Now what should I do? What should I think? What should I feel? I do not know Should I keep my trust in you? Should I still want to love you? Are these things that I hear true? I do not know Will I ever know? I hope so Will I want to know? I do not know

I Dont Know
i'm sick of giving a damn about anything!!! i dont want anything to do with anybody! i just want everybody to leave me alone and let me just live my life. i take care of my son working and going to school and evverybody else can go just bleep bleep them self. i'm tired of it all its just a bunch of bullshit and i dont need the problems

I Dont Understand And I Wish I Did
I really dont understand why guys deny they have girlfriends and they do, or why they say they aint going out with anyone else n they r. So lets, see and maybe i can get this straight. I feel that if any of this happens its because u dont care about the other person. Now is it wrong if u know their lying and still keep going out with them. U've known this person for years and altho ur not in love with them, u like to go out and have fun. Sometimes it feels like ur in the way and maybe ur the one causing problems in someone else's relationships. I think that there is nothing wrong because clearly the other girl knows that her man keeps coming back, not me going after him. Anyways, i got tired of it and let it go

I Don't Get It
My friend Richie is on the rocks with his wife but they won't leave each other because he says they are afraid of being alone. That puzzled me. After much thought, it has come to me that the reason I don't mind being alone is that I don't 'get' what other people get from being in a relationship. I really don't. I think some people go into relationships to feel whole. Because they think there has to be someone there to make up what they don't have. Sometimes because they don't have faith in themselves. Sometimes simply as an excuse to not have to be responsible for themselves. I am already whole. I don't ask any one person's permission to exist in this life and I don't expect anyone to ask mine. Whether we want to realize it or not we are all whole, divine, here for a reason and that reason has nothing to do with any other human alive. I think that is why I don't 'get' what other people get from being in a relationship When I look back at my relationships I see huge expanses of wa

I Do Not Know You Well
I do not know you well, but what I know Enchants me, like a song sung far away. I cannot hear the words, but what they say Hangs softly on the hills where I must go. I see you furtively and note your eyes, Dark and dreamy, your spirit half elsewhere; I note the sheen of your dark, lustrous hair And wish I knew your thoughts and shared your cries. This love brings me sweet pain, but I want more, Driven by a dream I can't control. I want the truth of you, untamed and whole.

I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing
I don't wanna miss a thing I just wanna close my eyes An dream of you so peacefully I don't wanna miss a thing Your gentle touch The sound of your heart beat I don't wanna miss a thing By listening to your voice Day to day I don't wanna miss a thing When we make love To feel your skin I don't wanna miss a thing At all When I dream of you As I lay awake watch you sleeping I don't wanna miss a thing... Author notes The song by Aerosmith-I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing just with my lyrics

I Dont Want You To Go....
I Don't Want You To Go Here I am Alone and I don't understand Exactly how it all began The dream just walked away I'm holding on When all but the passion's gone And from the start Maybe I was tryin' too hard It's crazy 'cause it's breakin' my heart Things can fall apart but I know That I don't want you to go And heroes die When they ignore the cause inside But they learned from what's left behind And fight for something else And so it goes That we have both learned how to grow And from the start Maybe we were tryin' too hard It's crazy 'cause it's breakin' our hearts Things can fall apart, but I know That I don't want you to go (Oh) it's just too much Takin' on the whole world all by myself There's not enough Unless I start trustin' somebody else Somebody else and love again And from the start Maybe we were tryin' too hard It's crazy 'cause it's breakin' our hearts Things can fall apart, but I know That I don't want you to go, no Maybe we we

I Dont Understand.............
For the life of me I dont understand how one day...someone can say I love you...then the next day...they could careless....its all now about tormenting and making the person feel like total shit for something that they didnt do...how does someone fall so in and out of love so quickly? I couldnt do that...If I love someone...I love them all the way...whole heartedly....and I would never lie to them....and would never do them wrong....I just dont understand...what makes a person hurt someone that they supposedly love....or did that person ever truely love them at all? :-/ Would love to know views on this please feel free to comment! Muahz!

I Don't Want To Steal Your Girlfriend
I was waiting in line at the local 7-Eleven this afternoon when an incredibly beautiful creature suddenly appeared just outside the glass front doors. Tall and thin, her dark hair overly-streaked to appear almost blond, she reminded me in many ways of a stripper. She entered the store with almost cat-like grace, looking this way and that as she did. She made brief eye contact with me, looked away for a second, and then back at me again. Nice. You're interested, or at very least intrigued. Right behind the woman came a bruiser of a fellow, scowling as if his mommy has just scolded him. Almost immediately he noticed me looking at his girlfriend and moved up next to her to put his arm around her waist. Smooth Romeo, very smooth. A tad insecure are we? I rolled my eyes when he glared my way, and looked back at her with a quick smile. She caught it, smiled, and looked to the side - one of the supposed classic "signals" of sexual attraction. Somehow I sensed I'd be running into her agai

I Dont Have A Name For This
As I sit there, thinking, someone comes towards me and grabs my hand. Frightened, I jerk back; But he assures me that he is here to help me and love me. He begins to caress my neck, my shoulders, my back; And I give in to his orgasmic touch - And I trust him, though I have only just met him. And I touch him, his soft, silky skin, caressing him. Still sitting there, he wraps his arms around me and holds me for hours on end - And he tells me he cares, something never before heard by this lonely heart. Now, as we lay there on the beach, underneath the stars, his soft, sensuous lips touch mine. And I give myself to him, as we make love beneath the stars. And our hearts, minds, bodies, and souls entwine. He knows my every need, fantasy, desire - And he fulfills and satisfies each one of these as I have only dreamed. Now as we lie there, the sun begins to rise. It is not just a new day, but a new beginning as we plan to spend the rest of our lives

I Don't Know What To Do
I am just so confused right now. I don't know where to go in my life. I just found out that my ex, whom I thought wanted to get back with me has a new gf, whom he is calling the love of his life, and well . . . it hurts. We broke up a few months ago because he was confused and didn't know what to do and just wasn't ready. I was ok with it and getting over him jsut fine, atleast I thought so, util I found this out. Now, I do have feelings for someone else and really really like him, but we just don't ever get to talk that much. It's not because I don't want to, he just seems to be busy all the time, and well, I don't want to be pushy, but I love talking to him. So ya, I am just so confused right now. I just don't know what to do or what to think about anything anymore. My heart just seems to be in peaces from everyone around me right now, I just want someone to care again. I just want to be loved again and for it to be real this time and not just because it's a good time for someone els

I Don’t Wanna Miss A Thing Lyrics Changed By My Daughter Amber
I Don’t Wanna Miss A Thing I don't wanna miss a thing I just wanna close my eyes An dream of you so peacefully I don't wanna miss a thing Your gentle touch The sound of your heart beat I don't wanna miss a thing By listening to your voice Day to day I don't wanna miss a thing When we make love To feel your skin I don't wanna miss a thing At all When I dream of you As I lay awake watch you sleeping I don't wanna miss a thing... Author notes The song by Aerosmith-I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing just with my lyrics

I Dont Think You Know
I DON`T THINK YOU WILL EVER FULLY UNDERSTAND HOW YOU HAVE TOUCHED MY LIFE AND MADE ME HAPPY TO BE IN LOVE ONCE AGAIN, AND THIS TIME FOR A LIFETIME AND NEVER NOT ONE DAY NOT FEEL LOVED, I DON`T THINK YOU COULD EVER KNOW JUST HOW TRULY SPECIAL YOU ARE , THAT EVEN ON THE DARKEST NIGHTS YOU ARE MY BRIGHTEST STAR. YOU HAVE ALLOW ME TO EXPERIENCE SOMETHING VERY HARD TO FIND AND THATS UNCONDITIONAL LOVE THAT EXISTS IN MY HEART, MIND, BODY AND SOUL. I DON`T THINK YOU COULD EVER FEEL ALL THE LOVE I HAVE TO GIVE AND I`M SURE YOU WILL NEVER REALIZE YOU HAVE BEEN MY WILL TO LIVE, LOVE AND SMILE UNCONDITIONALLY EACH AND EVERYDAY. WRITTEN BY PAMELA CJ MESHER aka LOST

I Don't Love You
I Don't Love You...But Give me a little elbow room With space enough to grow Won't you tell her that I love her And then I'll need to go I don't really love her You see she is but a dream She opened up a dying heart Sneaked on in the in-between The part that was so empty? She added her own spark Slowly filled the hollow space Danced on out into the dark Then slowly she disappeared Just where I do not know Left a man very wounded With a need to try and grow So cautious are his steps now Treading lightly... thin as air "I don't love you ... but I love you." As if she really cared.

I Dont Understand
OK I DONT REALLY CARE BUT MY COMEMENTS ARE HAND WRITEN POEMS BY ME SOME ARE SENDING THEM BACK AND I KNOW THERE NOT DOING IT TO BE MEAN BECASUE THERE IS SO MANY THINGS LIKE THESE CHAIN LTTTER TYPE DEALS. SO IM ASKING PLEASE DONT SEND ME BACK MY POEMS THERE FOR YOU ALL TO ENJOY. LOVE YOU GUYS ALWAYS RICHARD AKA SHAWN

I Don't Know To Wish Her Luck, Or Bad Luck.. She's The Epitamy Of Bbw
Queen Latifah Signs On to Endorse Jenny Craig By Allison Adato and Tim Nudd Originally posted Wednesday December 19, 2007 09:15 AM EST Queen Latifah Kirstie Alley and Valerie Bertinelli have another pal joining them in the Jenny Craig universe: Queen Latifah. The Oscar-nominated singer and actress, 37, has signed up to be the latest celebrity spokesperson for the weight-loss chain, PEOPLE confirms exclusively. "We officially confirm that Queen Latifah will join the Jenny Craig program in January," Scott Parker, Jenny Craig's vice president of marketing, tells PEOPLE. "We are thrilled to have Queen Latifah support our mission of improving health by taking her first step toward achieving a more healthful lifestyle." Parker adds: "Queen Latifah joins forces with Jenny Craig to communicate the importance of how small lifestyle changes, in the areas of diet and exercise, can have positive effects on overall health." The Hairspray star, who has consistently celebrate

I Don't Go For That Shit!
A prospector comes down out of the hills after six months f diggin for gold. He goes straight to the local saloon and says "Bartender! I been alone in them hills for 6 months! I want a shot-a whiskey, a cold beer, a hot bath, and a warm willin woman! The bartender replies "Well, we got the whiskey, the beer, and the bath, but we ain't got no women in this town." The prospector says "Well what do ya do for fun 'roun here?" "We got ol' Joe in the back room", replies the bar keep. "Aw hell!" Says the miner, "I don't go for that shit!" He does his shot and beer, gets his bath, and heads back up into the hills. 6 months later the old prospector coms back town, goes to the same saloon and says "Bartender! I benn in them hills alone for damn near a year now! I want me a shot-a whiskey, a cold beer, a hot bath, and a warm, willin woman!" The bartender says "Mister I told you 6 months ago, we ain't got no women in this here town! But we still got ol' Joe in the back room."

I Dont Ask Much From Anyone This Is All U Could Do For Me!! Blows Bubbles
OK ALL MY FRIENDS, DB'S, STAFF, AND ANYONE ELSE THAT WANTS TO , YOU KNOW WHO U ARE… I AM IN MY FIRST BOMBING AND RATING CONTEST AND I NEED YOUR HELP TO WIN AND BOMB THE SHIT OUTTA ME....IF YOU LOVE ME YOU'LL HELP.....LMAO.. JUST CLICK ON MY PIC BELOW AND BOMB AWAY...COULD YOU ALSO PLZ REPOST THIS BULLY.. THANKS AND LOVE YOU ALL RIGHT NOW I REALLY REALLY NEED RATES BUT COMMENTS WILL BE AWESOME TOO.... PS SHE IS WILLING OT GIVE 1000 FU BUCKS TO EVERY PERSON WHO RATES AND 10 COMMENTS THEN GO TO HER AND LET HER KNOW AND POOF THERES YOU 1,000 FUBUCKS FOR HARDLY NOTHING!! THANKS AND LOVE YOU ALL DIRTY BITCH~DJ BOO BOO KITTY F*CK!~CO-OWNER OF BLACK DIAMOND~R/L WIFE 2 FREAK ON A LEASH~@ fubar

I Dont Get People
i am really irritated about this.. someone had the nerve to say 3 min on a treadmill is not a workout.. well if that person was actually paying attention.. i am on any cardio machine no less than 5 min and i go to 10 max... i was working really hard that day someone i know decided to say that.. they need to ktnow the whole story before they assume.. i am still having issues with my injury so i can only do so much.. that workout i was doing was alot.. i was on a treadmill, stepper, and bike.. total cardio that day was bout 30mins.. and then did alot of strength machines... i really want to tell him where to shove it..i am there tuesday..wedsday..thursday i am at the gym for 2 hours.. and on thursday i have a cardio class so i am doing the best i can.. is this not good enough or something.. gives me more motivation to prove that asshole wrong...sorry i am lil mad because people want to assume and think the wrong thing. and if it matters i lost 9 pounds in 3 weeks

I Dont Care Anymore
ive tried and tried, and i know most everyone who reads this(if anyone reads it), is going to say this idiot whines alot. that's fine, think whatever the fuk u want. i don't really give a rats ass. furthermore, i appoligize for nothing. most of u ppl on here r on here for nasty shit anyway, and to u i say stay the fuk off my page. if u cant see fit to respect me or what im about get the hell away from my shit.

I Don't Know..........
Today i dont know how i should feel. I have one of those families, on my dad's side especially that is not close...at all. We see each other for sicknesses and funerals. There are the few family members that i keep in contact with (Meli ) and i am thankfull for them being in my life. The rest i either don't know because of distance, it doesnt help i didnt see any of them for like 12 years because of divorce.... and then the others well yea they are those family members lol the ones your like hmmm do i claim them?? lol Just kidding i love my family even the dysfunctional ones lol I have such a feeling of love and thanks for all of my family, growing up not having them has always made me want to be closer, and i have tried but with distance it can be hard. Well ok time to get to my point lol I found out today that my Aunt passed away last wednesday. I hadn't checked my e-mail until today on that account and was like whoaaaaaaaaaa. Besides the fact there was no phone call, i was floor

I Don't
Five years ago today, my wanton breaking of the 9th Commandment came to an abrupt halt. My adulterous ways were over, thanks to the ruling of a judge. Today is the five-year anniversary of my divorce. To honor this judicious sacrament, I IMed several work friends, and we decided that the event should be celebrated with cake and booze. Or booze and cake. We're not that discerning. They promised to chip in and buy me a kitchen aid mixer, and I promised I'd never again take apart something that God joined. Then we all laughed. This deserves a bit of back story, I think. At the tender age of 20, I returned from travels abroad and promptly decided to move in with my boyfriend. And his two male roommates. In their trailer house. My mother objected, vociferously. In hindsight, I can see why. If I had children, I wouldn't let them live in trailer houses, either. But that's not what my mother was concerned about. Rather, she didn't want her youngest daughter living in sin. Unb

I Dont Know
Would you be happy if I died tomorrow? Right infront of you to remember forever? would you cry and want me back? Or would you be happy and just Laugh? I dont know where I went wrong I tryied so hard but it all came undone. I wanted to make you happy Just to see you proud For once of something I did To better myself I seem to piss you off the further I go To make you happy I would sell my soul Mother dear you dont know Just how much I love you so You kicked me out into the cold Left to freez with no home I dont know were I went wrong. Just tell me for once and ill stay calm You all hate me but for what I still have no clue I try so hard to make you smile To make you laugh its a bump in the ass I dont know what to do anymore Death seems to be the only way Please tell me what to before I go Insane I'm lost with out a clue Maybe ill see grandpa soon And then I can be happy to I'm tierd of the pain Tierd of the tears Tierd of the crying Ive been

I Don't Care If You Believe In God Or Not You Have To Read This It's Too Funny Not To..lmao
A child was told to write a book report on the entire Bible. This is what he wrote. In the beginning, which occurred near the start, there was nothing but God, darkness, and some gas. The Bible says, 'The Lord thy God is one, but I think He must be a lot older than that. Anyway, God said, 'Give me a light!' and someone did. Then God made the world. He split the Adam and made Eve. Adam and Eve were naked, but they weren't embarrassed because mirrors hadn't been invented yet. Adam and Eve disobeyed God by eating one bad apple, so they were driven from the Garden of Eden. Not sure what they were driven in though, because they didn't have cars. Adam and Eve had a son, Cain, who hated his brother as long as he was Abel. Pretty soon all of the early people died off, except for Methuselah, who lived to be like a million or something. One of the next important people was Noah, who was a good guy, but one of his kids was k

I Do Not Understand?
ok i do not understand this. you get a tattoo and people of course ask why did you get it. well once you tell them they ask why then did you get it again. i have a question for them. why do you care? all i can say to them is i can explain to you why i got it but it would mean nothing to you. i told you why but yet that was not good enough. so i ask you then... why you not get a tattoo?

I Don't Wanna Be In Love
Song lyrics | I Don't Wanna Be In Love lyrics She's going out to forget they were together All that time he was taking her for granted She wants to see if there's more than he gave she's looking for He calls her up He's trippin on the phone now He doesn't want her out there And alone now He knows she's movin it Knows she's using it Now he's losing it She don't care Everybody put up your hands Say I don't wanna be in love I don't wanna be in love Feel the beat now If you've got nothing left Say I don't wanna be in love I don't wanna be in love Back it up now You've got a reason to live Say I don't wanna be in love I don't wanna be in love Feelin' good now Don't be afraid to get down Say I don't wanna be in love I don't wanna be in love He was always giving her attention Looking hard to find the things she mentioned He was dedicated But most suckers hate it That girl was fine But she didn't appreciate him She calls him up She's tripping on the

I Don't Know Crap About...
A few days ago I'm sitting here drinking my morning Mountain Dew and eating rolled up slices of deli turkey like they are french fries while listening to my favorite morning show on the radio before I have to go to work. The topic of conversation is "I am ______ years old and I don't know crap about _______!" Listening to some of these people tell me they are 35 years old and never learned to ride a bike really gave me a chuckle. That is until I thought about some of the stuff I have no idea how to do. The one I am most ashamed about is this... 1. I have never baked anything. It's not that I didn't want to, it's just growing up there was always a family member who did all the baking. Or when I got older it seemed all my friends had girlfriends and they were really good at it so it wasn't necessary for me to do it. But now more then ever I'd love to bake a fucking dessert but am too ashamed to ask anyone to teach me. LAME Another slightly embarrassing thing

I Dont Care How Many Friends I Lose Over This !!!!!!!!!!
Month One Mommy I am only 4 inches long but I have all my organs. I love the sound of your voice. The sound of your heart beat is my favorite lullaby. Month Two Mommy today I learned how to suck my thumb. If you could see me you could definitely tell that I am a baby. I'm not big enough to survive outside my home though. It is so nice and warm in here. Month Three You know what Mommy I'm a boy!! I hope that makes you happy. I always want you to be happy. I don't like it when you cry. You sound so sad. It makes me sad too and I cry with you even though you can't hear me. Month Four Mommy my hair is starting to grow. It is very short and fine but I will have a lot of it. I spend a lot of my time exercising. I can turn my head and curl my fingers and toes and stretch my arms and legs. I am becoming quite good at it too. Month Five You went to the doctor today. Mommy, he lied to you. He said that I'm not a baby.

I Dont Know Any More
i feel all fuck up inside i know i didnt do nothing wrong tonight but yet i feel bad how do i make it right its not my falut that he starting feeling bad inside why cant i make this damn saddness go away i only told the truth i didnt mean for him to get sad that way no harm should have been done i cant make everyone happy i didnt want to hurt him in that way but still he seemed upset to me so i tried to make him laugh and yet no good came from it i pissed off one of his friends well atleast made her mad i think when all i wanted was a little laughter to come from it all but no laughter will ever come form this all how did it get fucked up like this i want to know why cant i seem to let this small thing go i really dont know anymore i have to stop writing befor the tears start to fall i dont care anymore FUCK IT ALL!!!

I Don't Know!!!!
OK, so my brother in law just sent me a text saying my sister was leaving him and going to take Kylie wiht her and that he'd never see her again and asked me for help...I SOOO don't know what to say I've gotten out of him that it has to do with my sister's best friend of whom neither my brother in law nor I am exactly fans of. ANYWAY she lives in Australia and I am wiggin out because I'm afraid she's talked my sister into moving there. I so totally don't know what to say to him he is going to be calling me soon so I'll find out more but I have NO CLUE what to say to him!!!! Him and I haven't really gotten along all that well the past 11 month I've lived here but have slowly been getting along better. I'm not exactly his biggest fan either because he is really immature and childish and insecure and says things to my sister that hurt her I don't know if he does it to hurt her on purpose or if it's just his age and immaturity showing PLEASE if anyone can give me advice on what to do pleas

I Don't.......
I don’t want to love you, but I do I don’t want to care, but I do. I gave you my heart, you broke it into. You promised me forever then walked away. Now I’m all alone while you’re getting high. “I love you.” “I can’t live without you.”….that’s all I heard “We need time apart.”….is all you said I tried not to love you, but part of me always will. I tried not to care, I’m almost there. You left me with my heart aching, but now it’s on the mend. I can’t love you any more and I won’t pretend. You gave up what we could be, you needed the drugs more than me. I don’t want to love you, I’m almost there. I don’t want to care, I am there!!

I Don't Care How Many Friends I Lose Over This.
don't care how many friends i lose over this.......... Month One MOMMY I am only 4 inches long but I have all my organs. I love the sound of your voice. The sound of your heart beat is my favorite lullaby. Month Two Mommy today I learned how to suck my thumb. If you could see me you could definitely tell that I am a baby. I'm not big enough to survive outside my home though. It is so nice and warm in here. Month Three You know what Mommy I'm a boy!! I hope that makes you happy. I always want you to be happy. I don't like it when you cry. You sound so sad. It makes me sad too and I cry with you even though you can't hear me. Month Four Mommy my hair is starting to grow. It is very short and fine but I will have a lot of it. I spend a lot of my time exercising. I can turn my head and curl my fingers and toes and stretch my arms and legs. I am becoming quite good at it too. Month Five You went to the doctor toda

I Don't Know Why He Walked Away....
***This is not the orginal, nor is it to take place of the orginal....*** The bellys getting bigger and she think's its from the food she's eating, Two weeks have passed an now shes in tears...Jus 16 yrs old n she's haven a baby! I wounder how a father could jus walk away, As if this precious life he created is a shame, How could he leave her alone to rasie a child he helped creat. I wounder if he even cares....I've watched the belly grow, the tiny feet press against the tight skin...It brings a tear to my eye...I talked to the very same belly everynight and kissed it with great pride...Watching this precious gift grow was a diamond in my eye..I often woundered why he walked away.......The pains begin to get stronger-the tears being to fall, she's alone n about to have a baby.....The doctor's say "I'm sorry mam, but were loosening both mother n child" I woundered why he never answered the family's pleeding call that night...I woundered how he could jus walk away-from this

I Don't Know
I don't know what you see in me. I don't know that you see me. I don't know where you're from. I don't know where you've been. I don't know who you are. I don't know what you want. I don't know why you're looking at me. I don't know that I matter. I don't know that you matter. I don't know.

I Don't Watch Reality Tv
It's 4 a.m. and I'm sitting here watching "The X Effect" on MTV. What a waste! Now I remember why I don't watch reality television on a normal basis; it's not real! It's all scripted garbage made for entertainment and it's getting so predictable anymore. The worst is the reality dating shows. Do people really think they're going to find true love amidst the garbage?

