Thoughts
People for the most part react to how they are treated. The way people react to how they are treated is either positive or negative. The reaction is usually positive when people are treated positively, and usually negative when treated in a negative way. So, the key to attracting that which is positive and good, is to treat others in a positive and good manner. In this way, what we practice, that which positive and good, will come back to us, because what goes around comes around. Choosing right over wrong brings remarkable rewards. In order to make the decision to choose right over wrong, we need to know the difference. This type of knowledge is valuable and makes all the difference in the world when choosing right over wrong. Sometimes it's easy to choose the right thing to do, and other times it can be very challenging to do the right thing. Whether it's easy or challenging, choosing right over wrong is always right, and makes a big difference every time.

Thoughts From The Mind Of The Broken & Confused!
I met this (man) in march of 2007. He totd me he had beed separeated since May of 06'.I like a dumpass I believed him, We started dating for awhile just for him to come tell me they were trying to work things out. So I butt out , I told him I would be there for him if he needed me. Well, she went to GA for IDK what and called him from a bed of another guy. So he called me, Of course I came. Then she came back down they started to try again. He was taking to me on the computer because they were fighting. She ended up putting him in jail. I was there for him. She hauled ass to GA. Ans this was after she tried to run me over because she knew I was pregnent with his child. Which i lost. He moved in with me after getting out of jail and there was no contact for like 6 months then she has her sister call everyone they know to try and find him. So in new years eve he was on the phone with here for god knows how long. Needless to say evertime se came down he had to sleep with her. But tellin

Thoughts
It seems no matter where you are in a relationship it's always lacking trust, and like a key opens a door, trust is what opens a heart. Without trust you begin to worry day and night somehow gaining insecurities within yourself that makes you question the love you two share. You start to feel unworthy, you have so much to say, will there ever be trust or just that constant pain, because of those feelings there's an emptiness in your heart. you feel it's easiest to just move on, but you wonder if you'll ever find a love so strong, so just take his hand, put your trust in him, because love without trust isn't love at all..... Why am I afraid of the word L.O.V.E? It is so simple to say…. But so hard to do for me…. Maybe it isn't love that's hard it's trusting… Trusting my thoughts…. Trusting my desires…. Trusting my hopes…. Trusting my dreams… Trusting my heart…. Equals my love… Why can't I love you? I don't love me enough to love you with all my heart…

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Sam had met someone, and it was getting serious. It started out as a friendship, as many relationships do. But gradually Sam's feelings for Kat, a beautiful, smart and confident woman, had turned romantic. Hang on — there’s a catch. Sam and Kat met in the virtual world Second Life. And although they shared all kinds of intimacies in Second Life, the real people have never laid eyes on each other. That didn’t seem to matter to Sam. He fell pretty hard for his avatar sweetie. They bonded intellectually, emotionally, and yes, thanks to Second Life animations, even physically. Here’s where it gets complicated. Unlike his avatar, which is female, in real life, Sam is a man. A married man. And the person behind the blonde, curvaceous Kat? Married. And, quite possibly, a man, too. (As you might imagine, some people interviewed for this story did not want to reveal their full names. Some gave us their avatar names, while others went with pseudonyms.) Sam knew from the outs

Thoughts Of A Nightstalker
Ok so I am new to this whole Cherry Tap thing. I have had minimal time to check out the site. I have a couple of pics up to get started. If I weren't so exhausted and sleepy I would probably be an expert already. But for now if anyone wants to know any thing about me, send me a message and ask. I am not shy.

Thoughts
I never watched the movie because I was one of those people really hit by it not because I lost anyone in my family that day but because the world lost a lot of its people. I guess they were able to grab enough information to make the movie so it seem really real like this is what happen. People calling family memebers to say they loved them. They found out the bomb was fake. They killed two of the bad guys before they broke down the door to the pit I guess what they say is that the bad guy had the plane up side down at one point and by the time the good guys could get to it. It hit the ground and maybe it was on purpose so that it would not get to its location to destory another one of our buildings of America. I was in college that day and several of my friends where in the Libary I heard them scream OH ! MY GOD. One friend said the Tower just was hit by a plan I said no no it wasnt your pulling my leg as I looked in the Libary as the second plan hit and my heart stopped as my sc

A Thought
by Kit McCallum My soul drifts aimlessly in times of hopelessness. It searches tirelessly for meaning and truth ... Yet finds no direction. My heart bleeds quietly in times of loneliness. It yearns to find warmth and happiness ... Yet it somehow eludes me. My eyes seek out visions in times of want. They gaze endlessly through the blackness that envelops them ... Yet they cannot see the light. My ears listen earnestly in times of silence. They search for familiar sounds to comfort and console ... Yet they cannot penetrate the darkness that surrounds me. My arms reach out frantically in times of despair. They seek strength and compassion to enfold me ... Yet they find nothing substantial to enwrap. My mind cries out desperately in times of solitude. It poses intense questions that demand answers ... Yet there are none to be found. *** The Thought by Michael Hopkins As I look out upon the sun setting over the water, I feel a cool breeze rush across my ski

Thoughts
If I could have just one wish, I would wish to wake up everyday to the sound of your breath on my neck, the warmth of your lips on my cheek, the touch of your fingers on my skin, and the feel of your heart beating with mine... Knowing that I could never find that feeling with anyone other than you. TODAY, I SIT HERE THINKING ABOUT ONE OF LIFE'S WONDERS AGAIN.... I COULD BE THINKING ABOUT A MILLION THINGS AND THE TOP OF MY LIST.. IS LOVE. LOVE CAN BE A TOUCHY SUBJECT, FOR ANYONE. BUT TODAY IS DIFFERENT. I HAVE FOUND SOMEONE WHO CAN MAKE ME SMILE, WITHOUT EVEN REALLY TRYING. SOMEONE WHO CAN MAKE ME BITE MY LIP, JUST TALKING TO ME. SOMEONE WHO MAKES MY HEART SKIP A BEAT, BY PHONING ME. DOES HE KNOW ALL THIS? DOES HE KNOW JUST HOW SPECIAL HE IS TO ME? DO I TELL HIM ENOUGH? IS ENOUGH..REALLY EVER ENOUGH? HE'S THE FIRST THOUGHT WHEN I WAKE UP, THE LAST THOUGHT WHEN I GO TO SLEEP. AND MY EVERY WAKING DREAM IS CONSUMED BY HIM. I SIT HERE WAITING AND THINKING.... ABOUT LIFE'S GREATEST

Thoughts & Poems
Went to a party Mom... (read all the way to the bottom and sign your name) I went to a party, And remembered what you said. You told me not to drink, Mom, so I had a sprite instead. I felt proud of myself, The way you said I would, that I didn't drink and drive, though some friends said I should. I made a healthy choice, And your advice to me was right. The party finally ended, and the kids drove out of sight. I got into my car, Sure to get home in one piece. I never knew what was coming, Mom, something I expected least. Now I'm lying on the pavement, And I hear the policeman say, the kid that caused this wreck was drunk, Mom, his voice seems far away. My own blood's all around me, As I try hard not to cry. I can hear the paramedic say, this girl is going to die. I'm sure the guy had no idea, While he was flying high. Because he chose to drink and drive, now I would have to die. So why do people do it, Mom Knowing that it ruins lives? A

Thoughts From A Mother... (i Miss You Ryan)
I display this candle in memory of my son, Ryan Wayne, who passed away 3 years ago today from Cancer. I also display it for every other mother who has lost a child. I will continue to display this candle up until May 28th, which is Ryan's birthday. He would have been 21 this year. I miss him so very much. I love you Kiddo!

Thoughts Thoughts Thoughts !
In the words of Billy Joel some times a fantasy is all you need ! Passion explodes in our dance of desire You beauty ignites my inner fire And your eyes seduce my soul I am drawn to you by their pull To make you feel ecstasies high Kiss you in places and make you sigh Feel you squirm as in my tongue you delight See you surrender and give in all fight Animal impulses drive us to buck and grind Passion over takes us and leaves us blind To fate and to cares of this world of sin We are lost me in you since you let me in Now we remain locked in our love embrace Feel the orgasms as our hearts race Sweet nectars of our love flow long and deep You ensnare me with love I am yours to keep We remain me in you though our love grinds done We kiss deep and hold and stay there as one I love you is whispered a sweet pleasing sound One heart, one soul, one unending love found By R. Thomas Dinsmore My naughty mind does stir at the thought Of things that

Thoughts
all i want is for you to show up at my house and lay down beside me in bed. i want to lay w/ your arms wrapped around me and w/ my head on your chest and forget that the rest of the world exists. for a few hours i wanna pretend like it's not impossible for us to be together.

Thoughts For The Day
if a woman wearing a thong farts does it whistle like a blade of grass between fingers ever try slamming a revolving door if the indians had butchered a cat and offered it to the pilgrams we would all be eating pussy for thankgiving personally this sounds like a great idea

Thoughts
I had to move the blog of this morning into this new blog: I have read a bulletin about someone, who is saving animals, and in a bulletin he talks about helping him in spending food to the animals. There is of course a reason that one should help those animals, but I ask me how many children are living in bad circumstances, and I see my first obligation in helping the children and then I go and do this for animals. I understand that it breaks someone's heart to see suffering pets, but please remember at first the suffering children in this world. Sometimes it happens that little dogs in richs families have a better food than some children in emergency. One can help BOTH, but the main for me are the kids. As long as this fact is reality, that children must suffer, I can't decide different. I don't say, that it is bad to help the animals, in itself it is a good thing. But the children are there and they need us. Suffering persons have priority. It sounds perhaps revolutional, but pleas

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Thoughts On A Master And His Submissive
A true Master shall take pride in the fact that a woman has chosen to devote her entire being to the satisfaction and fulfillment of his desires. Just as she, in return, can take pride that such a man has chosen her, above all others to provide that fulfillment. For openers, the female should decide that she may actually be a true submissive, and find the courage and commitment to put herself in the hands of a true Master. She must know that at that precise moment her option to make choices will end. He will do what he wants to do, completely apart from her preconceived ideas. I am not necessarily referring to physical discipline, and I am most definitely not referring to the extremes of physical discipline. There are always limits, and the true Master knows what they are. He also knows that those limits are different for every slave. But he also knows that regardless of those individually determined limits, every slave should at least once be forced to go one step beyond what she

Thoughts
Welcome 2 the Nasty QUIZ. Are u daring enough 2 answer this 4 this person? if so, message them your answers!!! Rules: Answer this 4 the person who posted this and then repost it 4 your self! 1.Would u have sex with me? answer: 2.What position would u ........ me in? answer: 3.Would u suck me up/eat me out? answer: 4.Would u sex me hard? answer: 5.Would u have sex with me the first night u met me? answer: 6.Give me a naked pic? answer: 7.Would u do me in the shower? answer: 8.Would u hancuff me or tie me up 2 the bed and then do me? answer: 9.Would u use desert? answer: 10.Would u have a 3-some with me? answer: 11.What makes u want 2 have sex with me? answer: 12.Would u talk dirty 2 me while we sexed? answer: 13.Where would u do me @? answer: 14.Would u do me in front of people? answer: 15.Would u do me again and again? answer: 16.Would u do me in the rain? answer: 17.Would u mind if we did it like ........

~thoughts And Other Such Nonsense~
Just Us… I crave his fingers upon my flesh, His breath combined with mine Joining and creating our own world, Where nothing else matters, Just us… Our bodies tangled together, Skin warm and damp Not knowing where I end and he begins. Each of us feasting upon the other, Unable to satisfy our hunger, Loving each other until we collapse, In each other's arms. A look, a touch…just knowing, That all it takes is a moment and we'll be back to that place we created, Out of passion, love, desire, need… Never ending and wondrous, A place just for us. A place where the world can't invade. Somewhere no one else knows about, Just us… A passion created through time, A love created in the heavens. Two souls connected through fate. Just us…forever.

Thoughts No One Cares About...
I try to be an individual, spiritual, miniscule. But secretly bigger than life itself. Taken every single tool off the dustry shelf, Recreate heroes and honor the timeless. Reincarnated, domesticated, harmless, That is until unleashed, released. For the good of the race, such a slow pace. It will kill us indeed, reached doom. In amazing speed, could have reached the end with some slight slack to spare. But no, that's impossible, not considerable. So lets make the most money off our doom, and damn the damned. Keep blaming the blamed. Fuck the innocents, put their head to the flame. There is nothing to die for, nothing left to live for. So what is left to exist for? Can we fix it, remake it, upgrade and sell it? We might not need to fight. But money is money and it tastes sweeter than honey. The power paper can give us is a sickening feeling. Respect, honor, honesty, left with no meaning. They were gone at the feeding. Of the demons with no names, loyalty to the

Thoughts
Okay is it just me or is it that people that supposely and want a job turn out to be lazy and half assed.It's like the people who bust there ass cause they wanna work for their are also not only bust their ass for the money but bust their ass for the lazy ppl that just stand around so they have money in their pocket.i work 40 some hour work weeks.i like to work but i dislike having to do other people's jobs because they donbt want to work.like yesterday for instints we had 2 ppl talking,one person talking to their family .one person talking to a customer and food orders on the wheel not geting made.....i mean of course i was geting i"ll and yeah i did yell who wouldnt.the boss man is geting ready to retired so hopefully things will get better at work but undoubtfully i dont believe so. Okay, here is another rant but i'm not heartless.So, alright so tihs 17 yr old chic has a baby and is geting ready to marry the baby daddy.i cant understand her mom bringing the baby to the workplace for

Thought Provoking....
A Different Christmas Poem The embers glowed softly, and in their dim light, I gazed round the room and I cherished the sight. My wife was asleep, her head on my chest, My daughter beside me, angelic in rest. Outside the snow fell, a blanket of white, Transforming the yard to a winter delight. The sparkling lights in the tree I believe, Completed the magic that was Christmas Eve. My eyelids were heavy, my breathing was deep, Secure and surrounded by love I would sleep. In perfect contentment, or so it would seem, So I slumbered, perhaps I started to dream. The sound wasn ' t loud, and it wasn ' t too near, But I opened my eyes when it tickled my ear. Perhaps just a cough, I didn ' t quite know, Then the sure sound of footsteps outside in the snow. My soul gave a tremble, I struggled to hear, And I crept to the door just to see who was near. Standing out in the cold and the dark of the night, A lone figure stood, his face weary and tight. A soldier, I pu

Thoughts
All are quotes from J. Krishnamurti "There is no end to relationship. There may be the end of a particular relationship, but relationship can never end to be is to be related." "The moment you have in your heart this extraordinary thing called love and feel the depth, the delight, the ecstasy of it, you will discover that for you the world is transformed." ..> "What is needed, rather than running away or controlling or suppressing or any other resistance, is understanding fear; that means, watch it, learn about it, come directly into contact with it. We are to learn about fear, not how to escape from it." On love and death "I wonder if you have ever known what love is? Because I think death and love walk together. Death, love, and life are one and the same. But we have divided life, as we have divided the earth. We talk of love as being either carnal or spiritual and have set a battle going between the sacred and the profane. We have divided wha

Thoughts Of Pain
Strong Enough lyrics God, I feel like hell tonight Tears of rage I cannot fight I'd be the last to help you understand Are you strong enough to be my man? Nothing's true and nothing's right So let me be alone tonight Cause you can't change the way I am Are you strong enough to be my man? Lie to me I promise I'll believe Lie to me But please don't leave I have a face I cannot show I make the rules up as I go It's try and love me if you can Are you strong enough to be my man? When I've shown you that I just don't care When I'm throwing punches in the air When I'm broken down and I can't stand Will you be strong enough to be my man? Lie to me I promise I'll believe Lie to me But please don't leave I'm kinda numb It's so distorted You left me here with this damage that you've caused My tortured faces Those fucked up places In my memories none of them I've lost, but... I haven't been here long enough to know Everytime I feel this I just lose cont

Thoughts And Shit.
I recently watched this movie(The pursuit of Happyness if you wanna be all correct about it). Anyways. good movie. It really made me start thinking. What is happiness? Where do you find it? Is it something that you can spend your whole life trying to find and never find it? Have some people actually found it? I know there are certain moments of happiness in life, but can you be JUST HAPPY. What defines happiness? Does a certain person make you happy? Money? Friends? I used to think I was happy, but as I grow older I'm starting to realize that I don't know what true happiness is. Maybe it is a state of mind, like something you have to create. Think happy=Be happy? I often look at people and wonder if they have found it. Sure a lot of people are great at putting on that happy face(myself included). But deep down are they satisfied with where they have been, where they are, and where they are going? Maybe my expectations of life are just too high. Maybe it is supposed to be mediocre

Thought And Questions Over Coffee Alone.
I was at the bar the other night and I saw your face pass me by again. It was a ripple in time and all of what was in momentum paused while you moved. I was standing on the corner and I saw you pass in a car with out saying hello. Then again it was a dream that keeps moving along in fast motion and maybe I was waking up. I have been waiting to see you, but you never turn my way. Last night I dreamed that I was next to you and you never let me go. This morning I drank my coffee alone and I thought of you. I don't know what love is…I thought I did, but when there is only one giving it, is it really love? Why does this man speak of love so much, when he was so damned afraid of being around it? Is a wounded heart like any other wound, does it heal and become stronger or does it scar over and become very tough and ugly? Why do I feel safer in front of friends and smile for few hours, then in front of someone that possibly could make me smile for the rest of my life I feel like I need to

Thoughts From Me
Just because Rev. Savage and I don't give you a ten shouldn't make you mad. Sometimes the pictures we see don't flatter you. As for the soldier who insulted me, My grandfather served in the military and I have the utmost respect for the military. It is because of our soldiers fighting for my freedom that gives me the right to say what I want and rate your picture how I want.

Thoughts
You are friendly, kind and caring Sensitive, loyal and understanding Humorous, fun, secure and true Always there... yes that's you. Special, accepting, exciting and wise Truthful and helpful, with honest blue eyes Confiding, forgiving, cheerful and bright Yes that's you... not one bit of spite. You're one of a kind, different from others Generous, charming, but not one that smothers Optimistic, thoughtful, happy and game But not just another... in the long chain. Appreciative, warm and precious like gold Our friendship won't tarnish or ever grow old You'll always be there, I know that is true I'll always be here... always for you.

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It has been a fun few days for me. I make money online blogging and one big factor of this is the wonderful google page rank. If you don't' know what that is, it's googles opinion of how good your site is based on who links to you. BTW if you think google is good because they have the best search results, this will now change all of that. The problem is they don't like what I do, it takes money from them and now they have downgraded most paid bloggers to zero. So now people trying to keep a roof over there heads and food in there children's mouths are not sure what they are going to do. Many can not get other work because it's not there, me included. I've stopped using google for anything now. I was really looking forward to the week off from school to get some stuff done. Does anyone else hate google? Anyway I'm done complaining now, I'm tired, I've done alot of work today and I have a ton more to do tomorrow. I wish I had friends I could go drink with. I really need

Thoughtlessness...
I WONDER, WHAT LIFE HAS IN STORE FOR ME.... IF YOU COULD SEE YOUR FUTURE AND WHAT IT HOLDS FOR YOU, WOULD YOU WANT TO SEE? IF YOU SEEN IT, WHAT WOULD YOU DO? WOULD YOU DO ANYTHING DIFFERENT? IF YOU HAD ONE CHANCE TO CHANGE EVERYTHING IN YOUR FUTURE... WHAT WOULD YOU DO? WOULD YOU DO EVERYTHING THE SAME? I GUESS THAT'S SOMETHING ONE WILL NEVER KNOW... IF I COULD CHANGE ONE THING... I DON'T THINK I WOULD. I GUESS THAT FALLS IN "EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON" I HAVE ALWAYS BELIEVED EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON. I MEAN... I LOOK AT ALL THE PEOPLE I'VE MET... EVERYONE AROUND ME, MY LIFE IN IT'S OWN.. I WOULDN'T CHANGE ANYTHING. I HAVE MET A LOT OF GREAT PEOPLE. THE ONE'S I WILL CARRY WITH ME FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE. I COULD NAME ALL OF YOU OFF, BUT AGAIN... I WOULD BE HERE FOR HOURS ON END... I CAN START TO NAME OFF THE ONES I CHERISH VERY DEEPLY. The Enigma AKA: The Black Winged Angel Mystêfyï ~I.B.I.C.~Dirty South Crew~ Romeo..'I'm here Now & Forever'..Nuff Said DJ

Thoughts And Quotes
i found this quote and when i read it it really hit home "*~* Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets So, love the people who treat you right and forget about the ones who don't.Always believe that everything happens for a REASON. If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody ever said it would be easy...they just promised it would be worth it. *~* if my heart could If a broken heart could cry a river To float my boat upon I would cry all night my love and in the morning be gone to travel far away from here where no one knows I cried because you told me you don't love me and a part of me has died If I could sail my boat upon that salty sea and leave behind this hurt I feel I'd take the chance and flee but no...I'd love you still If a broken heart could cry a river to float my boat upon I would cry all night my love and in the morning be gone If I could sail my boat upon that salty sea would you change your mind and go with m

Thoughts And Opinions
As it applies to real life of course.It seems to me that today dating isn't even worth trying anymore. It is a wasted effort. If you are not the hottest thing around you really don't have a chance with the opposite sex in your area. Men and women are both guilty of it, so don't say it is only the other sex that does it.I see it everyday, people ruining good relationships over the next " Hottie" that comes along. They also ignore potential lifetime mates to chase these impossible dreams of happy ever after with these fake or uninterested people. WAKE UP PEOPLE! You are setting yourself up for failure for which when you do settle down with someone, that someone will not be able to A)live up to those standards or B)have to put up with the emotional and sometimes physical baggage that you bring into the relationship. Now I know they say it is healthy to dream, but I think it is highly unhealthy to chase a dream that you honestly know is never going to be happy. If you are looking for someb