I Don't Want To Know
I don't want to know That his smile brings sunshine That he shelters from the rain That his heart is pure gold I thought our love was strong I don't want to know How his glance is tempting How he's like a gentle breeze How his eyes are soft and tender How could I've been so wrong I don't want to know If his hair smells like a something sweet If he's a man like no other If his touch brings endless pleasure How could I misconceive I don't want to know That his love's an endless fountain How he's everything I'm not If you've never felt this fire Respect me when you leave - I don't need to know

I Don't Know.....
i am really fucking pissed off right now. It's time for me to take a break from fubar!!!!!! Fuck it, i'm sick and tired of bullshit, i need some time to myself. I'm probably going to drop out of the auction, this site, everything...JUST FUCK IT!!!!!

I Don't Need You
I try to believe all the things that you say but I can't. You look at me, I look at you, and you look away. I can see the lies in your eyes, and you think I don't know. You were unfaithful and went behind my back. It's like you threw a bunch of puzzles at me and they're starting to attack. Like a heart attack, but they attack my feelings. Why can't you stop? Stop all the infidelity, stop all the lies, just STOP! I loved you. I was faithful, but you repaid me by betraying me and that's what makes you a low-life. Maybe you're afraid of commitment. Maybe you've just lost your love for me. Whatever it is, I can live without it. I don't need the lies and the arguments. I know now that I don't need you.

I Dont Understand!!!!!
I dont understand How some people can tell other people how much they Love them and how much they want to be with them but they just need time to think. Now dont get me wrong I can understand that perfectly fine. Its just I dont get how they need time apart from that person when they are always wanting to talk to them or be around them. .. How is that thinking or being apart? Sex isent going to solve it either. If one person says they need time to think they need to just talk to the other person online instead of saying please meet me here, please do this for me. I have tried so hard to stay so calm about it. I am getting to the point where I am confused. I dont get it. How they can say that and then turn around and see you face to face and act tottaly different. Its not right. Its not right at all. getting someones hopes up and tearing them down like that. I hate it. I hate feeling that knife get pushed deeper and deeper. I hate feeling the pain and I just want it to go away. I want t

I Don't Care/ You Don't Care
I don't care if you don't like me I never asked you to For all I care you can bite me All the evil things you do I don't care if you don't need me I'm doing fine on my own I don't care if you don't want me I'm better off alone You don't care that my heart breaks You just walk away You don't care that it aches Still you turn the other way I don't care if you don't care It's hard to care for a ghost You don't care if I'm not there Nothing but you matters most If you're looking for me Your feelings to unbear You'll finally see That I just don't care

I Don't Know What I'd Do Without You
I don't know what I'd do without you To you: For keeping my spirits up. For never letting me down. For being here for me. For knowing I'm there for you. For bringing so many smiles my way. For being sensitive to my needs. For knowing just what to say. For listening better than anyone else. For bringing me laugther. For bringing me light. For understaning so much about me. For trusting me with so much about you. For being the best. For being so beautiful. I don't know what I'd do... without you.

I Dont Know
my eyes cant cry anymore tears, you have broke me my heart, my inner being. im just driffting in life as a leaf drifts threw the sky, i dont no how much longer i can go, living this lie not wanting to be here not wanted by anyone just hoping to live the next day to see the sun rise once again and start this same lie over again.............

I Dont Think This Is Right
some people on here ask for your help, when you give it to them some wont even help back out. I like helping and meeting new people, but thats wrong of them. i help people with their points so they can level but when u want their help , forget it. are there others that feel the same way? i think so

I Dont Know If Ill Be Able To Complete This One...
Ten Things You Want To Say To Ten Different People: 1. To my Grandparents... Thank you for raising me and getting me started on the right foot. Now let me do what I want with my life. 2. To my dad.... I wish you were here to see me grow up. I miss you. 3. To my sister....You are the best and I'm glad you didn't give TaMya up. 4. To Linda and Jeanette... I miss you girls and wish we could hang out more often. 5. To Saphire (my girl)... I feel so safe with you and I know is shows that you make me happy. Ive been told I look happier. 6. To my aunts... Thank you for always supporting me... 7. To my Haley... I'm glad we are friends and I love your band. 8. To Saphire's ex... You screwed up bitch. 9. To Truman (My ex)... You turned me to girls... thank you. lol 10. To my friends.... You're the coolest friends I could ever hope for. Nine Things About Yourself: 1. I'm a Pepsi-aholic. 2. I miss my girlfriend soooo much! (take it to fact that we've never met in person, but i'v

I Don't Get Attached Anymore
I DON'T GET ATTACHED; I don't want a relationship unless you can prove to me that not all men are the same. No your words don't mean shit to me. No I can't trust you. No I don't believe you Promises are nothing outspoken words to me. I know I'm not your ONe and Only so don't say so. No i'm not the world. No my beauty doesn't make your day . No my laughter isn't music. No i'm not a rebound so i'm not going to sit here and wait til your ready. and No i won't wait on your call.NO you can't see the world in my eyes. No my smile isn't magic. NO i'm not too good to be true;; none the less your wishes came true. I am a princess; but not yours. I don't need your money I'm not different. trust me. Really I'm not looking for a fairy tale. I don't wish to be your everything but I do want to be major. I don't need you to be thinking about me every second of the day. Make me believe that we can forget about the world just by holding my hand. Tell me I'm beautiful but only if yo

I Dont Get It...
Sry everyone but i need to vent... why is it when things start going good and those who say they want nothing but for you to be happ do nothing but try and rain on your prade...I have sevral close friends that are happy about my new found news of moving to Alaska, and then I have sevral that are doing everything they can to be negtive about it and make it seem like the worst thing in the world... So Im asking why... Why say you only want me to be happy yet do and say things to make me sad...

I Dont Want...
i dont want to feel pain i dont want to feel hurt i dont want to feel cheated i dont want to feel hatred i dont want to feel loved i dont want to feel secure i dont want to feel wanted i dont want to feel copacetic i just want to feel NUMB...

I Dont Know What To Do
you know i live my life one day at a time i go out and work and just do the same stuff im not able to get out i dont know very many people where i live my love life well there aint one ladies i dont know if yall think im ugly or what but man its hard to find a girl out here they are all scared of a good guy idk i just im getting tired of living my life like this plz someone help me to figur it out.............

I Dont Need Another Hero
Why do so many guys think a girl wants you to save them...or they want to be my hero? I don't need a hero...only I can save me and I wouldnt have it any other way. I guess Ive learned that the hard way. I have learned that depending on other people to make your life better is in vain because its only you that can change you or make you happy. Not to say it isnt nice to have support, love, and even just companionship to compliment your life but if that IS your life, if your happiness depends on the way others treat you, view you or how many people love you, are you truly happy? Because if you loved yourself, it wouldnt matter what others think. That is why some feel lonely in a room full of people...its about what a person feels inside themselves, not about everyone around them. Don't put anyone on a pedestal higher than you because they only way they can look at you is down...Put yourself up there and be your own hero. Java March 2008

I Dont Where To Belong
well one day i fit in with a crowd now, i feel like i am in my whole little world. idk about fitting in with patty and walter little family , or hanging out with marvin,nikki, and ben. feels like i am just in the middle. know not hanging out with marvin and nikki dont help much. with patty and walter , seem like they just care for mizzy and the twins, like im not in with it. OH i fucken hated work, anna letting mizzy lide, and lizzie was being a bitch she always going up front talking up there and going into grill doing what she wants and anna just let her do that and i mainly do most of the work. well its ok i am finding a day job too, i will be working my ass off , and move out of my mom house and then idk what to do maybe stay in my own little world.

I Dont Want To Hurt Anymore
i wish this pain would go away. i wish i could forget this past year and forget all the shit ive gone through.i wish i would have left last year like i had planned i think things would be a lot better than they are right now. im such a miserable person i have so much going on inside me and i cant deal with all of it. i came home the other night and my friends mom asked me what was wrong and i just stared at her for a second and took a deep breath and said nothing im just thinking about my day before i go out to dinner. little did she know i just cried for over an hour.ive been avoiding talking to my family and most of my friends just because i dont really want to deal with anything right now. i signd up for a boxing class i figured it would help with some of my agression and maybe help get me into the shape i used to be hahahah . i dont know what im going to do as far as life goes i guess its really just time for me to start living mine.ive gotten rid of a lot of my stuff and i still

I Dont Know How Things Changed So Much Overnight
This is what I'd like to know--You give your heart to that one special person-telling them your dreams and things you never told anyone else- hearing I love you, saying I love you, spending nice weekends together--making plans for the future and then, out of the blue, from nowhere you're hit with a "Dear John" or in my case "Dear Jane". No reason given, won't speak to me-hasn't in a month. I've pretty much, with the exception of a few emails asking why he won't talk to me and what happened, and explaining that you don't just turn feelings off--I even went so far as to send him a copy of an email he'd sent me not too long ago; left him alone like he asked. And every time I see someone we know and they ask how he is, I start crying and say "I don't know, he dumped me." I can't help it -- it hurts and it hurts bad. He's said he'll never date anyone he's dated before again. I just don't know what happened. Everyone is saying give it time, well its pretty damn hard to give it tim

I Don't Care!
I don't care that I can't get that good southern hospitality from these North Carolina people. Most of them are old time southern ghetto project people. You just can't carpetbag anyone with North Carolina people.

I Don't Get It...
Ok I need ppl's advice...I just recently got married...now at the moment I am living with my new husband at his EX mother-in-laws home...now ladies...wouldn't it make you feel uncomfortable if you were married and you had to live with your man's ex mothre-in-law and have to deal with the ex wife coming and going? Now that is how I feel and my husband think that I am this bad person for it...well we have the oppurtunity to move somewhere where we would be better off and my own husband does not want to move with me...so yes another question...if you were married wouldn't you WANT to go with your husband/wife? It seems to me that he is pushing me away and does not want to be with me all that much...we fight all of the time because of this and I cannot take much more of it...what should I do? I love him more than anything in this world but it seems like he doesn't love me back anymore...if he really was so in love with me then he would want to go wherever his wife does correct? I am the on

I Don't Know Why
I Just Don't Know Why I stand here alone surrounded in darkness, confused and disoriented unsure of which way to turn.I don't know why.Left deserted, hollow, and brokenunsure of why my eyes have filled with tears.I don't know why.I do know it means something.I just don't know what.I see a little book here at my feet.It is familiar but foreign just the same.I just don't know why.These words I have heard before.I read the pages and I see me.I just don't know why.As I read, a movie appears before my eyes,I have the leading role.I just don't know why.I cannot help but to be mesmerized unable to turn away.I just don't know why.These are my words.I can hear myself saying themand it's I that I see struggling for air.I just don't know why.One simply little breath I see myself prayfor there in the grip of the beast I lay.I just don't know why.That's him the beast.He's what has consumed my sleepless nightsand tormented my days.I just don't know why.He is real, he does exist,and there I am.Tha

I Don't Mind Do You?
I do not mind being preached to about sins and morality by others. I am a humanist…. I will respect so much and attempt to find more respect. I’ll smile at another’s quest to understand me and rate me. I would prefer they do this to me in person so they can invite rebuttal. To me it’s all good conversation. I am a humanist my boundaries are my own. But they were built with careful observation and listening. The goal being…… to be unbiased and fair. We can have a preaching party. Turn red hot anger of judge and defendant into something rational. Nothing like reason…don’t you think ?

I Don't Want To Be Just Another..........
Just another memory put in a box just another picture to put in a book just another kiss just another person to hold just another girl I want to mean more to you than just a memory that can fade away I want to always last

I Don't Generally Ask For Advice, But...
n. A gal i've known for a while now, we've become pretty close friends.. And at first i Decided that it'd be best to NOT pursue anything more than a friendship with 'er. We hang whenever we have time off together (Both work @ the same place, different shifts.) and it's pretty much a toss up who picks up the tab whenever we go out. Prob is now I'm actually starting to have feelings for her. She tried setting me up w/one of her friends, and I was fine with that.. B/c i figured if that worked out, I wouldn't have to worry about the "what if i start to like her more than a friend" scenario.. The other problem is, seeing as how we are friends, and we talk about..well. everything. I'm about 90% positive that if she had the same interest, and we did hook up..it wouldn't last long because BOTH of us are notoriously bad when it comes to the whole..communication/emotion/Commitment thing, and seeing as it would be setting ourselves up for failure, i'm also quite afraid that our friendship "comf

I Dont Know Why
I don't know why I think about you And you don't think about me I don't know why I dream of you And in your dreams me you don't see I don't know why I miss When I am hardly around you I don't know why I need you And you don't feel that way about me too I don't know why I have feelings for you They have no reason to exist I don't know why I like you Your existence I wish I could forget I don't know why my heart aches for you It really gets to me sometimes I don't know why I cry for you You were never mine I don't know why I think you're the only one for me And I just hope that you'll feel like that too I don't know why I care There's no explanation, I just do

I Dont Get It!
okay.. for those of you that decide you aren't talking to me anymore cuz i am not constantly on your profiles commenting you... get a freakin' LIFE! i have one......... fubar is NOT it!!! i do what i can when i can... if you choose to validate a friendship with how many comments you get... sucks to be you!!! for the rest of yas... i love yas!

I Dont Cry I Bleed!!!
I Don’t Cry I Bleed!!! The words spill from my pen. trying to get it all out. holding it in is what my life is about. I cry myself to sleep at night for reasons I don’t know. trying to pinpoint my feelings, trying not to let them show. how I feel so numb immune to all the pain. watching the blood fall, the dark red stain. my eyes see every detail, making sure I fail. the voices in my head mock, invisible hands on my clock. telling me how to fail, weaning me off my shock. so used to the daily pain, so used to the never ending shame. your trying to ask what’s wrong, while you gaze at your reflection. not hearing my words you’re just trying to act like you have affection. all I see in you is greed. like its off my pain you feed. you lap my blood cause I don’t cry I bleed.

I Dont Want To Be In Love
He Chased me Everywhere i went he told me he never wanted to let go summer love is untouchable the sweet magical air lifted me up u held my hand and we saw stars your kiss made the ice around my heart melt laying in your arms knowing this is all a lie u smile and kiss me on the forehead you dont love me but u sure are good at pretending the moonlight helped me see you but the dark hid my tears devotion of raw emotion he just stood there as my world was falling around me i couldnt take my eyes away from his nothing on his face told me i was on my own it was that last time he would look at me like that

I Dont Get It!!!!!!!
Back in december i joined this dating website and met this really cute guy on there. We talked for quite awhile and then ended up meeting at a local bar one night, Had a great time and it seemed we really liked each other. But at the sametime I got really drunk and i coudlnt drive so he drove me home to his place and of course we ended up sleeping together but he did offer to sleep on the couch and I didnt want him to so you know how that goes. And I honestly thought I would never hear from him again after that but I did the next day at work. So we started dating....talking all the time and seeing each other when we could. He would call me at work to see how i was doing and then call me right after work for no reason and it was nice. Then his truck broke down and so i helped where i could even to lend him money to get it fixed, (what a mistake that was) money i really didnt have to lose but stupid me, i trusted him to pay me back when he got back to work. When ever we went out to dinne

I Dont Like It's Not U
I rate and I rate I draw the line. no im not into not safe for work photo. I freakin watch porn not unless u have a pornstar like photos...o well the hell a freakin movie. it's kewl i belive when u in a realtionship u sure that part with ur mate and even if he know atleast no disrespect..have some with him in it..make more fun and let's pplz know that ur really taken by him..imanges are powerful and can destory weak minded pplz..think about it. OK im not mad at anyone i well veiw them only if u ask now an honest Opinion..i dont think u want it i rate it high i wont post a comment.u dont want it..im very blunt! Just because i have a enis dont mean every photo gives me a rise. p.s. not all guys are the same cause i prove u wrong. all the time try me if u dare

I Dont Kno Wuit To Do
ok this is the deal im a realtionship but i dont like him as i did but i love being with him its werid... My Ex bf in vegas found me on myspace an we have been talking an i dont kno wut to do i mean we stoped talking an that was it we were to busy but now we cought up on old things an connected an i still loved him an still do i dont know wut to do i need advice or sumthing

I Don't Blog But !!!!
I recieved this as a emial I edited it some and sent to everyone I know and have thier email Please take this seriously I really it helps someone some day! Ok Friends This is serious and very real. If you know me well you know that I am all about the details and this is the Truest this I have ever seen online. I will tell my Mother Daughter and dearest friends. I will repost this a few times in the future. It WON'T bring you luck or make you rich BUT It just might save YOUR LIFE! I will Highlight in red want seems to me the scariest parts The crying baby thing happened to me once, and the police told me the exact same thing. Through a Rapist's Eyes (No Joke) This is important information for females of ALL ages. When this was sent to me, I was told to forward it to my lady friends, but I forwarded it to most everyone in my address book. My men friends have female friends and this information is too important to miss someone. Please pass it along .

I Don't Want 2 B A Fubar Star?
Helpful am I and I will prove that soon, and disprove what all are saying I am.I just want my page to be the best it can be and feature some undiscovered artist on my page, don't know how quite to do that but I am putting it out there. If you want me to put you lounge post up I will but I am not into the lounge thing. anything that is not offensive in nature I will put on my page for all to see got a new layout or graphics you wan to spread the word I got your back just drop me a comment and let me know.

I Dont Know What To Call This So Helpp
Im sick of crying all these tears. i havent felt like this in years. u made me feel like a queen untill you turned mean. u lied. cheated. and god only knows what else. what do u want me to say? that im coming back? i dont think so. not after all that u put me through. ure juss not worth all the pain that i have felt and the tears that i cried. if i could take the time that i thought about you, talked to you, cried over you and spent with you. i WOULD be happier then i was before. maybe meeting you was a mistake. the biggest one that i have made. or maybe you letting me go what yours. who knowss. it dont matter in the end. were are NEVER to be again and being friends is juss going to make it worse. not talking to you at all is hopefully the best choice that i have made.

I Don't Want To Work Tomorrow.
I hate working on Sundays, it just sucks. Eveything always goes wrong, people are rude, the kids I work with are brats, and the adults I work with are tired and angry. But I have to pay for school, so I go.

I Don't Wanna Know
don't wanna know I don't wanna know Your eyes were covered in sunglasses When they first met mine I sat there and stared at you You didn't seem to mind The awkward ways we meet First comes heavy breathing Staring at the ceiling What will happen next I don't wanna know I don't wanna know I never cared how i dressed before But i cared that night Anticipation ran through my bones And my clothes never fit right I can't wait 'til we meet again First comes heavy breathing Staring at the ceiling What will happen next I don't wanna know I don't wanna know Framed pictures start to be put on the walls Constant visits while im out on the road Its hard to leave sometimes But you know where i lay my head at night First comes heavy breathing Staring at the ceiling What will happen next I don't wanna know I don't wanna know

"i Do Not Want This" Nin
I'm losing ground you know how this world can beat you down I'm made of clay I fear I'm the only one who thinks this way I'm always falling down the same hill bamboo puncturing this skin and nothing comes bleeding out of me just like a waterfall I'm drowning in 2 feet below the surface I can still make out your wavy face and if I could just reach you maybe I could leave this place I do not want this I do not want this I do not want this I do not want this don't you tell me how I feel don't you tell me how I feel don't you tell me how I feel you don't know just how I feel I stay inside my bed I have lived so many lives all in my head don't tell me that you care there really isn't anything, is there? you would know, wouldn't you? you extend your hand to those who suffer to those who know what it really feels like to those who've had a taste like that means something and oh so sick I am and maybe I don't have a choice and maybe that is all I have and maybe thi

I Don't Ask For Much....
RIGHT NOW I AM JUST TRYIG TO VENT. A FEW DAYS AGO I WAS IN SEARCH OF FUBUCKS (WHO ISNT LOL) ANYWAY A FEW PEOPLE CAME TO ME AND OFFERED ME SOME TO RATE EITHER THEIR STASH OR PICS. I THOUGHT WONDERFUL...BOY WAS I WRONG. ONE PERSON AND I WILL NOT NAME NAMES CAUSE IM NOT LIKE THAT ASKED ME TO RATE THEIR STASH WITH 198 IN IT FOR 10K WOOHOO RIGHT NO NOT AT ALL. I DID WHAT WAS ASKED AND SHOUTED AND MAILED THIS PERSON WITH NO RESPONSE! NOW COME ON I USUALLY GO RIGHT TO WHERE I AM ASKED TO GO WITH NO QUESTION OF WHATS IN IT FOR ME! WHEN YOU MAKE A DEAL GO THROUGH WITH IT!!!! THANKS FOR LETTING ME VENT Crystal

I Don't Know Why I Do This!!!!!!!
i don't know why i do this to myself. if i don't cut it out soon, i think i'm going to have a damn breakdown! i'm getting to the point where i don't even feel like i can function properly. to the point where i can't even hide my streses when i need to. i used to be able to, no matter how horribly everything going, at least fake a smile and a pleasant attitude, especially at work. but i'm getting so bad, that the other day, my supervisor asked me if i was ok, because i haven't been myself lately. and i seemed upset. i just don't know what to do. i'm ridiculous. that's just all there is to it!

I Don't Think That You Know What You've Been Missing. Just Forget Me, It's That Simple
"JUST THINK OF THIS & ME AS JUST A FEW OF THE MANY THINGS TO LIE AROUND, TO CLUTTER UP YOUR SHELVES" You asked me for all of my fucking trust back? Well how about you partake in actions that DESERVE it? I don't fucking hand this shit out, you know how hard it was for me to forgive you for EVERYTHING. For the lying and the shallowness. And now this? You're such a narcissistic shallow asshole. You're only in this to hurt me and now I know the truth so I'm ending everything before it ever has a chance to start. FUCK YOU. k.

I Don't Get It, Maybe You Do
Wonderment As I gaze into your eyes, seeing something I ponder what it may be Your claim is one thing that To yourself may never be free Actions belie the truth Wondering why the deceit Exists at all, secretive Behind the walls, can’t see or peek No doubt of you love for one Or many, as I have the same Only one I can hold high Uncertain if I am held in similar esteem Can only toil on in wonderment Trying to allay the fear Shared, we can conquer it Forever we may hold each other dear.

I Don't See Myself That Way
so I wasn't trying to blow my own airhorns (lol). I dont think of myself as a super genius, or even a regular one. I was just relating how others perceive me. I'm a regular dude, I've had a moderate degree of education, if anything I might be a little warmer than average (well atleast in comparison to truck drivers) . I have my off days just like everyone else, where I set my coffee down and can't find it again for a half hour, I put both contacts in the same eye, and I try to start my car with my house key. you've had those days before, i'm sure............right?............oh, it's just me.............well, ok then.

I Dont Get It
I'm so lost I don't get it.... I wanted him gone, I wanted him out of my life, I never even gave him a chance. I dropped him off and never looked back... I didn't cry I didnt feel anything I just drove away and didn't look back I didn't try to kiss him good bye there were no I love yous NOTHING... He supposedly got married so why am I so upset about it???? I have someone else now I am very happy and in love so why does him being married bother me???? I just don't get it.... GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

I Don't Care How Many Friends I Lose Over This!
I dont care how many friends I lose over this! Month One Mommy I am only 4 inches long but I have all my organs. I love the sound of your voice. The sound of your heart beat is my favorite lullaby. Month Two Mommy today I learned how to suck my thumb. If you could see me you could definitely tell that I am a baby. I'm not big enough to survive outside my home though. It is so nice and warm in here. Month Three You know what Mommy I'm a boy!! I hope that makes you happy. I always want you to be happy. I don't like it when you cry. You sound so sad. It makes me sad too and I cry with you even though you can't hear me. Month Four Mommy my hair is starting to grow. It is very short and fine but I will have a lot of it. I spend a lot of my time exercising. I can turn my head and curl my fingers and toes and stretch my arms and legs. I am becoming quite good at it too. Month Five You went to the doctor today.

I Don't Care
"Are we fighting a war on terror or aren't we? Was it or was it not started by Islamic people who brought it to our shores on September 11, 2001? Were people from all over the world, mostly Americans, not brutally murdered that day, in downtown Manhattan , across the Potomac from our nation's capitol and in a field in Pennsylvania ? Did nearly three thousand men, women and children die a horrible,burning or crushing death that day, or didn't they? And I'm supposed to care that a copy of the Koran was "desecrated" when an overworked American soldier kicked it or got it wet?..Well, I don't. I don't care at all. I'll start caring when Osama bin Laden turns himself in and repents for incinerating all those innocent people on 9/11. I'll care about the Koran when the fanatics in the Middle East start caring about the Holy Bible, the mere possession of which is a crime in Saudi Arabia . I'll care when these thugs tell the world they are sorry for hacking off Nick Berg's hea

I Don't Know...
I don't know why it seems that I can not do anything right. I want something, usually I do what I can to "get it"...but things seem so illusive to me now. I know what I want, and can't seem to get in the right direction. My personal life is crazy, my home life is making me want to pull my hair out, school is just as bad some days, and to top it all off, my son seems to think that I need a husband and it's just that easy. Which made me realize, after dinner and a movie with my son tonight that I want that more than he will ever know. But whe he doesn't know and what he will never know, is that most men that I come acrossed are not good enough for him. And the ones that I think are or could be, it just doesn't work out for whatever the reason. I don't know what to do anymore. I am to the point that I should just give up and continue doing everything that I have been and do the best I can by my son. He is the most important person in my life, and if I don't do right by him, then

I Dont Know
(i am to drunk to care what i am saying or about me spelling) I love you. Ever wonder what those words mean? 3 words that get tossed around more then any other, with "i hate you" a close 2nd. (think about that) Do you ever think people say it to people just so they can hear people say it back to them? Does that make it any less true? We all want to hear someone say "I love you" (i'm not sure where i am going with this) They say you cant love someone untill you love your self, but can any one love YOU if you dont lover your self? What if i just kind of like myself? What is it that makes you love some one? Does it happen over time, you just know some one so long that one day you say i have known them for 5 years now i love them. Does it happen in a day? Can it happen in a day? Ever say i love you to some one you didnt? Ever had to act like you didnt love some one as much as you really do cause they dont want you? Has any one every told you "your too good for me" and you wanted to spit in

I Dont Know Anymore!!!
Seems like now things arent going so well with my life right now. I've been getting rid of people that are not doing me no good to be friends and even associates with. I'm tired of all the Bull i have been putting up with. I'm not going through no more with anybody else. I've been hurt by some people and things that they have done to me or just stupid, unconciderate choices that they have made. Its like nobody can be true and upfront anymore!!!!! It hurts to know that people that you thought you knew turns out to be just Crap like everybody else said that they were!!! I'm not be cruel...JUST BEING TOTALLY REAL!!!!!

I Dont Care Anymore !
I WANT TO SAY TO SOME TRUE FRIENDS, I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU FOR LOVING ME, NO MATTER WHAT, AND I LOVE YOU FOR MAKING SURE THAT I FEEL SPECIAL IN YOUR LIFE! I HOPE THAT I MAKE YOU FEEL AS GOOD AS YOU DO ME, AND I CAN ONLY HOPE THAT I CAN GIVE YOU HALF OF WHAT YOU GIVE ME. THESE PEOPLE ARE TRUE... Mémºî®è™¿§îñglè Ñ £ººkîñg ¿Fµ-¿♥ ² ^§îñ^@ fubar ~ Ace of Hearts ~@ fubar ☠☠☠BrightEyedArtist☠☠☠@ fubar Lonely Old Grizzly Bear@ fubar I DONT SEE THEM JUST WHEN THEY NEED SOMETHING FROM ME. THEY SHOW ME LOVE ON A DAILY BASIS, UNCONDITIONALLY. AS I DO THEM. THEY ARE WHAT THE MEANING OF FRIENDSHIP IS ALL ABOUT, AND I AM SO THANKFUL TO HAVE THEM. THIS ISNT MEANT TO UPSET ANYONE ELSE THAT I HAVE THE HONOR OF BEING FRIENDS WITH AT ALL, SO PLEASE DONT TAKE IT THE WRONG WAY...IF YOU WILL READ THE REST OF THE BULLETIN I THINK YOU'LL UNDERSTAND WHAT IM TRYING TO SAY... THANK YOU FRIEND, FOR COMING TO ME TO ASK FOR A BULLETIN, EVEN THOUG

I Dont Understand Men
ok i know that most on my page are men so maybe ya'll might learn from this or look at women in a different light. idk it's worth a try. i know the ideal women for most men are tall beautiful and SKINNY. well those of us with kids are not always so lucky to bounce back after words. i have a son and i had twins. so i aint nearly as small as i use to be. and no so sorry but i cant hola hoop through a cheerio either. now before kids i could. but hey i love them and i wouldnt trade then for the wolrd. but so u know med. women or big women their aint nothing wrong with that. i have never said i was skinny and those who think that sorry for ya but i aint. i like my clothes baggie as hell and i like comfort. now and then i will wear a tight shirt and then they know i aint that big. but to those who are like that thats nasty and fucked up and naw they just dont care they let their self go. ya'll are wrong. i can olny hope that one day men will open their eyes and look beyond and ge

I Don't Get It
two days ago I woke up with a bruise on my butt, and one on my leg. And yesterday I woke up with a fuckin bump on my head that HURRRTS, like I hit it. The catch is, I sleep alone during the day, and have NO idea where those came from. Just completely baffled, esp the head one. Its a good sized bump too...

I Don't Want To Be A Slave
THE WINNING BIDDER IN THIS AUCTION WANTS TO MAKE ME HER SLAVE. SLAVERY IS OVER I KNOW MY BID WILL NOT STAND SO IF U R MY FRIEND OR FAMILY MEMBER PLEASE BID ON ME AND SAVE ME FROM BEING THIS LADY SLAVE.

I Don't Understand
Im sick of arrogant men! i can't stand males who are so self-absorbed that they neglect to see beyond what's in front of them! I don't understand how some men hold such strong beliefs that they are a God's gift to women and behave in such a manner which sees them rope in a victim, use them once,extract all they need to get out of that girl in order to fulfill their ego, abuse their right, and emotionally manipulate them so they feel worthless and like a piece of garbage. It sickens me that these men roam our streets, whilst innocent animals are shot everyday. In my eyes there is no place for sexually crazed men in society, and there's definately no place in this world, which gives them the right to use and abuse women when ever the please. The law talks about justice, but where's the justice here: if a women sleeps around she is called a tramp, but yet when men sleep around, they are considered masters to their peers, and it's this low level intellectual ability which is gover

I Don't Know
...if I showed you guys this or not. That would be Jeff after a very traumatizing experience at one of the stores he runs. First time I saw it, I damn near laughed till I shit myself. For the 2 people that read this, sleep well and nighty night.

I Don't Even Know
I hate myself. I ruined it like I ruin everything else in my life. I fuck up anything good. That's all I am, I'm just a fuck up. I was so sure things were gonna be ok. I felt like things were starting to go the way they should and I thought he did too but now I have no idea. I don't know what to do, I don't know what to think. I'm broken. I don't this anymore. I don't want to go through this pain again. It hurts so much. I just want to this to be fixed. I want this to work out. I am giving my all and I am trying so hard, why isn't my best good enough? Why am I never enough? This doesn't feel right, this is not how this is supposed to be. I am my biggest mistake. I am shit to me. Everything I touch turns to shit. I can't hold on to something that doesn't want to be there, but I don't know how to let go. How I can I just turn my back on what I love? How can I just forget the best thing I have ever had? How did it come to this? How could he want this? All I wanna do

I Dont Know
i dont know what to do my life is almost at its breaking point...im so lost...and i have no one to find me...everything feels like its falling apart...i cant stand the fact that i cant be happy for once...thats all i want...and no one seems to want to let be happy...it sux...im on a rollercoaster and i got got alot going on...this sux...i hate it...i want it to go away...im tierd of being sad...im tierd of being lonely...im tierd of my life just going no where...im tierd of losing ppl most dear to me...im tierd of my world crumbling...im at the bottom of a dark pit i need to get out....

I Don't Care How Many Friends I Lose Over This....
Message: MOMMY I am only 4 inches long but I have all my organs. I love the sound of your voice. The sound of your heart beat is my favorite lullaby. Month Two Mommy today I learned how to suck my thumb. If you could see me you could definitely tell that I am a baby. I'm not big enough to survive outside my home though. It is so nice and warm in here. Month Three You know what Mommy I'm a boy!! I hope that makes you happy. I always want you to be happy. I don't like it when you cry. You sound so sad. It makes me sad too and I cry with you even though you can't hear me. Month Four Mommy my hair is starting to grow. It is very short and fine but I will have a lot of it. I spend a lot of my time exercising. I can turn my head and curl my fingers and toes and stretch my arms and legs. I am becoming quite good at it too. Month Five You went to the doctor today. Mommy, he lied to you. He said that I'm not a baby. I

I Don't Think So
A husband is at home watching a football game when his wife interupts. "honey, could you fix the light in the hallway? It's been flickering for weeks now." He looks at her and says angrily . "fix the light ? Now ? Does it look like I have a G.E. logo pringted on my forehead? I don't think so." "Well could you fix the fridge door? It won't close right." To which he replied "fix the fridge door ? Does it look like I have Westinghouse written on my forehead? I don't think so." "Fine ," she says "Then could you at lest fix the steps to the front door? They are about to break.""I'm not a damb carpenter and I don't want to fix the steps," He says "Does it look like I have Ace Hardware written on my forehead.I don't think so" " I've had enough of you .I'm going to the bar!!" So he goes to the bar and drinks for a couple of hours. He starts to feel guilty about how he treated his wife and decides to go home and help out. As he walks into the house he notices the steps are already

I Don't Know Why
i don't know why only when my mood is terribly bad now i find i want to type some words on my blog.May be this is the world anybody never ever knows me.Maybe on only this fictious world can i find myself.i dont know myself enough.sometime i just try to exhaust all my energy and then lie down on my basketball ground dazing in the sky .i just want to lost myself.but i work hard everyday.may be its just follow others' life way.other people study and i study,then other people get married and i do the same thing.perhaps its life.i don't know why i dont upload my blog when i am delighted.why don't i share my happiness to others? bear it in mind.

I Dont Know You Anymore
I would like to visit you for a while Get away and out of this city Maybe I shouldnt have called but someone had to be the first to break We can go sit on your back porch Relax Talk about anything It dont matter Ill be courageous if you can pretend that youve forgiven me Because I dont know you anymore I dont recognize this place The picture frames have changed and so has your name We dont talk much anymore We keep running from the pain But what I wouldnt give to see your face again Springtime in the city Always such relief from the winter freeze The snow was more lonely than cold If you know what I mean Everyones got an agenda dont stop Keep that chin up youll be all right Can you believe what a year its been Are you still the same Has your opinion changed cause I dont know you anymore I dont recognize this place The picture frames have changed and so has your name We dont talk much anymore We keep running from these sentences But what I wouldnt give

I Don't Like You
you don't know me yet you act as you do you think your all that you think i want you well then you don't really know me do you? i don't want you i got what i want i am a the property of an American Soldier and i am soon to be married he is my life where you are not i am not yours so don't act like i am i don't want to be mean really i don't but don't tell me you love me don't act like its my fault i never did nothing to make you fall for me i only sat and listened as you talked i am not yours i will never be just go away i don't want to be mean please just oh please go away

I Dont Know What To Do
ok i like two different guys on here and i know one likes me the way i like him. the other dont really know that i am alive. well he does but we dont talk much just in the lounge that i work in when he comes in. i did a stupid thing and let him see something. he said he liked it but i dont know. god why do i have to be so dam stupid. i know i will never meet them in person but i wish i could. i would love to do bad things with both of them. oh well i will live i guess.

"i Don't Want Aides"...
or "...maybe we can't have a child and it's your fault!"... or "...that scar tissue is from some sex disease"... WHAT DO WE THINK gets thought of us? Women are stuck with their virtue proved by their physicians diagnosis. YEP... he reads it wrong... you're in hell. Condemned because he had the mind of a "typical male" rather than that of an astute physician. For example: Notes from a divorce reads " DUE TO PHYSICAL ABUSE"... it means the woman was beaten by her husband. Internal abdominal scarring eventually develops and that results in pain and agony until she goes in for a physical. Laproscopy reveals lesions tying her insides together... not from infection but from healed over scars (keloids, lypomas, lesions) Meanwhile, she gets labled as a ...slut. There was an entire health department in my home town focusing on the sluts in our community... who could have guessed that physical abuse was the matter? Most had been hit in the belly, and other area of their body, like a man.

I Dont Care
dont get upset when i speak my mind. u may get ur feelings hurt...but dont worry u will be alright. the good LORD gave me a voice and i will let it be heard to u I WILL NOT BOW down understand i aint the one to fuck with ... never then and defiantly not now. i dont hold my tongue ... i dont lower my head and run. by the time i get done saying wut i have to say I WILL HAVE U LOOKIN DUMB others have been stun.... with all i have said and done. with u i will not spare i dont give a fuck , i dont care. tears is wut u will wear like i said i dont give a fuck ... I DONT CARE!!! (JUST KNOW THIS IS JUST A POEM I WROTE...ITS NOT ME)

I Don't Know What I'm Going To Do
My apartment complex in Georgia called me today and asked me if I could move in at a later date. I told them there was no way I could change my move it and that I asked for July 11 as my move-in day in early March. Well he told me that the building I'm supposed to move into will not be ready by then. There's been some set backs and the furniture will not be in in time. On top of that the property manager is in the hospital and won't be in until next Monday. So next Monday they will call me and tell me what they are going to do. I'm so irritated. My mom and her b/f are moving me down there and once they're gone the net day, I have no one to help me move. So if they put me in one room and make me move in a few weeks into my apartment, I'll have no help to move an apartment's worth of stuff. They were supposed to put me in building 6 or 7 which are right by the office, but for whatever reason I got moved to building 8 which is now not done. I don't know what they are going to come up with

I Dont Want To Sleep
im tired and my eyes hurt but i don't want to go to sleep because im afraid of what dreams i may have . i would be fine if i didn't remember them but im such a visual person and everything is so fucking real in my dreams.too real.i touch i feel i hear i smell i taste and its just tooo real.it sucks so im going to stay up as long as i can.but eventually i shall sleep.i just wish someone would wake me up

I Don't Know...
As most of you know, a few weeks ago, phil dumped me. i was fine, it was his loss, etc. Well, his friend brian started hanging out with me to try and cheer me up, because when phil and i were together, i was basically a hermit. And our groups of friends wanted me to come back, and rp with them. which i love to do. Well, it happened accidentally. brian and i ended up growing feelings for each other, like i said, accidentally. it wasn't planned. Well, now Phil's being all lovey-dove, and acting like nothing happened. and it's... hard, for me to understand what he really wants. I think he sort of knows about brian and i, from the way he held my hand at the last laodisia game session, but that's a huge maybe. I still love him, and i'm sort of in an awkward position. Because Brian, though i like him alot, seems to be horribly smitten with me. and, i don't know what to do. i sort of want to play it single, what with how confused i am. i need to get over phil before i can be anyt

I Don't Know When I'll Be Back
Hey everyone, I'm not sure when I'll be back online. I am moving today, and then tomorrow I have surgery. I will have no access to highspeed internet for atleast a week. So don't miss me too much while I'm gone, if you do then show lots of love. This is going to be a lil tough for me to get through. Lots o' Love Happy

I Don't Deserve
As I sit here trying so hard to hold back my tears, I realize how much I don't deserve. I don't deserve to be happy. All I ever do is make people miserable. I don't deserve children. I've lost two already. I don't deserve a relationship. I'll only ruin it and cause them pain. I don't deserve a family. It would only be more people for me to hurt. I don't deserve the luck I've had. I don't deserve the car I have. I don't deserve the kindness of my moms boyfriend. I don't deserve the job I have. I'm not qualified for it and I only got it because I got lucky and have worked there so long. I don't deserve my life. So I sit here thinking. How did my life get this way? It wasn't always this way. So how did it end up this way without my realizing it? Is it fixable? Even if I fix it I would still deserve nothing. I'm not a bad person. I don't cause trouble. I don't get arrested. I don't do drugs. I don't smoke anything. I don't physically harm anyone. How did I get this w

I Don't Know Where To Call Home Anymore
Well, I am back home, barely. For the past month, since getting this job as an insurance agent, I have been away from where I live, literally. As I said before, I was up in Glenview at the school getting some training, which lasted for three weeks, and now I have been in the Danville area for the past two weeks. This coming week, I am going to be in the Quad cities area, on the Illinois side, getting one hundred units signed up to Combined Insurance for some Ardmore week the company has twice a year. At first, I thought this job would be perfect for me; it will manage my time on the field and with my business, I will be free from supervision breathing down my neck, and I can practice my skills on meeting people. Now, it’s starting to look like this job wants me to think only about Combined Insurance and nothing else. I mean, it made as though you cannot have a life other than this, and it’s starting to disappoint me. Thankfully, I got my car tuned and fixed up being I have to dr

I Dont Know
Ok for all who knows me knows that im nothing mean im the sweetest person..i will never hurt anyone steal anything from anyone i ask if i can rip a picture.i try to make ppl on here happy and stuff. but someone on here is making me look bad. i put my midget on myspace and yearbook. and some joined under that..well i dont know who it is but she has a fake account..she took someones name profile and skin.and i cant do anything about it. yes i have two account mine and my sister that i help her with cause she has no computer..but that is it. i dont make fake account no time to.. im sorry to the lady that she stole it from the real one is Anne ~Miss FU-Fabulous~~PLZ do NOT rip. I work hard on my page & it doesn't need to be yours i cant get a link case she blocked me cause i invited the fake on and i understand that.. but maybe this will get to her somehow..this is the fake account.. _Anne ~Miss FU-Fabulous~~PLZ do NOT rip. I work hard on my page & it doesn't need to be yours@

I Dont Care Anymore
IF YOU KNOW ME THEN YOU MIGHT UNDERSTAND I JUST DONT PUT UP WITHA LOT OF SHIT AND WHY SHOULD I IM NOT FRUCKN SUPERMAN LIKE ANYONE CARES ANY WAYS BUT JSUT TO LET YALL KNWO IM TAKINA BREAK FROM HERE FOR AWHILE AND IF YOU KNOW HOW TO GET AHOLD OF ME THEN TRY I MIGHT ANSWER THEN AGAIN I MIGHT NOT BUT THATS FOR ME TO DESIDE NOT U AND IF YOU HAVE ANY ? JUST ASK AND I MIGHT ANSWER THEN AGAIN I MIGHT NOT BUT EVERY1 TAHT IS IN ME FAMILY LIST LOVVE YA ALL BUT IM NOT HERE FOR ABIT HAVE TO DO SOME SELF WORK AND NO1 CAN HELP ME BUT ME AND THATS HOW IT WIL STAY SO LATER FUBAR IM BACK OUT AND NOT READIN THAT MAIL OR EMAIL

I Dont Know Wtf
Sitting here alone i wonder what am i to do this cursed arm of mine causing me so much pain an grief i wonder if i'll ever find love? ive wonder what love could even be why it is what it is why i feel it why its there why it exists if all it causes is pain i'm so lost an confused i thought what i wanted was what i wanted now things in my head arent as they used to be everythings jumbled everythings confusing i just want it all to get better i wanna find someone i can love someone that'll love me i need this i need that attention that fucken god damn fucken emotion LOVE I NEED IT DAMMIT!!!!

I Dont Have A Damn Clue...
so hmmmm i've lost my footing my grasp on the ground an now here i sit its 3 44am i got work in the morning an im still awake what am i waiting for? someone to call? txt me? maybe..... ive waited an waited but nothing ohwell. I'm falling apart my hearts gone an i'm only getting worse why am i self destructing....is it my own fault? did i cause my own decay?.. i tried as best i could but now i just feel like im faling apart from the inside out an it blows theres nothing i can do to stop this bleeding.... i'll be gone soon anyways I sit here thinking contemplating my life the lives of others. i wanna make things better but i know i cant do anything like that in the condition im in.... all i'll cause is more pain when i open my mouth so i'm left with my other alternative an thats written word gotta get those feelings out somehow right ? go blog..... fucken hell im so damn lost an confused i wish there was an easy solution to this feeling...

I Don't Nbelieve In Love - Stabilo Boss
Excuse me miss I seem to have lost track of time What just happened? How long have I been lying here? Spread out on my back You just confirmed my greatest fear Sick and tired of being this way I know how much you hurt And how you know how hard I tried to change Right all along, you told me I was fading Nothing left for them to say "Goodluck. You're gonna need it boy, you'll need it babe If you're going to live that way" Chorus: I don't believe in love You don't owe me anything Believe me when I say I could change some day I don't believe in love You don't owe me anything If you need a place to hide I am on your side I know it's hard to find an open mind The wildest ones were left behind And thought they had it all And knew exactly how we fall I thought we'd seize the moment [You're the sight]?? The flames they rose high up to our knees We tired to hide and hide the lies I want to be alone And on my own All the holy bones I want to feel

I Don't Wonna Miss A Thing
I DON'T WONNA MISS A THING I could stay awake just to hear you breathing Watch you smile while you are sleeping While you're far away, dreaming I could spend my life in this sweet surrender I could stay lost in this moment forever Every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure I don't want to close my eyes I don't want to fall asleep 'Cause I'd miss you, baby And I don't want to miss a thing 'Cause even when I dream of you The sweetest dream will never do I'd still miss you baby And I don't want to miss a thing Lying close to you feeling your heart beating And I'm wondering what you're dreaming Wondering if it's me you're seeing Then I kiss your eyes And thank God we're together I just want to stay with you in this moment forever Forever and ever I don't want to close my eyes I don't want to fall asleep 'Cause I'd miss you, baby And I don't want to miss a thing 'Cause even when I dream of you The sweetest dream will never do I'd still miss you baby

I Don't Put Up With Stupid Shit!
Ok so here it goes. I wait for no one anymore I laugh at those who think it is funny to pull on emotions and play games. I walk away from those who think it is cute to have girls fight over them. I will just let go and say not worth it. I deserve someone who will be all mine and I will have no bullshit. Just that simple. i don't play games. I don't put up with bullshit :) don't you wish more girls were like that?