Thoughts From Me
Okay all, I will be taking new updated pics later today........so be on the look out.....LOL Today was the sadest and hardest day of my entire life, my almost 3 year old niece was buried today, after a tragic drowning incident that took her life on Thursday August 2nd, 2007. Sometimes I cry out of no where, other times, I'm as strong as I can possibly be, but most of the time, I'm just numb, I am trying really hard to hold myself together for my 5 year old nephew (her brother) and for the most part I do it very well, and when i feel myself about to cry, I just go lock myself in the bathroom, until I can collect myself for him again. My sweet princess is gone, but she will never be forgotten, nor will she ever be replaced. I love you my princess, and you play hard in God's Garden, and when its time for me too join you, I know that I will. My best friend Krystal has been trying to get me on CT forever now, so here I finally am. I have one pic up, but to be honest its a couple years o

Thoughts
well my thoughts on this night are very simple. just sitting at home all alone thinking of how people could sit there and think of being with someone they have no true feelings for. if peoples were only true to their hearts and feelings then no one would be alone on a saturday night. say at i dunno 2 o'clock in the morning. if someone was ment to be with that one true person then we would never go through the wrong people. and those relationships tell us who we are truely looking for. so this thgout is to my ex-boyfriends in the world. telling them that i am past them and the hurting they put me through. and this is to all those lonely people sitting at home on saturday night sunday morning all alone telling them that you just have to keep faith and nothing more in life is worth more than that. life is a precious gift that is not to be withering away by loneliness and boredom. LIVE LIFE TO THE FUCKING FULLEST!!!!! BIOTCHES MUAHSS ;)

Thoughts Of The Day
i know most people probably don't read this part, but i do - when i'm interested in getting to know someone. with that said, i'm going to write whatever comes to mind. i promise i'm deeper than you will ever know or understand. i'm not like anyone you've ever met. just when you think you've figured me out, i'll do something that will have you second guessing. i do as i say and i say what i mean. i cannot stand fake people who live life trying to impress others. 9.5 out of 10 people who do are only pretending to smile. reality says they are sad on the inside, where it counts. i do not chase unrealistic goals that only lead to misery. simple things make me happy. i am a strong and independant woman. family and close friends are extremely important to me. i would do anything for those i love. i go above and beyond in everything that i do. if i'm going to do something i'm going to put my all into it. i'm a very loyal person and trustworthy. because of this, i do

Thoughts From The Mouse
For a few of my friends out there, you are aware that I am a father. I have a 10 year old daughter out in the world. I say it this way, because the last time I really heard from her was over 4 years ago. Today really gets to me, not because I am considered a father, but because some of those out there that get praised for creating a child, yet do nothing to support them. Granted, I could do more for my daughter, even if I get no response from it ... but what about those that could do more for their children ... and choose not to? Why give them praise and credit? I think the single mother's that raise the children should get praised on Father's day as well. They are acting in the role of father & mother. A grand feat very few can handle. Now, I am guessing that my friends that do stop to read this, will see I mentioned that I was a father and leave cute lil graphics and messages for me. If you'd like, you can ... I don't feel much like a father, let alone a human being on

Thoughts And Feelings
Well I really don't know what to say here about my self. Lately I don't think I even know who I am or what is going on in my life. All I do know is I feel pain. My world has been falling down around me for the past two years now and it does not look like that will be changing any time soon. I am just so confused I have all these hopes and dreams for my life. But at the same time I feel this huge void in side me that nothing fills. I have tried turning to the lord and praying but I don't feel like I am getting an answer any where I turn. I am tired of being alone and betrayed not knowing if I am getting the whole truth from people or just half truths. I want honesty in my life and assuredness. I am just so tired of this numbing pain that never fades. I am lost in side my self in this sea of uncertainty and I just don't know where to turn. I feel my soul slipping as odd as that is to say back to a place it took me a long time to escape and it scares me. This pain is so familiar an emptin

Thoughts
cuz, i pissed a juggalo off cuz i dint wanan just be a fuck budy to him and that he flirted alot and now idk wtf to do, im acually crying and dnt normally cry, he made me feel ike some sort of lil hoe bag bitch idk wtf to think anymore, im in love but he hates me and is playing me, im so hurt and cinfused juggalo4lifeba: from the day we met i,v loved you and you should knowe that this is like u beging me not to kill myself it feels the same i dont want to leave you but i have no choice couse whats coming up you wont be able to handle and maaybe i wanted to get back with you later on when this gets straight but u said dont get mad when u get a new boy friend so nvm that ight i,m about to just give up so i,ma go ahead nad click the dellet butten so much love hope your grand maws gets bertter and the baby is ok i love you good bye kat and i didnt even know...i loved his juggalo so BAD, but he had a gurl, he had one whe

Thoughts
So it has been a year since my last blog. And I realize that not openly expressing my thoughts can be both hurtful and stressful. Though I tend to like to think of myself as a pretty nice and outgoing person, I've come to realize that I feel so much more at home, well at home. I don't have many reasons to go out, the city I live in is a pretty lively place, but I never really get curious about whats out there due to traveling so much. I've met a lot of great people and seen my fair share of interesting places, but to be honest with you sleeping in a hotel bed night after night, week after week is really tiresome and gets old very quickly. Its a life that pays the bills but its not one that I'd especially care for given the lack of actual technical know how some aspects of my job are. Either way, this past year really has been a boring one. I'm going to strive to liven it up because we only get one, and as sad as it is to note that Mr. Tim Russett's passing has helped me to rem

Thoughts Of You
Thoughts Of You How many times have I thought of you And the many things I'd like to do. I sleep at night with you on my mind, One night with you, would be just fine. Your White robe is what I see, I wonder, wonder, how it would be. If I could touch your lips with mine, The thought of this is so divine. I want to see you without the robe, Your body to touch,caress, and probe. I'd lay you down, your body to admire, One look at you, sets my soul on fire. I want to feel you, touch, and kiss, send you into..... heavenly bliss, I want you, need you, to feel my desire, Me inside you, I would never tire. I could make love to you all night long, It would feel so good, it couldn't be wrong, These are my thoughts, what I fantasize, You're all to perfect in this man's eyes.

Thoughts From Poetic Justice
thank you for everything thank you for all the good that has come from our relationship. thank you for always being the one who was the voice of reson when i was all but lost. thank you for giving me a beutiful child that i can always see in my dreams. thank you for giving me an angel that cause me to think of my every step before i take it. thank you for always being the light in my insaine dark prison. baby in general thank you for all that you do and will do. Tis is a lovers dream when all one can see is the haze of bliss created by the hart and all the cares of this world and the next fades in to obliveion. Tis is a lovers dream when the one they love is all that is need to sustain life.There is no need for sustanace of food nor drink here. Tis is a lovers dream that is never apperant untill that dream is lost amongst the sea of dicord and hatered. This is a place that no brave soul dares to tr

Thoughts
This is the most cogent and powerful essay on the threat of Islamic terrorism I have seen. Dr. Vernon Chong. It is without a doubt the most articulate and convincing writing I have read regarding the War in Iraq. If you have any doubts please open your mind to his essay and give it a fair evaluation. It's also eerily applicable to other current issues such as Iran's nuclear program, immigration, NAFTA's impact on American jobs, trade deficits, etc.. I had no idea who Dr. Chong is, or the source of these thoughts, so when I received them I almost deleted them, as well- written as they are. But then I did a Google search on the Doctor and found him to be a retired Air Force surgeon and past commander of Wilford Hall Medical Center in San Antonio. If you would like to see who this fellow is, go to this Air Force web site and look him up: http://www.af.mil/bios/bio.asp?bioID=5000 ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Subject: Muslims, terrorists and

Thoughts
T.V. show after T.V. Show, movie after movie, sex has become the most talked about subject of all. Write a book on the subject sex it will sale. But what happen to informing society about having safe sex. Safe sex is the way to go by using protection (condom) "Wrap it up" is a quote that needs to be more worldly advertised a little bit more. There are way too many diseases spreading for people not to practice safe sex. Believe it or not there are diseases out there that haven't been name or discovered but are spreading at a rapid rate. We've got to put a stop to it and the only thing we can do is inform others what can possibility happen if they wish not to practice safe sex. Time and time again I see girls get pregnant and do not have the finances to take care of a child or start a family. If you are going to have sex wrap it up or else you may catch something you can't delete and handle. Sexual diseases are real people make the decision to wrap it up before it's too late.

Thoughts About Love
The Pair Robert Ellis Running Pair He and she Coats of white They live to be A matched set Mates for life Across frozen creeks And fields of white They fear no creature Great or small Side by side They defeat them all Love and devotion Bonded together in this life or the next Always forever Not just bodies But hearts mated too A pair of White Wolves Me...........and you Bleak kisses Hopeless Then my mind makes the turn Healing rides upon black clouds The stoning of my heart, suddenly dissipates With a wise decision Time heals all Sometimes too fast Many times too slow Growth, is growth Whether from triumphant moments Or rash and foolish mistakes Wisdom is not promised Just as knowledge does not grant salvation Bells ring as good prevails once more Leaving a temporary emptiness That washes away in the damp mist

Thought For The Day!!
Thought for the Day: If God had a refrigerator, your picture would be on it. If He had a wallet, your photo would be in it. He sends you flowers every spring. He sends you a sunrise every morning. Face it, friend - He's crazy about you! Send this to every "beautiful person" you wish to bless. God didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, sun without rain, but He did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and light for the way. Read this line very slowly and let it sink in ... If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.

Thought And Rantings Of An Emo Mage
BOYFRIEND APPLICATION Name Age Location Hair Eyes Piercings/Tattoos (& where?) Where would we go on our dates? Who are three of your favorite bands? Do you drink/smoke/drugs? Do you like the beach? Would you go with me late at night? Do you like to watch movies? Would you stay up and watch them with me all night? How would you rate your kiss? Favorite body part on a GIRL What would you say is the best thing about yourself? What do you like best about me? Would you want to date me? Why? I thought that it was amuzing. :) I might need to have any guy that likes me fill this out. Hhhhmmmm..... What do you all think? ~ Chris Huh... I really didn't think that I would join another one of these type of sites, but I guess I did. :) Either well, I just wanted to say hello to anyone that might actually be paying attention and whatnot. Haha. Much love to all. ~ Chris

Thoughts And Poems...
Happy is the day when life seems to start going your way. Happy is the bubbling goodness that you feel inside when you know something to be right and true. Happy is the world around you when you are happy too. Happy is the feeling you get when you see a friend after a long time apart. Happy is when you spend time in your significant other's arms. Happy is the laugh of a little child. Happy is the knowledge that you have friends out there that care. Happy is achieving a goal that you have worked long and hard toward accomplishing. Happy is celebrating after achieving that goal. Happy is knowing that you are truly loved. Happy is having family that cares. Happy is laughter. Happy is a smile. Happy is a good conversation with a caring mother. Happy is reading a good book or watching a good movie. Happy is having a great day with friends or family. Happy is love. Happy is joy. Happy is peace. Happy is faith. Happy is gentleness. Happy is goodness. Happy is temperanc

Thoughts Of An Overworked Cashier
110 hours in 14 days, 40 my first week and 70 this past week, all for 9$ an hour, 13.5$ overtime. its about fuckin time i got a day off. boss says this upcoming week ill have more hours, more fuckin hours? 70 wasn't enough? fuck me gently with a chainsaw lol. overworked and underpaid, been my life story lol, probaly applies to most of us, reminds me of an old saying " my boss is like a blister, he only shows up when the work is done " lol its so true.

Thought Of A Dove
We're a Dying Breed and so are the girls who appreciate us To every guy that's said, "You're beautiful." To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town (or across the state) to see her. To every guy that gives flowers and a cardTo every guy that's said, "Sex can wait" when she is sick. To every guy who has given her flowers just because. To every guy that said he would die for her. To every guy that really would. To every guy that did what she wanted to do. To every guy that cried in front of her. To every guy that she cried in front of. To every guy that holds hands with her. To every guy that kisses her with meaning. To every guy that hugs her when she's sad. To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all. To every guy who would give their jacket up for her. To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe. To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to see her for ten minutes To every guy that woul

Thoughts Of An Army Wife
I found out Jan 1st that I'm expecting again. I'm having another baby...YAY!!!! My daughter is going to be a big sister..I'm so excited! Join me on MoneyExchange. It’s free to sign up, and you’ll even get $25 when you open your account. After that, it’s free to send. What a day yesterday. First of all when Mike got paid the 15th of August Mike switched banks. He transfered $760 from Bank of america to USAA bank. It didn't go through the first time. He called bank of america and they said it didn't go through and to try it again. So he did. This time it went through. There was $760 in the USAA bank now. A few days later there was another transfer of $760. So now we had $1400 in the bank somehow. Mike checked the bank of america account to see if it was overdrawn $760 for transfering it twice. It said we were not overdrawn so we figured maybe some other way we got this money and it was ours now. Well yesterday we found out the USAA bank is taking the $760 back now. So our account

Thoughts, Things, Etc
I work down at The Pizza Pit And I drive an old Hyundai I still live with my mom and dad I'm five foot three and overweight I'm a sci-fi fanatic, mild asthmatic Never been to second base But there's a whole 'nother me That you need to see Go check out MySpace 'Cause online I'm out in Hollywood I'm six foot five and I look damn good I drive a Maserati I'm a black belt in karate And I love a good glass of wine It turns girls on that I'm mysterious I tell 'em I don't want nothing serious 'Cause even on a slow day I can have a three way Chat with two women at one time I'm so much cooler online I'm so much cooler online I get home I kiss my mom And she fixes me a snack I head down to my basement bedroom And fire up my Mac In real life the only time I've ever even been to L.A. Was when I got the chance with the marching band To play tuba in the Rose Parade But online I live in Malibu I pose for Calvin Klein I've been in GQ I'm

Thoughts O' An Erotic Mad Scientist {cheshire Grin}
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Thought Dumpster
So i took the glasses off just to see what i could see so i took the mirror down not happy with that image of me Who cares what has been done so far but ill be damned if ill go on knowing im just another toilet seat that keeps getting pissed on So many times i have thrown up my hands and let them have there way just hopeing that eventually i might just get my day Im tired of screaming quietly while others scream aloud when will i get my turn to speak where is my waiting crowd I cut myself to pieces so that every one could share not knowing they'd take all of me and leave nothing to spare I think it's time i just let go and except that im off track letting everyone walk all over me thinking they have my back So i guess i should just shut my mouth let my hurting slowly die i guess words are meaningless cause they always become lies i was thinking about this for days now bu

Thoughts
Why does being lied to have to hurt so bad, especially when it comes from someone you really care about like family? I have heard no word from her. Wish she would have called me. Now I am tired. If she decides to go out late now, it's not happening. I have to work tomorrow. I want to see her. Maybe we can just talk and hang out. Bored... About to go to bed.. Tired.. My mom and sister are coming in on the 4th. Almost can't wait. I know my mom can't either for more than just to come see me. She wants to get away from my brother for a while. He's been so attached to her for really three and half years if you want to count the pregnancy. I am getting excited to see my older sister. You know now that I think about it. I have never loved anyone so much as I have loved any one person in my family. I hope and wish I could find that women I can show the same love and joy with. The joy I speak of comes in the anticipation building up to seeing someone I love and have not see in

Thoughts
i dont do anything unless i can do it too much the people who you love hurt you the most. one day i will use the word idiocyncronies in a sentence - knowing what it means , how to actually spell it, and how it could be applied to how ridiculous my life and the people in it are your born and you start to die, everyone is dieing, our rotting bodies we call beautifull or ugly falling apart twisting with age and wear

Thoughts
TO SIGN MY HUSBANDS OBITUARIE IF YOU WANT TO SAY GOODBYE OR WHATEVER YOU WANT TO SAY TO OUR PRECIOUS MICKEY THE LOVE OF MY LIFE THAT GOT TOOKEN WAY TO YOUNG. DEBhttp://www.funeralplan2.com/lawjones/obits?id=182692 The Frog Does Not Drink Up The Pond In Which He Lives. There Can Never Be Peace Between Nations, Until It Is First Known That True Peace Is Within The Souls Of Men. We Will Be Known Forever By The Tracks We Leave. The moment I saw you I had to let you in I saw this amazing love starting to begin I opened my soul to a beautiful vision of you I hoped, I prayed that your feelings were true I have never before loved and I have paid the cost Alone and empty and feeling forever lost But, then, I had thought I have truly found An Angel who walks upon the ground You had gone beyond all limits for me Giving me everything for the world to see I now will search again my whole life through And I swear I will never find a

Thoughts On My Mind
“The newspapers, the radio, the T.V., the internet, its all there. Its everywhere, Sherri, don’t you see it? For fuck’s sake, look out the God damn window man, its right here!” Tom pulled back the curtains and opened the window so that his message would have the desired effect. Sherri gazed out at the scene below. A man had been shot and killed on the sidewalk across the street. In the distance sirens could be heard approaching quickly. While the dead man’s corpse waited to be removed from the street, a crowd had formed near the body. Instead of horrified screams, there were only angry yells as the mob fought over the dead man’s belongings they had stolen. Tom started in again, “You see this crap? No one cares about anything anymore.” Sherri’s eyes were locked on the scene below. She could hear the sirens much louder now, couldn’t be more than a few streets away. “I wonder why he was killed. What could this man have possibly done to deserve something like this?” “Probably n

Thoughts On Life...
I thought this was a good topic... A woman was asking if it was OK to date someone that wasn't a christian, or just has different "faith" then you ? I totally understand your fear... I have loads of "faith" in my belieffs (although I'm not religious) And my last girlfriend wasn't sure on hers yet or just has different ones... she did feel like I was pushing my "faith" on her... but that deffinatly wasn't my intention, I mean doesn't everyone want thier partner or friends to understand them ? I know I sure want to know what my friends believe in thier hearts and share in it... doesn't mean I will believe it aswell. I believe that "faith" is personal...and "religion" is social, "religion" is ran by men... and "faith" is ran by your heart. (this kind of sums it up for me) For whoever desires to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for My sake will find it."--Matt 16:25 I think it kinda means follow the "faith" in your heart, not what someone has told you t

Thoughts
Love is a battle We fight, throw things at each other Things flying here and there The battle lost or win There is no glory In the end, it was just a silly step Love is a war We does ugly things To piss at each other Humiliation,insults and in many other forms The war itself is ugly When its over We wonder is it worth it  Love is a growing up We see ups and downs We see hopes fades We make mistakes But, that is part of growing up We had no idea what it leads to We take risks We fail and we pick up We learn as we grow up Love is hard It is even harder when  You stop trying Some things don't last forever But some things do Love is that kind of thing  Do I love thee Its not something I can tell Forgive me for leaving Its thy love I don't deserve Do I love thee With all my heart Leaving Is sadder than words can tell Do I love thee Yes. I do love thee I have wished it wouldn't end The fault have been in me To wanting to stop Do I love thee My love ha

Thought For The Day
The long hill slope I'm standing on is starting to hurt my feet....my neck gets stiff from staring up at the world...I'd show you all my self esteem...but I lost it somewhere down the road....why is it everywhere I stand...is a foot shorter than the space next to me...I can't see the action due to the croud...there is never a horizon in my view...I don't know if I'm down in the dumps...but it sure smells like trash to me.................Like walking through the knee high waters...my steps through life are slow and hard....and I never seem to get all the way to the shore...the longer I stand the deeper I sink......why is it everywhere I stand...is a foot shorter than the space next to me.....I can't see the action due to the croud...there i never a horizon in my view....I don't know if I'm down in the dumps...but it sure smells like trash to meeeee Are you getting what you need from life, from your romance, from work? If not, it might be time to ask yourself why. To fulfill your dreams,

Thoughts
Domination All along the waste and wild legions of lost scream in pain A million shattered destinies all slowly drowning in tears of flame Break the chains around your necks lick your wounds you Dogs of War Raise your banners ever high and ravage the Babylon Whore I, with darkest insurrection, victimize Hail the horrors, all hail and sanctify ...my Domination Rotting from the inside out ripping away to the core A million lies unite as one slaughtering innocence for evermore Sound the mighty drums of doom march to this black heart of fate Clawing, tearing, slashing deep defiantly fighting our fate I, with darkest insurrection, victimize Hail the horrors, all hail and sanctify ...my Domination Turn the waters red with rage burn all the earth shore to shore Open wide the Gates of Hell defile the Babylon Whore I, with darkest insurrection, victimize Hail the horrors, all hail and sanctify ...my Domination ...my Domination Into The

Thoughts Of Ame
I am sitting here at almost 1 am and I am lonely, horny, and drinkin (Plum Loco - New Mexico)... lol :P I have my profile up in another window so I could hear the music that I have on there... I feel like such a dork! Well I went to Las Cruses today and watched Harry Potter. It was such a great movie... Granted not as good as the book but still awesome. I recommend that everyone go and watch it. *dances to JC Chasez's 'All Daylong I Dream About Sex'* I should go to bed so I could apply for a job but i can't sleep. I probably shouldn't blog and drink but I am in one of those I don't care moods. Ya know I hate Drama! I am tired of people saying one thing and doing another, I am tired of lies about stupid shit, I am tired of people blowing things out of proportion, I am tired of people starting shit, I am tired of discrimination, I am tired of bigotry, I am tired of close minded idiots, I am tired of bad things happening to great people and good things happening to bad people... Just not