I Don't Believe In Love
On fear of annoying everyone, here's another song, lol. This song by no way reflects any of my feelings (at this time anyways) before anyone asks. I awoke on impact Under surveillance from the camera eye Searching high and low The criminal mind found at the scene of the crime Handcuffed and blind, I didn't do it She said she loved me I guess I never knew But do we ever, ever really know? She said she'd meet me on the other side But I knew right then, I'd never find her I don't believe in love I never have, I never will I don't believe in love It's never worth the pain that you feel No more nightmares, I've seen them all From the day I was born, they've haunted my every move Every open hand's there to push and shove No time for love it doesn't matter She made a difference I guess she had a way Of making every night seem bright as day Now I walk in shadows, never see the light She must have lied 'cause she never said goodbye I don't believe in

I Don't Like To Be Told What To Do!
So, when someone friend requests me and says I should be their friend it instantly makes me not want to. I get that same feeling I had when I was 16 years old and my mother would tell me how I couldn't and shouldn't be friends with certain people and it only made me want to defy her requests that much more! I always ending up doing what I wanted to do and it eventually concluded with me in a whole lot of trouble most of the time! Since most people know I'm married, I don't get a whole lot of requests, which is fine by me. I realize the vast majority of weirdos around here are looking for something I'm unwilling to offer, so unfaithed I continue... Just like the fact that being married can hinder me here in the chance of meeting a really cool person (friend) it constricts me in my day to day life because of my husband's chosen profession. In all honesty, I hate that there is a double standard. I hate that people are fake and only want to know me for that reason or the op

I Don't Know What To Do
Ok so there is this person that I am totally crushing on. THe sad thing is that he lives on the other side of the states from me. The possibility of us ever becoming something is not looking so good. We have talked and so forth and I really like him. He has feelings as well which sucks. I hate to see him in such turmoil and know he is going through a lot. A part of me wants to be there to pick up the pieces but I know that it is not my job and also can't be done right now which sucks even worse. If I am nothing more than a mere fantasy, a hope of something that he really wants and needs in a relationship and we become amazing friends than I guess I have lost nothing. If I walk away and it is too hard to talk to him and vise versa than I have lost something very special. I don't want to pull away, that is not my style. HE is very special and holds a special place in my life. I guess all it can be is a fantasy and the images of him haunt me every day. I could be cleaning the house and al

I Don't Understand Friends
I rush to the aid of what I thought was a friend only to find out that after all the time, I'm disposable. I'm like a used fucking razor. Single use i guess. Use once and toss out. And it isn't as thought this is someone I just met. I have known her a long time. She burned someone I have cared about for what seems like forever now. And in doing so, she burned me. Time heals scars. But what about hearts?

I Don't Care-apocalyptica W/adam Gontier
Try to make it through my life, in my way, there's you I try to make it through these lies, that's all I do Just don't deny it Just don't deny it and deal with it Yeah deal with it You try to break me, You wanna break me... bit by bit, That's just part of it If you were dead or still alive I don't care, I don't care And all the things you left behind I don't care, I don't care I try to make you see my side Always trying to stay in line But your eyes see right through That's all they do I'm getting tired of this shit I've got no room when it's like this What you want of me just deal with it If you were dead or still alive I don't care, I don't care And all the things you left behind I don't care, I don't care (nothing can care about, nothing can care about) (you won't be there for me, you won't be there for me) If you were dead or still alive I don't care, I don't care And all the things you left behind I don't care, I don't care If

I Dont Know
Friends are something that you cant let go when you have them. Me? Ive lost more then my share of friends. I really hope i find some here that will stick with me till the end. So for now im all alone in this crazy world waiting for someone to change my luck

I Do Not Love You ..
I do not love you except because I love you; I go from loving to not loving you, From waiting to not waiting for you My heart moves from cold to fire. I love you only because it's you the one I love; I hate you deeply, and hating you Bend to you, and the measure of my changing love for you Is that I do not see you but love you blindly. Maybe January light will consume My heart with its cruel Ray, stealing my key to true calm. In this part of the story I am the one who Dies, the only one, and I will die of love because I love you, Because I love you, Love, in fire and blood. - Pablo Neruda

I Don't Have To Be Nice Now..
No, I didnt suddenly find religion, though I have spent some time on my knees, and shouting oh god. and no i didnt suddenly have one of those mind blowing orgasms that drop you to your knees and make you kiss the ass of the man responsible for making you tingle in all your pink parts and putting the curl back in your hair. I didnt wake up to find Ed Mcmahon on my doorstep handing me a card board check, standing beside a cabana boy in a yellow bananna hammock, hung like he was smugling in polish sausage. No i didnt break away from the unhealthy lifestyle of drinking a few acoholic beverages while watching the t.v snacking on pringles and brownies while sitting on my celulite covered ass. OH MY GOD...........the revelation? I dont have to be nice anymore. For years I was the egg shell walking, glass breaking bitch, who would be nice to my ex's because karma has a way of being a bitch , and ripping out your back hair while sliding down the crack of your ass with an M16, she is waiting t

I Do Not Fear Death...
I do not fear DEATH for he is a comfort to me. I fear LIFE. For LIFE brings pain and sorrow and loss. LIFE can also bring some happiness but along with the happiness is BURDEN. I cannot shoulder BURDEN as he is heavy. BURDEN brings you down. LOVE is all of these in one. LOVE is full of LIFE that brings u happiness and joy.You BURDEN love because you lean on her and u need her to live.Without LOVE is DEATH.. and without DEATH there is no LIFE.

I Dont Know What To Do Anymore
My husband and I have been split up for about 5 months now after being together for 7 years. I found out about a month and a half ago that he has been living with another woman for about 3 and 1/2 months now. When she found out about me she pushed for him to file for divorce so we met up and signed papers. He insisted on being the one to go turn them in to the court for whatever reason (normally he would have left something like that up to me). Well when I call the court to make sure everything was turned in and right they say he turned in everything but the page that was signed and notarized (the most important paper) and a paper that only he had to fill out. Tell me he didn't do that on purpose! Well now he won't talk to me and he avoids me at all cost even when I am trying to sign new papers. I don't understand what is going on. He is the one that left and said he wanted a divorce so despite the fact that I still love him with all my heart I have tried to just get it over with. I ha

I Dont Know
I know no pain, I feel no fear. It's almost time, I shed no tear. I see the light, I hear the scream's. Hoping it's all, Just a dream. I have no peace, I have no shame. Here's my life, And i'm to blame!!! I've lost what's left, Of this broken heart. I know now, I fallen apart. This is the ending, I'm truly damned. I cannot change, Who i am!!!! by;P.Arnold

I Don't Want To Miss A Thing-aerosmith
I could stay awake just to hear you breathing Watch you smile while you are sleeping While you're far away and dreaming I could spend my life in this sweet surrender I could stay lost in this moment forever Where every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure Don't want to close my eyes I don't want to fall asleep Cause I'd miss you babe And I don't want to miss a thing Cause even when I dream of you The sweetest dream will never do I'd still miss you babe And I don't want to miss a thing Lying close to you feeling your heart beating And I'm wondering what you're dreaming Wondering if it's me you're seeing Then I kiss your eyes And thank God we're together I just want to stay with you in this moment forever Forever and ever I don't want to close my eyes I don't want to fall asleep Cause I'd miss you babe And I don't want to miss a thing Cause even when I dream of you The sweetest dream will never do I'd still miss you babe And I don't want to miss

I Don't Want To Play In Your Yard
Once there lived side by side Two little girls Used to dress just alike Hair done in curls Blue gingham pinafores Stockings of red And a sweet bonnet tied On each pretty head School days are over Secrets they tell As they go hand in hand Down by the dell One day a quarrel rose! Hot tears were shed "I don't wanna play in YOUR yard!" And the other said "I don't wanna play in YOUR yard I don't like you anymore You'll be sorry when you see me Sliding down my cellar door You can't holler down my rain barrel You can't climb my apple tree! I don't wanna play in YOUR yard If you can't be good to me!"

I Don't Get It
My mom is again trying to control me, I am so angry right now I want to hit something. She wants me to sign a document stating that I will agree to her rules, or she will not sign the mortgage paperwork. She will not sign anything stating that she is choosing not to have a financial interest. So basically she wants me to pay and have her still reap the benefits of it. I am so tired of this...........

I Dont Kno
sometimes i wonder should u really tell someone u care alot for them.. or should u just be ther and not any saying.. sometimes i wonder why keep everything so hidden. is it because im to scared to see myself really in love for someone that may not love m e back.. or what.. ive been hurt way to many t imes and ive been played to many times.. should i j ust sit here and not worry about that one peron i would love to talk to- would love to get to know.. would love to be with.. or should i just not even worry..

I Dont Have A Name For This Sue Me Lol
who said being dropped as a child is a bad thing look at some of the shit I come up with ok so maybe I was dropped several times but that's not the point the point is when you hurt you're head you have good ideas and that's why pumpkin pie is good (yep I just said that) pie is a good guy unless that bastard cake is around cake has it out for pie I think its because pie has a nicer home but those two need to learn to get along. then you have the cookies, they cant be trusted. they steal wedding rings and then put them in you're mouth when you eat them must be some form of cookie karate. Brownies aren't as bad as cookies they aren't out to get you as long you don't cut them the wrong way and that's sad because I am afraid to cut my brownies out of fear of being raped by my snack, and you cant keep these 2 in the same they have jealousy issues when you eat one the other gets pissed off if you try to have both you wonder who broke the damn cookie it was the brownie I would like to continue

I Dont Get It
i dont understand when people ask a question, they get an answer they dont like, so they then hate you because u said something that offended them. and after aplogizing and try to explain yourself, your blocked. it wasnt my intention to be rude or pissy or be a bitch, all i tried to do is apologiz. well i really wonder why people add me here?

I Dont Want To Be An American Idiot
http://www.pe.com/localnews/politics/stories/PE_News_Local_S_buck16.3d67d4a.html The latest newsletter by an Inland Republican women's group depicts Democratic presidential candidate Barack Obama surrounded by a watermelon, ribs and a bucket of fried chicken, prompting outrage in political circles. The October newsletter by the Chaffey Community Republican Women, Federated says if Obama is elected his image will appear on food stamps -- instead of dollar bills like other presidents. The statement is followed by an illustration of "Obama Bucks" -- a phony $10 bill featuring Obama's face on a donkey's body, labeled "United States Food Stamps." The GOP newsletter, which was sent to about 200 members and associates of the group by e-mail and regular mail last week, is drawing harsh criticism from members of the political group, elected leaders, party officials and others as racist. Story continues below Special to The Press-Enterprise An Inland Republican women’s grou

I Don't Like To B*tch But I Have Too
I would like to say I love & respect all my friends here and several of you have my number.I speak to some alot and some once in a while and some I chose not to talk to at all any more because of circumstances they may be involved around it.My bitching crisis is this,even though I love talking to you all,I have told everyone that has my number in some way or another that my dad is here visiting me. We are going through somewhat of a crisis over someone very dear to us.You may see me online or even leaving comments as to get a break away from it all,it does not mean I am always here,I could move my mouse or dad could get on this thing and make it look like I am here. What I am asking is please for one make sure it is me and two please let me call you before you call the house,my dad is questioning things about how I live with men calling here.All girls to there dad are good little girls and rather you like me or not to him I will remain his baby girl under all cost so if it continues

I Dont Care
I try to make it through my life, in my way, there's you I try to make it through these lies, that's all I do Just don't deny it Just don't deny it and deal with it, yeah Just deal with it You try to break me, You wanna break me...bit by bit, That's just part of it If you were dead or still alive I don't care, I don't care And all the things you left behind I don't care, I don't care I try to make you see my side Always trying to stay in line But your eyes see right through That's all they do I'm getting tired of this shit I've got no room when it's like this What you want of me just deal with it SO! If you were dead or still alive I don't care, I don't care And all the things you left behind I don't care, I don't care (nothing can care about, nothing can care about) (you won't be there for me, you won't be there for me) If you were dead or still alive I don't care, I don't care And all the things you left behind I don't care, I don't care

I Don't Have To Lie For Pussy... Do I?
The player is the kind of guy who will say anything to get a "yes" out of a girl. A player will whisper sweet nothings into her ear in order to get her to spread her legs even if his intension is to bolt as soon as she falls asleep. There are a few girls who fall for shit like this these days. Most of them, have deluded ideals on what romance is because they saw one too many Meg Ryan movies... The funny part is... guys don't have to do this anymore. It's 2008. Women don't have to wear a scarlet fucking letter for having a one night stand here and there like they used too. They can have fuck buddies and not be chastised by their friends. So... My approach goes a little something like this: "I am having a great time. I would love for it to go further, but I am not looking for anything serious right now and I do not want to lead you on." Most girls find this level of "honesty" refreshing. They like the fact that you are not playing games or bullshitting like "players" do.

I Don't Know Who I Am Without You.
I don't know what I've done Or if I like what I've become but you mean more to me, then anyone I've ever loved at all you've taught me to trust myself, and love me for me I don't know who i am without you When I look back on everything we've been though, it makes me wanna cry cause for a second, all the fights disappear and for that moment in time, I wish it would freeze I don't know who I am without you I've made plenty of mistakes, over and over but you looked past all of my flaws and mistakes and accepted me for the way I am, I don't know who I am without you I think that the day you leave me, is the day my world will come to an end because baby you are my life, my soul, my eyes, my ears, my lover and my friend, but most importantly you are my heart I don't know who I am without you. I love you so much

I Don't Know How Much More I Can Take
2 nights ago my husband(with whom i'm seperated) sent me a message on fubar and told me to get the will together because he wants to kill himself. Yesterday morning he was admitted back into the psych ward, while waiting for a room he tried to kill himself with a fork in the Emergency Room. I feel like everything is going out of control so fast. The reason my husband and I are no longer together is because he was diagnosed with Anti-Social Personality Disorder. Really long story there! But if you know anything about the disorder it is sometimes considered sociopath or psychopath disorder. It's a very complicated disorder to deal with, especially for the family and close friends. I don't know what the future will hold. I'm so hurt and confused and angry and scared!

I Don't Make Mumms...
so, i have this idea, you know how some stores say if you buy something & see it at a lower price within about a week or so, they'll give you the difference back. Anyway, can't i go shop at walmart today since it's open & buy everything i want then go back tomorrow with my receipt & get it at the super cheap prices & get some cash back??? Or am I a complete idiot?

I Don't Care If I Lose Friends Over This.....
Month one Mommy I am only 4 inches long but I have all my organs I love the sound of your voice The sound of your heart beat is my favorite lullaby Month Two Mommy today I learned how to suck my thumb If you could see me you could definitely tell that I am a baby I'm not big enough to survive outside my home though It is so nice and warm in here Month Three You know what Mommy I'm a boy!! I hope that makes you happy I always want you to be happy I don't like it when you cry You sound so sad It makes me sad too and I cry with you even though you can't hear me Month Four Mommy my hair is starting to grow It is very short and fine but I will have a lot of it I spend a lot of my time exercising I can turn my head and curl my fingers and toes and stretch my arms and legs I am becoming quite good at it too Month Five You went to the doctor today Mommy, he lied to you He said that I'm not a baby...

I Dont Belong To Anyone, Got It!
from: Firechief/Found... Online (Hotties Reach Out and Love Someone) United States subject: RE: Just one too many received: 11/26/2008 08:47 pm replied: no block this member Flag as spam THIS IS FUBAR and you need to leave if you think it will get any better. Good luck and tell your friends to kiss the Hotties asses you would have made it but Im sure they wouldnt had..We are cool I like u as former cop the only reason I approached u at all Happy Holidays === 'girlcop1 ( too much drama for this)' wrote the following at '2008-11-26 15:19:23'.. > > Chief, > > I am sorry to say after much consideration I am going to drop out of being a prospect for 2nd Alarm Hotties. I have not only been approached by my very dear friends who's opinions I hold in high regard but I have been approached by just one too many people asking me why? > > I have enough of my own personal dram and just to be on the safe side for me I am going to not add anymore. > > I appreciate

I Do (not)!
I do not believe in love It forces one to feel and not to think Intoxicating as it may be From its fountain I dare not drink Love is not promised to you or I Blooms as a rose does And wilts as a rose dies I do not believe in love It can often bring one to tears Time is not forgiving When one's invested years Perfection cannot be found amongst men Find happiness with yourself It comes from within I do not believe in love If ever you are to ask why I will tell you calmly That we are born alone And so must we die

I Dont Care If You Like It
a life i once knew and loved over all a time were i could never fear but only be loved my heart still leeding and calling out you name god ow i wish the pain would all faid away memeries start to lurr but your forever in my heart when i said always and forever tat was just the start ut the souls tat were once so tied together some how fell so every far a part i lost my best friend and the love of my life sitting ere helps waiting for te time the time were the wounds and te scares will no longer bleed the day when i can begin to breathe i lay here with this knife stuck in my chest and wait for the day were this will digress wanting so deeply for my heart to let go wanting so deeply just to let my old life go but the memeries we once held all the happiness and even the pain was worth it all even the dreams of you back in my arms even the fear that you will never one day return the loneliness setts in a lil more because all i can do is dream of you. others hav

I Dont Know What To Think
Whats the point of writing a blog if no one is here to see it? I'm pretty tired of this. Im pretty tired of people trying to buy me, then getting mad that i tell them i dont want to be bought. Im pretty tired of here. Where i live. Im tired of me, im tired of bitches with 6 lbs of make up. I'm tired & im only 24, is this all? Im tired. just leave me alone. even that im tired of.

I Don't Usually Do This Crap.
You Can Only Type ONE Word. Not as easy as you might think. Now copy and paste into your blog and tag 5 ppl to do the same. Leave a comment to let us know you have done it, AND LEAVE THEM A COMMENT TO LET THEM KNOW THEY HAVE BEEN TAGGED. It's really hard to only use one-word answers! 1. Where is your cell phone? Couch 2. Your significant other? Hell 3. Your hair? Blonde 4. Your mother? Demented 5. Your father? Tight 6. Your favorite thing? Fluffy 7. Your dream last night? Blank 8. Your favorite drink? Tequila 9. Your dream/goal? Content 10. The room you're in? Huge 11. Music? Electic 12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? Earth 14. Where were you last night? Work 15. What you're not? Sane 16. Muffins? Shaved 17. One of your wish list items? Rufus 18. Where you grew up? Newcastle 19. The last thing you did? Typed 20. What are you wearing? Dressing gown 21. TV? Rarely 22. Your pets? Fluffy 23. Your computer? Toshiba 24. Your life? Busy 25. Your

I Don't Understand
I don't understand why humans have a need to control other humans. Why did this trait evolve in the human species ? I imagine it developed from food shortages and infant safety...but why did it travel to other areas that were not survival related ? I don't understand why humans will fight to the death to keep a small patch of holy land theirs exclusively. Why can't they all just share ? Would'nt a benevolent diety be more pleased at the selfless act of sharing ? Control. Why don't all the humans on the planet simply decide to put down their weapons, and live in peace with their neighbors ? It could be just that simple. Control. Why do individuals wish to control the people in their lives through deceit, guilt, physical manipulation etc... ? If you think you don't do that you are wrong. We all do. We can control a person with things as simple as body language, suggestion etc... Girl wants a drink and just does not feel like getting up to get one so she says to her new boyfri

I Don't Care - Fall Out Boy
Say my name, and his in the same breath, I Dare you to say they taste the same, Let the leaves fall off in the summer And let December glow in flames Brace myself and let go, Start it over again in Mexico These friends, they don't love you They just love the hotel suites, now I don't care what you think 'Cuz as long as it's about me The best of us can find happiness In misery I said, I don't care what you think, 'Cuz as long as it's about me The best of us can find happiness In misery Oh, take a chance, let your body get a tolerance, I'm not a chance, but a heat wave in your pants Pull a breath like another cigarette, Pawn Shop, I'm trading up (trading up) I'm the oracle in my chest, Let the guitar scream like a fascist, Sweat it out, shut your mouth, Free love on the streets, but In the alley and I ain't that cheap, now I don't care what you think, 'Cuz as long as it's about me The best of us can find happiness In misery I said, I don't car

I Don't Understand Men
Why don't men care if they hurt you? It's like your feelings don't matter or mean anything.As long as your there for him and do what ever he wants and says thats fine but if you ask for something or a lil help they can't or (my fav.) they forgot. No matter what I do it seems to never be enough for him. And no matter what I love him to death. We have 2 wonderful lil girls and he has nothing to do with them. Yeah he does love his girls but he should show it more. I have no idea what to do.Love is one thing I will never understand no matter how hard I try.

I Dont Know
i know nobodys gonna end up reading this wich is cool cause its more or less a vent. but maybe somobody will read it and relate who knows who cares really. anyway man i been doin the fubar thing for a long time now met some cool people made some great friends and had some great times along the way. recently tho things have changed theres so much drama and bullshit and my closest freinds and fam feel like strangers and it sucks. i only come on for two reasons now and thats to talk to the few people i still talk to and to try to make it better in here but it just isnt working and im ready to give up. i dont because i have this feeling that if i walk the fuck away and whipe the slate clean i will be loseing the best thing i got goin in my life and the people i would lose i dont even wanna think about that the people ive opend up to on here wouldnt speak to me again and it would rip me apart especally the two people i care about the most i couldnt take knowin that i wasent ever gon

I Dont Know Her Muse
its been a few times i'm writing about my times i know days have passed did we have silent lies maybe we do, its lies if you think i leave you i ever say goodbye its not forever bye i'm in your spotlight jennifer dont know you she think spotlight harsh only her love was to harp not you my baby i desire your attention your spotlight is not detention i know i'm captured in your heart i know you cant stand to be apart i love you for that spotlight

I Don't Measure Up...
It never fails to amaze me how confusing human relationships are. we humans are so incredibly stupid and selfish and yet we wonder and agonize over why we can find love. It boggles the mind! we tell each other we don't want relationships and yet we get hurt when someone we like doesn't wait for us and tries to find happiness. we are never clear about what we want from other people but expect them to know. we get too impatient and always seem to move on one minute sooner than was necessary and then lose people we really REALLY like. i'm not perfect...i make LOTS of mistakes. but you have to understand something: if you sleep with me and then don't really bother talking to me until the next time you want sex, wouldn't it be reasonable to assume that's all I'm good for to that person? who are you to decide whether you're worthy to be loved or not? shouldn't that be the choice of the person willing to give you their heart...if you only WANTED it??? Fubar is a meat market and

I Dont Want To Be Like Cinderella
When I was just a little girl My Mama used to tuck me into bed And she read me a story It always was about a prince, a cinder's dress And how a guy would save her And end up with the glory I'd lie and I'd think about the person that I want to be Though one day I realized The fairy-tale life Wasn't for me I don't wanna be like Cinderella Sittin' in a dark, old, dusty cellar Waitin' for somebody To come and set me free I don't wanna be like Snow White waitin' For a handsome prince to come and save me On a horse of white Unless we're ridin' side by side Don't wanna depend on no one else I'd rather rescue myself Someday I'm gonna find someone Who wants my soul, heart, and mind Who's not afraid to show he loves me Somebody who will understand I'm happy just the way I am Don't need nobody takin' care of me I will be there for him Just as long as he Will be there for me When I get myself steady It's got to be An equal thing I don't wanna be like

I Dont Know If I Like It Or Not. But Let Me Know What U Think
The clouds are out to match my mood for I feel gray because of you. The loneliness and heartache are near; you're carrying out, what is my worst fear. Every day I tell you I love you, and I make an effort to somehow show you, but you blow me off. You have better things to do than love the one who is loving you. I gave and gave- with nothing in return. You lit the fire, and I got burned. Why can't I run? Turn the other way? Why don't I leave? Why do I stay? I feel so abused, I feel so alone. The things that have been can't be undone, But still I stay. I love you... and deep down, I hope you love me too!

I Don't Wanna Be Second Choice
As the new year approaches, I'm setting my sights on what I want outta the new year. And I want a man who looks and me, and goes, I've waited my whole life for you. Not tryin to be cheesy or anything, but being absolutely truthful. I want to be someone's ideal, not what they look at and go, "you're not my usual type, but we'll give it a try". I want a man who doesn't want to change anything about me, and can accept all of me, the good and the bad. I want someone who appreciates that I have had children, and will never achieve the "perfect" body. I want someone who gets my sense of humor, and can share in my silly little jokes. I'm tired of being someone's second best. I want to be their first choice. And have them be mine as well. I want to be able to look in their eyes and see our futures, and not have to worry. I know that love and life are a risk. I've already had my heart broken and broken a few myself. I need someone who can respect my need for independence, yet at th

I Dont Know...(part 4)
I dont know - I just - I just Really Like this guy - I mean Ive never felt anything for Anyone Ive ever been with - its weird - I feel Really confused about it. We were with each other only one night - and no sex - but I felt like there was a connection - you know - a realationship being formed and I was kind of scared - and NO I dont think I should see him again. BUT I look for him - I go out sometimes - not often - but sometimes - just to see if I can find him again.

[i Don't Know Why...]
a combination of reasons really. My ex got married to the guy she cheated on me with. Why did I even check? I knew already... I guess today I wanted to feel. I need to leave the city start over, find what I never knew I was looking for rageout, fuck a stranger, love a friend something drink drop breathe something...right? My toast was stuck, I did this to myself with my favorite fork Its not even her, she's just a metaphor, an avatar. Its that for all my grand works my brave noble deeds and intentions I will always be undeserving I will always have failed at that crucial insurmountable moment. I'm not going to stop. I will fail again. I will be injured in pride duty and body but I will not yield. I might not be able to stop save change or help but I won't stop trying. Its a combination of faith profession vision and mission aligned and in crisis despite my best efforts and patience. There before me is the idol of my hated antithesis in prosper as I toil in the muck of the so-named g

I Don't Understand Men
I'm so sick of men. All they want is a one night thing. Can I find one that wants more? One that isn't thousands of miles away from me? gee.... I always knew life would be hard, but I didn't know it would be this hard.

I Don't Wanna Go Back To Ga
Looks like I gotta go back. I'm going to try driving at night tonight. I used to drive at night all the time in undergrad, but it was only an hour away. Making an 8 hour drive at night may not be a good idea. I'm a night owl, as many of you know. I think I'll be okay driving at night. As long as I have the tunes cranked up and don't turn the heat up, I think I'll make it. There's less traffic too. Going through Atlanta anytime from 4pm to about 7pm is HELL. And the same goes for Charlotte. So if I don't even leave here until about 7pm I hope I'll miss all the traffic. It will just be me and the 18 wheelers. My mom doesn't even get off work until 5:40pm so I have to wait until she gets home. The good thing is, everyone will be here when I leave so I can get them to help me carry my stuff downstairs. I have quite a few bags of stuff that I have accumulated. Just for the hell of it, here is the emails between my boss and me. From me to her: "Would it be possible, if I speak w

I Dont Care If This Pissin Ne1 Off
first off.. i c ppl on here that post pics of their kids.. i know ur proud parent n all n thats wonderful but think about the world 2day we have ppl raping kids ppl gettin off 2 kids and their pics there r some sick ppl out there n the world n here u r postin pics OF UR KIDS on a site where there is over 2mill ppl which half of them r sick fcks that do sick shit 2 kids and or women and yet mothers and fathers STILL post pics of their kids n plain site of ppl that could very well b doin the unthinkable 2 ur kids pics... sorry 2 say it but damn ppl think bout stuff this is a very sick place where we live in 2day and ur givin them easy access 2 do it... half of the ppl that have pics of their kids dont even have them locked 4 family only can c... i mean seriously think bout how many ppl come 2 ur page... think bout how many look at ur pics... now think bout how many r pics of UR kids by writin this i hope some of u guys open ur eyes n realize just how easy ur making it 4 someone of that t

I Don't Feel Safe
Since we got robbed, our neighbor told us who it was. We know. We also know someone traded pot for it. Shit will go down, I'm not dumb. I don't want to live here anymore. I'm here all by myself most of the time. I'm 5 foot, 98 lbs, if that. I don't have a gun, I never held one before even. I know bikers. I know bikers that have "clubs." I don't want my mom to get hurt, I don't want her bf to get hurt, I don't even want my cockatiel to get hurt. I'm scared and I know the police are effing useless. They won't do shit until it's already done and over with. Ever notice in the movies they show up right after everyone's dead? That's how it is. I don't really know what to do. Move to Anderson with my dad? He has a new baby and I don't want to be burden. I can't move into an apt. since I'm on SSI and there's a year waiting list to get into the apts. that are Section 8. So what do I do? Stay at Big Dog's bar all day with the bikers? LMAO.

I Don't Write Poetry
I don't write poetry I just choose to make my feelings rhyme. Kinda like the chaotic tune played by a wind chime. There is no real rhythm just a sporadic sound. Just like the thoughts in my head go round and round. Hanging on the back porch of a mind that long ago cared. Through many high winds I was some how spared. Countless nights I echoed into the into the night. Playing out my loneliness and screaming some thing isn't right. The storm is to fierce can't you hear my screams. It's destroying our home and tearing away our dreams. The flowers you planted last spring there petals blown away. All because you slept through the music I choose to play. Now tangled and broken my songs end at last. Just a distant echo from some where in the past.

I Dont Miss You
To my so called friend for 10 yrs... A tear forms in my eye, I hate you I wish nothing more then to forget you .....but at times i miss you but i dont miss feeling degrated hurt embarrassed used I remember ....I dont miss you

I Dont Know What To Do
OK, this is why I'm confused. A guy and I started dating in August and a little over a month later he dumped me by giving me the silent treatment. However, two months later he started talking to me again. I just don't know what to do. I kinda still have feelings for him but don't want to get hurt by him again. And the weird thing is, is that he talks to me more now than when we were dating. What should I do?

I Don't Know
I know I've wrote about this guy in here before. I'm friends with his cousin and that's kind of how I got to know him on another site. We talked a lot, flirted a lot and really were hitting it off. So it got to the point where a few times a bunch of us were going out. Which is normal from those of us who know each other on this other site. Every now and then we'd go to a bar and party and hang out. A few of those times he was supposed to show up. The first time he supposedly did show up, got so drunk because he was nervous to meet me and hadn't eaten all day and stuff that his friend who came with him had to take him home. Another time he ended up getting into some trouble. Then another time I had left because it was about 1 in the morning and I guess he must have showed up probably not even 20 minutes after I left. Then yet another time him and his buddies got caught up with playing beer pong and stuff and ended up being too drunk to drive to the bar everyone was at. An

I Don't Know What It Means But Its Funny
Ok, this is how it goes. You get an orangutan. I'm not talking about some little monkey or some chimp dancing bullshit, I mean a fucking orangutan. Don't ask me how you're going to get a fucking orangutan, because that's not my problem./> So, the orangutan's name is Clyde. This is non-negotiable; all orangutans are/> named Clyde. I don't know why that is, it's just the way the world works. So you and Clyde become man (and ape) around town. You're seen everywhere together, you make the scene. You and your friends go out in big groups. You talk loud, you/> laugh louder. Everytime you say something witty, you highfive the orangutan. The town begins to buzz. It gets back to him. "Did you know the girl with the orangutan?" "You used to date the girl with the orangutan?" "Why would you break up with a girl with an orangutan?" Next thing you know, he's calling. "I'm hoping we can still be friends, wanna hang out sometime?"

I Dont Do This Often......
I am going to be true to my name. I am in this auction. This is my first and probably my last. Curiosity got the best of me. So.... buy me if you wish. You have to first befriend this pretty lady first DaisyBlue@ fubar

I Don't Know Anymore
Sometimes I just want to disappear I want to just go for a walk and not return Somedays I want to die Somedays I wish I was never even really a blip in time Somedays I cry and don't know why Somedays everything just goes wrong I used to be happy I used to smile I used to have so much going for me Now I have nothing I just want to walk away and end it all I don't want to take up space anymore I feel like you don't want me around Like nobody does Maybe it would be easier if I just walked away Would I even be missed

I Don't Feel Like I Fet In
I feel like am not welcome where i work some people say hi but when i talk everyone ignores me like not even there. Why do i feel like this?? I feel like am not gd enough be apart of that lounge, so weird everyone loved me was happy when came in there when wasent staff not that i am ive noticed everyone treats me different! I feel like there pushing me way, maybe this was bad idea after all...~sighs~

I Dont Want To Miss A Thing
i could stay awake just to hear you breathing, watch you smile while your sleeping, while your far away and dreaming, i could spend my life in this sweet surrender, i could stay lost in this moment forever, every moment spent with you is a moment i treasure, (chorus) i don't want to close my eyes, i don't want to fall asleep cause i miss you baby,and i don't want to miss a thing, cause even when i dream of you, the sweetest dream would never do, i still miss you baby, and i don't want to miss a thing, lying close to you feeling your heart beating, and i wondering what your dreaming, wondering if it's me your seeing, and then i kiss your eyes and thank god we're together, i just want to stay with you in this moment forever and forever forever, (chorus) i don't want to miss one smile, i don't want to miss one kiss, i just want to be with you right here with you, just like this, i just want to hold you close , and feel your heart so close to mine, and just s

I Don't Think This One Is Good Tell Me What You Think Of It.
Flowers The flowers are red, the flowers are blue All I can do is think of you. Lilacs are purple, daisies are grand I am surely your number one fan. A lily of valley white you look when in that dress Forget me nots I must stress. Your emotions are like hollyhocks They come in different colors I bleed from my heart poppys of red When I over heard you man has beat you dead Violets of blue are the tears I shed Roses of black we carry to you You pass calla lilies of white and yellow Like the clouds and sun As you make your way to the iris white heaven Forever I shall love you.

I Do Not...
1. HAND OUT MY NUMBER.. OK IM ON HERE TO CHAT WITH U ON HERE.. AND THATS IT.. 2.GIVE OUT MY REAL ADDRESS.. PEOPLE.. PLZ DONT ASK.. OK. 3.I DO HAVE A HOUSE PHONE. THEN AGAIN U WILL NOT GET MY NUMBER OK.. PLZ RESPECT ME.. ON THESE TERMS IF U PISS U OFF.. THEN MORE ON.. IM A NICE PERSON.. BUT NOT THAT DAMN NICE OK.. LUV YA

.i Dont Like You, Michael.
blah blah blah bla blah Whoo! You were everything I wanted. You were everything a boy could be. Then you left me brokenhearted Now you don't mean a thing to me All I wanted was your Love love love love love love Hate is a strong word But I really really really don't like you Now that it's over I don't even know what I liked about you Brought you around And you just brought me down. Hate is a strong word. But I really really really don't like you. I really don't like you. Thought that everything was perfect Isn't that how it's supposed to be? Thought you thought that I was worth it Now I think a little differently All I wanted was your Love love love love love love Hate is a strong word But I really really really don't like you Now that it's over I don't even know what I liked about you Brought you around And you just brought me down Hate is a strong word But I really really really don't like you Now that it\'s over you can't hurt me Now that

I Don’t Wanna Miss A Thing
I don't wanna miss a thing I just wanna close my eyes An dream of you so peacefully I don't wanna miss a thing Your gentle touch The sound of your heart beat I don't wanna miss a thing By listening to your voice Day to day I don't wanna miss a thing When we make love To feel your skin I don't wanna miss a thing At all When I dream of you As I lay awake watch you sleeping I don't wanna miss a thing... The song by Aerosmith-I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing just with my lyrics Made by: Amber M. Kestner

I Don't Know!
Well I have some shit on my mind and I need to get the thoughts out of my mind and I have said the it before I have to wirte shit down so I wont have to keep on thinking about the thing's that are on my mind. And here gose nothing I have wounderful man in my mind and I pray everyday that the Lord would show me to do the right thing in this relionship that I am in right now and I believe that the Lord was with me when I meat him. When I look at my past relionship's that I was in I think the Lord was with me in all of my relionship and I think he is trying to tell me I need to cool off on what I am doing with my boyfriend and that him and I need to get to one other a little more and not warry about sex and just don't rush in shit that you are not confurtable in doing And I just want to say Thank You Lord for telling me! And Please whatch over me in this relionship!

I Don't Know...
I have always tried to be as nice to people as I can be. Treat others with respect and you should receive the same in return. At least that is how it should work, not everyone feels the same way. Or is it that some people just don't care? Everyone has a different opinion on things, people, situations. Some people think respect is earned not given. I think trust is earned not respect, that is just me. I do have some trust issues with people which I'm sure a lot of people do. I always try to be as nice to anyone I meet as you never know how they will perceive you. A little respect goes a long way, at least I think so. I know a lot of people will have different opinions about all of this.

I Do Not Want You...
Last night I prayed to God, That he would take me home. Because the pain I felt That I was all alone. Last night I cried for hours, As you sat down the stairs. I cried so hard I realized, That you don't really care. So I sat and tried to think, How to make you understand. That the words you didn't say, Said more then the ones you did. I don't want you to care, Like you didn't care before. I don't want you to worry As I walk out the door. I don't want your protection, To mend my broken heart. Because your the one who broke it, And tore it all apart. I do not want your love, Like I wanted it before. Cause when I needed it most, You walked right out the door. I do not want your touch, The one that calmed my fears. I do not want your kisses, That dried away my tears. I do not want your smile, That brightened up my day. I do not want your arm's, That held me down to play. I do not want your eyes, That always melted my heart. I do not want y

I Don't Want To Be Alone
The common threadThat lies between you and meWould break if you breathed on itThat's why Im treading so carefullyThe view from your eyesIs too different than mineI should know findingThe truth in a lieIs nothing but a waste of timeI do, but I don'tI should, but I won't'Cause I don't want to be aloneKnock down my door before we run out of timeBreak into my heart and rob me blindJust leave the pieces scattered on the floorDon't worry...My heart's been broken before. Lyrics | Jesse Mccartney lyrics - I Don't Wanna Be Alone lyrics

I Dont Hate Men Lol
Okay okay lol I just got a shout asking why lately my blogs are about men and how well they are a royal pain in the ass. Welp if this person actually read my blogs, I wasnt condemming all men. Just a select few. Men say they cant understand us woman. Well me bucko, us woman cant understand you men most the time either. Sooooooooo for the person who sent me a shout asking me that. Hope this helps I like men I really do ..I just dont appreciate some of the crap they pull as I am sure they dont appreciate some of the crap we pull.

I Don't Really Know Her...but
She is super sweet and trying to level to Godmother. I seen a friend's status and rated her until my fingers hurt, lol. She really is close...so could you all PLEASE go give her a few rates? Thanks!!! ♥ נєη ♥@ fubar

I Dont Understand
I have always tried and failed horribly to win friends and then more sometimes. I am sorry but I have no idea how to approach a woman and have a true relationship. Don't get me wrong I know how to get sex and I have been blessed because I have never caught anything. I am just so very tired of strictly being physical, and NEVER being good enough to be in love. I mean when someone does fall in love with me it always turns out that I am not able to be physically attracted to them as well as emotionally. Am I so wrong for not wanting to allow myself to just settle? I mean, I have tried to do the whole " Be with someone and not care about their looks " routine. I am sorry but it just never seems to work out that way. If I am not physically drawn to a woman I just cannot see myself with them for an extended period of time. I know that I am sounding shallow as anything but I cannot really help that either. Every time that I have just settled for what I could get then I ended up disappointed b

I Do Not Want
After a turn of events this weekend that set my life in once again the hectic mess that has become much the norm, I began thinking. I know most usually a dangerous topic where I am concerned, but nonetheless these are the ramblings of nothingness I came up with. Most people know what they want from life. Things they look for when finding that elusive "one true love: or when searching for ways to obtain their dream job. Aspirations, goals, desires: all part of what is " wanted from life." I guess at one time I was much the same way. I wanted out of the small hell-hole of a town I once knew as home, to become a successful attorney, to find true love and live happily ever after. Well, a series of events called life got in the way of all those plans and everything I once "wanted". Now as cynical as it may seem I am no longer willing to live my life searching or striving to fulfill a list of "wants" instead I am approaching life in such a matter that I now know what " I do not

I Dont Understand
YES YOU GOT IT, TODAY IS A CRANKY DAY MUST BE MY BI-POLER SETTING IN! I THINK I DISCOVERED WHY AT TIME I WANT TO LEAVE THIS PLACE! I THOUGHT IT WAS ME REACHING OUT FOR HELP ON LEVL BUT GUESS WHAT THATS NOT THE REASON! THE REASON IS HERE>>> I RATE EVERYONES FOLDERS AND PICTURES BOTH MALE/FEMALES OK IVE NOTICED ALOT OF WOMEN ON HERE ARE SO SLUTTY LOOKING IT MAKES ME SICK TO SEE THEY ARE GETTING MAD LOVENS! THEIR TITS HANGING OUT THEIR ASS CRACKS SHOWING JUST FUCKING GROSS! WHY CANT WOMEN SHOW SOME SELF RESPECT ? FUCK I GOT THE ANSWER FOR THAT ! WHORES!!!!!! STUCK UP BITCHES ! MAKES ME SICK RATEING THEIR PICTURES! AND I HOPE ALL THE WHORES READ THIS BLOG IVE SAID WHATS ON MY MIND FOR TODAY HAVE A GREAT DAY FUBAR

I Don't Do The Whole "forgiveness" Thing
soo her're the thing about me... I have been used, abused, played, fucked over, treated like shit, treated like a princess, abandoned ... pretty much everything you could do to a girl... it's been done to me... you know the thing is all my life... i'm like "oh it's ok" that used to be me they should have named me "oh it's ok" cuz that was how i pretty much approached life. but as of last week.. hahah it took THIS long to get here... no more "oh it's ok" from NOW on it's "no more" i don't want to hear your apologies, I don't wanna know your reasons. I don't wanna know the reasons behind your actions or that somehow it was MY fault. I don't wanna know what drove you to hurt me, or hear how in your past you've had trust issues... and somehow that all falls on me. you are and always will be a dead memory. i won't go look @ your page and miss you, i won't attempt to call, look @ your pics, sb, yim or message you. i am gone. I won't ask our friends how you are or what you're up t

I Don't Know
I just don't know about these stuck up poeple they seem to think the world is wrapped around them whtich it not true at all because it is not all about them and that is just not how the world works so basically what I am trying to say is that I don't like suck people and that I think should just shut the fuck and stop talking about your self because it is not all about you.. Anyways I also think that stuck up people should just get a realty check because there are things going on in the world that you should take notice because maybe you would actually have something to talk about outher than yourself..Opps was that hursh all well it is good to hush sometimes because sometimes you can acctaully learn something form it I guess... I guesss what I am trying to say is that sometimes in life you have to stop being someone that you are not and always be yourself and always follow your heart follow your dreams and all that mochy shit.... But as I was saying STOP BEING STUCK ON YOURSELF BECAUS

I Dont Understand Some Guys On Here
I have people that will email for a while and then they just stop talkin to me or one was talkin to me and then just said I am goign to block u and rerated me a 1 why do people have to be so mean for no reason I might not get right at you cuz I get busy with my lil girl but I will get back to you I am very nice person and I know this is just the internet but I still have a heart and feelings so if you going to be a mean person dont be my friend please!!!

I Dont Know Nothin Bout Birthin No Babies
LIZARD BIRTHING If you have raised kids (or been one), and gone through the pet syndrome including toilet flush burials for dead goldfish, the story below will have you laughing out LOUD! Overview: I had to take my son's lizard to the vet. Here's what happened: Just after dinner one night, my son came up to tell me there was "something wrong" with one of the two lizards he holds prisoner in his room. "He's just lying there looking sick," he told me. "I'm serious dad, can you help?" I put my best lizard-healer statement on my face and followed him into his bedroom. One of the little lizards was indeed lying on his back, looking stressed. I immediately knew what to do. "Honey," I called, " come look at the lizard!" "Oh my! gosh," my wife diagnosed after a minute. "She's having babies." "What?" my son demanded. "But their names are Bert and Ernie, Mom!" I was equally outraged. "Hey, how can that be? I thought we said we didn't want them to repro

I Don't Get It....
I don't get it... how you can go out and spend a day with someone, have alot of fun, tell them you'll call or IM later, then fuckin ignore them for a week..... Then after like a week call them up and want to go hang out for the day again and have a wonderful time.... then ignore them again. I JUST DON'T GET IT! I just don't understand the wishy-washy bullshit... I wish people would just make up their damned minds... You need to think for yourself and stop letting other people control what you think, say, and do... And people need to stop worrying about what everyone else is doing and fuckin worry about what they are NOT doing..... Thanx for reading... more next time I have a WTF.... Later

I Don't Know About Dough
I don’t know the first thing about dough and I don’t know shit about Bonsai trees, including how to spell it (I had to look it up). I also don’t know anything about graphics or design. I know what tastes good and I know what looks good (sometimes, that’s even in question). And when it comes to what’s graphic, it’s profanity, it’s sex or it’s nothing at all. My demo CD required a ton of work. Luckily, I had to do very little of it. My friends, on the other hand, they were fucked. I asked for their help, kind of the way a child asks their parents for help on their first book report “please, write this.” I did something similar when it came to the cover graphic, the inside cartoon, the print job, the lightscribe design and the piece selection for final edit; “Here, help me.” They obliged. As a result, I got beautiful stuff from talented people. I got a far better package than my voice deserves (considerin

I Dont Have A Problem Bato Loko
Who is a Cocaine Addict? Some of us can answer without hesitation, "I am!" Others aren't so sure. Cocaine Anonymous believes that no one can decide for another whether he or she is addicted. One thing is sure, though; every single one of us has denied being an addict. For months, for years, we who now freely admit that we are cocaine addicts thought that we could control cocaine, when in fact it was controlling us. "I only use on weekends,"or: "It hardly ever interferes with work,"or "I can quit, it's only psychologically addicting, right?"or "I only snort, I don't base or shoot,"or "It's this relationship that's messing me up." Many of us are still perplexed to realize how long we went on, never getting the same high we got at the beginning, yet still insisting, and believing -- so distorted was our reality -- that we were getting from cocaine what actually always eluded us. We went to any lengths to get away from being ourselves. The lines got fatter; the grams went faster;

I Don't Want To Be Saved
This is a song on the new lacuna coil album...since i'm not allowed to put the music on my profile (copyright laws) I typed up the lyrics... Lacuna Coil - Not EnoughI don't want to be savedI wanna go down with youTogether we will find a wayTo come backCome backCome backI don't want to be savedI wanna go down with youTogether we will find a wayto come backI thought it was too lateI thought you disappearedIts been a while since Ibelieved in youI used to have the strenghtI used to just walk awayBut now that I see youIts not enoughIts not enoughI don't want to be savedI wanna go down with youTogether we will find a wayTo come backI thought it was a gameI'm following the wayNothings changed since I believed in youI knew that you would comeI thought that I'd be afraidBut now that I have youIts not enoughIts not enoughI don't want to be savedI wanna go down with youTogether we will find a wayTo come backForgotten fearsI throw away all of the caution into the windMy soul is burstingAnd I'm st

I Dont Know.. Not A Poem But More A Thought
dreaming alone again. is it you? sitting in the bathtub you walk in with a bad of hupty dumpty sits on the side of the tub dont say a word. just sit there leave me alone! was my fault you died kill the little girl who feels scared daddy will make it better as you sleep leave me alone! die little gir! die with him! leave me alone! I am haunted but by me

I Don't Get It
I have been talking to my ex from HS on facebook and he's In Iraq. Well I was talking to him just now, and a rocket hit his base, And he acted like nothing. I on the other hand started shaking And he was scting like it was nothing. Apearently this happens offten.. I couldn't Imagin being a military wife/girlfriend, Now he went on patrol to make sure everything is ok. He knows my situation so He knows If I get on at night he can't IM me even thou he's on my friends. I'm so not ready for a friendship with a military guy, He get's leave in Sept and he's coming back to Philly But still He's right in the mix of shit out there :( He was my 1st boyfrined so nothing ever happenend between us and were strickly friends so get your minds out the gutter.