Thought For The Day
alright...i never thought i would have to do this on here....not like i do on yahoo...but it seems no matter where you go, there are always some jack asses that want to fukk everything up and be childish...i never thought that i would have to stroke an ego here(i know....what was i thinking right?) anyway...i was bored today so i went through and rated some pictures...and no i didn't rate everyone a 10 i'm not that kind of girl...i am honest and i do not stroke egos...ok maybe i do, but i have to know that ego very VERY well...and even then i don't do it often, just ask my husband Lord Chaos...anyways...to you jack asses out there that cannot handle honesty...i feel sorry for you, but i still will NOT rate your pics a 10....and if you want to retalliate with rating my pics low...do me a favor and just block me i don't need the petty shit in my life online OR off line a thought for today...hmmmm....well today i had many thoughts...one of which was just how lucky i am to have the friends

Thoughts On Y Single Sucks- Made By Me
1- eating out by yourself 2- going to a movie by yourself 3- going to sleep alone 4- not having that person to kiss hug and even hold their hand 5- no romantic walks 6- watching their face light up when ya do something funny sweet or exciting!!! 7- watching them eat food you have made and them liking it 8- having a bad day and them making it better 9-taking a shower with them 10-their smell 11-the sound of their voice 12-seeing their stuff around the house or your car 13-car ride that now seem longer than b-4 14-the lil things they do that annoy you you even miss them 15-watching a movie at home having them cuddle with you 16-play fighting even when you loose (lol) 17-having them rub on you when your sick 18-them making you smile even when you don't want to 19-people asking you why is a pretty young intelligent woman like you single??? (wtf am i suppose to say to that???) 20-sex becomes something of the past and that's ab

A Thought
So here is my thought for the day .. .well someone else' but it seems to fit life in gereral The problem with stupid people is that there just is not enough smart ones to eat the stupid ones .. It would eliminate hunger PEOPLE COME INTO YOUR LIFE FOR A REASON I am sending this to you to see how many actually read their e-mail. Your response will be interesting. Pay attention to what you read. After you have finished reading it, you will know the reason it was sent to you. Here goes: People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoi

Thoughts
I wonder if life would be better to be super pretty and talented. Like I'm looking at the life of a model or some kind of a female that has all kinds of money and all they do is go to cool places, parties, and events. Meet a lot of interesting people, get anything they want, and live in complete luxary. Here I am struggling to just study for a hard ass class for christ's sake and I'm thinking about some skinny little primp that's just sitting in front of a mirror taking off her fake eye lashes..... sometimes, I wanna live a life like that

Thoughts,,,,,
I posted a blog earlier this morning, stating what has gone on in the last few months of my life... Maybe my wife is right, maybe I'm not the man she wanted to grow old with... Maybe I'm not that great or good, or whatever... She made me a man, by having our Son's. That she can't take away from me... But I think that this separation is taking the life out of me... I have a very few friends... allot of online friends. But, that doesn't fill the whole that has been cut in my heart. I'll do anything for anyone, if I'm asked. I'm pretty quiet, till I get to know someone. I'm not pushy.. When I have a problem, I try and solve it as fast as I can.. Well, this separation, has put a stop to that... Cause, I have no clue on how to fix it... I'm beating my head against the wall trying too. I moved back to Texas, to help my son's, as per her wish. Now, things are spinning out of control... I'm writing blogs, to vent... how I feel, as I have no one to actually talk too. I have been stuck on

*thoughts*
Will the real marriage please stand up? Anyone who thinks that marriage is composed of magic, bliss, and excitement is headed for disappointment. Those marriages and relationships only exist in romance novels, movies or television, wild promises on the internet, and personal ads. In real life, marriage is about reciprocity and power. Reciprocity The husband gets what he wants in the marriage by giving his wife what she wants. The wife gets what she wants in the marriage by giving her husband what he wants. Neither husband nor wife ever gets 100% of what he/she wants in any marriage. Marriage partners provide mutual support and help each other with mundane problems. They compliment each other and both contribute to the marriage, often by compromise. The couple may dance by candlelight but it is after the dishes are washed, the lawn is mowed, and their day-to-day problems are solved. Fantasy marriages take place with perpetual romance in the moonlight. Real mar

Thoughts
Do not cry for the dead, for tears do not return them to life. Pain and disappointment are things of the past. If you must shead tears, let them flow for the living. They are the ones that greave, and need you help to over come the pain of living on. They dance in the darkness. The wind thru the leaves sounds the melody, their hearts the beat. As they sway to the rhythm. The moon shown upon them, casting them in an eeire glow, like two ghostly silhouettes among the trees. They embrace in a kiss, a kiss that seems to stop time and cause the world to spin. Lovers reunited at lifes journey's end. The darkness holds many secrets. For some it is the sweetness of loves embrace. That fleeting moment of chance encounters that draw both men and women. The sickly sweet scent of pheromones, entrances both sexes like the DJ of a rave. Pulsating hearts acting as the tempo to some wild primal beat. Drawing us closer and closer to ecstasy almost omnipotent. Knowing but not kno

Thought For The Day
My Dearest Pirate Mike Passed from the pain of this world on Wenesday.. the Viewing was Friday. Now I am in Omaha to see another friend thru Major surgery on her back.. So All those who Know Memaw stop by here page and leave a Nice note to help her fell Loved too.. Stay Safe All. And Thanks For the Prayers They Helped me a Lot Just Knowing You all were there with me when I did need you.. Be a Peace.... Dee One of my husband's duties as a novice drill instructor at Fort Jackson, S.C., was to escort new recruits to the mess hall. After everyone had made it through the chow line, he sat them down and told them, "There are three rules in this mess hall: Shut up! Eat up! Get up!" Checking to see that he had everyone's attention, he asked, "What is the first rule?" Much to the amusement of the other instructors, 60 privates yelled in unison, "Shut up, Drill Sergeant!" I love it, when I sign off here I guess there is Lots of lag time in the network cause I have had several people

Thoughts From A Wandering Soul...
you think they cant hear you up above? that your deeds go unnoticed... that you place yourself of the pack? checkmate mother fucker. i got you pinned in the corner... six deep behind me, guido in the back. damn right, im entraced by seductions of violence... i hold you by your throat... your excuses leave you like your breath i squeeze your transgressions from you... you have been atoned for. i picture myself in a darkened theater... no lights... and the screen is blank... i close my eyes and clear my thoughts, (so hard to do for me sometimes) i hear no sound, i taste nothing in the air. when i have nothing to say, i close my eyes... and they are closed now. when i open them, i see you there... your black wings caress my face, your mastery of my soul completes this impossible task... you take my face up into your hands... you whisper something that i dont understand. a thousand times i would give my blood to have one moment with you... y

Thoughts Through Words
Sweet and nice, As the person I can be I often wonder, Do you really love me? I know sometimes The things I do, May seem so cruel. But, I want you to know, That my love for you is true! Watching the sunset, I saw a dove. Then I realized, That I am in love! You went away Never to return again I wish you could stay And take away my pain. You don’t know How my heart beats true I wish I could show How my heart beats for you. How I wish I knew Just how to tell How I feel for you But I always fail. You ask why I look at you that way, You ask why I talk to you like that, Why do I care so much? All you do is ask… Can you not see it in my eyes? Can you not hear it in my voice? Or feel it in my touch? You ask why I am so gentle, So caring, so kind, You ask why I offer all I have, When did it all start? Well, funny you should ask. Boy, you are my one true love And you stole my heart away The very first time you said those three words. You know the

Thoughts
yesterday i went and put my application into disney to do the college program again.. maybe this time it will be a little better than last. and a lot less injuries.. and agravations.. i applied for the spring term so i can finsishe out my fall classes here at Kingwood and be in good standings with them not to mention we all know how the approval process is with this company.. never know i might get turned down or sent to Cali instead of FL.. well see.. just thought i would keep yall posted.. well i am off to do some math and read a little in my small business book. so take care for now and dont be strangers.. hugs and kisses Cassie well i went and done it again i am trying to do my own thing.. i need money coming in when i am out on all this medical leave and at this time i am unsure if they are going to keep me on at sears after the holidays so i have went and am starting a new online business.. yeah i know its harder to do an online one compared to a direct hoof and mo

Thoughts
The blood upon your sleeve is gonna leave a stain, Let's bare our hearts and dance in the rain, This love you play just like a game, Another pretty face without a name, If you stay I'll come back kicking and screaming, If you leave I'll hate you and remain dreaming, You keep me at arms reach and I don't know what to do, No matter how hard I try there's no resisting you, My hearts broken and there's no one to blame, Let's take our skins off and all be the same, We can get lost In a wonderland engulfed in our pain, I'm just another heart to add to your chain, Kicking and screaming, Hate you but dreaming, Denying but still crying, Failure to resist, Ending in a kiss I found a treasure With your name on it. So wonderful and value And with no money of this world to pay. You fall asleep next to me, I could look at you the whole night. Watch how you sleep, Hear your breath Until we wake up the next morning.

Thoughts
I was ask the other night "What Do You Want" After thinking about it I think I want what most want I want the stars,the moon , the world I want happeness I want welth I want the perefect mate I want to look down into your baby blue eyes as you kneel befor me I want to be the one who makes you breath fast when I touch you I want to make you squirm from my touch I want to take you to a place you have never been befor I want to see you cry from from happness I want to kiss your tear from your face I want to be the one you reach for when you need I want to be the one that you think of when you touch yourself I want you to know that I love you and that you love me I want you to know that if you hirt you can come to me I want to know the answer befor you ask the question I want one to love me as I love them I want to taste you I want to use you as I see fit and have you love it and want more I want to hold you in my arms as you fall to sleep and as you open y

Thoughts On Life 20/7/07 3.26am
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Though I Only Feel
Though i feel like life has took my friend. How's come it seems the fun has to end. I feel tears as they build up. As if enough pain i've been through was enough. I sit here pondering n every thought. The good feelings you have brought. It's like a song that was short and it just quit. A figment of my imagination that was true but that was it. How am i supposed to go on. To watch feeling go away that felt so strong. How am I supposed to deal. To actully walk through lfe knowing it was real. What do you do to one's that lost. That you wish no matter the cost. The love to feel is all so strong. To hold and cherish for life long. How do you put to one that lives for love. That rises against all odds to rise up above. This is how life deals with pain. To love someone dearly that tears fall like rain. This is my point of view of love should feel like. To always love your special one for the rest of your life.

Thoughtful Thinking!!!
You have given me wings to soar, High above into the clouds of love, You are the petals to my red rose, Every petal, a definition of our love. You are the painting of my heart, Capturing this beautiful piece of art, My feelings for you deep within, Is felt with every stroke of the wind. You are the treasure neath the sea, Lost for centuries to be discovered, You are the moon lite night sky that is, Admired passionately by two lovers. You are my dream within a dream, True love is felt in the heart, not seen, You're my own heaven sent angel, And everything love is suppose to be. Another sleepless night, so many thoughts run through my head. Countless hours of worrying, trivial things that were said. As a child things are different, we tend to rush our lives away. Precious years that go so fast, defining moments every day. We rush age 13 to become a teen, and age 16 to drive a car. Age 18 to say goodbye to high school, and age 21 to get into a bar.

Thoughts
just sitting here thinking how bad can things really get .. then i stop and think of all the people who dont have homes and dont have a hot meal or a warm bed to sleep in .. why do we always feel sorry for ourselfs when there is someone out there who is worse off than we are. things dont always turn out like we want them to .. its like the cycle of life one minute we have good luck then we have a ton of bad luck.. its like a roll of the dice we never know whats gonna happen from one min to the next.. ok thats enough from me tonight

Thoughts 4 Ur Day...
this was cute definitely worthy of posting..... Luvvvvvvvvvvvv is when U sleep in someone's arm & wake-up in his dreams. Love is not love that alters when it alteration finds. Love is like a violin, the music may stop now and then, but the strings remain forever. Love is like playing the piano. First you must learn to play by the rules, then you must forget the rules and play from your heart. Love is when you look into someone's eyes, and see everything you need. Love is the master key which opens the gates of happiness. Love is an irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired. Love is like a mirror. When you love another you become his mirror and he becomes yours....And reflecting each other's love you see infinity. Love is not blind -- it sees more, not less. But because it sees more, it is willing to see less. Love is the condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own. Love is, above all, th

Thought For Tonight
the thought for tonight ..... some people think that they are better than others .. but in fact they arent no one is better than anyone else .. if there was a perfect world with perfect people in it we wouldnt have war , crime, or homeless .. it doesnt matter if you are rich or poor ... you are a special person.. this is the thought for tonight ..

Thoughts Of Love..
Thoughts Of Love.... Love is forgiving Even though it is hard to forget Holding hands and never wanting to let go Hoping that tomorrow will be as wonderful as today Sharing secrets in a star- spangled night And most importantly love is knowing That you will never be lonely again

Thoughts, Ramblings, And Stuff
Well guys, I'm back :D I disappeared for a little while, but I couldnt leave my wonderful fuFriends for too long :p The most recent news is that I'm 2months pregnant with my third, and just broke up with the father. Too much drama, I couldn't take it, I didn't deserve it. I kept giving him more chances to straighten out and well...Nothing came out of it. I can't be with someone who I can't trust and who has gone back on his word too many times. I'm done expecting change and not seeing anything. Now while I'm not perfect and have done some pretty stupid shit too.....I'm pregnant now, and I have to take care of myself for the baby's sake. And being utterly depressed and irritated all the time, fighting and bitching and wanting to slit my wrists just didn't seem right with me. So, I left. And that's it. What's done is done. Can't change the past. Time to move on. And on that note...here I go...getting ready to walk down a road as a single mom-to-be, try to be sta

Thoughts
Have you ever just sat back and wondered if you could turn back the hands of time and do it all over again Would you? What would be some of the things that you would change? Would you change anything at all? I know I would! Have you ever noticed that when you are younger you have so many dreams and goals. But, as you get older and older they begin to fade! It seems so impossible to ever accomplish it. I was always told that if you don't like the way your life is the only person who can change it is you! I truly believe that, because if you don't who will? I was also told you could be anything you wanted to be. I believe it. Sometimes I wonder if I could go back and change things, How would my life have turned out? Would it have changed at all? Just looking back at everything I feel like I could be so much more. I feel like I have failed at everything I have ever did, Because I have!

A Thought Of What?
Children How do we as parents expect our children to grow in a world full of crime. How do we teach them that the world can be a beautifull place when all they see is destruction. How is it that we have made such a mess of things that we must even continplate these question. But yet each day we bring a new life into this world to try to teach these things. We must all as parents try to give our children the best possible life we can. If we can teach our children peace and love maybe one day they will return the earth to a peacefull place where all can live in harmony where hunger is no more and disease is a thing of the past. So we must all do our part to show our children that a world like this is more then just a dream it can be a reality. What is Love? Love is a word so easely said yet so hard to really mean. What is real Love and how is it showen. It's not just a box of candy or f

Thoughts And Stuff
The other day when I met, for the first time IRL, one of my friends at a park all I could think about, at the time, was sex. Thoughts about going down on them and of how they might taste; thoughts of how special and wonderful it would be to know the person in a biblical sense; thinking of what would happen if i didn't please the person sexually; etc... Well anyways, when providing feedback about our meeting they mentioned that talking about sex with a person who you've just met is a really big turn off and I made the comment like, "Well, I guess you knew where my mind was..." or something to that effect. They might already know this, but just in case, I want the person to know that I'm not some sex-crazed lunatic and sex is not all that I think about...most of the time...It just seems like ever since I got my first taste of it about 3 weeks ago, that's all that I've thought about and I really wish I would stop, and Hopefully I will stop, but for the time being, to just bare with me.

Thought Of The Day
LIVE well LAUGH often LOVE much Do you agree with that? God says: When somebody punches you on the right cheek, give him your left cheek Question: When somebody kisses me on the right cheek, should I turn left also? :) :) :) Hope this made your day. Talking is so close to sex. You get satisfied after that... ORALLY :) :) :) :p :P :P PS This came out from a conversation with one nice person - sounded quite funny and witty when in live. Hope you get my point. Didn't mean to be vulgar :)

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Friday, May 24, 2013 Bring depth and honor to a relationship, whether you're starting fresh or enhancing what's already there. Today, no matter how calm or turbulent the conditions might be, you'll have the patience to reach out. You'll also be too stubborn to take no for an answer if your hand gets slapped away. And it's not just about you and your commanding presence, either. If somebody here needs help getting through their pain and denial, you're the one who can make it happen. You could be this perceptive whenever you wanted. Wouldn't that make life easier?     how funny is this   BEAUTY IS NOT WHAT YOU WEAR BUT HOW YOU WEAR IT THE MORE YOU NEED TO BE SEEN MAKES YOU AN OBJECT NOT OF BEAUTY BUT JUST WHAT YOU WANT TO BE NOTICED SO SHOW YOUR BEAUTY BY BEING YOU EVERYDAY NOT WHAT YOU WANT THOSE TO THINK OF YOU AS (WONDER WHY) “Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never sh

Thought For The Day
Thought for the day: Handle every situation like a Fox Terrier .... If you can't Eat it or Screw it , Piss on it and Walk Away. lol Tc n peace..Boo xo

Thoughts I'm Having Today
A juggalo isn't a person who paints their face and chants about hatchets and clowns. A juggalo is a person who isn't fake. Just a person who doesn't fit in. A misfit. We don't worship clowns, idols, and figures. Were not about religeon. We are about whats right and whats wrong and how you go along in life and the friends and homies you make. Learn the fucking story. If your going to hate us. Have a fucking reason. And if your gonna say they are rascist. Your FUCKING wrong. WE are completely AGAINST that shit. We believe that if we are good in life and good to others. Then we'll be rewarded in WHATEVER afterlife there is. Thats what Shangri-la (heaven) is all about. So if your with me. Comment this shit. Make it BIG. Keep passing it on. Naughty JuggaLette (I made this. cause i was SICK of the fucking critisism.)

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is something else happening today then remebering this shit damn guilty we are all so stop bothering me UTzone-Sound5.uax-Redeemer(Sound) uploaded by zns_desire

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Last night I stepped down from SER Management and Dj'ing. I think that is one of the hardest things I have ever done in my life. Everyone was very supportive of my reasons, and thankfully it is that way...I had a few ppl that thought I was doing it for attention...but what the hell let ppl think what they want, I love my SER family and will still support them, I just needed to do this for my own personal health..sometimes it is so easy to get wrapped up in the Drama on Fubar you forget to take care of what matters most. Everyone takes things on this site to seriously sometimes and forgets that it is an escape. I started to do that and it caused me some serious health problems. So by stepping back from everything I was doing I am hoping to just get back to what I joined this site for and maybe even get some of my passion back for other things... Death looms over all.........sometimes it is closer than anyone really thinks.......whether it is the fact that I have no meds to take or wha

Though For The Day
When in England, at a fairly large conference; Colin Powell was asked by the Archbishop of Canterbury if our plans for Iraq were just an example of empire building by George Bush. He answered by saying, 'Over the years, the United States has sent many of its fine young men and women into great peril to fight for freedom beyond our borders. The only amount of land we have ever asked for in return is enough to bury those that did not return.' You could have heard a pin drop. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ There was a conference in France where a number of international engineers were taking part, including French and American. During a break, one of the French engineers came back into the room saying 'Have you heard the latest dumb stunt Bush has done? He has sent an aircraft carrier to Indonesia to help the tsunami victims. What does he intended to do, bomb them?' A Boeing engineer stood up and replied quietly: 'Our carriers have three hospit

Thoughts And Prayers Needed..
My little cousin who I spoke about in my last blog.. She went back up to the hospital yesterday morning, around 4am, the doctors never checked her, wouldn't even hook her up to the monitors.. She has been in A LOT of pain.. Indescribable, and the doctor said it was all in her head.. Well she got a very nice nurse at the hospital, and she checked her at 11am, and she was dilated at 4cm.. So her nurse immediately hooked her up to the monitors.. I arrived at the hospital at 11:45 and she was already at almost 8cm.. She delivered her baby at 12:51pm.. She had a baby girl.. Sadly to say, she didn't make it.. We aren't exactly sure what happened, because she did have a heart beat, while she was still inside.. Something happened during delivery.. Either she suffocated or she had a heart attack.. We wont know for sure what causes her death until we get the autopsy results back.. My little cousin was transfered to the ICU floor, where she has been listed in Critical Condition.. she is on a brea

Thoughts...
The sun drifted lazily behind the treeline,sinking ever so slowly and invoking a pinkish glow upon the sparse clouds.Smoke from the nearby fire wandering upwoard in the still evening air.There the two sat nearby on a large log,enjoying eachothers company and the much needed escape from the hectic lives they led.Nature's evening chorus played softly in the background as the last rays of the suns light slipped away leaving the two bathed only in the moons soft glow. The fire waned as the evening grew on,bringing on the chill of the suns departure.Getting up to tend the fire ,he stared at her as he fed the flames with some more lumber.Her eyes seemed to burn with an intensity dwarfing the small campfire as their gazes met.He was so taken by her,now more than ever before as he found himself hypnotized by her fair beauty.Slowly walking back to her he straddeled the log so he faced her. Staring into her eyes he reached out and pulled her closer to him.Without brea