I Dont Need The Drama
Ok I am so fed up w/all the drama on here it is just crazy people talking about others get a fuggin life would you mind your own business, and another thing dont be pointing fingers until you know your story and get them straight...=)

I Don't Know Why
10th GradeAs I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so-called 'best friend'. I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she were mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and I handed them to her. She said 'thanks' and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I wanted her to know that I don't want to be 'just friends'. I love her but I am too shy, and I don't know why.11th GradeThe phone rang. On the other end, it was she. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After two hours of Drew Barrymore, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said 'thanks' and gave me a kiss on the cheek.I wanted to tell her, I wanted her to

I Dont Call Him Daddy
November 2001 just a month after 9/11 while the nation was still in shock I was sitting on the back deck of my parents house with my father trying to absorb what he was saying to me while still in shock myself after learning in late September that the man I thought would never die was doing just that. He was diagnosed with stage 3/4 lung cancer and was given 3 months to live 6 if he was lucky with treatment. My father being the way he was surprised me when he came to me and asked if I wanted him to have the treatment if I needed him to live longer he was worried about my feelings about everyone but himself. He was asking almost begging for my permission to die looking him in the eye I could see how weary he was. How old he looked at the young age of 56 as if he had lived two lifetimes and wasn't ready to live a third. I said to him almost without hesitation don't you for one second feel guilty about leaving me behind you raised me to be strong and that is what I will do I will be str

I Dont Understand
I dont get how some on who cares about you can lie striaght to your face like it was nothing .. After 6 years you think there would be some kind of guilt but aparently not ...Im such a fool for sticking around so long an living in a dream world when will i ever wake the F up grrr

I Dont Care How Many Friends I Lose Over This!!!
Month OneMommyI am only 4 inches longbut I have all my organs.I love the sound of your voice.The sound of your heart beatis my favorite lullaby.Month TwoMommytoday I learned how to suck my thumb.If you could see meyou could definitely tell that I am a baby.I'm not big enough to survive outside my home though.It is so nice and warm in here.Month ThreeYou know what MommyI'm a boy!!I hope that makes you happy.I always want you to be happy.I don't like it when you cry.You sound so sad.It makes me sad tooand I cry with you even thoughyou can't hear me.Month FourMommymy hair is starting to grow.It is very short and finebut I will have a lot of it.I spend a lot of my time exercising.I can turn my head and curl my fingers and toesand stretch my arms and legs.I am becoming quite good at it too.Month FiveYou went to the doctor today.Mommy, he lied to you.He said that I'm not a baby.I am a baby Mommy, your baby.I think and feel.Mommy, what's abortion?Month SixI can hear that doctor again.I don't

I Dont Want To Get Into A Whole Big Thing Here
but I wanna know what is up with the (thankfully rare) dudes checking me out on here? Pretty sure my profile lists me as straight so yeah. i dunno whatever. man though am I in a cranky mood. Im writing a new story, ive got a chapter and about a half done and its good, really weird stuff and once again an Idea nobodys ever written so yeah. but Ive found yesterday and today that Im making the protagonist a bit grizzledier than Id wanted. I gotta figure out how to reduce my hatred capacity. living in a city where there are real humans instead of automated snob machines would help but then Im kinda stuck here from a financial standpoint so whatever. wish I was dead.

I Don't Get It!!!
WHEN MY FRIEND FIRST MADE THIS PIC FOR ME, I THOUGHT IT WAS SO RUDE, BUT AFTER BEING ON FU AS LONG AS I HAVE, I FIND THAT IT IS RATHER APPROPRIATE, I CANNOT BELIEVE HOW MANY PEOPLE ON HERE THINK THAT JUST BECAUSE YOU ADDED THEM AS A FRIEND, OR RATED THEM, THAT THEY HAVE THE RIGHT TO TALK TO YOU LIKE YOU ARE A PIECE OF SHIT. MY PROFILE CLEARLY STATES THAT I DO NOT WANT TO SEE NUDE PICS, AND I WILL NOT SHOW ANYONE ANY, IT CLEARLY SAYS THAT I WILL NOT HAVE SHOUT BOX SEX OR CAM WITH YOU, SO WHY THE HELL DO YOU KEEP ASKING?? I WANT TO SAY NOW,, I AM NOT A PIECE OF MEAT, SO I WILL NOT BE TREATED LIKE ONE, I DON'T CARE IF YOU "THINK" YOU HAVE A NICE PENIS, I STILL DO NOT WANT TO SEE IT, I AM HERE FOR FRIENDS, TO ESCAPE THE REAL WORLD, NOT TO SLEEP WITH YOU, IF YOU SAY SOMETHING VULGAR TO ME, AND I DON'T SHOUT BACK, DON'T CALL ME A SLUT OR A C^NT, JUST GO AWAY,,,, I AM TIRED OF MEN THAT THINK THAT JUST BECAUSE THEY COMPLIMENT YOUR LOOKS, YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO SLEEP WITH THEM, THAT IS NOT W

I Dont Care If...
if this is an old one one haha So after landing my new job as a Wal-Mart greeter,A good find for many retirees,I lasted less than a day......About two hours into my first day on the job a very loud, Unattractive, mean-acting woman walked into the store with her two kids,Yelling obscenities at them all the way through the entrance.As I had been instructed, I said pleasantly, 'Good morning and welcome to Wal-Mart. Nice children you have there. Are they twins?'The ugly woman stopped yelling long enough to say, 'Hell no, they ain't twins. The oldest one's 9, and the other one's 7. Why the hell would you think they're twins? Are you blind, or just stupid?'So I replied, 'I'm neither blind nor stupid, Ma'am, I just couldn't believe you got laid twice. Have a good day and thank you for shopping at Wal-Mart.'My supervisor said I probably wasn't cut out for this line of work.

I Don't Want To Be A Foot Note In Someone Else's Happiness
I'm looking back at entrys in my old written journal trying to fit it all in one note book and every word I wrote hurts and it makes me wonder why I tried so hard when the writting was on the wall. I just keep wondering if every word and situation I spoke about were just lies, I can't help but wonder that because look at where the situation is now; every promise has been broken and everything that was said would happen is gone...its like that part of my life was just a dream. More than anything I want to understand why I still care, why even now just thinking about it fills my eyes with tears. I feel stupid, I thought I moved on from it all but maybe I'm just lying to myself again. I know there is no point of voicing these feelings and m ore likely than not no good will come from it like most things I have said when it comes to this situation. I know that the other never wonders or thinks about any of it, I am just a bad memory or a nightmare. Thats all i ever am I guess, but stil

I Dont Even Know What Im Waiting For
Friday, May 22, 2009 Libra (Sep 23 - Oct 22) It's hard for you to be patient today because you know what you want and you see no reason to have to postpone action any longer. Your impatience is fed by others who seem to be more impulsive than you are, yet something is still holding you back. Don't get too hung up in trying to rationally explain your feelings, even if they run counter to your logical preferences. Listen to your intuition; if it's telling you to wait a bit more, then that's exactly what you should do.

I Don't Get It
I really don't know. Sometimes its not so much depression that gets me. But when I get a glimmer of happiness and it gets shot down. There really isn't anybody to blame. Its a chain of little dissapointments that occur that make you want to give up. My chain of " events " today happened when I went to work to do some civil work. I recently got my old shitty computer installed with a new hard drive. Its still the same old windows 2000 but it didn't have access to the server I needed. So I had to use the old ladies computer which is wwwaaayyy lower than mine and considering im 6'2..my legs are bent the whoollleee 8 hrs. so now that my legs are pretty much numb and i need to work out. I find out I gotta give someone in another section breaks. So I'm up and down... but I got a job so i just chalk it up to annoying. I did get free pizza out of work but don't eat it.. not good at all! Well I find out there is suppose to be an open court at this "gym" place. Yeah it was just a b

I Don't Know?
If I've told you all about my check up with my interal radiation doctor however he felt no more signs of the tumor however he said do not quote him on it because there is still alot of swelling there do to the brachytherapy an a little raw, although I can go back to having (SEX) yay, damn it's been over a year and lemme say it only took me like 2 f'in seconds to cum...lol.... Yeah well anyways just thought I'd let ya'll know whats been going on with me.... Much love always & forever your friend Jaime!

I Don't Know What Hurts More The Fact That You Lied Or The Fact I Didn't Deserve The Truth
Honesty why is honesty important? Everyone always tells us honesty is important, but no one has ever told us WHY it’s important. Maybe because that s something we need to find out for ourselves. Honesty is important in many ways to me, and many different ways to you. Everyone has their own reasons why honesty is important. These are mine. @ When someone lies you can not trust them. Without trust you have lost all respect for that person because you can no longer depend on that person, and you can no longer confide in that person. Lying is not telling the truth, lying is stretching, bending or leaving part of the truth out. Lying hurts… @ If you become a liar you are fake. You are not the TRUE you so you are lying to the world. When you are lying to the world you are lying to your friends, because you have no friends at least no true ones. You don’t know who you are because you lie to your self so how can your friends truly be friends if they don’t know

I Don't Think You Know
I don't think you will ever fully understand how you've touched my life and made me who I am. I don't think you could ever know just how truly special you are that even on the darkest nights you are my brightest star. I don't think you will ever fully comprehend how you've made my dreams come true or how you've opened my heart to love and the wonders it can do. You've allowed me to experience something very hard to find unconditional love that exists in my body, soul, and mind. I don't think you could ever feel all the love I have to give and I'm sure you'll never realize you've been my will to live. You are an amazing person and without you I don't know where I'd be. Having you in my life completes and fulfills every part of me.

I Dont Know
I still dont know what the hell I'm doing. Theres so much here I don't understand, drinks, gifts, friends, family, , crushes, legends, secret admirers, blocks, blasts, and midgets? Whew, damn I'm tired already and I haven't even made love. I need help!

I Don't Do Lies...
Some people are wondering what the hell is going on at my house. I'm not going to get into the details, but the result is that I don't trust anyone now. Yesterday morning I received a random message in my shoutbox about my two best friends. The message wasn't vulgar, but it called into question some things I was led to believe. It exposed some lies that I kept being told. In most cases, I just drop a person who lies to me and move on. I'm not known for trusting anyone. Unfortunately, I was lied to by the only two people that I trusted without question. They used that trust I felt for them to manipulate me, and even continued to lie to me after I started to figure things out. Because of those lies, I've lost a closeness with them, and may end up losing a marriage. It's a tough thing for someone like me. Basically, in the span of a day, my happy-go-lucky world was been destroyed. I was physically raped as a child, and now I've been emotionally raped by the two people I trust

I Don't Understand
Ok this is what I do not understand, You try and make friends over this site and ask if they would like to talk to you sometime on the phone and they always say well I like to text. Ok do tell me why even have yahoo if you only text from a phone? And why have a phone if you never are going to talk on the damn thing? A phone is ment for talking on not just texting, whats the point in having one if that is all you do? Or you call them and they never answer the phone or they ask who is this and you tell them then you get the answer how did you get my number? Now come on people are you seriously that stupid and don't remember giving it out to the person and whats the point in giving out the number if never going to answer the damn phone to start with? Thats another thing why have a phone if your not going to answer it anyways? I think the best thing I love is when they tell you oh I don't have a phone so we can't be friends or can't get to know them, Ok you don't have a phone but yet you h

I Dont Wanna Stop .....
kissing you in the rain touching you pulling you close people watching us i dont wanna stop stolen moments on the dance floor you feeling so good so close to me i dont wanna stop just cause they say its wrong bites along my skin cries for more looking at their curious stares i dont wanna stop i wanna stay like this forever my mind screaminggggggggggggg i dont wanna stop

I Dont Care
My heart is breaking again but again why do i think you would understand outside i am happy, i am content, i am aware inside i am scared and i am alone, i am searching but this treason is at sea, is it me? for all the things i have come to love, find the evil inside andthis black heart withers and dies who am i fooling? just myself or everyone around? can YOU see it? the scares bear a story, which ripped me apart i pretend to be ok with this, but i am not all i want is live but as i have been told love is not like anything, especially a fucking knife in times when i wanted to end it all, you were there but where are you now? on the coat tail of another hoping and wishing things will work out, but you ignore me the one person who has given everything for i am a fool, to think you would love me like i love you i wish my life would leave me, suddenly... for it isnt worth it to love and to of lost is maddening.... to not know love is ignorance and as they say... ignor

I Don't Have Any Friends So I'm Gonna Blog!
I've been sick. I called out of work the other day. But today I decided to suck it up and go in. Totaly should not have. It was not worth it. I feel even worse now. I hate pretty much every one I work with. The labor part of it is also not fun when you are sick dizzy fevery and puking. I only puked a little bit while I was at work. A few things have changed at work about the daily schedule. I tried screwing around a little bit with some of it but nothing seemed to be saving correctly so I gave up. I just wanna go to sleep and when I wake up to feel normal again, no rash, no runny nose, no fever, no headache, no dizzy. Oh well. I did take advantage of the fact that WalMart has Star Trek TOS on sale for $50 a season. So now I have that to watch later.

I Dont Know
What are we sure of about life? Some people think they know, but its only what they think life is supposed to be. No one can really know what lifes about. The only thing everyone would beable to agree on is your born and you die. But its the inbetween that is conflickting. Human emotion is constent. Wether you want it to or not. Your head always filled with everything, pounding its way to get out. But what do most people do, hold it back. Fear of regection from anything, wether it be a lover, or a boss, or even just your parents can send you through a world of different emotions. Its all how you handle yourself depends on the out come. If your with someone or want to be and they reject you, let it go wasnt ment to be. No matter how hard you want to think that you control your own life, you dont. Sorry life sucks a fat one I know. Your head can have control over you threw your emotions. Why its easier to be so cold harted. But thats my problem. A person can look right at you dead in th

I Don't Normally...
recommend too many albums but I'm really liking this one. Low vs. Diamond. A buncha good rock-ish songs. check some out: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zNgWt1a7OHw http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7uiNjKxkSvU&feature=fvst http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rai5PsGRtHI http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oC_bWtFbhec

I Don't Get It?
I have thought about this for a long time.. and it does not make sense! why do people always have to change? why does everything have to chane? Why cant People and thing just remain the same? http://fubar.com/user/2875609

I Don't
“I don't want to fall asleep without you-- If I close my eyes, I might wake to never find you here. And I'll realize everything we had was only a dream, And we were never meant to be...” “Close your blue eyes, darling. I know they grow heavy now, If I could hold you, you know I would somehow. But distance is a monster—but perhaps also a blessing in disguise To prove that love knows no boundaries, no size.” 'I long for you,” “And I long for you,” “Think that'll ever change?” “Doubt it.” “I hope it stays the same.” “You're my waking thought, My sinking dream as I drift off. You make the world a master piece Just with that sweet smile.” “How did you know I was smiling?” &ldquo

I Don't Really Know What To Think.
I promise you, I KNEW these people. Or at least i thought I did. To pick up such an ugly thing as heroin.. the sad part is, they're happy. I feel one of the most important peopleto me becoming so far away and there isn't a thing I can do about it. He told me himself,"I feel guilty because I know my friends and my family feel like shit about this, want me to stop for my own sake, and i'm sorry for saying this, but it just isn't enough."It's not like I want them to stop for me.. I want them to stop for themselves. I don'tthink they understand completely where they're going and what they're doing to themselves.I told him he's going to end up a homeless junkie on the streets doing nothing but everything to get more. I don't know what else I can say to him. All I know is that if I don't say something he's going to go crazy or die or rot his brain. He's already not thesame. It makes me so sad to hear about it, but I play the nurturer way too well. When he tells me what he's doing all I want

I Don't Know About Tomorrow
I don’t know if it will be you or me. I don’t know if we will remain the same as today. I wonder if we will feel the same thirst after the sunrise. Why suppose or even think about it, please don’t ask things I don’t know about. I don’t know where we will end up; our bodies will tell us that. Why promise something that is not within our power to do, I don’t know the meaning of eternity so don’t ask for something related to time. I don’t know if we will still be together tomorrow or if the world is going to end. I also don’t know if I am for you or if you are for me. I don’t know if we are going to love each other or hate each other…I don’t know about tomorrow who will remain… This I know: from a cup of coffee we will go to the sofa, from a button then everything else. We will not give the clock rules; it will be just you and me. All that you see is what I am, please don’t ask more than what I

I Don't Write Them, I Just Share...
FINALLY, SOMEONE'S CLEARED THIS UP For centuries, Hindu women have worn a dot on their foreheads. Most of us have naively thought this was connected with tradition or religion, but the Indian Embassy in Washington , D.C. , has recently revealed the true story. When a Hindu woman gets married, she brings a dowry into the union. On her wedding night, the husband scratches off the dot to see whether he's won a convenience store, a gas station, a donut shop, a taxi cab or a motel in America. If nothing is there, he must remain in India to answer telephones and provide us with technical support.

I Don't Know When I Will Be Back.
Hi anyone who reads this....I'm sorry if I have not been here on Fubar much these past few mo's. I found myself with few friends...the ones who remain true have stopped by..."Bearhugs" "Darlin Mother" "Curt" and a few others...Thank you so much for being a true friend. I found myself spending a lot of money on such silly things on this site....I rated and rated until I was blue...never to get the favor returned..the old rate me..I'll rate you trick grew old....yes there were a few that would drop a rate here and there....Bearhugs never let me down ((((HUG)))) I hope I can get my mojo up to come back here...but right now its gone....with working and such...I have little time for rating up.... Take Care my fu-buds..... xoxo ~ Tracy

I Dont Understand
i dont get why ppl has to hate on some one cuz of what they belive in and what kinda tunes they listen to. in my eye icp is the shit and they will always live on in my eye that the way i feel dont mean others has to feel like that. dont get plz let the world just rest

I Don't Get Writer's Block, I Just Write What's Hot, So You Ride My Jock.
ANT ᵀᴴᴱ ЯANT of Brass Knuckle Poets Society said: I don't get writer's block, I just write what's hot, so you ride my jock. ♂ΆяčнзŦұpє™ (B.K.P.S.)♂ said: Buzzing round me like'a flock, I beat'em off with soap in'a sockOr hurl rocks at those that dare mock, Lame ass joke's like knock knocksWho's there? It's me, da Doc, with a Phd in delivery to hard spots,But My fee is hourly, and ya on tha clock... Busta's waste my time... tick.. tockI can cure or afflict gut knots, inoculate or induced soul rot, Inflictin hemorrhages & brain clots, seizing their vitals, it's on lock...Defibrillating pulses from shock, like 9 rounds to the body, shotsMy Machiavellian code is like Tupac, To leave a legacy of legendary lyrical dropsSo I'm always remembered, respected an got propsSpittin to muh last breath or until the beat stops. ANT ᵀᴴᴱ ЯANT of Brass Knuckle Poets Society said: the b

I Dont Know
I am lost and incomplete.My desires are wrappedand twistedLike knots in a chainRusted together.There's no breaking the chain.Just the knotsThey are endless.No beginning.No end.I know that I doubt,But God, Send me a sign.Tell me where to go.What to do.Because I'm a mess.A broken, uncontrollableMess.Just love me.Show me that I DO matter.If to no one else,But you.Because I feel like I am lost.I feel like death would beEasier than life.I've been stuck so long,That my path hasOver grown.And I cant find my way.Again.

I Don't...i Don't
I don't want to hear the cruel words you speak with such venom.Why take your frustrations out on me? What did I do? Tell me!I'm here all the time. Everyday I'm here for you.Why make me feel dead inside? Why blame me for your failures?You're hardly there for me, I'm alone in this farce.I don't want to be the one any longer to carry the burden.I don't think you understand how much you degrade me.I don't even know if you truly feel at all! Do you? Can you?I don't know why I stay. I just don't. I don't know what to do.I don't know why you are like you are to me. Do you even know?You tell me why but I don't think you even know. No, you don't.Why can't you see how much damage you cause me? Others see it.I don't understand how you cannot see how you are or what you do!I don't...I don't understand, trully I don't.

I Do Not Want!!!
I DO NOT WANT !! "i do not want to be the leader. i refuse to be the leader. i want to live darkly and richly in my femaleness. i want a man lying over me, always over me. His will, his pleasure, his desire, his life, his work, his sexuality the touchstone, the command, my pivot. i don't mind working, holding my ground intellectually, artistically; but as a woman, oh, God, as a woman i want to be dominated. i don't mind being told to stand on my own feet, not to cling, be all that i am capable of doing, but i am going to be pursued, fucked, possessed by the will of a male at his time, his bidding. "— Anais Nin -

I Don't Get It
I just read a blurb on the MSN homepage after I checked my e-mail. It said something about David Letterman and how will his "scandal" affect his ratings/credibility. Am I the only one who doesn't get what the big deal is? So he had sex with a co-worker (or co-workers) a few years ago. He wasn't even married then. (And even if he was, who the fuck cares?!) Is there not more interesting, more hard hitting news to report on? How many people fuck co-workers? Someone I worked with is pregnant by a co-worker and she's married to someone else and still living with her husband. THAT sounds more scandalous than what Letterman did. I guess I just don't get it.

I Don't Get Jealous
Pain and anger, fear, disdain,Broken fragments, of rotting brain,Shattered glass and anguished tears,Jealous eyes and held back fears,Knowledge that, your breath is sacred,Inept lies and your manufactured,Seperated by a line of division, but it’s his decision,When saying I’m pretty, you’re only teasingCoz’ you’re more than that, you’re aesthetically pleasing,There’s nothing I look forward to more,Than the day that you get shown the door,The rest of my life, there’s nothing to gainThis is what I invisage, each time he mentions your name.

I Don't Care !!!‏
HURRAY FOR THE LADY WHO WROTE THIS LETTER, WE ALL THINK THE SAME BUT HAVE NO GUTS TO PUT IN THE PRESS, GOD BLESS HER AND HER GUTS. This was written by a Canadian woman, but oh how it also applies to the U.S., U.K. and Australia . THIS ONE PACKS A FIRM PUNCH Written by a housewife in New Brunswick, to her local newspaper. This is one ticked off lady!'Are we fighting a war on terror or aren't we? Was it or was it not started by Islamic people who brought it to our shores on September 11, 2001 and have continually threatened to do so since? Were people from all over the world, not brutally murdered that day, in downtown Manhattan , across the Potomac from the nation's capitol and in a field in Pennsylvania ? Did nearly three thousand men, women and children die a horrible, burning or crushing death that day, or didn't they? And I'm supposed to care that a few Taliban were claiming to be tortured by a justice system of the nation they come from and are fighting against in a brutal insurgen

I Dont Get It
i dont understand. when someone makes an honest mistake. no harm was done. just something stupid. why get mad about it? its very sad is someone wants everything but don't want to give any. lets make this clear im not saying i want anything. i dont ask for anything. but if you want me to do something for you than should at least make it appear i exist in your eyes. almost everyday i ask myself why im on here? its stupid. i been fight flu i have and now i have to hear this shit. i cant please everyone. if im that bad a friend than delete me than, actually i might just delete you. save you the trouble and time. well im going to find somewhere else to go. if i find something better than im out of here

I Don't Understand
I don't understand how people can say they love you but don't really mean it. I also don't understand how someone can say they care but have a hard way of showing it. Its just very very fucked up! Im not pointing any fingers at anyone but its still very fucked up the way people treat one another especially when they love that person. I thought we were friends and I was hoping to have a future with this person but its kinda hard when i only hear from them every two weeks or so. So screw everyone I don't need anyone to make me happy!!