Thoughts To Jot.
Well once again sports fans. I've wound up looking like a complete fool. At this point, I'm so numb I dont' even feel anything at once again having given my heart to someone who is a liar. Even after everything I told him about the hell I've gone through in the last year, it all comes out in the wash that he is still married! He's been living on the couch for the last few months though! Planning on getting a divorce. Oh lucky me! Over the last few days, myself and someone else have had mumms deleted for "Violations" or were flagged as NSFW. None of these mumms had any sexual, discrimanatory,inflammatory profane or vulgar content. My mumm was a question about a constitutional amendment allowing naturalized citizens to become president. Such as Arnold Schwazenegger. Another deleted mumm was, "Should mumms be catergorized?" I have seen mumms on,"Is Micheal Vick guilty?" Questions about which intoxicant is better or whether weed should be legalized, none of these mumms we

Thoughts Of A Madwoman!
His fingers caress the softest part of me, teasing, showing me what is to come. He takes his time to make the moment just right. He's gentle, kind, wants to please me. For everything he does right to my body he will never understand that no matter how he touches me, no matter how sincere he is it will never be whole. He might have his whole mind and soul there, but me I'm absent. It's empty and alone just a carnal moment of pleasure to make time pass by. Too much alcohol has clouded my better judgement and I gave in to temptation. He's there but I can't see him, I can't see anyone. My head is spinning but is it the booze or is it the fact I can't stop thinking of you, wishing it was you that was here with me right at this very moment. To him there are feelings and emotions involved, for me it is an empty cold one night fling that will never be anything more. Selfish, mean, shallow, I might be. I would never do something so rash or careless. I'm the good girl who does not make ripples i

Thought Of The Day!
Don't argue with an idiot; people watching may not be able to tell the difference. Sometimes you gotta run away so you can see who will run after you. Sometimes you gotta talk quieter just to see who's listening. Sometimes you gotta step up in a fight just to see who's on your side. Sometimes you gotta make a wrong decision to see whos there to fix it. Sometimes you gotta let go of the one you love just to see if they love you enough to come back. A sharp tongue leaves a scar, while a helpful word heals the heart. - David McCasland

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Thought For The Day
Remember, if you ever need a helping hand, it's at the end of your arm, as you get older, remember you have another hand: The first is to help yourself, the second is to help others. Audrey Hepburn

A Thought Of You
A Thought Of You © By Erika K. Page My kind of music, My favorite song, I want to be with you All day & all night long... A spring breeze, A summer sun, Now that I know you You are my one... A winter sparkle, An autumn tree, Added all up It equals you & me... My best friend, My only lover, From here on out I'll keep you forever... A good laugh, With some happy tears, You're the one I go to Through all the coming years... When it rains it rains, When it snows it snows, I wrote this especially for you And you're the only one who knows... You keep me warm, When I'm so cold, As if my heart were for sale To you it was sold... Whether playing our favorite games, Or to music we sing and listen, When it comes to you There's just no competition... Not the best cut diamonds, Or the reddest rose, Could ever amount to When you hold me close... And when everything Is said and done, The night is over And we've had our fun, Out of all th

Thought For The Day
Presumption of innocence is a legal right that the accused in criminal trials has in many modern nations. It states that no person shall be considered guilty until finally convicted by a court. The burden of proof is thus on the prosecution, which has to convince the court that the accused is guilty beyond a reasonable doubt. In principle, the defense does not have to 'prove' anything. However, the defense may present evidence tending to show that there is a doubt as to the guilt of the accused. Take into concideration,now,the reality of the way the human brain realy thinks...GUILTY BEFOR PROVEN INNOCENT...Thanks to the media/press, most cases are brought out into the public eye with out all the evedence on the table . The press often times will act as the judge and jurry in any given case.Therefore,the innocent may very well be tried and hung by the press..leaving the jurry with a bad taste in their mouth for the accused,and therefore convicting an innocent person of a crime they d

Thoughts To Ponder
1. Ever wonder about those people who spend $2.00 a piece on those little bottles of Evian water? Try spelling Evian backwards: NAIVE **************~* 2.Isn't making a smoking section in a restaurant like making a peeing section in a swimming pool? **************~* 3. OK.... So if the Jacksonville Jaguars are known as the "Jags" and the Tampa Bay Buccaneers are known as the "Bucs," what does that make the Tennessee Titans? **************~* 4. If 4 out of 5 people SUFFER from diarrhea...does that mean that one enjoys it? **************~* 5. There are three religious truths: A. Jews do not recognize Jesus as the Messiah. B. Protestants do not recognize the Pope as the leader of the Christian faith. C. Baptists do not recognize each other in the liquor store or at Hooters. **************~* 6. If people from Poland are called Poles, why aren't people from Holland called Holes

The Thought Of U
Sitting here listening to the rain drops, making a beautiful sound on my roof top ....thoughts of you travels through my mind, sitting here wondering how, I'm going to reach your heart, how, im going to hold your soul, How I'm never going to let you go.. waiting on that day our hearts, soul, and mind, can at last interwine.. waiting on that day that you will become mine.. your all the evidence I need to prove that true love does exist. Your the one that my soul has missed... and your lips, are the very ones, my yearned to kiss... Your heart is my favorite song... i want to hold you in my arms... whisper sweet nothings upon your ears... thoughts of you chases away my fears... and even though you are faraway, I can feel you near. There is not a single day that goes by... that i dont think of you and I... When I drifted into a dream.. I can clearly see.. Me in your life as your wife... I need for you to be my king.. ...I have no need for materialistic things... as lon

Thoughts
A Few Good Doorman" ...You can't handle the truth! Son, we live in a world that has bars, and those bars have to be protected by men with black shirts. Who's gonna do it? You? Your drunk friends? I have a greater responsibility than you can possibly fathom. You weep for your drunk friend who got kicked out and you curse the doorstaff. You have that luxury. You have the luxury of not knowing what I know- that your buddy getting tossed, while tragic, probly saves lives. And my existence, while grotesque to you, probly saves lives. You don't want the truth because deep down in places you don't talk about at parties, you want me at that door, you need me at that door. We use words like float, identification, stamp. We use these words as a backbone of a lifetime spent watching a bar. You use them as a punch line. I have neither the time nor inclination to explain myself to a person who gets loaded under the blanket of Security in which I provide, and then questions the manner in which I

Thoughts Of You
Thoughts Of You Thoughts of you have drifted near I sense them in my heart Along with all the sorrows not being with you has brought My tears are no longer empty they are filled with pain and such The sea they form is lovely yet deadly to the touch. When peaceful sleep encloses me I only dream of you These dreams are what hold me when my wishes don't come true This longing never ends and will never be satisfied Until my life is over and my heart and soul have died

Thoughts And Babblings
My dear Miss Maryjane is starting school this fall. Where did the time go? We’re lucky in that the school bus will pick her up and drop her off at her day care, thus keeping her safer. The day care has been nagging relentlessly at us about it. “She’s so smart, be sure to get her enrolled in Kindergarten this year." Well, my little lady is NOT going to Kindergarten this year. She is going into First Grade. Why? Because there is nothing left for her to learn in Kindergarten. She already knows the alphabet, and can write it. She can write her name. She knows all the colors. She knows her numbers. She can count to 100 in English and 20 in Spanish. And here’s the kicker: she can read. We were reading The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe (she gets one chapter a night), when I noticed she was reading aloud along with me. Hurm. I yawned and told her I was tired, and would she please read the next paragraph to me. She did. Five years old reading C.S. Lewis already. Nifty, eh

Thoughts About Marriage
Getting married is very much like going to a continental restaurant with friends. You order what you want, then when you see what the other fellow has, you wish you had ordered that. At the cocktail party, one woman said to another, "Aren't you wearing your wedding ring on the wrong finger?" the other replied, "Yes, I am, I married the wrong man." Man is incomplete until he is married. Then he is really finished. Marriage is an institution in which a man loses his bachelor's degree and the woman gets her master's. A little boy asked his father, "Daddy, how much does it cost to get married?" And the father replied, " I don't know, son, I'm still paying for it." Young son: Is it true, Dad, I heard that in some parts of Africa a man doesn't know his wife until he marries her? Dad: That happens in most countries, son. Then there was a man who said, "I never knew what real happiness was until I got married; and then it was too late. A happy m

Thoughts!
The Seven Deadly Sins in a Relationship 1. Jealousy In my opinion jealousy is one of the most negative and destructive emotions there is. Never will positive come out of jealousy. It results from fear of loss and tenure and is strictly ego-based. It’s one of the greatest threats to a relationship. A jealous partner can truly diminish your quality of life, and I’ve seen couples splitting up because of this, despite the fact that they love each other. Overcoming jealousy is not so easy, but it must start at its roots. The only way is to work on your self-love, and to increase trust in your relationship. That is something you have to accomplish together. 2. Clinging Clinging is clearly another manifestation of the fear of loss. It is the weaker “brother” of jealousy and manifests itself through different ways, seemingly through repeated reassurances of love. You are convinced that you don’t deserve your partner, and cling to them verbally or literally. This is very oft

Thoughts For The Day
Love is Very hard to find....easy to lose...and difficult to forget. So be true to the ones you love because you hold their heart in your hands.You have the choice to either crush it....or keep it safe by holding it close to your own heart. Whether it be the love of a sibling, a parent, a friend or a lover....make sure you tell them you love them all the time!!! You never know when they might not be there to tell them....or when it would just simply brighten their day to be reminded that someone cares. With so much sadness and hate in this world....its so important that we remember the wonderful things in life like love....and also the people that have given us a place in their heart. Much love goes out to the people who have let me into their hearts.....and who have found a place in mine as well Curvalicious xoxoxox

The Thoughts In My Head..
Why do I get insecure, why do i feel like i dont deserve anything good coming my way? I cant seem to be able to give myself the ease of mind to think that someone might like me for me. Always worried that someone better might come and take my special away. Someone that will trumf me in everyway. Or just plain out right that i will be caught out that someone really good looking cant be with this horrible looking person that is me. Am I good enough for anyone? I have to say, and I dont want ya all to take this very personal but just because you have ancestry doesnt make you the nationality.. My kids are HALF irish, this is because their father is from ireland. I have polish ancestry, that doesnt make me polish, neither does it make my kids polish. If my grandmother who is polish would have gotten a kid with a polish man and their kid would have had me with a polish woman then yes i could call myself polish.. Once you have moved out of a country and there is mixed linea

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I'm sure everyone at some point has had alot on their mind and its easier for me as with some to write it all down. Iam not one to sit and tell people how I feel. Iam one that can write down all my feelings and it usually makes me feel better. This time around I can honestly say I have nothing negative to say. I have been so happy latley its almost to good to be true. Things may not be going the best right now but I can say I don't have to worry about a guy hurting me anymore. I have left my husbond and Iam moving on with my life. A person can only take so much before they break. I have found a great guy that I click with and seem to get along great. My kids like him alot along with my family which means the most to me. As for myself and how I feel I can't explain how I feel. I have never felt this way about anyone and I have never been with a guy that actually makes me happy and is happy to be with me. So with that being said I have choosen to take things slow so I don't get hurt. Iam

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Without question, the greatest invention in the history of mankind is beer.Oh I grant you that the wheel was a fine invention,but the wheel does not go nearly as well with pizza

Thoughts On Aging
This entry is going to be long winded, but I had to put these thoughts down before I went to bed. My Dad called me yesterday, and told me that my Mom had fallen, and bruised her hip. Dad is going on 70..Mom is 68. Dad told me not to mention it to her, because it embarassed her, and he also told me that it scared the shit out of him. He's gone to lengths to install a safety rail in the bath tub for her, etc. They will be married 50 years this November, 2007. My Dad and Mom bitch about each other all the time..."He's driving me crazy" "She won't do a damn thing"... you know, that kind of stuff. Funny thing is, they wouldn't have a clue what to do without each other. They are so in love and dependent on each other. I guess what I really wanted to get to in this rambling is that, men, no matter how egotistical and prideful we can be, would lose our mind without a caring woman in our lives. If most men would sit back and think about what really drives them, to be what they want to be...to b

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soft silky lips, hot feeling hips, warm hot hands, as we wear the same bands, our hearts as one, it is you on the phone. as i hear a ring, i want to sing! you are always in my dreams, when i dream; you are the theme..... you are always in my heart, i pray we never ever part!!! SITTING IN A DARK WORLD, WONDERING WHEN I WILL FIND MY LIGHT! WONDERING HOW I GOT THERE? WHEN REALLY IT IS AS PLAIN AS SIGHT! TORN INTO LITTLE PIECES, FEELING BROKEN UP INSIDE... KNOWING I HAVE SO MUCH, BUT THERE IS NO WHERE TO HIDE! PEOPLE USING AND MANIPULATING, WHERE REALLY IS THEIR HEARTS? KNOWING IT IS ALREADY TO LATE, THE WORLD HAS FALLEN APART! CAN'T SEEM TO CATCH MY BREATH, RUNNING OUT OF AIR.... TRYING TO FIND MYSELF AND HEART, BUT REALLY IS IT THERE? I FEEL LIKE I'M IN A CUBICLE, WITH NO WHERE TO TURN... I THOUGHT I LEARNED ENOUGH IN LIFE, BUT WHAT REALLY DID I LEARN? ABUSE, HATRED, PAIN AND SUFFERING IS ALL THAT IS OUT THERE. WHEN WILL IT EVER END, BECAUSE IT IS REAL

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The other day someone asked me what I want in a friend. It got me thinking. My actual answer was this minus their responses shoutbox style bottom to top: ->...: I like people who volunteer help out the greater good in the world.. don't like wimps hmm you got me thinking .. ->...: I like attention but it's not all about me.. if I bring up ... hey look at this this is cool I don't wanna be blown off either ->...: someone who can stand on their own 2 feet ... someone who will tell me when they're upset straight to me let me be a shoulder to cry on Edit: Someone who will not demean me for being me. I am moody; I have highs and lows. if you're only going to be around for my highs, walk away because when I need you most you'll be gone. The song unsung, the words unwritten, the dream unawoken, the canvas bare. A tendril of imagination reaches out, unknowingly reaching for light, finding darkness and dispair.

Thoughts Of Me, Myself, And I
Beaten and bruised Shattered dreams Ripping open at the seams Feeling unwanted and used Soul screaming for itself to hear Lacking the ability to answer the questions Scavaging through the dense fog for a refuge Wanting to end this pain trodden journey Pounding on oneself over and over Trying to beat out the inadequacies It has to be something about me But then WAIT ~ STOP Looking in the mirror at the ragged beaten soulSeeing what I have done to myself Wiping away the tears of ineptness The tears of pain and loss Tears of fear and anger Seeing the bruised eyes of someone who....has done this for years. Asking herself why do you do this? What do you accomplish by it? When are you going to stop this self critical crusade? Damn myself...I am my worst enemy. It isn't you or her or him or them.... IT IS ME DOING IT TO MYSELF. So stop it I say....stop beating me up. I AM NOT GOING TO TAKE IT ANYMORE! I am not going to take it anymore...Hahahahaha!!!!!! Diary of a sic

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GEORGE CARLIN (His wife recently died...) Isn't it amazing that George Carlin - comedian of the 70's and 80's - could write something so very eloquent...and so very appropriate. A wonderful Message by George Carlin: The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider Freeways , but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness. We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much , and pray too seldom. We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often. We've learned how to make a living, but no

Thoughts
I sit here and think about how to say goodbye to what I only thought I had. Asking myself how to mourn the loss of his touch. To no longer feel his caress,the sweetness of his kiss.Should I weep at the thought of never feeling him wrapped around me again.Forget his taste,his smell,how he feels inside me. Should I forget the times we spent together. Sitting here with a bittersweet smile on my face.Sad but not sad....after all how do I weep for what I never had. So new,exciting,dangerous...wanting you..needing you with me..inside me..wrapped around me.Your touch,smell and taste..my addiction.Thoughts of you filling my head as you fill my body..never enough..always more..forever my addiction.The sound of your voice moves me..soothing the fire you make inside me..as the thought of us together fans the flame of burning desire..pleading need..absolute love..my addiction I could kiss you forever.The silken heat of your mouth pressed against mine..the sweetness of your taste becomes a craving.

The Thoughts Of Patty Mcpatt
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Thoughts
Come up to me, sweet and sure Sensitive and kind Effortless and silent, smooth, desirable Come in to me, quietly, deliberately Do not hesitate Do not waver Lips upon lips, drawing in your essence Skin on skin, hearts beating as one, spirits rising Craving and eager Passionate breathing, quietly gasping Do not waver Do not hesitate Well, I'll be damned. I was sure nobody was listening. And what is there to hear? My opinions on the latest controversies are only sure to bring on a heated debate since most people aren't open-minded enough to carry on a civil dialogue with separate views, beliefs, and insights. (Insight being the most important ingredient) Ninety percent of the population is so locked into themselves; they don't see what 'IS' (or could be) beyond their own pitiful existence. They spend the bulk of their conversations squandering precious time and energy on sloppy efforts to convince others to simply agree with their own viewpoint.

Thoughts For Today
"Happiness lies for those who cry, those who hurt, those who have searched, and those who have tried, for only they can appreciate the importance of people who have touched their lives." I was sitting here today thinking about all of the people that have recently touched my life in some shape, form or fashion. I remembered seeing this phrase on a very good friends blog and knew that it fit my mood perfectly this afternoon. "Happiness lies for those who cry"...to me this means not to be afraid to show your true feelings...what's in your heart. It does not mean that you're a weak or simple minded person...it just means that you can feel and relate to the emotions that's in your heart. These kind of people are the type that I can relate to the easiest... "Happiness lies for those who hurt"...to be or to have been hurt is something that a person will never forget. They may, in time, forgive but there will always be a constant reminder in that person's mind and heart of how painf

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you know whats hard? being the right guy not possible everything you do something will go wrong something will bug her something will push her away and there is nothing you can do to change it you can try you can make yourself different but in the end it doesnt work in the end you just end up failing i want to be that guy who doesnt i want to be the guy who wakes up tyo take care of the baby who takes the kids to the park to play ball does the dishes laundry cooks cleans and does everything so my girl can be happy and relax when she gots home from work or school or something if she decides if she wants to be a stay at home mom all the better for her she is happy and thats all that matters to me i want to be the guy that shows her love unconditionally i just dont know if she wants to be with me all i know is that i like her and want to show her the world and a side of guys that she has never seen bc the guys before me have all been asses i dont know maybe soon she

Thoughts And Poetry
In the early morning a whisper comes to me A love so pure and tender beckoning to me come hither say the voices crying out in dreams. Abandon inhibitions come to the angels' den Where desire mixed with feeling and the golden light of love is sprinkled as a perfume throughout the air. Where is this poignant perfume that permeates the air? Breathe deeply the forgotten dream it is everywhere. Left in a pool of blood, yet not my own, but it is or was me, In a world where humans hate us, I am yet a dragon left alone, There are more then one but I'm torn between the dragon and human, For my true love is a human... Milady, oh Milady, How can a name so beautiful give me such pain and still make my heart sing, In the depths of my being I wish to rip of the wings, claws and fangs,

Thought For Today
You know I read alot about love and what people ask the most is should I still be friends with my ex g/b friend or husband/wife.My thoughts on it is if your relationship is mature enough then yes you should stay friends.I have been with my husband for 11 yrs things have happen and we can't live together anymore but we both agree that we still love each other so we're going to stay friends.I named this Happy/Sad because i'm sad that one part of my life is ending and i'm happy because i'll still have my best friend in my new life.I'll always love you. Definition of faeries Faerie : from the Latin term for "fate" (fata), faeries (or fairies) are a "host of supernatural beings and spirits who occupy a limbo between earth and heaven" (Guiley). This is in recognition of the skill faeries had in predicting and even controlling human destiny. Faeries could be either good or evil creatures, and at various points in history have been confused with witches and demons Fay or fey i

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Sorry to all my friends I couldnt take the time to explain where i was going to so i did this my sister is in the hospital and i have got to go Happy Halloween all be safe...Tessa my friend just joined and she really needs help to level please stop by and say hi to her..... Chaotic Beauty or http://fubar.com/poetatheart I would be very thankful

Thoughts Running Through My Inner Eye...
I did the one thing this !LONG TIME! confirmed bacholure would almost never do... I tied the knot... I got hitch to a !HOT! !NASTY! kinky lil sex freak... Love 'er in real life, married her in fu land, and owen her sexy lil slave ass too boot... Slave_Girl~AKA~Boobarella: she's my real life love, my fu land wifie, and my nasty lil submisive sex slave all 'round. She's my heart, my love, my reason for being... And I'd kill or die for her. Blood and pain, my heart...love you from the beginning of the past to the end of our future...and when dust blows out time, I'll be there still; holding you close in pain sublime.  ...questing through the vast inner void of thought and memory... I search for that ever elusive dream of dreams... Seaking, yet never finding... Hunting that dark embrace of true insparation... Looking into my core depth for a glimpse of redemption... My mind flows through the meriad abbys of conquests and follies. Looking at the path of rightious powere vs. hu

Thoughts And Conclusions
The beautiful elegence of the city flew by as my foot was on the petal and my eyes were forward. My excitement grew knowing the many different features that the city has to offer. With my mind racing, my friend screams at me to turn. I almost missed our exit. We laugh. Last night I walked down the infamous Bourbon Street. Most locals will say they would love to get rid of it and they stay away from it at all cost. I did for the most parts. We enjoyed the artist studios and the shops on Royal. We always enjoy eating at Pat O's.....and I love Razoos but I didn't get to do that last night. After Pat O's, we got on Burgundy and started to walk back to the hotel....We ended up meeting a local couple and had a nice chat. What do people want in a "perfect date"? Is there such things as the "perfect date"? I do know this, for every person the perfect date is different and when you find another one that thinks their perfect date is the same as yours.....that is when it is truely Perfect. 1

Thought These Lyrics Are Awesome Written By Page And Plant Called Thank You
If the sun refused to shine, I would still be loving you. When mountains crumble to the sea, there will still be you and me. Kind woman, I give you my all, Kind woman, nothing more. Little drops of rain whisper of the pain, tears of loves lost in the days gone by. My love is strong, with you there is no wrong, together we shall go until we die. My, my, my. An inspiration is what you are to me, inspiration, look... see. And so today, my world it smiles, your hand in mine, we walk the miles, Thanks to you it will be done, for you to me are the only one. Happiness, no more be sad, happiness....I'm glad. If the sun refused to shine, I would still be loving you. When mountains crumble to the sea, there will still be you and me.