I Don't Know Just Read....
Hate To Love As she screams, the sound is so sharp and loud it will make your ears bleed, but still no one hears, no one hears her screams, for her screams are muffled by love, A love that holds her captive to her abuser, thou her love isn’t enough to save her from his rage, the love he feels for her is so strong that he holds her captive in her own home and in her heart, he loves her too much to free her, instead all his love turns into rage just to try to hold on to her, but what he doesn’t see is, this love that once was beautiful built and marriage and a family, and now the same love is destroying everything it built, Love is now a bad thing, love is now evil, it is now her worst enemy, her mind wants to let him go but love wont let her heart be free of him and the abuse. That’s love, what was once good is now bad because of love.

I Don't Get It....
Once again tonight I get my heart broken by a woman. This time it's "oh Kyle, I would rather have my ex boyfriend who treated me like shit than you, because he said he was sorry (once again) and we have a history". Everytime I get an interest, something happens like this. Or they turn out crazy, or they would rather just stay friends, or any of the other millions of excuses I get. I am starting to wonder, is it me? I always thought of myself as a good guy. I am honest. I always express myself and say what is on my mind. I compliment always. I try to be uplifting. I am romantic. I am a thrill seeker, but also am peaceful most of the time. Is there something I am not seeing? Is there something about me that I haven't learned yet that these women are seeing? When I become interested in someone, I give it my all. I put 110% into everything. I try to make sure everything is right. I compromise where it is due. Why is it that the good guys always end up hurt, or used, or li

I Don't Get It.
I don't get it....I'm not one of those guys on here that comes right out talking "dirty" to women thinking it's "cool to do". I'm not one of the MANY people on here who constantly changing my status begging for something new. Is that why it's so difficult for me to lvl up on this thing? I want to lvl up just like everyone else on here. So does that mean I have to be like everyone else and beg, beg, beg? I just don't understand. Why can't finding people for semi-intelligent conversation lead to some kin

I Dont Know What To Call It
u know i got alot on my mind alot what i say dont always come out the way i want and ppl take it the wrong way and it would seems like the one person i love took something i said wrong and i am sorry . what i said was not ment to be mean or sould like telling u what to do . u should know me better after 5 years i would never tell u what to do. u know i never hurt u nomatter what. i hope u read this i want to say alot to u and hope i dont fuck this up. i dont take this site to heart i mean its just a site and i have u in real life all that matters. what bugs me is when someone put u down. that bugs me cuz u are my everything. there is nothing i wouldnot do for u just look in your heart u know it to be true and if u dump me cuz of this site i would still love u and try to protect u u all i want in life all i need so let me know something i love u. love u so much i show side of me i always hide the human side cuz u mean so much to me i make a fool out of my self to make u happy ant that w

I Done A Quiz
(I stole this off of my friend Lovicious Scissorsnatch) layer one.Spell your name with bands/artists K - Kings Of Convenience I - Interpol N - Nickelback Bitch (cheers Porch) S - Slipknot layer two.- name: kins- birth date: April 15, 1975- nicknames: Fatty, CuntCunt- current location: my desk- eye color: No idea- hair color: Brownish I guess- righty or lefty: I'm right-handed, is that it?- best friend[s]: Magic, Perfect, Lui and Davelayer three.- the shoes you wore today: my work sneakers- your perfect pizza: sausage, bacon, pepperoni, beef, bbq sauce, plenty of cheese- the last time you cried: Watching 'Elf' last nightlayer four.- your best physical feature: Beard & Butt - most missed memory: Missed memory? I don't understand the questionlayer five.- pepsi or coke: pepsi- mcdonald's or burger king: subway- adidas or nike: converse- lipton ice tea or nestea: Eh?- chocolate or vanilla: chocolate- cappuccino or coffee: coffee, black and stronglayer six.- curse: fuckno- do you sin

I Done Another Quiz
RULES:1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELFCoronaWHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?Blueberry BoatHOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?Gun Street GirlWHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?Yawn At The Apocalypse IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?D2 BoyfriendWHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?Tension (HAH!!) WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?Hang On St ChristopherWHAT DO YOU OFTEN THINK ABOUT?Transport Overseas (I shit you not, that came up)WHAT IS 2 + 2?Close Your EyesWHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?JumperWHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?Chillout TentWHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?Deeply SorryWHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LOVE?Lone WolfWHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?Chug A LugWHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?The SupineWHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?Old Lady Ealing Does Man ExperimentsWHAT IS YOUR BIG

I Don't Wanna Leave This Way Don't Say Goodbye
Were involved in something you'll never forget?Yes very muchTripped over a coffee table?yes .. that hurtsDyed your hair?yupCame close to losing your life?close...Saw one of your favorite bands/artists live?Yup.. I love concerts2009: Friends and EnemiesDid you meet any new friends this year?yeah I didDid you hate anyone?YupDo you have any regrets when it comes to your friendships?I regret some on here2009:birthdayDid you have a cake?yeah.. Did you get any presents?Some... my 21st bday sucked2009: All about YOUDid you change at all this year?yes i haveDid you change your style?no wayWere you in school?nopeDid you get good grades?decent Did you own a car?I wishDid anyone close to you give birth?she used to be close to me Did you go on any vacations?nopeWould you change anything about yourself now?idk2009: Wrap UP:Was 2009 a good year?no it wasn'tDo you think 2010 will top 2009?i really hope soPainted a picture?haven't painted for over a yearWrote a poem?not good at writingRan a mile?I can

I Dont Hate Christmas I Just Have No Reason For It
Am I the only one that could care less about this time of year? Granted its fun to watch little kids faces light up when they find that one toy when they go shopping in my dept. but other than that. I find it hard to deal with after of years of being with no one on christmas and years of working retail. Its kind of zapped it all out of me

I Don't Care
Well some things have changed for me and it's about time I blog about it. I don't mean to really offend anyone, so if I do....sorry. I'm dating someone now. I'm actually happy and for that reason, I've not been online much. I spend my free time either talking to him or seeing him. I've gotten a few texts and not been able to answer because I'm either working or spending time with John. I then get a text, from the same person saying that since I don't want to talk to them, they are going to delete me. [shrug] I also got an instant message talking about how I wanted to "take things slow" with a guy. This guy has hurt me so many times, that taking it slow was exactly what I wanted to do. Is it my fault that I met someone, got to know them and then fell for them? No. Me and the "take it slow guy" were NEVER dating. Not only did they try to make me feel bad for being happy, they ended the conversation with "all I have to say - It figures". Whatever. I didn't do anything to hurt them, ne

I Don't Want Any Other
Our life has not been easy, We've managed to drift apart But whatever it's worth Know you're always in my heart Not a day goes by When I don’t wish we'd talk To say hello or goodbye Or maybe go for a walk Your missing important days I'm not kid anymore It's a difficult maze Everytime my heart's tore There are times I need you To be there for me That nurturing statue If only you could be It's not you I blame For the way we are But all the hurtful shame Left an invisible scar Sometimes I feel trapped I don't know what to do Does God have our life mapped Help me sail across the blue! Why can't we mend this We both love each other I'm not sure about him But I miss you I hope you understand Why it's so hard to call I have the phone in my hand But it seems to always fall For now I'll hope and pray For you to come around That would be the day When the new us is found I still Love You And still want you to be mine Regard

I Dont Even Know What To Say...
Been a while since I’ve written here, so let’s see where did we leave off? I went on vacation to Cali and had a great time but was busier than I preferred and didn’t get to see my Sonja. That made me rather sad. It is one of the top reasons I go there. Had a LOT of bonding time with my sister in law (LOVE that angel of a woman!) and my brother. I got to do a lot of great things while being out there. I wish I could have gotten to do more though. For the very select few…you know that my trip to Cali was great, but is also bittersweet. Doesn’t matter how old I get or how long it has been…It will remain that way. I think the reality of being in Cali hit Thanksgiving night. I came home and things seemed fine. LOL Of course things are never fine with me. I will say the ripple effect of Cali was much more subtle this time round…or maybe I just wanted to believe that I was better this time around. My emotions have been bouncing all over the place a

I Don't Get It.
Okay, really I do get the whole idea of the "pants on the ground" song that some old man sang on American Idol last night. I really do. However, I do NOT see the humor in it that everyone else seems to see. The song is about all these people that wear their pants so low that they are prett much on the ground. That concept has always bothered me. I want to just run up behind them and pull their pants down. The way I look at it, that's what they want, if they didn't, they'd wear a belt or get pants that fit. Nothing is less attractive than seeing a person that looks like they don't know how to get the right size in clothes. Anyway, the whole reason I'm writing this is because I'm hoping that MAYBE there is someone else out there that just thinks the song was stupid, not funny. More lame if you ask me.

I Dont Get It
so heres a qustion for all the ladys out there what would make you play games with someones fealings for no known reason? why would you tell someone that you love them and then just leave them to suffer? whats up with that? even after you have been open and compleatly honest with them from the get go? im not a bad person im realy not i just wanna know why so i can move on what did i do that was so horable? and how long should i suffer for what ive done or what i havent done im sick of being screwed over its driveing me to the edge in the past year ive lost my job, my home ,my friends ,the two women ive given my hart to fully just left me, i almost died 3 times and i have the scars to remind me every time i look in the mirror....im cursed im sure of it doomed to live my life to where every one i love just leaves me ..... so sick of it .....damn.... but what ever i know who i am and what im capeable of!!!! no one and nothing will stop me from succeding so fuck all you haters ill sho

I Don't Know ....
1. JENNIFER a fun, outgoing person. generally smart but can be a total blonde at times. someone who likes meeting new people, and smiles a lot. a person who never would just turn on people. a very good friend. someone you can trust. when she's mad, stand clear she might blow her top. but a person who doesn't get mad easily so you dont have to worry about that. she alwayas smiles!she is such a jennifer. 2. JENNIFER She has the most beautiful eyes and hair. She smells that of a fall evening, and her voice will typically seranade you. What is it about those Jennifers that always get me going? 3. JENNIFER A really sexy, funny, smart girl that every guy wants. Damn, you lucky bastard, your gf is a total Jennifer 3. JENNIFER Usually the hottest girl in the class. Laughs 24/7 and smiles no matter what's going on. 4. JENNIFER

I Don't Believe You By Pink
I Don't Believe YouI don't mind itI don't mind at allIt's like you're the swing setAnd I'm the kid that fallsIt's like the way we fightThe times I've criedWe come to blowsAnd every nightThe passion's thereSo it's got to be rightRight?No I don't believe youWhen you say don't come around here no moreI won't remind youYou said we wouldn't be apartNo I don't believe youWhen you say you don't need me anymoreSo don't pretend toNot love me at allI don't mind itI still don't mind at allIt's like one of those bad dreamsWhen you can't wake upIt looks like you've given upYou've had enoughBut I want moreNo I won't stopBecause I just knowYou'll come aroundRight?No I don't believe youWhen you say don't come around here no moreI won't remind youYou said we wouldn't be apartNo I don't believe youWhen you say you don't need me anymoreSo don't pretend toNot love me at allJust don't stand there and watch me fallBecause I, because I still don't mind at allIt's like the way we fightThe times I've criedWe c

I Do Not Know What The Hell Is Going On
I do not know whats going on my list of status messages has been removed was Liz Vicious Right when she told me that FUBAR cenors what people say? I was scared cuz of what happen to Liz Vicious so after i made my first photo Album I asked a bouncer to look at ALL the photos and let m know if they were a problem But now another bouncer seems to me marking them NSFW. Oddly enough after i had writen some stuff about Liz Vicious. It seems odd that both my status messages and my photos would come under attack like that at the same time right after talking about Liz Vicious. I am kind of scared to even post this BLOG I mean is FUBAR rally going to be upset at me for wondering why these things seem to be connected? am I not allowed to talk about my friend Liz Vicious? I know one thing for sure I went out of my way to ask a bouncer to look at my photos after i sent them and she said I should be OK and let her know if there was a problem. I have done that so i hope this works out ok.

I Do Not Know What This Is!!!!
So many times we get hurt, our mind heals, but our heart carries the hurt for eternity. We often think that by drinking our pain away works, but it only causes more pain. We seek someone who can mend our broken heart, but what we find is the same monster that hurt us before. It is a never ending circle that will go on until we change ourselves, date the guy or girl we think is sweet or date someone who you normally wouldn't date. Because they are the ones who will break the hurt from all the others.

I Dont Even Know
So this "woman" (and i use the word lightly) contacts me on facebook with the shit about something that was a total mind fuck a year and a half ago.. I told her to leave me alone and i didnt care about the shit one way or another.. if you saw the blog yesterday, you saw the convo. Anyway, someone else emailed her and gave her a piece of her mind, and they happened to be in the middle of it with me, so I get this email on facebook with more shit, so i clicked the stfu button on her..end of story right? WRONG, the twit fucking sends me an email on myspace! WTF, im being stalked from site to site? gimme a fucking break! and I have to block this bitch on myspace too! now, unfortunately im probably gonna have the bitch fucking with me from fake accounts here, so if i have to put my profile private i will, because some of you refuse to do a salute, so thats not gonna work lol what the hell is wrong with some people? arg!

I Don't Think Of It So Much As "purgatory" As "inferno Ii: Electric Boogaloo"
The Dante's Inferno Test has sent you to Purgatory!Here is how you matched up against all the levels: Level Score Purgatory (Repenting Believers) Very High Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers) Low Level 2 (Lustful) Very High Level 3 (Gluttonous) Very Low Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious) Very Low Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy) Moderate

I Don't Want To Fall In Love By She Wants Revenge
I would like to tell you, I would like to say That I knew that this would happen That things would go this way But I cannot deceive you, this was never planned I know that you're the right girl but do you think that I am the right man? 1...2...3...4,5,6,7, Right face wrong time, she's sweet (But I don't wanna fall in love) Too late, so deep, better run cause (but I don't wanna fall in love) Can't sleep, can't eat, can't think straight (I don't wanna) You say it's not a problem, You say it's meant to be But love is not an option, our love is never free And things are not so easy, so cold and we've been burned I know that I'll have regrets but that's the price of one more lesson learned 1..2..3...4,5,6,7, Right face wrong time, she's sweet (But I don't wanna fall in love) Too late, so deep, better run cause (but I don't wanna fall in love) Can't sleep, can't eat, can't think straight (I don't wanna) Right face wrong time, she's sweet (But I don't wanna fall

I Dont Deserve U
I Don’t Deserve YouI’ll always love youNo matter what comes our wayI will protect youCome whatever mayI want to hold youThe way you so dearly deserveI want to show youEverything this life has in storeI’ll always love youJust know this is trueI don’t deserve youSo I will do all I can for youBy: Robert Date: 5-2-10

I Don't Like Mondays - Boomtown Rats
The silicon chip inside her head Gets switched to overload And nobody's gonna go to school today She's going to make them stay at home And daddy doesn't understand it He always said she was as good as gold And he can see no reason Cos there are no reasons What reason do you need to be shown Tell me why I don't like Mondays I want to shoot The whole day down The telex machine is kept so clean As it types to a waiting world And mother feels so shocked Father's world is rocked And their thoughts turn to Their own little girl Sweet 16 ain't that peachy keen No, it ain't so neat to admit defeat They can see no reasons Cos there are no reasons What reason do you need to be shown Tell me why I don't like Mondays I want to shoot The whole day down All the playings stopped in the playground now She wants to play with her toys a while And school's out early and soon we'll be learning And the lesson today is how to die And then the bullhorn crackles And the captain crac

I Don't Look A Day Over 35
My horoscope was lame today: Today, michelle, you might discover a new psychic talent that you may not have tapped before: the power of mind over matter. This may also involve spiritual healing. There is also the ability to see what lies beneath the surface of a person's mind. These abilities could be a bit disconcerting if they aren't trained, so try to find a psychic development class if there's one in your area. A friend who's done something similar could be of assistance. so i am writing a new one: happy Birthday you fucking awesome Taurus! Your cup runneth over with delicous coffee as you enjoy that amazing strawberry parfait your sister and brother in law got you. Sleep late and let your dog enjoy your new backyard because lazy is the theme today. Friends from near and far will lavish you with fu gifts. And when you finally return home after your St. Pete vaca you will find a lovely care package from Perfectly Inked. Thank you soooooo much for the bling and the fubucks and t

I Don't Care -by- Apocalyptica
I try to make it through my life,In my way,There's you,I try to make it through these lies,That's all, I doJust don't deny it,Just don't deny it,And deal with it,Yeah deal with it,You try to break me,You wanna break me,Bit by bit,Thats just part of itIf you were dead or still alive,I don't care - I don't care,And all the things you left behind,I don't care - I don't careI try to make you see my side,Always trying to stay in line,But your eyes see right through,That's all they do,I'm getting tired of this shit,I've got no room when it's like this,But your wanting me,Just deal with it!SO!If you were dead or still alive,I don't care - I don't care,And all the things you left behind,I don't care - I don't careNOTHING CAN CARE ABOUT! NOTHING CAN CARE ABOUT!YOU WON'T BE THERE FOR ME! YOU WON'T BE THERE FOR MEEEEEEEE!If you were dead or still alive,I don't care - I don't care,And all the things you left behind,I don't care - I don't careIf you were dead or still alive,I don't care (NOTHING CA

I Dont Wanna Be A Daddy
Well doc appt today went very well... Baby is no longer breech and in postion to fall out the GF's Vag... Sonogram shows that the baby is 8lbs already, so if she dont go by next thursday they will be inducing..and have upped her due date to be next Friday... if i suddenly disappear from here its cause my fourth..yes fourth...whats that fourth..yeah ya fuckin tard my FOURTH kid...is being born for those of you whom may not know...we are having another girl..her name will be Gianna Isabella so lets see..thats makes a 16yr old boy..a 14yr old boy...a 4 year old girl...and holy fuck a FOURTH kid... Yes all my children live with me....and no i will not be having anymore kids...hence the big V accomplished 2 months ago that is all

I Don`t Think You Know,but .....
I Don`t Think You Know,but .....I don't think you willever fully understandhow you've touched my life.I don't think you could ever knowjust how truly special you arethat even on the darkest nightsyou are my brightest star.I don't think you will ever fully comprehendhow you've made my dreams come true.You are an Amazing & Awesome person, Carl :)

I Don't Understand Something About Women
Yes, I know that sounds a bit odd coming from a woman but it's true. I was in the store earlier this evening and there happened to be a pregnant woman. All of the sudden you hear squeals from other woman Ooooohhhhhing and Ahhhhhhhhing and rubbing this pregnant woman's stomach. Seriously, what the fuck? Do you even know this person? She's big as a freakin' house and probably hotter then hell. Like she really wants you groping and fondling her stomach! I just don't understand it. If someone could explain it I would really appreciate. Because truthfully, if I was the woman, I would have cold cocked their asses.

I Dont Care!
I try to make it through my life, in my way, there's you I try to make it through these lies, and that's all I do Just don't deny it, Don't try to fight this ,and deal with it and that's just part of it, If you were dead or still alive I don't care, I don't care Just go and leave this all behind Cause i swear,i don't care I try to make you see my side Always trying to stay in line But your eyes see right through That's all they do I'm getting buried in this place I got no room your in my face don't say anything just go away If you were dead or still alive I don't care, I don't care Just go and leave this all behind Cause i swear i don't care If you were dead or still alive I don't care, I don't care Just and and leave this all behind

I Don't Sleep Anymore.
Earlier this week, on Sunday night, I had a dream in which I knew I was asleep. I was stood outside of my house in torrential rain at night and thought I needed to get inside in order to wake up. I approached the front door and placed my knuckles onto the door-window ready to knock. I knew that my next action would bring me one step closer to consciousness. The moment I knocked on the door, the thudding sound of the knock was so loud, so frightening and so real that it woke me from my sleep. BOOM. BOOM. BOOM.I jumped up immediately and listened out for a further knock at the door. I was roasting hot, sweating profusely and my heart was beating so hard, I don’t think I would have been able to tell the difference between a knock at the door and my thudding heart beat. After I came to my senses and realised that the possibility of the door knocking at the exact moment of dreaming it is incredibly low, I fell back to sleep. Monday, the very following night, I had the same dream.

[i Don't Think Winamp Understands "random"]
I mean... it never has.but tonight more than usual.Okaytime to play doctoropen your blouse and scream "ooh~"...why does that NEVER work?I can't sleep because I'm a big ball of sexual frustration.Woo!Y'know what's worse than that?Being a big ball of sexual frustrationcovered in bees.What was I talking about?Probably foodrobotsand sexFirst upgnocchiI still can't make this stuff from scratchme- dumplingsproducts with flournever quite works outbut I didfind out that if you boil it til it floats,drain itand toss it into a flat iron skillet with ribeye juice in ityou got yourself an oral orgasmYou'll want to swallow.Not quite a pan sauce, not quite gravy, and for some reason the starchy lil dumplings seem to grab it up pretty good.I like mine with artichoke and almond pesto"why artichoke almond pesto you crazycrazy man"Because I have artichokesI have almondsI have a blenderIt also goes good with black olive tepanad and sundried tomatosthought I'd share that with youbut yeah, its a very rich,

I Don't Even Know My Last Name
Just so everyone is on the same page. . .I am no longer working, I was fired today. I was a contractor employee with Aerotek working at Unisys. Well my first paycheck came on a Friday afternoon and I could not get to the bank until Saturday morning. When I got to the bank the girl gave me a hard time because Aerotek put my full name that I do not use, and I do not like to talk about, on the check. I told the ladies at Aerotek about it and they told me that there is nothing they can do because of some I-9 Compliance thing saying they have to use the name on my Social Security card. Well I have worked for 6 other companies, not counting Aerotek, and none of them used the name on my Social Security card they always just used the name I asked them to use. And you have to think the one company I worked for Discover Financial Services, they would have to follow all the rules and what not because when I started with them they were under the Morgan Stanley umbrella. So I get fired becau

I Don't Stand For Dumb Shit
Decaying P...: omg.... your giving out HH's?... and i can even get a hi back?? 7:53am Decaying P...: wtf did i do to get ignored that way 11:34am Ninja: who and what i spend my fuckin money on is NONE of your fucking business 11:34am Ninja: so you just earned yourself a deletion. PERMANENTLY 11:34am Decaying P...: why are you ignoring me i have been tryin for days to talk to you... and it took this to get a reply 11:35am Decaying P...: if u delete me i cant pay u back 11:35am Ninja: i wasn't fuckin on here much. it's called REAL LIFEW 11:35am Ninja: LIFE* 11:35am Decaying P...: life? 11:35am Ninja: you were supposed to pay me back a month ago. you have yet to pay me anything back 11:36am Decaying P...: and i will when i start work 11:36am Decaying P...: it just sucks to see u giving HH's to such douchebags hun

I Don't Knowwhat To Do... I Want To Save My Relationship
*sighs* I feel like shit. My girlfriend is busy yes... but what I don't understand is why she doesn't seem herself. When I started to talk with her she seemed like she couldn't have enough of me. It seemed like I had her full attention and when I would call her she would welcome my voice with open ears. Now it seems like she ca't wait to get off the phone with me and I admit, amidst my panic I did call a little to much but it just seems like she's not herself. She has her new apartment away from her family nw and it's like now that she's free, the one who was there for her doesn't have any meaning now. Did I do something wrong. She hasn't started college yet and she's so fucking busy. What happened to our long phone calls and our flirty chats. What's going to happen to our plans for the future now that her boyfriend... me.. doesn't have the meaning I used to. Was I just a scapegoat or was I something real to her? So many questions are running through my head right now and it's bohering

I Dont Want To Say Goodbye
I dont want to say goodbye but i will walk away, with a sigh. i am glad we had the chance to say i love you my friend. never thought it would end. all i did was try, but now all i do is cry. wished you could see, the person i wanted to be. I dont want to say goodbye, i walk away with a sigh.