Thoughts
I have been busy being my mother's mother. She broke her arm 2 weeks ago and is being a big baby!!! I am sure it hurts, but is all the drama really necessary? She won't climb the stairs in her house and has sent her dogs home with me (I think she is just tired of taking care if them)!! She lives 70 miles away but calls every day with another guilt trip/pity party. I am trying to shield the kids from it because they don't need to see their grandmother acting like a child. We just got back from visiting her and are going back on Saturday to clean up her house but I think I am only going to take the boys. They are a little more patient than the girls are. I am just really tired of the whole deal. I have told her to take it easy on my pregnant sister and not lay her with the guilt of living 500 miles away. My sister did call her last night and told her to stop being such a big baby!! I can always count on her to tell Mom the truth. She once got so pissed at my mom that she

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Sometimes I just say what is on my mind Some people don’t like this about me but so what I am going to continue to say what I feel and think If people don’t like it piss on them If they don’t like it that I am so blunt too bad They need to deal with it and get over it Why do we do the things we do? We make decisions so fast without even thinking sometimes Then we have to live with the consequences forever. Sometimes we do things without even thinking Why do we do the things we do? How many times do we have to do stupid things before we learn? How many people do we have to hurt before we realize what we are doing?

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So what's up with that? Ya go to rate someone and BAM....ERROR you've reached your daily limit of rates? How does that work and why would you want to stop someone from rating other people? The world's gone mad!!

9-11 Thoughts
(This post may seem unpopular at first, perhaps even enraging, but bear with me a second and read this through to the end, please.) I'm sick of hearing about 9/11 every year. Yes, it has had a great impact on our way of life, all of it bad, and I don't need a reminder of how the two worst criminals in American history, George Bush and Osama bin Laden, have become unwitting partners in destroying this once-great nation. On 9/10/01 the world was about the same as it is now: people got up and went to work, their kids went to school, and business was as usual. The economy was in the toilet thanks to the Bush economic policies that were the revival of the already-failed Keynesian supply-side economics called Reaganomics. My beloved Denver Broncos played a MNF game that night and I unfortunately saw Ed McCaffery break his leg in what would be the beginning of the end of his all-pro career. It was a typical day. 9/11 came and we all know what happened. America went through one of

Thoughts
The keeper of silence hides behind a thousand tears. My soul is lovelorned. All in itself, this "love" is devoid of reality. IUt is rapturous at first sight and freestanding. The souls cursed from birth to desire the imaginations subject. This psychosexuality is intense and leaves no room for error. You have seduced my senses, latched onto my naked soul. Vindicate me, Free me, Love me.......This is palpable, yet slowly vanishes amongst my imagination. Strong desire running through me; like a fast rush of pure extasy. It's a feeling strange yet completing. Passion, at its peak of burning. Flames within, burn with an ember glow; Lighting the way to endlessness. Pureness defining every movement, Letting time slip away to affinity. Emotions driving the impulse of thought. Allowing thought to fad away into the smiles of my lips. Delacate touch, tender and soft, with fingers so careful, leading me. Paths twist and turn symbolizing us; Careful, y

Thoughts?!?
Damn train of thought! Have you ever had one of those moments where you're thinking of something, and then before you know it you're thinking about something totally different?I just had one of those moments, and it made me so emotional that I had to try to put it into words....It all started when I put in a movie for my babies to watch while they fell asleep. I chose The Lion King on this particular night. Thinking about The Lion King, led my mind to thinking about all the Disney movies I own, or have owned through the years.I used to own the original Little Mermaid in the original case. The one with the "penis" atrwork, that got recalled. My kids trashed that case...That made me think of one of my ex-boyfriends, whose parents owned every Disney movie that had ever been released at that point in time.And that had my mind remembering the first time I spent the night at his house. I was 17, and still a virgin. I just wasn't ready to have sex I guess. His parents were out of town, and ye

Thoughts
Oh, to caress the sweet warmth of your breasts, the flesh, firm yet pliant, 'neath my fingers, causing a swell of desire to dwell in that beautiful bosom, which lingers... The soft, silky feel of your skin sends a thrill and a shudder thru me as we touch, with our arms wrapped around one another, we drown in the sea of desiring so much... sheer bliss for me this would utterly be, to fulfill our desires, set our souls on fire, with the passion of you around me... Your sweet lips, so full, entice as they pull my tongue out to mingle with yours; they wrestle and twirl, and my head starts to whirl, making me want you much more... The caress of your hands as they're stroking the glans of my penis excite as it grows and it throbs in delight awaiting it's flight, in the wetness which from you now flows... sheer bliss for me this would utterly be, to fulfill our desires, set our souls on fire, with the passion of you around me... As my manhood enters

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One day a teacher asked her students to list the names of the other students in the room on two sheets of paper, leaving a space between each name. Then she told them to think of the nicest thing they could say about each of their classmates and write it down. It took the remainder of the class period to finish their assignment, and as the students left the room, each one handed in the papers. That Saturday, the teacher wrote down the name of each student on a separate sheet of paper, and listed what everyone else had said about that individual. On Monday she gave each student his or her list. Before long, the entire class was smiling. 'Really?' she heard whispered. 'I never knew that I meant anything to anyone!' and, 'I didn't know others liked me so much,' were most of the comments. No one ever mentioned those papers in class again. She never knew if they discussed them after class or with their parents, but it didn't matter. The exer

Thought This Was Kinda Cool
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more about us The kids are back in school now . doing great of course. I have been asked by several of you to post thier picture but in their best intrest i have decided against that. those of you that are parents understand my decission Im sure. and to the ones of you who dont understand you can remove your self from my friend list it wont hurt my feelings a bit I m sure. I will tell you more about them though. My oldest boy is 17 great kid really turned his life a round . was hell on wheels and going down a path that would have had him dead or in jail by 18 . This summer he was a counsler at a local church camp and did really good . I couldnt be happier. My next one is my 16 yr old step son. and he impresses me ever day . hehas C.P. and Assbergers wich is a form of altisium. he over comes so much and is a bright wonderful young man. The next one is my 15 yr old Daughter. she is co captian on the high school cheer leading squad , a great student and a vey loving and caring

Thoughts Of Hate
Out of my mind, gun up to the mouth No pretension, execution, live and learn Rape and turn Fret not family, nor pre-judged army This is for me, and me only, cowards only Try it Don't you try to die, like me It's livid and it's lies and makes graves It's not worth the time to try, to replenish a rotting life I'll end the problem, facing nothing, fuck you off, fuck you all Tortured history, addict of misery, this exposes me for weakness is a magnet - watch me do it Graves descending down Why would you help anyone who doesn't want it, doesn't need it, doesn't want your shit advice when a mind's made up to go ahead and die? What's done is done and gone, so why cry? Cheap cocaine, a dry inhale, the pills that kill and take the pain away Diet of life, shelter without, the face that cannot see inside yours and mine When I'm hiding, when I need it, it lets me breathe, for our handle on this life, I don't believe this

Thoughts Of Jmoo
well first blog on fub . . woot! i was just thinking about life and events as of late and wanted to kinda give a shoutout to someone. my friend jen! shes is a lot of my pics with me cause she is pretty much my sister. we dont do much without the other one there. she is pretty much my other half. she has helped me with soooo much in the past year that im not sure i would be here physically and mentally without her. she is what a true friend really is and i dont think i thank her enough so jen, here's a blog to you sweetie!

Thought For The Day
If you love something set it free...If it comes back...IT WAS YOURS..If it doesn't, it was never meant to be. I would rather have had one breath of his hair, one kiss from his mouth, one touch of his hand, than eternity without it. LET IT GO .... by T.D.Jakes There are people who can walk away from you. And hear me when I tell you this! When people can walk away from you: let them walk. I don't want you to try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you. I mean hang up the phone. When people can walk away from you let them walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left. People leave you because they are not joined to you. And if they are not joined to you, you can' t make them stay. Let them go .. And it doesn't mean that they are a bad person, it just means that their part in the story is over. And you've got to know when people's part in yo

A Thought To Ponder
There was a blind girl who hated herself because she was blind. She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He was always there for her. She told her boyfriend, "If I could only see the world, I will marry you." One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her. When the bandages came off, she was able to see everything, including her boyfriend. He asked her,'Now that you can see the world, will you marry me?' The girl looked at her boyfriend and saw that he was blind. The sight of his closed eyelids shocked her. She hadn't expected that. The thought of looking at them the rest of her life led her to refuse to marry him. Her boyfriend left her in tears and days later wrote a note to her saying: 'Take good care of your eyes, my dear, for before they were yours, they were mine.' This is how the human brain often works when our status changes. Only a very few remember what life was like before, and who was always by their side in the most pai

Thoughts And Dementia
he woke up late, skiped the usual routine went straight for the coffee, usually followed by hours of rigurous preporation for a lengthy day of ignorant customers who by company standards are always right, but by personal opinion is the dumbest person you've ever talked to. He gets into his car, starts the vehicle, puts on his seatbelt, still feeling tired and woosey from waking up in such a hurry, wonders if there's anything he's forgetting, as he pulls out of his drive he remembers he forgot his pen, so he pulls back in and gets out, once he gets back into his house he wakes up, and starts all over again, this time....who knows?????????

The Thoughts Of Raven
Why is this pain so hard Why is this life so wrong Why is that every time I say I love you You say I don't Why is that I say I want you You say you don't Why is that every time I look In to your eyes I see pain Why is that you look in to Mine you cant see the divine Why is that you have lost your faith Why is that I still have mine Why is every time I see you with him Why is that you are not mine Why is that you have said that I'm a god but I feel that Im not Why is it that I cant sleep At night when the dreams Have not yet gone away Why are my thoughts so long Full of words gone wrong Raven Can you hear the melody? Can you see the beauty? Darkness never looked this beautiful Darkness never felt this pure. Raven's song, Raven's song Can you not hear the melody of the darkness? Can you not feel the beauty of this pureness? Raven's song, Raven's song Finally I can open my wings out

Thoughts & Things...
WOW ~ It's been ages since I've been on here and I do apologize to all my friends & fans!! It's been a wacky summer - but I am well, back, and ready to play!! Hope this summer has treated everyone well - I know I am ready for winter though! Any Phoenix dweller can understand my desire to escape the excessive heat we've had the past 3 1/2 months! I will post again soon!!

Thoughts Of A Sad Soul
I wish I could understand Body: After all these years I wonder why I let it fall apart like I did. "Things fall apart," I say, and wonder why people don't hold on just a little bit tighter. After it's broke it's useless to fix. The crazy glue may hold fast, But the hairline cracks still show, a reminder of the fall, constant and nagging. And so I wonder why I would have let it come to this, knowing there is no repairing the jagged edges. "Things fall apart," I say, and I suppose there is nothing one can do about it. I turned my head and your wisdom Was wasted on me. Not everything falls apart. Not everyone lets go – only me, seeing no reason to hold on, finding no will to prevent it, let things progress this far. "Things fall apart," I say to the guy behind the bar. He gives me a look that says, "I know", And refills my drink one more time. Thoughts of a sad soul Current

Thoughts
Sometimes I wonder why I bother.....as much as I love meeting, chatting, sharing with others...it seems that using this as a medium for that just causes pain. So many misunderstandings, words taken the wrong way, assumptions being made....makes it hard to not just throw this PC away and give up. I keep saying to myself, take a break...yet I continue to log on day by day for my fix, and find that it takes more and more of my soul away. I have thought that to harden my heart would be the answer, brush it off....but I can't, my heart just breaks a little more each time I do, I can't be anything but who I am. I guess that is one of the things learned along life's journey, as hard as it may be to take. So I ask those who take the time to read this, whether a friend already or soon to be, understand that my intentions are good, never to hurt or be cruel, and let me know if I have said something that has caused you pain, so that I might be able to apologize and rectify that situation. M

Thoughtful..
(5) lessons about the way we treat people. 1 - First Important Lesson - Cleaning Lady. During my second month of college, our professor gave us a pop quiz. I was a conscientious student and had breezed through the questions until I read the last one: "What is the first name of the woman who cleans the school?" Surely this was some kind of joke. I had seen the cleaning woman several times.. She was tall, dark-haired and in her 50s, but how would I know her name? I handed in my paper, leaving the last question blank. Just before class ended, one student asked if the last question would count toward our quiz grade. "Absolutely," said the professor. "In your careers, you will meet many people. All are significant. They deserve your attention and care, even if all you do is smile and say "hello." I've never forgotten that lesson. I also learned her name was Dorothy. 2. - Second Important Lesson - Pickup in the Rain One night, at 11:30 p.m., an older Afric

Thoughts And A Comedian
hes stands about 5'5" not quite small but not quite tall he is a stalky man with full gray hair, i am fucking bored out of my damn mind. I dunno something about sitting on cucumbers. Thats what happens when u stick your dick in the fish tank, LMFAO why is it masterbating is bad for you?? I masterbate like I'm winning something. Quick call the police my hand and my penis are fighting, OH NO hes 21 and from Los Angelas California alot of wind alot of noise and I'm outta burgers could you get me some more? You've seen him on ABC. ... WHAT THE???? Here we go again back to Walmart for some rectal exams!

Thought For The Day!
If at the end of the day you know you've done your best, Regardless of the outcomes you can peacefully rest. For you can’t control the results of anything you do, But if you know you've done your best, to yourself you've been true.

Thoughts And Whatnot
hey all, well i figured i would write a blog on here and whatnot. Well to start, I am currently an overnight stocker for walmart and have been for 4 months now so thats going pretty well. Also I've recently quit drinking and started to workout and take care of myself now. I made the decision to do this for a couple of reasons, one i was tired of how i felt both mentally and physically, how i kept gaining weight and it got to the point of just not being fun to drink anymore. Now that doesn't mean that i wont ever drink again, but for now i'm concentrating on cutting out my bad habits, i do smoke still but in time i will be quitting that as well. Another reason i decided to stop drinking and workout is because within the next year or so, i plan on going into the IL Air National Guard. I have always liked the air force plus its extra money and it would be closer to home. Now the only downside is that i will have to retest due to the fact that my score on the asvab test was high enough to

Thoughts
The wonder of that which you cannot see,only feel. themagic of that which you cannot explain,only discover. The warmth of that which you cannot locate,only capture.The one gift which can have endless recipients at any given moment in time and space, is the gift of love. It is the greatest inheritance any being can procure on any level, and affords the fortunate addressee the only pure expression of joy this life can offer. Many have attempted to explain this magical fervor, yet no one can pinpoint how or at exactly what moment love comes into being amoung souls. As the old may say that life is fleeting, such can be love. Fear not, love. Relishing in its source embracing all that love calls to the heart, seeds fruit within the soul that is everlasting. Love unbrellas the spirit with supernatural animation whereby increasing one,s capacity to recieve, share and give love back. The verses found within this mind mirrors the souls that love has touched in varying degrees, during varying con

Thought For The Day.
Life's a dance you learn as you go, sometimes you lead, sometimes you follow. My life is better left to chance,I could have missed the pain, but I would've had to miss the dance."

Thoughts For The Weekend
Thoughts for the weekend Wouldn't it be nice if whenever we messed up our life we could simply press ' Ctr Alt Delete' and start all over? If raising children was going to be easy, it never would have started with something called labor! Brain cells come and brain cells go, but fat cells live forever. But Most Of All, Remember ... A Good Friend Is Like A Good Bra: Hard to Find, Supportive, Comfortable, And Always Close To Your Heart!

Thoughts
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Thoughts
Just way too funny not to share... I wish I'd thought of some of these during my school years LOL. 1. Bring a pillow. Fall asleep (or pretend to) until the last 15 minutes. Wake up, say "oh geez, better get cracking" and do some gibberish work. 2. Get a copy of the exam, run out screaming "Andre, Andre, I've got the secret documents!!" 3. If it is a math/science exam, answer in essay form. If it is long answer/essay form, answer with numbers and symbols. Be creative. Use the surface integral symbol. 4. Make paper airplanes out of the exam. Aim them at the instructor's left nostril. 5. Talk the entire way through the exam. Read questions aloud, debate your answers with yourself out loud. If asked to stop, yell out, "I'm SOOO sure you can hear me thinking." Then start talking about what a jerk the instructor is. 6. Bring cheerleaders. 7. Walk in, get the exam, sit down. About five minutes into it, loudly say to the instructor, "I don't understand ANY of this. I've b

Thoughts
Who cares if a soldier dies Take a man and put him alone, Put him twelve thousand miles from home. Empty his heart of all but blood, Make him live in sand, in mud. This is the life I have to live, This the soul to God I give. You have your parties and drink your beer, While young men are dying over here. Plant your signs on the White House lawn;"Lets get out of Iraq" .Use your signs and have your fun, Then refuse to use a gun. There's nothing else for you to do, Then I'm supposed to die for you? There is one thing that you should know; And that's where I think you should go! I'm already here and it's too late. I've traded all my love for all this hate. I'll hate you till the day I die. You made me hear my buddy cry. I saw his leg and his blood shed, Then I heard them say, "This one's dead". It was a large price for him to pay, To let you live another day. He had the guts to fight and die, To keep the freedom you live by. By his dying, your life he buys, But w

Thoughts On Tough Days
I hope this is a word of encouragement for you. We often talk about the complexities of life and I understand that frustration. You know, in my heart all I really want is a a place to minister to people, a family and home, a nice car, a boat, a grill, time to fish, mountains to climb, rocks to collect and people to help through tough times...well you get the idea. I wish dishes and laundry were like disposable or something cause it's hard to keep up sometimes. And I get tired of coming home to a dark and empty house. I get sick of bills, even though I have enough money to pay them now, because I have to remember which ones to pay when. I have always been sick of allergies that wake me up in the middle of the night with a headache so bad I can't open my eyes; I'm tired of the headaches that come from concussions that are so bad I have to lay down when they hit. I get tired of the knee and the shoulder injuries that mean I can't always be as active as I would like. Sometimes life hurts,

Thoughts
Never be afraid to show love......lavish it upon all you know....the more you give..the more you recieve... Never underestimate the value of a hug....give them freely and watch the rewards! Be a friend to all....and chances are you will be blessed with many friends.... Enjoy the beauty that surrounds you.....I believe there is a beautiful person in everyone....some just do their best to hide it sometimes... Someone once said that beauty is in the eyes of the beholder....I feel lucky that there is so much beauty to behold!

Thought For The Day....!!
When Ever You Need a Hand When ever you need a hand, I will give it to you When you need a friend, Count on me to always be true If you ever fall because of the rough times ahead, I will carry you If you ever become weak, because of all we’ve been through I will fight for you... When ever you are feeling lonely, I will be by your side When you need to talk about any thing It is in me that you can confide If you ever want to smile, because sadness has tempted you I will make you laugh If you ever need a hug, because your “so called” friends have left you, I will be there to make it all right When ever you are feeling depressed, I will be there to wipe your tears When you are feeling scared I will help you conquer your fears If you ever need to release you feelings, because of all that has happened I will be your shoulder to lean on If ever heartbreak comes your way, I will be there to relieve your pain When ever you need guidance, Depend on me t

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Click the link and leave your bid as a comment....not on here Own me permantly!!! im tired of having crappy auctions so this is my final auction!!!!! the person who wins owns me permantly!!! Noone loves me on here i swear!!! or go here if it doesnt work http://fubar.com/photo.php?u=1559622&i=3936779055&albumid=1071419 SGT. Edmund Jo hn Jeffer's last few words were some of the most touching, inspiring and most truthful words spoken since the tragedy of 9/11 - and since our nation went to war. SGT. Jeffers was a strong soldier and talented writer. He died in Iraq on September 19, 2007. He was a loving husband, brother and son. His service was more than this country could ever grasp, but the least you can do for the man who sacrificed his life for you is listen to what he had to say. Listen up and pay attention. To all of the Cindy Sheehans and Al Frankens of the world. To MSNBC, CNN, NBC, ABC and CBS. To all who call themselves Americans. Hope Rides Alone by Eddi

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*~*Blossom*~*Date: Oct 17, 2007 4:48 PM What you're about to see may be shocking.Hope you're readddy.='(This is Jacqueline Saburido on September 19, 1999. This is her and her Father, 1998. This is her on Vacation in Venezuela. Birthday party as a child. At a party with friends. The car in which Jacqueline traveled. She was hit by another car that was driven by a 17-year old male student on his way home after drinking a couple of hard packs with his friends. This was in December 1999. After the accident Jacqueline has needed over 40 operations.Jacqueline was caught in the burning car and her body was heavily burnt during around 45 seconds. With her Father, 2000.

The Thoughts Of Life Chronicle
I read once that: No one falls in love by choice, it is by CHANCE. No one stays in love by chance, it is by WORK. And no one falls out of love by chance, it is by CHOICE. From those words I see a lot of truth. Through my own personal days on this planet I have found that in my own life, It is only when we make the CHOICE to take a CHANCE and WORK at love do we win at love. So I guess it’s the same thing but just the way it happened to me makes it more profound. I have lost once even though I thought I had put in the work. To my surprise just when love was the strongest it has ever been in my heart I found myself without a CHOICE or a CHANCE to make it WORK. Tell me a bed time story...

Thoughts
Well I am fixing to final try the real world im 18 soo its time to grow up and be a big people. I am actually looking forward to it. I cant wait to go cuz to me i am invading my mothers privacy. Shes done her job by raising me and now its my job to move out and Raise my 15 month old son Michael. I aint gonna be one of thoses kids that still live with mommy and daddy at the age of 24- 25. Im not gonna depend on them all my life like most people i know. Im gonna move and raise my son and teach him well. Moving out will make me stronger. more battles for me and more responablity. It will make me feel good cuz then i can prove to these people who be hating i aint like them i got the resonability, Shit im more mature then most teenage moms. I am Ready I really am. See I have this best friend and this person is amazing. I love em to Death but theres a problem that always gets in the way from our friendship the other half. Always controlling and always is a bitch. I really cant take no more.

Thoughts
When you go home tell them of us and say, for your tomorrow we gave our today. I believe in the sun, even when it does not shine. I believe in love, even when I cannot feel it. I believe in God, even when he is silent. this was found on a wall in a pow cell at the end of world war 2 at the riseing of the sun and at the setting of the sun let us remember them and what they gave never forget them there are many sayings out there about friends but this one i think is now more true than ever. there are no strangers only freinds you have not met yet. but ask yourself this how many of us really know the people that say live next door to us i know for a fact that i dont this was diffrent when i was gorwing up as a kid my family knew everyone and everyone knew them. it was a close nit comunity but that seems to be a thing of the past there seems to be no sence of comunity any more unless its on the net and those comunitys can be spread over thousands of miles. just s

Thoughts Of Mind, Body & Soul
Of Love: I will reveal to you a love potion, without medicine, without herbs, without any witch's magic; if you want to be loved, then LOVE. Hecato of Rhodes If we deny love that is given to us, if we refuse to give love because we fear pain or loss, then our lives will be empty, our loss greater. Love is not a path. Love is a merger with an individual, a deep intimacy of two hearts -- so deep that the two hearts start dancing in the same harmony. Although the hearts are two, the harmony is one, the music is one, the dance is one. 15/06/2006 Moma!!! "There is no undertaking more challanging, no responsbility more awsome........ than being a MOTHER ! 'Richard M Nixon.' There is no greatness of Love that will ever change the balance of a Child. They ARE, WHOM THEY ARE and Become! It is what We gave them in the begining which hopefully will let them learn, understand and grow... to the end. To assume that We who Love them, and make sacrafices for them ..out o

Thoughts
Why do people you consider friends do a complete about-face for no apparent reason? They claim to have feelings for you then suddenly stop talking, won't even take a message from you or give you any kind of explanation as to why. It hurts and pisses me off at the same time. It adds stress, when I don't really need more. Between work and school I barely have time to breathe. Anyone have ways of dealing with similar situation?

Thoughts
what is it with people on messenger? If you leave your status as availible and heaven forbid you leave the glue spot that your ass sticks to for awhile, they automatically assume that for some fucked up reason your "ignoring" them and get all pissy about it. People, wake the fuck up and grow some common sense! What is on the other end of that screen is a HUMAN BEING, who has an actual life outside of talking to your ass, or in some cases putting up with you. And what about those ones who if you dont answer in a short amount of time, they repeatedly hit the BUZZ button...........That is the worst thing to do to someone who suffers from migranes! I cant stand when people do that. Its like they think you have to drop everything your doing right now to answer them.......and its usually stupid shit too. Then you get those ones that if someone they know writes a blog(which is usually just thoughts or bullshit words anyways)that points to everyone in general they automatically assume that

A Thought Or Two
1. Where does the light go when you turn the light out. 2. How did they first find out that you can get milk from a cow and what was they doing at the time. 3. If when humans eat they can’t go in the water for an hour after, do amphibians have to wait an hour before getting out of the water 4. We always go on about the speed of light but what is the speed of dark 5. The word abbreviation why is it such a long word. 6. Ladies put on a pair of knickers, a pair of glasses, and a pair of earrings why don’t they put on a pair of bras. 7. People say television sets why is it called a set when you only get one. 8. Olive oil comes from olives, veg oil comes from vegetables, and corn oil comes from corn where does baby oil come from. 9. When you buy a Teflon pan it says nothing sticks to Teflon, how does it stick to the pan. 10. Why isn't phonetic spelled the way it sounds

Thoughts
Ever been so lonely that you just felt like crawling in a hole and shutting yourself off from the world? Especially at holiday time. I can remember a couple of christams's where I was single and spent the entire day in bed sulking in my own misery because I did not want o face even my family and be around ppl who had significant others. I would not answer thier phone calls, I could not see my kids, as much as I would have loved to. Everyone says, oh get out and have some fun, make the best of it.. I say, no I rather spend it alone. Not like my family really does anything special anyways. That is a story in itself for another time. I ache so much to be loved and happy together in a relationship, I think it is slowly killing me inside. I have always been the one giving otehrs advice on relationships and standing up for them in thier weddings, talking to them when they have a problem in thier relationships. Yet when it coems to me, I shy away from my own happiness and would rath

Thoughts???
Too Much or Not Enough!?!?!? SO which one am I????? Too tall, or not tall enough!?!? Too dark, or not dark enough!?!? Too stocky, or not skinny enough!?!? Too much hair, or not enough?!?! Too nice, or not mean enough!?!?! Too ugly, or not hott/cute/handsome/sexy enough!?!?! Too picky, or not selective enough!?!? Or is everything just too much for me......................

Thoughts
Sometimes I wonder why life has led me in the direction I am currently headed. I am not totally oblivious to the decisions and mistakes I have made that have drastically altered my course. I can think back and clearly recall experiences that were beyond belief and some that were nothing short of devistating. I alsoam completely aware that at any moment the "tides" could change and I could wind up "sailing" in a completely different direction. Sometimes I wonder what kinds of things my future has in store for me. What people (good or bad) are going to walk in (or out) of my life. Which ones are going to be permenant "fixtures" and who will be just temporary. After a while, I start to realize...... Why should I waste my time and energy wondering and worrying about that? No point in it, really. I am responsible for making certain choices that mudge me in the direction I am destined to head. But, I honestly believe that what's meant to happen will happen regardless----- It's De

Thought You Should Know
Your life was done way too soon. You had no time to reach the moon. The time we shared was short and thin. But I know friend we shall meet again. Beyond the stars where dreams come true. I know there’s space for me and you. Such a warm soft heart stopped cold dead We wonder why it was in your head What thoughts gave you the fear to run And take your self from everyone The things we did were ours to share They are done and that’s not fair You’re not to blame; it’s all our fault For us not to see the pain you fought You gave in but I know you tried But the fact remains that you have died I remember well when I got the call All I could do was cry and fall I thought it was a nasty joke Like a dream till I finally awoke I love you kid with all my heart And our memories will never part So till I see your smiling face Your sorely missed in this place So long friend I must go I miss you man thought you should know

Thoughts Of A Poetic Genius
Maybe the only truth is that it's all a lie, I wouldn't be suprised, so then wouldn't it be something, if it were all for nothing? So gone, but I'm sure you don't care if I ever came back, let's re-arrange those facts, you leave I stay I cry but you'd never see that, I'm so far gone that doctors already announcing the time of death, wouldn't you care that we never made up before this last breath, yes these words struggle within me trying to come out, but you only see frustration stummering stammering a dj scratch and me shout, I'm so gone that no I don't want to come back, even if the whole block felt me had love for me like I was crack, should this be my undeniable fate, sometimes I wish that I could exchange plates, empty it out or not even eat to begin with, I wish they never thought of me to begin with, I wish I could say what I really feel, but you know like I know a magician never keeps it real, there's too much at stake, my mind is about to break, right at the seams, I don't re

Thought About You
All day long, I thought about you. Even when I tried not to think about you, I thought about you. When I closed my eyes, I thought about you. When I opened my eyes, I thought about you. When I thought about the beauty of the season, I thought about you. When I thought about the warmth of the upcoming holidays, I thought about you. When I heard a love song on the radio, I thought about you. When I checked my email, I thought about you. Even when I said goodnight to the stars, I thought about you. And when I slipped beneath the softness of my blanket and gave in to the bliss of sweet dreams, I thought about you. I just can't stop thinking about you.

Thoughts On Life
thoughts on life Last night a 22 yr old young man was killed in a head on wreck west of tye texas. It took me back to when i was 23 and made me realize just how lucky i am to even be here. We go through life looking at just today lets live for today forgetting that God has an ulitmate plan for us all. My family has been very fortunante we have not had a death due to a vechile accident as far as i can remember my brother lanny came very close back in 1986. The doc said that if the board had gone 2mm further into his eye he wouldnt have made it and my Brother Carl got t boned by a drunk driver and now has rods in his leg from it. This boy wasnt so lucky he was prounounced D.O.S. . I look at the accident and look even though i probably never even met the boy it makes me think how much potential he had for his life. Speed limits are there for reasons and thats to prevent things like this from happening. Lives are precious folks so yes live each day to the fullest but search for gu

Thoughts Of The Day
I NEED 59,000 POINTS TO LEVEL UP! I SPEND HOURS HELPING ALL MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY BY RATING THEIR PICTURES, STASHES, MUMMS, SO PLEASE RETURN THE FAVOR AND COME RATE MY STUFF WHEN YOU GET A CHANCE. THANK YOU IN ADVANCE THE BOATMAN BoatMan ** K.O.P.E. ** Hell Hound**@ fubar You know I see all these graphics and bulletins about the "perfect guy" one who will do this and that and blah blah fucking blah.. so I think its time we post one about the "perfect woman" and just like all those perfect guy ones where the bar is set way too high and no one man will ever reach the perfection that is described in the bulletins and graphics mine will be very unattainable as well. I do note however that I'm not looking for ALL of these traits in females..just certain ones.. I'll leave you to guess what ones I'm talking about I want a girl who never asks me what her ass looks fat in, if you have a fat ass you know it. You don't need me to shatter your fragile self esteem by co

Thoughts Of A Dying Man ....
Your eyes are like old seas, two lines of a song that is not written yet. But your eyes are like the winter cold, i can see them, on my mirror drawn with wine, old and happy. And your eyes are like a burning prison, that sings me song treason Old songs of no reason. No reason, love does not need a reason.

Thoughts Of The Day
Wat dosent kill me makes me stronger...and thats the truth trust and believ that! we can only appreciate the miracle of a sunrise if we have waited in darkness

Thoughts...
hey kiddies! i have a bum load of pix and they need rates and comments! also, check out new pixie hair. its madddd cute! my cuzzy nikki has a new fubar account. if she was previously your friend, or you just wanna see a sexy girl, please add "beautiful desire" so she can level up again Beautiful Desire@ fubar okay so my photo was marked nsfw, which totally pissed me off. first of all, i have a shirt on. how come other girls, even bouncers, can have primary photos in the bras or less. second of all, it is no more suggestive than other photos i have seen. even comments are racy here! third of all, my photo is not a suggestive body part with no face. i have no eyes because my name is anonymous, so thats the whole point of having no identity. it is no more suggestive that girls who have primary photos of only their mouth and/or tongue. there is no face there how is that acceptable! and lastly, how the hell can i guy get away with having a primary photo with his penis, but i get marke

Thoughts
I don't think yet that only similar interests and activities of everybody by a couple make this couple compatible and happy. Living in a couple as the family, it's necessary to care for someone else: emotionally, economically, and so on. Aside from any religious practices or traditions... it is essential that a couple is very complete with the elements of ethics, consideration, caring, empathy, and so on. If these elements are not present - or if they are weak - then a couple may have many problems to solve - even if they are from the same country, the same village and of the same religious tradition. If the elements I mentioned above were available (from each of couple) then two people can make a nice relationships. Without them it may not be possible.

Thoughts.......
A Friend A)ccepts you as you are (B)elieves in "you" (C)alls you just to say "HI" (D)oesn't give up on you (E)nvisions the whole of you (even the unfinished parts) (F)orgives your mistakes (G)ives unconditionally (H)elps you (I)nvites you over (J)ust listens to you (K)eeps you close at heart (L)oves you for who you are (M)akes a difference in your life (N)ever Judges (O)ffer support (P)icks you up (Q)uiets your fears (R)aises your spirits (S)ays nice things about you (T)ells you the truth when you need it (U)nderstands you (V)alues you (W)alks beside you (X)-plains thing you don't understand (Y)ells when you won't listen and (Z)aps you back to reality MyHotComments / HotFreeLayouts A little girl stood near a small church from which she had been turned away because it was "too crowded. "I can't go to Sunday School," she sobbed to the pastor as he walked by. Seeing her shabby, unkempt appearance, the pastor guessed the reason and, taking her by the h

Thoughts & Musings
The moon says it all tonight Speaks for the silent And those who should be It has gained a soul and lost an eternity To walk among us To walk among us and play our wretched game

Thoughts When My Son Died
TORREY , ITS NOT GETTING EASIER SINCE YOU HAVE BEEN GONE. I LOOK AT " YOUR STAR " UP THERE AND WISH YOU WERE HERE. YOU " WERE A SPECIAL ANGEL " GIVEN TO ME FOR 24 YRS AND OH HOW , I ENJOYED WHAT WE HAD FOR THAT TIME , I JUST WANT TO HOLD YOU AND TELL YOU " HOW MUCH I LOVED YOU " AND TELL YOU THAT MOM HASN'T CHANGED , AND SAY I'AM MORE " COCKIER " THAN EVER . AND I TELL IT , LIKE IT IS . BUT YOU KNEW THAT ALREADY . ALL I HAVE IS " MEMORIES OF YOU " YOUR SMILE , YOUR SOFT VOICE OF YOU WHEN YOU TALKED , AND SO STUBBORN JUST LIKE ME. TORREY I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU SON , AND IF GOD WAS SITTING ACROSS FROM ME , , I WOULD TELL HIM , THANK YOU GOD FOR LEANING HIM TO ME . OH GOD , WHEN WILL IT GET BETTER . I'AM FAR FROM "PERFECT " AND " DEFINITELY " NOT " ANGEL " . I THOUGHT MY MARRIAGE WAS " BAD " THIS WAS BEYOND WHAT WAS DONE TO ME WHEN I WAS MARRIED . THE VERBAL ABUSE , ,PHYSICAL ABUSE , MENTAL ABUSE DOES NOT COMPARE TO WHAT WAS TAKEN FROM ME . THE CHILD THAT I CARRIED AND RAISED AND LOV

Thoughts
So the world is only as real as you want it to be. Everything is relative. They sky is blue and the grass green but what if in another place and time it was different? They say you are either “glass half full” or “glass half empty”; what if all you really need is a refill? What’s to say that we have to believe what we see? I can feel the change of seasons and smell the rain and snow before I can see it. I know that Mother Earth is in pain. I have cravings for things I can’t describe but only feel, very few people know how to touch these things in me and when they do it surprises me who and what it is. I fear the things I crave most. Scared to find myself in these things and grow to love and live with them. I worry that my love can’t quench my thirst for them. So I continue to live in my small box, wishing to peek out and touch. I wish to have the strength to break the teachings I grew up with but to be able to keep them. To not be ruled by but live with my upbringing and beliefs. I

Thought For The Day
Give trust to no person , that you cant give to yourself first.............. by RFB In the depths of winter I finally learned there was in me an invincible summer. -- Albert Camus

Thoughts
Since we've split up, you've really surprised me. I really thought that you cared, but I think I had it all wrong. Three days after we split up, while telling me that you loved me and wanted to talk about getting back together, you were talking about hooking up with some chick that very same night. I know that at that point you had no designs on me, but you were certainly not exactly working too hard at getting back together. I've always felt like you were hiding something, gotten that vibe from you, but I attributed it to you being reserved and me not being used to it. However, since we've split up, I've had several people come to me and tell me that they thought that you were "shady", but never said anything, because they thought that we were happy. I'm not naming names here, but know that there was more than one, more than three even, who told me this. Don't ask who they are, because I'm not telling you. I've also found out that you outright lied to someone who cons

Thoughts
What Kind Of Sex Should You Have?RomanticYou are the all around romantic lover. You like the candles and romantic candle light dinners.You probably sweet and sensitive. Keep going your great!!!!!!Sex-Intimacy Quizzes I was just thinking about the way things happen in life and how you have these people that always say things happen for a reason....and then when something bad happens to them they cry why me...well it goes to show there is no reason or rhyme for things, sh*t happens, sh*t will continue to happen, SH*T on it! Get on with your life....Life is too short to sit and worry about what people think about you or I shoulda,coulda,wouldas....so just think of things as things and wait till the really major SH*T to put the worry lines on your face....stress spelled backwards is sserts....it makes no sence in either direction....so SH*T on it and :) :) :) :) :) :) May peace be in your heart and go with you in your daily journeys!!! Psycho-billie

Thoughts And Rants About Fubar, Life, Love And Friends
Dear friends, Those of you who know me, know that I don't usually rate random pics. I like pics of you, pics of things in your life, because I am usually (lol) genuinely interested in my friends. If you have posted NSFW pics of yourself... Well first of all, I won't look if you're a guy. And ladies, I probably won't rate them, I will likely never comment them. It's not that I don't appreciate them. There are no points awarded on any NSFW pics for ratings. The pics are personal in nature and I would rather not comment them publicly. Everyone has beauty. If you see that I have actually clicked on an NSFW pic belonging to you, consider it a compliment. I have stopped to admire someone beautiful. I'm not perving, not just looking for NSFW. Rather stopping my regular routine to appreciate, admire and take in the beauty that you have shared. BUT If you were mine and you posted NSFW.. I'd be pissed off because I would want you to be ALL MINE!! LOL 8-P Have a GREAT day ladie

Thoughts And Stuff
One of these days, I will remember not to believe anything my son or daughter-in-law say concerning bringing my grandson out for a visit. Granted, I do live some distance from their home, and well, a six mile drive is a bit much to expect. Well, Merry Christmas.... In a frigging pigs eye! Alright, being a normal red blooded male human (or at least that is my present incarnation.) I do have a fondness for the female form. However, a line has to be drawn somewhere. My preference would be in the film industry. I am not saying get rid of nudity altogether, but don't just put tits and ass in a movie in the hopes of getting a larger audience. Consider some of the classic movies of all time, such as Casablanca, Key Largo, any of the Bogart and Bacall movies actually. You never saw an inch of skin, yet, her sex appeal was not to be denied. It did not take nudity to give her that, but talent, and the fact that she was a classic beauty. Even in her old age, Lauren Bacall was so

Thoughts
Some people look at the things we do with disgust and distaste. They see and hear about things that we do and only see the physical side of things. They like to believe that what we do is all for the physical pleasure that comes from this. That we’re merely succumbing to sins of the flesh. But what they don’t see…is the other side of it. The mental side of it. Your time with someone, metaphorically speaking, is like walking through an area unknown to you. Your interaction with that person is the path you walk along. During your time on this path, you come to many crossroads and your decisions during this walk show which direction you head at each crossroad. Many people prefer to choose the easy paths, the one’s that are well lit and open. They’re safe, nothing of come out an surprise you. But most people have a dark side to them… and because of today’s society they keep that dark side hidden for whatever reason. The paths that lead to that dark side would be the ones t

Thoughts Of A Mind
There comes a time in every one life when you must start making changes. Rather there big or small it doesn’t really matter up to a point. A small change can be just as affective in your life as a large one can be. Believe me I have been thru a lot of them, big and small. Changes are not an easy thing to do. It may seem like some are but they really not. One of the hardest changes that people go thru is getting older. Because the older you get the more thing change, that is just part of life. As you get older you look at thing different then you did when you was younger. Change can also be bad or good; it just depends on the situation. But regardless of the change it seems to always work out. Or at less you hope it does any way. Most of the changes in one life will never be notice by your self. Only when one points it out do we really see it, and then there are the usual changes that you and everyone else sees. Usually they’re the ones that you would conceder to be major changes. This

The Thought Of You!!!
I think of you in my sleepless solitude tonight. I think of my life before you. Before I gave you my heart. My love. I wonder at your silence. And know you will speak when ready. I think of how beautiful I feel. And know that before you, I felt it not. I think of your smile. And know it's just for me. I think of your arms holding me tightly. And know when you return I will feel them again. I miss you. But you talk to me every night. And though you don't say it, I know you care. You shall return soon. And for that I am ever grateful.