I Don't Get It.
I don't understand why on the news we're always hearing about stuff all over the world, crisis and things but I've found that we rarely hear about China unless it's about economic and political stuff.I'm not sure how may of you know this but on the 23/08/10 there was a tour bus held siege in Manila, mainly Hong Kong tourists...with the tourist company Hong Thai. (I've been on their tours before (52)).It's pretty horrible actually and the way the Phillipine government handled it was just absolutely ridiculous.Basically an ex Phillipino policeman went crazy and held a whole tourbus hostage whilst demanding the government give him his job back (he got fired).Obviously he was a wackjob to be demanding that when he's taking a whole bunch of people hostage, I don't see why the Phillipino government couldn't just lie and tell him yes he could and then just arrest him later, what's worse is that the police themselves caused near enough more harm than help.They had plenty of chances to shoot th

I Don't Turn You On. Now Eff Off.
Xentarios: Hello gorgeous. 9:34am Suga Lips: hi 9:35am Xentarios: Love your pics. You are so sexy. How is your day going? 9:38am Suga Lips: Thanks. Good and yours? 9:39am Xentarios: Great though now im all turned on and you arent here to help me with that. 9:39am Suga Lips: Right. They have porn and you have hands, you know 9:41am Xentarios: Yea that is true though i dont look at porn much unless it is someone i know lol. Cant get excited about anyone i dont talk to lol 9:41am Suga Lips: Well then there really shouldn't be an issue with me, should there? 9:42am Xentarios: Well i can talk to you . But its not really a bad thing so i will be ok. 9:43am Suga Lips: Look dude, I'm not here for your dick 9:45am Xentarios: Never said you were. Id be afraid of catching something from some random person online. That would be scary. 9:46am Suga Lips: Good. Wonderful.

I Don't Care
What color your name is, what you rate me (if you rate me). I don't care about your nsfw's. I don't care if you crush me, like me, rate me or add me. I don't care about any of the nonsense on here, I look past that...I look to the person I'm talking to. I'm here for the friends I've already made and the ones I hope to make...I don't have the ambition for the popularity contest. I'm too old for high school and the bs it put forth. There are certain people that keep me grounded here through the madness. Just thought I'd throw this out there...

I Don’t Know Stuff
Husband asked me to stop arguing with him “do you have to correct everything I say or argue with almost everything I say?” “Yes” I replied “because this is a relationship and not North Korea, if I just agree with everything you say and never argue about a point, it’s a totalitarian regime and not a marriage” “You can’t just let things go, you always have to correct me or have the last word” he snapped back. “Yes, because you were wrong” I added, that was the last word and that’s how that works. This is ironic as I was just doing to him what he does to me constantly. I have realised something, if I do the stuff to husband in a sarcastic fashion that he does to me, then am not actually pointing out how much it annoys me, I am just confirming his behaviour that its ok to be an annoying dick. So when he constantly goes to great lengths to show me I did

I Don't Give A F*ck By Dope
I DON'T GIVE A F*CK BY DOPE.. This is a song about five simple words, That when used together properly can help to relieve the stress, frustrations, And aggravations caused by all the people that make you wanna freak the fuck out.Why do you have to go and make things so hard?It doesn't have to be like this.Who the fuck do you think you are?That's it, I'm walking away, just one more reason for me to say... I don't give a fuckI don't give a fuck (what?)About you, or your point of view, or your stupid selfish attitude.Cuz it seems, to be, that you never really gave a fuck about me.So I don't give a fuckI don't give fuckTo my boss who's always hasslin' me, And the people that I work with harassing me, And the ones talkin' fuck with their backs to me, And to my loving parents through my wonderful teenage years.To my ex-girlfriend that cheated on me, My ex-teachers that never believed in me, To the people who always want something for free, And to the president of the United States o

I Don't Wana Spend My Life Wasted....
This song explains how I feel about relationships, mine and other peoples . I sort of feel like I'm one to hang on much longer then I should and I dont know when to just cut my losses and let it go. I am also tired of wasting life away unhappy when I know happiness is out there . Im struggleing to make some tough decisions about my life and its a long road to find the right answer. Standing at the back doorShe tried to make it fastOne tear hit the hard woodIt fell like broken glassShe said sometimes love slips awayAnd you just can't get it backLet's face itFor one split secondShe almost turned aroundBut that would be like pouring rain dropsBack into a cloudSo she took another step and saidI see the way out and I'm gonna' take itI don't wanna' spend my life jadedWaiting to wake up one day and findThat I've let all these years go byWastedAnother glass of whisky but it still don't kill the painSo he stumbles to the sink and pours it down the drainHe says it's time to be a man and sto

I Don't Want To Get Off On A Rant Here But...
Today is Veteran's Day and as we try to forget the horrible way we treat our veterans (lack of treatment for those who have PTSD, etc.), let us reflect on the unsung heroes, the veterans of the international community. The Russian, the Brits, and yes even the French have contributed to our survival since our inception. To you unsung heroes I salute you. And of course to our peeps

I Dont Understand
ok things i dont understand .. first off what to do with a husband who you want to believe but cant because he lies. how do you tell if you just want to believe him or if hes telling the truth? wow this really sucks.. ive srpent the last few hours making two fubar accounts one with and invite and one with out and invite, i wanted to see if you could add a person to your profile page if they didnt invite you to fubar. from what i have found you cant... the only way to have the invite by "......" is to have been invited to fubar by that person in an email. so why is it i want to believe my husband when he tells me he didnt invite her??? wow i must be stupid.. he told me he didnt and i believed him for a few days but now im like wow im stupid, and what the hell am i going to do about it anyway i have done what i can to make things right for us, i gave him a second chance, but i guess when there is a will you will find a way.. he bought me a car and a house to try to make things look ok li

I Don't Know You Any More..
Though I love you so muchI want you to knowThough you mean the world to meI'm learning to let you go.You can only become so close to someone before you let them fallI didn't want to admit itIt was easier to lieTo hide the hurt and emptinessTo smile, instead of cryBecause things are very different now and you are not the sameFor every time you hurt me, another scar is gain...Is this only a game you're playing or is this how it's always going to be?One day you say it's over and the next you're saying how much you need me.I've decided that I'll try, try and find anotherBut the feelings I have for you I'll never feel for any otherI just have one more question,Are you willing and ready to sacrifice our love so that we can be just friends

I Dont Even Know Anymore
For the longest time now ive been pondering what is it that im doing wrong. No one of the opposite sex at all no attention i mean im not looking for all the attention or i want them all lovey dovey on me either but not even a look when im out at public places no one to talk to, and when i do get setup i get thrown aside by the asshole ones. I feel like giving it up on this, its been 2 years and im 20 bout to 21 and i sit at home and work..this life of my blows badly .

I Don't See What You See...
Can't you tell I don't see what you see?My eyes are blinded to it.Tormented by those who didn't care.Nothing can fix Nothing can repairStuck inside the darkness No one would really care.

I Don't Care
I don't care about leveling or my daily rank. I'm jus here having fun. If I have credits I buy random bling, I rate nothing but eleven's until I run out and if you have open NSFW's I'm going to check them out. PEACE

I Don't Claim To Be The Baddest Bitch...
I don’t claim to be the baddest bitch or the cream to your coffee and I’m mean as fuck but somehow seem to keep the haters off me. But that one night when your man said he had somethin’ on his mind - He didn’t lie it was me he was thinkin’ of and my pussy he wanted to grind. Sweating, moaning, grunting, trying so hard and closing his eyes but it’s not for you sweetheart. He’s got his head between my thighs. Now I don’t mean to upset your girl, ‘cause I’d probably fuck her too. And I definitely wouldn’t be startin’ shit with me if I were in your shoes. So this is what happens when you get to sendin’ porn gif’s to BeBa – you listen to music, let the yayo flow and try to stick your words togetha ha

I Don't Know
I am just trying this out. Here goes. I am trying to figure out why certain issues never get resolved. When I speak of certain issues, it can be anything. I mainly don't know why people make the same mistake over and over but yet never change. They do complain. I thought everything would be different at this stage in my life. I keep seeing a lot of the same thing. I think i am being vague. Meh it is my blog. I will be vague for now. I want everybody who works hard and puts their all into everything they do to be happy. The problem is happiness is nothing more than an idea. I can go as far as to say it is an illusion. I know most people will think that I am crazy. I can accept that but what I hate seeing is pure denial. I see so many people in situations with a smile on their face but I can feel the pain they are projecting. Hell sometimes it is not pain. It is pure disappointment. I don't get it. I see some people who are actually happy. It is not a show for everybody else to see. I

I Don't Know..........
So a certain MuMMer has me blocked. He was told he had to block me..so he did. He always said I was one of his best friends. We never had anything going on between us and he knows this. Fubar has, for some reason, unblocked people...I'm not longer blocked by him. I'm not sure if he knows it. Should I send him a shout just saying that I am sorry about everything that happened and that I understand why he blocked me and that he can block me again? Ugh....help

I Dont Have It. Whatever It Is.
It seems I went through life unnoticed. Not till I say i have a girlfriend even worse feeling is the look they give when i say she has white skin. Then the looks once I tell them she's near michigan. Wait minnesota because she cheers for the vikings. Anyway, im doing wrong in my love life because i'm not fucking anyone near. I must ask, who the fuck is here? No one even smiled my way like i was carrying a disease, a virus that will spread when i sneeze or i'll bleed death on all every breath that I breathe. Why not date women here? Bitch please. Why women here dont date me? That's the question. I'm nothing special. I dont have anything that stands out to get your attention. I just exist. Just live. Do my thing. Walk my way. Don't say much unless there is something worth to say. So you tell me, where are the women who looks at me and want to play? Where they at? Where they at? Not on top of my dick, so where there at? What's wrong with the love i have? Yeah two years a

I Dont Care What Others Think
What drives me nuts is that how people acted toward what people say or do or even what they like. I like video games, I like to watch anime. I like to do a lot of other things as well. But what kills me tho is that i have noticed that people on here will say the rudest things on peoples mumms. Whether they are being serious or not, they got to watch out cause some people might not know your just jokeing around. Another thing i have noticed is that people have said things about peoples names on here, like your name is stupid, retarded or gay. I have to laugh about that cause people i have seen do that, i am like have you looked at your name lately, you have no room to talk. P.S IF you dont like what I said in this blog then you can just go and kiss my ass.

I Don't Get It
The most beautiful, I've ever seen. But, is this really, what you mean? I'm confused and hurt, Don't get it at all. How could my beauty, have been our downfall. I can help what I look like, it doesn't change who I am. You are everything and more, I could ever ask for in a man. I can't get it, out of my head. I keep thinking about, the things you said. You loved every thing about me, once before. How can the same qualities, not be good enough anymore? I thought, maybe I should cut my hair or gain a few pounds. Thinking of things to change, has really brought me down. Because I would change, if I could. If I thought, it would do any good. But it won't because, I would still be the same. I don't understand, which is a shame. Because I love you so much, and this has me in tears. If being myself drove you away, and not my fear. Then I have no idea, why I am even here.

I Don't Do Blogs Much, So Yeah, It's A Pretty Big Deal For Me To Do One.
A very dear friend of mine felt the wrath of Hurricane Irene and most of you know who she is. She's my #1 fam and I'm doing my part to help her out. Her name is Jaze and she would appreciate any help you can provide. You can send donation to her Paypal account: djjaze@yahoo.com. Thanks in advance if you do help. =) (And if you do have someone in your friends list who has experienced loss during Irene, do what you can to help them as well. Every little bit helps, especially in this day and age.)

I Don't Love Him Anymore.
I don't love him anymore. Oh really? I see the way you look at him, the way you say his name. You smile whenever he talks. Just the mention of his name makes your heart beat fast, how do i know this? Your face turns bright red and you just have this expression. You always grab your phone RIGHT when you get a message, just to check if its him. If it is him, you take time to respond because you don't want him to think you've been waiting. You always talk about him, and i bet you always think about him. He's the reason you can't love anyone else, because your heart is stuck with him. He is the reason you walk slow and search for him in crowded rooms and hallways. He IS the reason you never get sleep & the reason you wake up early. Don't tell me you don't love him

I Don't Like Hating You
I seen his fist, coming down for the last time. Covered in blood, I knew it was the last breath of mine. Then I heard the sirens, and I was saved. While my mother watched emotionless, not even a wave. As they hauled me away in an ambulance, that night. I never went back, I gave up the fight. I wasn't going to fight for her love, any longer. The pain she was responsible for, only made me stronger. Fifteen years went by, and not a word. Then out of the blue, I heard from her. The pain came back, despite the years. Reading her words, brought back the tears. I tried to let her in, a fresh start perhaps. My baby steps, was just another relapse. Steps already taken, retracing them in-fact. I never got out of the car, when I seen the flashbacks. A piece of metal, was all it took. To change my whole, outlook. Why mom? I don't understand. You've never even held, your little girl's hand. You've never brushed my hair, or sang me a song. What could I have

I Don't Get It
Yea I'm whining but whatever.Someone from here who I once considered a close friend deleted me from fu but we were still friends on fb so I sent him a message and asked why he kept me on fb but not on here and he replied with 'My Mistake *Deletes*'.I mean I know I haven't been around that much anymore but wtf!? Did I do something horrible that I'm just completely oblvious to or something?

I Don't Show, So I'm A Hoe
10:44pm mustangjay...: stop fuckin with me and show me ur tits 10:45pm To mustangjay...: wasn't, an wasn't going to 10:46pm mustangjay...: wasnt going to what 10:49pm To mustangjay...: show my boobs, that is a very interesting video lol 10:50pm mustangjay...: so u make a folder of nsfw pics of ur self talk all this nasty talk but u dont show 10:52pm To mustangjay...: i never said that 10:53pm mustangjay...: so whats in those pics 10:53pm To mustangjay...: me 10:54pm mustangjay...: no shit really i thought they were ones of ur daughter 10:55pm To mustangjay...: if you knew why you ask?? 10:58pm mustangjay...: pics of u how 10:58pm To mustangjay...: have a good night, been fun talking w/ you10:59pmTo mustangjay...: some clothes, no clothes ttfn (i had logged off by this point) 10:59pm mustangjay...: so why dont u want me to see them? 11:02pm mustangjay...: wtf hoe 11:03pm mustangjay...: fuck u and the cock sucker who down rated me u fat bitch 11:04pm mustangjay...: and fu

I Don't
I don't feel beautiful,I feel ugly,I don't feel loved,I feel used.Ugly, because you don'tYou won't,Let anyone know about us.Used, because after sex,You won't say you love me.So please change those two things,And make me really feel beautiful,Make me feel loved,Like you say I am any other time.

I Don't Get It....
Just a rant. I needed to vent and this is the proper place to do it. Don't like what I have to say? Deleted yourself from my list and wish yourself luck in finding another good friend. I don't get it. This "filtered reality" we call the internet. Why is it, that we become members of a social site.....a place for meeting and interacting with people.....but then when you actually make a friend and a little hurt is exchanged unintentionally, people resort to the "Oh it's just the internet, it doesn't matter." Um....EARTH TO PEOPLE........the screen names and profiles on these social sites have ACTUAL PEOPLE behind them. People with feelings. Why is it because it's "the internet", people feel it's ok to just say anything they want.....things they wouldn't normally say in real life? Yes, I speak the truth......but sometimes when people joke.....it can go too far. You really have no idea what that person behind the profile has been through in their life NOR can you assume that everyon

I Don't Fit Into Your Box
Surrounded by darkened hearts and broken dreams. Only horrors to look forward to on a daily basis or so it seems. When I was young I was told to be whatever I wanted to be. Yet the media and the world today have no place for people like me. It has gotten so bad that the government wants to put a leash up our ass. It's a far cry from the freedoms I learned from my grandfather and in class. Where are the freedom fighters of today? Oh that's right people like that get put away. They say we have a voice and let us scream. Yet most of us are living nothing that resembles the American dream. Politicians today spew vomit and shit. Funny thing is they attract the sheeple whom quietly sit. Land of the free home of the brave. Seems to only be true if your a foreigner of which the government wants to save. Fuck the bureaucracy let freedom ring! Of which our founding father used to sing. All of you assholes think your as sly as the fox. The fact remains I don't fit into your

I Don't Wanna Know
Shattered tears, fall to the floor. The image of them, is no more. You search, but there is no face. A distorted figure, takes it's place. Because what you once seen, wasn't real. It is now just a reflection, of how you feel. Torn, bitter, sad and mislead. With questions and doubt, filling your head. Without reason, just because. Tearing through your flesh, with sharpened claws. The heart is your strength, but it can weaken you so. Somethings would be better, if you just didn't know.

I Don't Think This Is Really My First Blog On Here.
Its been a while since I wrote on here and I guess they got rid of the old stuff. What I shame. I am nothing special. Just myself. I am who I am and I know there are people out there that don't like me becuase I tell them the truth and they can't handle it. I had met some really cool people on here and I have also met some real assholes too. You take the bad and get rid of them and keep the postive things as much as you can. I am in the point of my life its time to take care of me for once. So I have decided to move to where I always wanted to move to. Yes I will miss some friends and family but truthfully most people in Vegas only care about themselves. So I am happy to leave this place as soon as I can.

I Don't Think That I Will Ever Understand Women.
Ok women, here is the deal. You come from bad relationships in the past and find a good guy and push him away? Why? Don't you want to be happy? Why are you afraid to be happy for once in your life? I hear women say all the time, " I want a decent, good man". Hello, wake up.... That man is probably right under your nose if you would just open your eyes. You know, generally the good guys are the ones that are quiet, they'll say hi and that is about it. They might have short small conversations with you every now and then. Would you like to know the reason why us 'good guys' are quiet? Its because we are tired of getting shot down. So the next time you say to yourself that you want a good man, open your eyes because I can almost promise you that there is a 'good guy' sitting around thinking about how he wished you would give him half a chance to make you happy.

I Don't Believe In Evolution
I don’t believe in evolution. I can hear what you are thinking: "Is he an idiot or something? He still doesn’t believe in evolution?!" But here’s the thing: evolution is a scientific theory, same as the theory of gravity, germ theory, cell theory, quantum theory, theory of relativity and many others. Unlike religion, science doesn’t work with "beliefs". You take the facts supporting the theory and compare those with facts that do not support the theory. Then you decide if the theory is correct or perhaps you should improve the theory, choose an alternate theory or scrap the whole thing altogether. And the theory of evolution has literally hundreds of thousands (if not millions) of scientifically validated observations and experiments supporting it. You have scientific articles, monographs, experiments (yes, there are MANY experiments on evolution), observations and so forth. And now we take the facts not supporting or invalidating the theory of ev

I Don't Get It
I don’t Get it Why are sizes of stuff different between men and women? Don’t tell me it’s because women and men and built differently because that answer is not good enough. We all have fingers, toes, arms, legs, bones, skin, muscle, fat etc. the physical differences are sex organs for the most part. Now don’t freak out on me if I am way off on the comparison of sizes, because I don’t know the equivalents. For example, if a man has a 34 inch waist and a 36 inch inseam, why in woman size that is like a size 6? Or a man’s size 13 shoe is like a woman’s size 16? Or a man’s ring size is like 9 and a half but in woman size that is like a size 12? I really don’t understand why they are crazy different. Is it a self-conscious thing or what? I think in the military world is the only place where the sizes are all the same for instance, male pants and female pants are both medium long or large long etc. the size doesn’t change. They

I Dont Even Know Wat To Call This
I feel SOOO low right now..and for all of you that are my friends...you may not know why...but please respect that I just wanna be left alone....I'm tired of screwing up and getting into people's way also...I am going to back off and fade away...for YOU..YOU know who YOU are..I thank YOU SOOO much...just for always being there...but pretending nothing is wrong when I just wanna crawl in a hole somewhere is not the person i am..I can't do the pretending thing when I wanna scream it..so I think just removing myself from the situation period is the best thing to do..and best for everyone else as well....to all of my dearest and closest friends...I love you guys and thank you so much..and to YOU..I don't care wat people say...YOU are always there for me...I can't help it..I just love YOU...

I Don't Even Know
I went and graduated from high school and I took some college courses but sometimes I don't even know how much longer this ancient desk top pc has. I have been trying for 10 hours to get the pc working. The computer freezes usually after I get on the internet. Sometimes before. Today I didn't need to blow inside the tower. Just gets me a little pissed. My daughter is using my laptop. She is going to the library tomorrow so I may be on earlier. I know what you may say....its my laptop, not hers. I may not be like plenty of other parents but I said she could use it when she spilled pop on hers. I ain't really wanting to piss her off and start using it again. She goes to bed earlier than I do so I could use it then too. Onto somewhat better news.... I have plans to purchase another laptop in August. I have a cam now but it only works on the desk top. So its like in order to blog and have cam talks with friends I need to use the desk top that doesn't always want to work. I'm thinking ther

I Don't Want To Hurt You
When He/She says I don’t want to hurt you .. What they're really saying is .. Just to give you some forewarning, I’ll never really mean to hurt you, but I will anyway and won’t take any responsibility for it .. I don’t connect my actions with the impact on you or the relationship, because I tend to only really think about myself and I’m a short-term thinker .. I think about what I can get now without real thought for the consequences :-)

I Don't Blame You At All - Smokey Robinson
I don't blame you at all 'cause you played it coolYou don't owe me a thing 'cause I played the foolNo no no no noI'm only payin' the priceFor a trip I took to paradise'Cause I looked into a pair of eyesAnd what I thought was the look of loveWas only hurt in disguiseToo bad I didn't realizeOh,but don't apologizeNo, 'causeI don't blame you at all 'cause you played it coolI should've did it myselfYou don't owe me a thing 'cause I played the foolNo no no no noI think it's pretty plainHoldin' you would take a ball and chainEvery bet I made was all in vain'Cause what I thought was an ocean of loveWas just a wee drop of rainToo bad that it couldn't rainOh but you don't have to explainNo, 'causeI don't blame you at all 'cause you played it coolI should've did it myselfYou don't owe me a thing 'cause I played the foolNo no no no noI don't blame you at all 'cause you played it coolThat's the thing to doYou don't owe me a thing 'cause I played the foolNo no no no noI said, what I thought was sure

I Dont Know.......
you know its funny how when you get to looking back on things that were said,you sometimes dont realize that its actually been a long time.But I have come to the realization that sometimes I am better off to myself.bc people lie anymore and it gets old.Only good thing that I have in my life is my son.Tired of promises of shit that never happens,tired of hearing the same old shit but just a different day.Tired of having the feeling of being used or blamed for something that you have no control over.What happened to a handshake meaning more then someone's word or when a promise was kept and not broke.What happened to those days when things seemed a little better then they are now?Maybe thats asking to much anymore.Whether people read my blogs or not is fine by me,bc I dont care about someone's opinion,like the old sayin goes opinions are like assholes everyone has one,like it or not.Just some know how to take someone's else's words and let it not bother them.Funny how life can throw you