Thoughts
♥ Im not hot or gorgeous. I don't have an amazing figure or a flat stomach. I'm far from being considered a model, but I'm ME. I eat food, have curves (that go the wrong way), love my PJ'S and will go without makeup (once in a while). I'm a random & crazy, & I don't pretend to be someone I'm not. I am who I am, love me or not, I wont change ME!!!  ♥ I AM LOOKING FOR A MAN A REAL MAN A STRONG TOUGH MAN BUT A MAN THAT WHEN HIS FRIENDS ARE AROUND STILL WANTS TO HOLD MY HAND AND CALL ME BABY!!! ARE YOU THAT MAN!!! WHAT NOW!! My head is spinning and my body aches.. I don’t know if I can take it any more I need something different something new,good,exciting. I don’t want to have to live the rest of my life doing the same things over and over. So some one please tell me what now what is next I think I might know what i want but is it the right thing for me i just want to be happy and i think I know how to get it but will someone please tell me what now....

Thought Of The Day!
You all remember Sheriff Joe Arpaio of Arizona , who painted the jail cells pink and made the inmates wear pink prison garb. Well......... SHERIFF JOE IS AT IT AGAIN! Oh, there's MUCH more to know about Sheriff Joe! Maricopa County was spending approx. $18 million dollars a year on stray animals, like cats and dogs. Sheriff Joe offered to take the department over, and the County Supervisors said okay. The animal shelters are now all staffed and operated by prisoners. They feed and care for the strays. Every animal in his care is taken out and walked twice daily. He now has prisoners who are experts in animal nutrition and behavior. They give great classes for anyone who'd like to adopt an animal. He has literally taken stray dogs off the street, given them to the care of prisoners, and had them place in dog shows. The best part? His budget for the entire department is now under $3 million. Teresa and I adopted a Weimaraner from a Maricopa County she

Thought Provoking Questions
Did Adam and Eve have navels? Did you ever notice when you blow in a dog's face he gets mad at you? But when you take him in a car, he sticks his head out the window! Do one legged ducks swim in circles? Do atheists get insurance for acts of God? Do vegetarians eat animal crackers? Does anybody ever vanish with a trace? How come Superman could stop bullets with his chest, but always ducked when someone threw a gun at him? How come you press harder on a remote control when you know the battery is dead? How does a shelf salesman keep his store from looking empty? How fast do you have to go to keep up with the sun so you're never in darkness? How is the handicapped parking situation handled at the Special Olympics? How can the weather be hot as hell one day and cold as hell another? If a mute child swears, does his mother make him wash his hands with soap? If a synchronized swimmer drowns, does her partner also have to drown? If a tu

Thoughts
Holidays are when I miss the most. I start to look back and see who I've lost and what stupid mistakes I made. Always missing more those I've lost and loved the most. Decisions I've made I"ve now grown to regret. What ifs floating around in my head. Wishing I could go back in time and change the bad decisions I made. Would I be the same now if I did go back and changed my bad decisions, or would I be a completely different person? Would I be happy or sad like I am now? Would there be nightmares that wake me up or would I sleep soundly without a sleeping pill? Am I destined to feel like a failure? Is my life suppose to be this complicated? Would it still be this complicated if I was able to erase the bad?

A Thought For You
I stood there for a moment, shocked, surprised, confused. As every word I told you slid past you, unconsumed. You didn’t see me standing there or notice a word I spoke. My heart was in my chest, bleeding, sad and broke. I was like the wind, to clear for you to see. You were like the night, as dark as it could be. My eyes looked for a moment, disbelief was shown there. As yours turned away, in a solemn lonely stare. I felt the painful rip of broken, shattered dreams. And unlike the fairy tale ending I have no Prince it seems. So now I stand alone a hollow empty shell. One that seeks a lover to save her from this Hell. I ask only for someone, to take away the pain. A person to repair this heart that lies wounded, sad and slain. Both a lover and a friend is all I wish to hold. To be my lover’s temple of fine mosaic gold. I wish to offer up to him, a place of great delight. And show him I am worthy to be taken and held tight. To give him something special, a part

Thoughts
There is a key that opens up each person's heart. Everyone has a key that fits perfectly with someone else. The trick is finding that person your key fits with, and theirs fits with you. It happens alot that one or the other person's key seems to fit a lock. However unless both people's keys fit, the match cannot work. My key consists of humor (sarcastic and witty), intelligence, subtle flirting, and an attraction that soars past physicality. What is your key?

Thoughts
  Why? Just why do girls do this? A NINE-YEAR-OLD girl who was carrying twins, allegedly after being raped by her stepfather, underwent an abortion today despite complaints from Brazil's Roman Catholic church. Police said the stepfather has been jailed since last week, the Associated Press (AP) reported. Abortion is illegal in Brazil, but judges can make exceptions if the mother's life is in danger or the fetus has no chance of survival. Fatima Maia, director of the public university hospital where the abortion was performed, said the 15-week-old pregnancy posed a serious risk to the 36-kilogram girl, AP reported. "She is very small. Her uterus doesn't have the ability to hold one, let alone two children," Ms Maia told the Jornal do Brasil newspaper. But Marcio Miranda, a lawyer for the Archdiocese of Olinda and Recife in northeastern Brazil, said the girl should have carried the twins to term and had a cesarean section, AP reported. News Source I am nothing. I

Thoughts
Why do we kill people to show people that killing people is wrong? When as a society are we going to move beyond this whole "revenge" tactic? We've been doing it for years. And does the bad stop happening? No. So something new..something different needs to be done. Killing someone doesn't change what has already happened..be it murder..rape..kidnapping..whatever it was. I was raped..yes the guy who raped me is in jail..serving time. As much of me that he killed..my trust my faith in the good ofpeople I don't wish him dead. Because him being dead doesn't change the fact that I have to deal with all this emotional bullshit everyday. Getting up in the morning is a huge struggle. And I know I'm not the only one who feels this way. Who sees revenge as a huge waste of time and engery. There has to be a different way to improve our society. We all live here but we all live within our own groups. White people hang out with white people..asians with asians..blacks with blacks..it ca

Thought For The Day
http://www.celestinevision.com/ He didn't like the casserole And he didn't like my cake. He said my biscuits were too hard... Not like his mother used to make. I didn't perk the coffee right He didn't like the stew, I didn't mend his socks The way his mother used to do. I pondered for an answer I was looking for a clue. Then I turned around and smacked th e shit out of him... Like his mother used to do. ADVICE FROM AN OLD TENNESSEE MOUNTAIN MAN Your fences need to be Horse-high, pig-tight And bull-strong. Keep skunks And bankers And lawyers At a distance. Life is simpler When you plow Around the stump. A bumble bee Is considerably Faster than A John Deere tractor Words that soak Into your ears Are whispered... Not yelled. Meanness Don't jes' Happen Overnight. Forgive your enemies It messes up Their heads. Do not corner something That you know is Meaner than you. It don't take A very big person

Thoughts
He tells me wait for him let me get all the other stuff out of the way. I say ill be here!He says I love you and cant live w/o you. Then he does the opposite of what he says he is doing.Im starting to think that this man is failing to realize that I am only one person.I can only handle so much and keep it together.He builds me up and tells me all the things I want to hear.I always have to find out from other ppl what the real deal is!I have come to the realization that he does not love me like he claims. I now have a bleeding heart. I will have to carry the scar of this to my grave. I cant get away from him even if I wanted too. I want to tell all my true friends, If someone really loves you there is nothing on this earth that will come in the way of what you really want. Dont play with other ppls emotions. They have to live life too. If you dont want somebody be truthful. Open rebuke is better than hidden love on any day. I never thought that my life would be such a toss up.

Thoughts
is it to much to ask ... for a hugg for a kiss for an i love you once a day for some understanding for some kind words for some kind of acknowledgment i guess so cause you give it to others and not to me y dont you love me lik eyou love her is it cause she younger is it cause she will take pics that she shouldnt is it beacuse she isnt me im coming in second again... second in life second in love i come in first only for being not pretty being lonely being stupid being messed up i really messed up more time then i can say so i guess in that i came in first also But in love i come in last.. yet in heartache i come in first.

Thoughts (from Me Or My Friends)
Things havent been the best for me lately and I was starting to feel like it was me. I still feel that way, but I spoke with a friend of mine and he emailed me back his thoughts and I was so thankful for his insight - - - (and yes ladies a man actually wrote this) email to me from a friend: i just have some thought of what i have learned of love. love begins with our thoughts we become what we think about. loving thoughts create loving experiences and loving relationships. affirmations can change our beliefs and thoughts about ourself and others. if we want to love someone we need to consider their needs and desires thinking about your ideal partner will help u recognize him or her when u meet them you cannot love anyone or anything unless you first respect them but first you need to respect yourself to begin to gain self-respect ask your self what do i most respect about myself to gain respect of others even those u dont like ask your self what do i respect about them if u want to r

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a friend asked me this earlier, and at first, my answer was jokingly, " thru her damn ribcage !!!" and then i was thinking, and i found this answer, which is below, on the internet, i read it a few times, and realized, i had done and tried this, and its never worked for me, maybe it will for you !!! Respect her, listen to her, confide in her and be there for her. Be the one guy who never lets her down. Make her your best friend and share everything. Women crave what they usually don't understand themselves and that is an equal in life. Be her equal, be sucessful and be confident, but always entirely hers. A woman will always notice a confident man who only has eyes for her and pays no attention to any other beautiful woman in the room. Once you're in her heart? Just remember, women love the little things more than the grand gestures. Remember her birthday, your anniversary, the place you met, where you first kissed and where you took her on your first date.... simpler than a w

Thought For The Day...
"Courage is fear that has said its prayers." Dorothy Bernard "Common sense is genius dressed in its working clothes." Ralph Waldo Emerson "For fast acting relief, try slowing down." Lily Tomlin

Thoughts
I am either too nice or completely stupid. I cant quite figure it out. I am helping my recent ex-husband (divorce was final in November)to plan his wedding that is in May/June time frame. I have been helping them choose songs for the wedding, locate and reception. I have no idea why I am helping. I am happy for him. I dont hate him. I just keep wondering why I am I helping him with a wedding that I never had when I married. I just dont understand it. I guess I like helping people no matter what it is. This was sent to me from my friend Stef and I felt the need to share it. I could never write something this good but it says what I wish I could express. But this is how I try to live. Maybe ... we were supposed to meet the wrong people before meeting the right one so that, when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift. Maybe ... when the door of happiness closes, another opens; but,often times, we look so long at the

A Thought For The Holiday Season
You stay up for 16 hours.He stays up for days on end.You take a warm shower to help you wake up.He goes days or weeks without running water.You complain of a "headache", and call in sick.He gets shot at as others are hit, and keeps moving forward.You put on your anti war/don't support the troops shirt, and go meet up with your friends.He still fights for your right to wear that shirt.You talk trash about your "buddies" that aren't with you.He knows he may not see some of his buddies again.You walk down the beach, staring at all the pretty girls.He patrols the streets, searching for insurgents and terrorists.-You complain about how hot it is.He wears his heavy gear, not daring to take off his helmet to wipe his brow.You go out to lunch, and complain because the restaurant got your order wrong.He doesn't get to eat today.Your maid makes your bed and washes your clothes. He wears the same things for weeks, but makes sure his weapons are clean.You go to the mall and get your hair redone.He

Thoughts
Ever wake up one day and everything you thought about something or believed just doesn't seem to be anymore? I have been content with my life and how things are in it until I was on my way to work today and saw this sweet little old couple sitting in Dunkin Donuts. Then my entire drive to work was just reflecting on my life and what I really want in it and how I want it to turn out. So far I have realized that while I have been ok with waking up and going to bed alone, I am just not anymore. I can't say that I have been a fan of relationships or getting married, in my life neither seems to ever work out. But this couple was just a reminder that it is possible for one to work out and last. He was sitting across the table from her holding her hand and completely just paying attention and caring about anything she said. She was sitting there paying complete attention to him and giggling like a high school girl with her first crush. Clearly they were still very much

Thoughts
SECURITY“It is a most natural desire of the human soul to seek for happiness and comfort. Man desires principles to guide his life, and he wishes for a moral standard to regulate the life of the community. He wishes for a balance of activity and repose; he desires union with the one whom he loves; he wishes for security of all that belongs to him, a settled reciprocity, a fixed give-and-take, and all things which bring about happiness and peace at home and in the nation.”  Hazrat Inayat Khan“Authority prevents the understanding of oneself, does it not? Under the shelter of an authority, a guide, you may have temporarily a sense of security, a sense of well-being, but that is not the understanding of the total process of oneself. Authority in its very nature prevents the full awareness of oneself and therefore ultimately destroys freedom; in freedom alone can there be creativeness. There can be creativeness only through self-knowledge. “ Jiddu Krishnamurti"The wo

Thoughts
a new place hiding, but looking i entered a place new to me a place of interest and frustration i explored and learned discovered exciting and strange places spent many hours looking...seeming unseen naive to things around me, watching me i found a piece of my heart that still felt and was broken learn explore, search i have come and gone and returned again and again to this place keeps me in touch with those from my past, and those of my present... maybe to those of my future with a click of a button i was in a new place

Thoughts N Poems
The night is long and ever cold There is an echo within my soul Once there lived an optimistic girl Eyes wide open and ready for the world Today stands someone torn and broken Just a shell of the person that was stolen No bright future, no arms to hold Whispers in the night of love once told Carry my prayers and lay them on his ears Make my voice the only thing he hears Reach in his chest and calm his fears Lift him up and carry him to me Let him drop down to one knee Keep his soul and heart safe To dance with mine in the same place Endless hours when midnight falls Let him hear my every call

Thoughts
just some thoughts..what happens when the line between the cyber world and reality cross??this is something i have been given allot of thought to lately.in my case you end up losing someone that you care about allot.i this case i was unable to seperate my feelings from the cyber world from the real world. i have always just played along in the "games" that occur in places like this and took them for what they are and that is just mainly and distraction and entertainment. this time was different i began to have real deep feelings for this person and ended up losing her for expressing them. yes i should have known better but when you meet someone that is as wonderful as i did it was hard not to. maybe i would have been better off in just having fun. But again can anyone really hold back on their feelings ok most guys do. but isnt that what woman always say that is what is wrong with men? sorry to anyone that reads this.take care all and have a happpy holiday season john

Thoughts
WONDERING A GENTAL KISS PLACED UPON YOUR FORHEAD WAKING YOU FROM YOUR REST WARM HANDS STROKING YOU’RE BACK SLOWLY COMING AROUND TO YOUR BREAST MOIST SOFT LIPS SLOWLY RUNNING OVER YOUR EARS WORDS OF LUST MAKE YOU HAPPY JUST TO KNOW HE’S NEAR THE BODY HEAT WARMS YOUR BACK AND HEART BEAT SKIPS HANDS SLOWLY RUN DOWN YOUR SIDES AND GRASP YOU’RE HIPS A TUG TO PULL YOU CLOSER YOU CAN TELL HOW HARD IT’S BEEN TO TAKE IT SLOW THE MIND STARTS RACING IN THOUGHTS OF WHERE THIS MIGHT GO

Thoughts For The Week...
Just for those who care whats really goin on while the media diverts your attention with that 3 ring circus they call Iowa caukas (yup i know its prolly misspelled,lol). Congress passed, and President George W. Bush signed, the Secure Fence Act (SFA) in 2006. When the spending bill, which combines appropriations for a number of federal agencies, reached the Senate, Sen. Kay Bailey Hutchison (R-Tex.) attached S.Amdt. 2466 to the measure in order to silently gut the SFA's spending requirement. The Hutchison amendment reads, "Nothing in this paragraph shall require the secretary of homeland security to install fencing, physical barriers, roads, lighting, cameras and sensors in a particular location along an international border of the United States, if the secretary determines that the use or placement of such resources is not the most appropriate means to achieve and maintain operational control over the international border at such location." Thus, critics argue the amendment res

Thoughts From My Head
i am just writing my first blog so i guess i will just put some of the shit going on in my head on here...sometimes i wonder if there are any decent guys out there...the ones i meet are unfortunatly taken, but then at my age the good ones should be taken...or they have been hurt and afraid to try....which leaves me to wonder if i will be alone for the rest of my life...did i make a mistake somewhere? i am so tired of hearing guys say i'm so nice...then being asses...i have news for guys being an ass does not make you nice...and then i turn away potentially nice guys because i then think they are all asses...my head is hurting from the confusion...i guess i will just patiently wait for the one or the one to have fun with right now...

Thoughts
When I ate today at noon All I could think about was you Wishing you was here to do what you do Wishing I could feed you with my spoon Hoping someday I'll see your smile again I don't know if I can take all this pain Knowing that I am here and you are there Thinking about the times we had and will not have You are the best there ever was and will be There is nothing to explain you, but lovely Even when I was sad you made me happy I just don't know what to do I just hope one day, I get to see you It all started with a simple hello As we met over the internet. But as our conversations got to be more, Things seemed to change from when we first met. A stange feeling started to over take me Something that I've never felt before. It seemed so strange but felt so good, I craved for that feeling more and more. The innocent way we chatted back and forth Kept us going all day and night long. With the excitement of knowing we will soon speak, Was like the word

Thoughts
One of my really good friends died on 12/02/2007. He was driving down I-84 in Connecticut, the roads were icy and he saw an accident and stopped to help. While he was helping... 2 cars skid out of control and hit him. I don't know anything else about the story... I don't know if he died instantly or not, but, I pray everyday that he did. He was an amazing man... had so many friends... was so determined and so strong. I remember when he got his car... he was so excited. And when he joined the Army National Guard... he called me to tell me how proud he was. We got into a discussion about fire one night...I can't really explain it how he did... but, it made so much sense. I would give anything to be able to ask him about it again. Zach was an awesome man and I will miss him immensely. I will see you in heaven Zach... and when I do, I will throw my arms around you and tell you how much I love you... R.I.P. sweetheart... *********Zachoriah Gentry Williams********* ****

Thoughts
I am so sick of men who just want to get into my pants!!!! All they wanna know is if I can turn on my cam or play with them on the phone. I tell them to leave me alone but they keep calling me. I don't wanna hear about how hard they are or how horney they are because I could really give a fuck!!!!! Then I'm also pissed at men who pretend to be my friend because they think that if they are nice they will eventually get some. Listen you stupid fucks!! If a woman is attracted to you she will have you. There is no convincing her, persuading her or blackmailing her either she wants you or not. Real simple. If you are my friend, be my friend don't do it because you think I will have sex with you that's so shitty.

Thoughts That Swirl Around In My Slightly Sick Mind.
...the more they stay the same. Hey, guess what, I had a date for New Year's Eve this year! With a different man this year. Guess what else....he didn't show up either! That makes 3--count'em--3 years in a row. So still never been out or been kissed at midnight on New Year's Eve. Must be a world's record. At least he did call to say he wasn't coming. After 6 p.m. I suppose that is a improvement over just not showing period? Maybe? Tell me, do I have "Go ahead, ask me out--no need to actually show up!!" tatooed on my forehead?? LOL. So, my New Year's Resolution is that I will never, ever, ever, EVER make another date for New Year's Eve. UNCLE!!! Happy New Year everyone!! I hope all of your celebrations were WONDERFUL!! What a year it has been. What a horrible, wonderful, rotten, beautiful year. I suppose that can be said of any year that we look at. This one in particular has been, for me at least, most remarkable. 2007 has been a year marked by unspeakable pain and

Thoughts Of No One Special
Overworked. Underpaid. Overstressed. Underappreciated. This is what happens to someone like me. You accept the fact that you have to be flexible and adaptable on a job, but the more you do, the less other people do, and 2 minutes later you're doing everything while all the other people are huddled together talking having fun and making you the big ugly butt of everyone's jokes. I'm being used for many people's professional gains, and once they get bored with me or feel they don't need my usefulness any longer, I'll be but just a memory. Oh well, just another day in the life of no one special. -B

Thought For The Day!
F A M I L Y I ran into a stranger as he passed by, 'Oh excuse me please' was my reply. He said, 'Please excuse me too; I wasn't watching for you.' We were very polite, this stranger and I. We went on our way and we said good-bye. But at home a different story is told, How we treat our loved ones, you ng and old. Later that day, cooking the evening meal, My son stood beside me very still. When I turned, I nearly knocked him down. 'Move out of the way,' I said with a frown. He walked away, his little heart broken. I didn't realize how harshly I'd spoken. While I lay awake in bed, God's still small voice came to me and said, 'While dealing with a stranger, common courtesy you use, But the family you love, you seem to abuse. Go and look on the kitchen floor, You'll find some flowers there by the door. Those are the flowers he brought for you. He picked them himself: pink, yellow and blue. He stood very quietly not to spo

Thoughts....
Now wouldn't you think this is the perfect way to ruin your holiday spirits??? I got a Christmas card in the mail today. Nothing out of the ordinary really right? At least that is what we all thought. Till you open up the card and find a little note attached on the inside. Which was not of Christmas spirits at all. On the complete opposite, it was saying that there was a death in the family. Granted not blood family, but still family none the less. This happened to take place a few months back but just heard of it today, from a Christmas card in the mail. Now if you don't think this could ruin the spirits of the holiday season then I don't know what will. Oh and to make it worse, a friend of mine has been told that a very sweet friend of hers has cancer once more. So all in all I'm not into the holidays anymore. I'd think that all this news in one day this soon to Christmas, would be ruin the holiday spirits of all in the house. dont know about you but when your daughter or so

Thoughts
I've been living in Tennessee for 4 months now. I fell in love with the state!!! It's beautiful and amazing and definately different from Walton, NY. But i do miss NY, don't get me wrong. I miss the few friends i had and my family. Everyone has asked me if i regret moving to Tennessee or regret making the decision to stay in Tennesee. And my answer to both is no. Why? I made the decision to move here, on my own free will, so I can't regret a decison I MADE. My ex-boyfriend didn't force me to come here. He offered me a place to live, help to get me a job and to help pay for me to come to him. I did...granted things didn't work out but that's the way life works sometimes. There are days where I get completely frustrated. I still live with my ex and his family. I still have feelings for my ex and I still care about him. I'm moving out of his family's place on Jan 3rd...and it will be one of the HARDEST days of my life. I have grown attached to everyone in his family, es

Thoughts...
Today is the day before christmas eve... maybe i could be better if i do somethings my man wants, maybe i should just get a cell. or just leave here and go with him. i know i make him happy but my thoughts are killing me. who cares.... i will figure it out.

Thoughts
What qualities do women look for in a man to consider him marriage material? I am sure alot of men out there would like this question answered, so if you don't mind women...please post some comments and let us know.

Thoughts And Feelings
can somebody please rate my pics !!!!!!! thank you !!!!

Thoughts
Certain opportunities will come and go. Yet it is never too late and never too early to experience the richness of living with positive purpose. Circumstances change from moment to moment, week to week, and year to year. And in every circumstance there are ways to find true fulfillment. You can always make a difference. You can always make a valuable contribution. By so doing, you connect yourself to life's greatest treasures. For the treasures that bring fulfillment are the ones you have a part in creating. The joys of this golden moment are yours to live, no matter how you arrived here. For in this moment you have the opportunity to give the best of yourself. This day is as fresh and wonderful and filled with opportunity as any you've ever known. Live it with positive purpose, and taste the richness you will surely create. ❤ ¢½ ❤ The world will wind you up into a tight little ball if you let it. Don't let it. R

A Thought To Share
You know as We human beings live life to its fullest We think life will be easy in the long run!!, which sometimes may not be the case. We always think things will go the way we hoped which sometimes leads to downfalls and such. When we look for what We all want in life We sometiems find it or sometimes dont. I hate games as much as being played with the heart and feelings that a person has inside willing to give to another person in life!!. Playing with peoples hearts and feelings isnt a good idea. It causes too many unwanted issues and problems!! But do what You feel is right, dont lead people on if your not interested in them or keep them hanging on to You as well its not fun believe Me from experience it totally blows and sucks, being hurt or something silly isnt funny to some, may be hurtful to others too. Its fun to meet and date people but not fun when you play with their hearts and feelings either, be sincere and thoughtful for the person, or persons willing to take time to get

Thoughts
As my Soul searches this vast waste land we call life. The emptiness grows stronger and life slips further towards the grave. The Fresh smell of my grave calls me home. My dirt tomb is the only place I feel safe and warm. As I wonder through this cemetery called life I wonder where this life will lead me. The only life I’ve ever know has been paved with life’s decay and the bodies of its victims. Why must are world be so cruel? Why do we just strive to survive? Take me now I’m coming home. Back to the grave where I feel safe and warm from life’s death grip on me. Why is this world so vain? Why do we strive to survive this place? The cemetery soothes the soul of our lost loved ones who have been taken from life’s cruel game. As the last shovelful of dirt is tossed on my grave I know its my time to ride the last flight of the soul.

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MY LIFES A TWISTED GAME. WHERE I'M NOT IN CONTROL OF MY OWN NAME. MY TEARS ARE REAL,BUT ONLY FOR ME TO SEE. THE MOURNERS JUST SEE ME AS A SHELL OF WHAT I USED TO BE. MY LIFE GOES ON AS I PARADE AS IF I'M JUST FINE. BUT I HIDE ALL MY TRUE PAIN INSIDE CAUSE ITS MINE ALL MINE, DAYS FADE AND GO BUT MY PAIN STILL GROWS. I DON'T THINK THAT ANYBODY REALLY KNOWS. THIS IS WHY MY LIFE IS A TWISTED GAME AND NO ONE WILL EVER KNOW MY TRUE NAME.

Thoughts
It's at times like this that you realize the things you are blessed with, the things you have lost, and all things in between. Your heart is filled with joy and sullen with sadness. Erupting with laughter and toppled with anguish. The crux of the situation is often lost in translation. Although it may be easy to let one take control, maintaining the harmony is paramount. You never want to forget what you have, but do not want to disregard your mistakes. It is from the latter that one masters the most. To err is human and those that forget the past, are doomed to repeat it. So you live to lead another day, hoping that tomorrow is healthier than the past. That all of this has some greater purpose, that faith can lead you to higher ground and one can find peace on this place called Earth. Chad

Thoughts Of The Pointlessness Of Being Flesh
i don't get it...women in general...girl sees guy, thinks "ohh he's hot, i want to fuck him", the fuck, date awhile then break up, when girl finds out guy is really a loser....when girl has known good guys but won't get into a relationship because "they know him to well, too good of a friend" so my question is you'll screw a total stranger, but not someone you've known for 5 years? you'll date alchoholic abusive assholes that only leave you because you don't find out what kinda person they are before you started dating....but if you became friends first you won't date....or you learn there fucked so you won't date.... a ex-girlfriend told me that you date a stranger and become friends along the way.... yeah that's smart... so what is it during the first 2 weeks of knowing someone that determines "Friend or Fukk" i hate this....it has been a constant in my life...i don't trust people easily so i ain't gonna be interested in someone till i at least know them...let alone da

Thoughts
I missed my heart by less than an inch. I made my parents and the nurses flinch. Could it be so wrong to want to die? Instead I'm living the biggest of lies. The wounds are still fresh and red. I pray tonight that I'll be dead, That God won't stop me from my wish. That I'll feel the razors deepest kiss. With all these thoughts inside my mind, I'm losing all track of time. Everything blurs deep blues and blacks, Taking me through a movie of my past. Watching the smiles fade from my face, As I slowly watch myself fall from grace. This once so perfect child life, Was driven to the ugly side of a knife. Tell me is suicide the ultimate sin? Will I go to hell for death's win? Life isn't a battle in which you fight. You either get it wrong or get it right. I'm so sick and tired of the lies. But hypocrisy is in my disguise. So forgive this suicide if you dare. The bullet went in despite your care.

Thoughts Of A Tired And Stressed Mind
So here it is my first blog on FUBAR!! So what shall I say? WEll to all of you just meeting me I'm sure at least once I've mentioned that I have a boyfriend and we are very in love:D Zach (wylde1 on Fubar here) and I have been dating for a year and 2 months (almost 3) and I think we're a good couple and are bound to last for a long time. ( I really hope to see a ring in a couple years....) But otherwise, to fit in with the title of the blog, here are my tired and weary thoughts. I think life is too short. I wish I could make more money and afford things. I wish I wouldn't have friends that are nice to my face then backstab me when I walk away. I wish I didn't live with 1 roommate who is a slob. I wish I didn't have to do alot and work as hard as I do. I wish my job wouldn't fire a person who works as hard as me for stupid shit and leave me hanging out to dry because we're already shorthanded. I wish for a lot of things and know that most will never happen/ be resolved if its a proble

Thoughts
I realized that no one will give when you give to them. Its pathedic. I help out so many people with they're 'sites' 'lounges' and other shit but what do i get back SHIT! ill just leave it at that. Well...If you know me Im very into Animal Rights and Against Anything to do with Harming an Animal. I do understand its 'mother nature' But its just not my thing. For several years now All the meat I have eaten has been Chicken, Turkey and Fish! Purticualary Salmon. Ive had alot of issues with all the Extinction of animals and abusiveness Slaughter Houses do and the Illegal Mills/Slaughter Houses out there. Eating any meat would be paying these places so I have sucked it up and admitted Im preaching but Im not doing! I need to talk and walk what i preach! I am not going Vegan...just Vegitarian! Due to the fact... I need Eggs for Protien, and Cheese is a must..Cant give up cheese haha. Since so far to my knowledge cows/goats do not get harmed for they're milk! So in that case... Im Decla

Thoughts & Emotions
Most people are selfish these days. Selfish about feelings, love, everything. More concerned about how you made them feel. Rather than how they might of made you feel. More concerned with who they love. Rather than who loves them. More concerned with what makes them happy. Rather than who they make happy. Most people forget who they were 15 years ago. Who they loved, where they were, what they wanted. Most people dont realize if in that span of time, If they have made a difference in someones life. If they made a difference in their own lives. Or if anything has even changed at all. No one ever thinks of what they need. Always concerned with what they want. Want versus need, are two totally different objects. I wonder how many people ever take the time to step back, and look at the big picture. Look at their surroundings, home, life, family, city, state, the world. Does anyone take the time to notice the small things in life anymore? Or even enjoy such things in life anymore

Thoughts
It has been a goal of mine lately to try and scribble down something each day. To try and capture a glimpse of the world and workings of the mind in word-weavings. Words that would hopefully lean towards interesting, entertaining, amusing. Thought-provoking. Challenging. But it seems that the more I try, the harder it is for me to coax these fancies out of thin air. To arrange them neatly into fine print. To tickle out a meaning that goes deeper than their outer coverings. To find satisfaction in these dribbles of creative juices. I long to scrape away at the leathery shield I have wrapped around those wistful dreams and tap into the voices that build up confidence. That give promise of success. Reassurance. Praise. Faith. Is it merely the fear of letting someone else down? Of admitting failure? Of accepting that what will be will never be? Or is it the fear that I may not have what I have always believed I had. Hoped I had. Dreamed. Pondered. Wondered. Hid. Hone

Thoughts
I feel like I am trapped in a prison. There's no truth, Only lies. There's no light, Only darkness. There's no love, Only hate There's no peace, Only war There's no end, No way to escape Falling fast, Everything is a blur. I cant focus all i see is darkness. Is this hell? Is this where i am destined to be? No, I must fight. I must not give up. I must escape from this prison. This prison of darkness and lies. This prison of war and hate. There is one escape. Belief in all that is good. That is my escape. My escape from this eternal prison. This neverending hell. I will escape. I do believe. Farewell my prison for i make my escape. This might be kind of creepy to some people but this is a summary of what goes through my head everytime i am scared or angry or depressed becuase when i have those feelings i get this feeling in my gut that a hole has openedin the floor beneath me and i feel like i am falling into oblivion and i thin it is best described as a prison.

Thoughts
Time There are a lot of sayings about time. If you think about them and what they are supposed to mean, time can fly, stand still, get away from you, catch up with you and most of all heal all wounds. Most of us spend our day under the pressure of time, having to be somewhere or do something at a certain time, We as a society have taught ourselves that time is precious and not to be wasted. We hear it from when we are small, “stop wasting time” or “we don’t have time for that”. There are also points in life were we are in need to “take our time”. How many times have you heard the phrase “there will be plenty of time for that later” or “good things come to those that wait” only to find out that there isn’t ever enough time. My favorite saying would have to be “time is precious”, because it truly is. As I get older I find myself thinking about things that seem like they happened yesterday, when in fact it has been many years. I think about the past a lot, this comes from “havi

Thoughts.....and Other Stuff
staying up til 5am and planning to function throughout my day is going to be impossible. fuck. Have you ever loved someone so much it hurts when they're away? thats the perdicament i find myself in..... and its not just today....i have found myself in this situation for almost 10 months now. we were together at first, we both wanted to settle down, be together....the whole deal....than some things came to the surface and he didn't want to be together anymore. we continued to be friends, but did nothing as a couple anymore.....any because i still cared a great deal about him, we got into constant fights when he saw a new girl. it angered me that he could just move on so quickly and forget about us and what we had. it sucks. and to this day it stil sucks. we have lived together for the past 8 almost 9 months and although we;ve had our trials and tribulations we still love each other (though in totally different ways!) He is away from me right now, and its totally killing me. I thought

Thoughts To Ponder For 2008
Number 10 Life is sexually transmitted. Number 9 Good health is merely the slowest Possible rate at which one can die. Number 8 Men have two emotions: Hungry and Horny. If you see him without an erection, Make him a sandwich. Number 7 Give a person a fish and you feed them for a day, Teach a person to use the Internet And they won't bother you for weeks. Number 6 Some people are like a Slinky .. Not really good for anything, But you still can't help but smile When you shove them down the stairs. Number 5 Health nuts are going to feel stupid someday, Lying in hospitals dying of nothing. Number 4 All of us could take a lesson from the weather. It pays no attention to Criticism. Number 3 Why does a slight tax increase cost you $200.00 And a substantial tax cut saves you $30.00? Number 2 In the 60's, People took acid to make the world weird. Now the world is Weird and people Take Prozac to make it normal. And The Number 1 Thought For 2008:

Thoughts....
Recently I had a shock, my Dad had a heart attack and we were very close to losing him. A very emotional time for myself and family. I just want to share with everyone how lucky I am to have Ric in my life....he was so thoughtful and supportive. He has a such a huge heart, so filled with love and caring for his friends and family! There for me when I needed him and sending me such love....I could feel it and it kept me so warm when I felt so scared and alone. I am so fortunate to have him, to have him love me the way he does. He is my soul mate! I want to say thank you to him for being there for me when I needed him most....LOVE YOU BABE!!!

1/21/08 Thought For The Day
Hearts will break Tears will fall But a true friend will be Beside you through it all

Thoughts About Disconnection And An Insane Mind
I have realized what my problem is in life it is not the alcohol, the lack of ambition, the take it as is comes lifestyle, the Rock or the rollin. I get attached too easily...I build myself up, lose my edge and fall just as easy. I am tired of climbing the mountains of my mind to achieve zen or some form of inner chi that one sets out to gain at one point in their lives. But as a musician it has taught me to disconnect for the mainstream...the lights and sounds of the mass media telling us what to think and how to act. Is someone truely free from this...? we are born in to this almost dawn blackbirds on the telephone wire waiting as I eat yesterday's forgotten sandwich at 6 a.m. an a quiet Sunday morning. one shoe in the corner standing upright the other laying on it's side. yes, some lives were made to be wasted. now tell me world did i waste your time...did you regret me...I promised myself never to write old man poems but this one's funny, you see, excusable, because I've lon

Thoughts From Big Daddy
"If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness" I John 1:9 "The man of integrity walks securely, but he who takes crooked paths will be found out" Proverbs 10:9 Do you not know that in a race all runners run, but only one gets the prize? Run it in such away as to get the prize. I Corinthians 9:24

Thoughts And Quotes
"When you do not realize you are one with the river, or one with the universe, you have fear. Whether it is separated into drops or not, water is water. Our life and death are the same thing. When we realize this thing, we have no fear of death anymore, and we have no actual difficulty in our life." - Shunryu Suzuki When we are afraid, we have forgotten who we are. When we forget who we really are, we feel small, alone and vulnerable. Like a drop of water. Just as water doesn't stop being water once it is a part of the river, we don't stop being a part of the universe when we die. We are composed of the same elements that surround us. This is the reality. The illusion is the little ego, the public persona, the mask we hide behind. The minute we forget who we are, fear creeps up and limits our beliefs about who we are and what we can accomplish. When we remember we are the universe, all things are possible and we lose our fears. I am one with The Universe. I

Thoughts Of Nastie
Climb to the next dimension in space Where a world and a earth collide into a cosmic euphoria Walk through the doors of time and experience all levels of conciseness Embrace the unknown to achieve an advancement of knowledge Love and respect all forms of life to recognize one own self worth Be humble to gain inner power Strive for excellence but temper the drive with compassion Seek out life's dreams to create one own reality learning is the key to all understanding and above all never give up the pursuit of happiness Long live Rock-n-Roll J Nastie Sea City Dolls Oh moon who's circles the earth Holding her gently and ready to serve Keeping time for life and the tides Like a true friend she can light up a night How many people before me, gaze upon the same moon Helping their dreams and creating the mood Ellipses, eclipes, crops raised and earth quakes She takes us for a ride on these tectonic plates Creating ne

Thoughts
Woke up and was wet as hell this morning. As I laid there fantasizing about having my pussy eating. I grabbed my vibrator next to me and start to satisfy myself............... hummmmm any females out there will to fullfill my fantasy......Taking Applications!!!!

Thoughts
This is a real quick thank you - 2007 was a terrible year for me and right at this moment things are still really tough BUT I don't wanna be all doom and gloom cos I have so many things to be thankful for and have made some wonderful friends on here I want to thank each and everyone of you in my family cos in your own way, whether its you letting me ramble on at you for ages about nothing, or for you making me laugh, or letting me cry. You have helped me in SO many ways Luv ya all

Thoughts For The Moment
A prospector comes down out of the hills after six months f diggin for gold. He goes straight to the local saloon and says "Bartender! I been alone in them hills for 6 months! I want a shot-a whiskey, a cold beer, a hot bath, and a warm willin woman! The bartender replies "Well, we got the whiskey, the beer, and the bath, but we ain't got no women in this town." The prospector says "Well what do ya do for fun 'roun here?" "We got ol' Joe in the back room", replies the bar keep. "Aw hell!" Says the miner, "I don't go for that shit!" He does his shot and beer, gets his bath, and heads back up into the hills. 6 months later the old prospector coms back town, goes to the same saloon and says "Bartender! I benn in them hills alone for damn near a year now! I want me a shot-a whiskey, a cold beer, a hot bath, and a warm, willin woman!" The bartender says "Mister I told you 6 months ago, we ain't got no women in this here town! But we still got ol' Joe in the back room."

Thoughts
I want to but why should i? I need to but can i? I wish to but do i? If only it was as easy as a thought, it would not evade me. Over time it manifests into a wound. Stinging when messed with. Bleeding for no reason. Spreading to infect the rest of me. Leaving me hurting. Some thoughts are best left buried under a bandage. At least they wouldnt be exposed for others to see for others to feel for others to touch for others to disturb but when they do, the pain is exquisite Sat Feb 2, 12:00 AM ET yahoo news A collection agency tried to collect a $16.96 debt with an letter that addressed its recipient with a four-letter word for excrement. "Dear S---," began the letter attempting to collect from an old record club membership. The word was spelled out in the letter, which arrived in an envelope addressed to "S--- Face." "I've never seen anything quite so brazen," said attorney Kenneth Hiller. He said his client plans to sue Nationwide Collections Inc

Thoughts
Cutting the soul... I think the young never know who they hurt They do some of the curliest things and don't even think The power of words I know very well With words you can bring a smile to someone feeling down You can share feeling to make a tear come to someone's eyes The written word lasts though out time You can not take it back for they are there for the world to read With words you planet a seed of who you are and what you believe Words can cause more pain than any bullet made by man With a single shot a life ends But words hits the heart and that pain always remains These words hurt when a person is looking for a friend You can know a person from their words You see their soul with each word they write You know if they have an open mind and a caring heart Or if they don't have a brain or a clue what the real world means I see others posting words that I know will hurt someone for a long time Words that will take hope away from the lonely Words that will pu

Thoughts
It's funny the way life is. About three years ago I met the girl of my dreams but it was someone I knew for a long time in fact I DJ-ed her wedding (SHE'S NO LONGER MARRIED TO HIM)but never the less we reunited three years ago and I thought she was beautiful and I fell hard,but then the fun fest parade happened and she was the queen of hearts and the rest was history. About 9 months later the most beautiful little boy was born.We've had our ups and downs in our relationship but we've always are able to work things out and thats how I know this is true love.The funny thing is if I get a text from her when I read it I hear her voice talking to me,or I can close my eyes and picture her right in front of me.After three years we finally decided to get married and I can't wait I wanna give her the wedding of her dreams,she also says she wants to have another baby.......I'm not only the happiest man in the world but I'm the luckiest man too.She brings out the good in me and I've done a lot mo

Thoughts :d
So I just listened to Rizo pour her heart out singing There Are Worse Things I Could Do *watching Grease with the roomies*, and I feel just like t hat right now, every single line in that song is for me right now.  Ever since my boyfriend, who I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with, and I broke up about 3 months ago now, I've been profoundly promiscuous.  Haha since I started college, sometimes I am waaaay in heat, but luckily I've had a boyfriend who gladly alleviated my frustrations for me, but I've been going to multiple guys, trying to find something I'm not finding.  And I'm thinking that something will come of these situations, but of course not, because even though girls like to think otherwise, more often than not, when a guy sees you as a fuck, you stay a fuck, so here I am haha.  And I feel bad now, and I feel like I'm not good enough, even though I know I am.  Unfortunately, I'm one of those people whose life feel's more in balance when I have a boyfriend...

Thought For The Day
DAMN, I just need to get laied......... Ya know ya want to sing along LOL No-one on earth could feel like this. I'm thrown and overblown with bliss. There must be an angel Playing with my heart. I walk into an empty room And suddenly my heart goes "boom"! It's an orchestra of angels And they're playing with my heart. (must be talking to an angel) No-one on earth could feel like this. I'm thrown and overblown with bliss. There must be an angel Playing with my heart. And when I think that I'm alone It seems there's more of us at home. It's a multitude of angels And they're playing with my heart. Chorus repeats. I must be hallucinating Watching angels celebrating. Could this be reactivating All my senses dislocating? This must be a strange deception By celestial intervention. Leavin' me the recollection Of your heavenly connection. A senior monk and a junior monk were traveling together. At one point, they came to a river with a strong current. As t

Thoughts Of Pain
Heavens waiting for you, Just close your eyes and say goodbye, hearing your pulse go on and on and on, I'd sacrifice this world to hold you, No breath left inside of me, Shattered glass keeps falling, Say goodnight, Just sleep tight, Say goodnight, Flowers laid out for you, So many colors leave me blind, I live my life in misery, So her i am your inside of me, So here i am our world is over, Here i am with you, I'm here till the end, Memories are calling so farewell my friend, Farewell my friend.

Thoughts
I never dream,not till last night.It was vivid and still in my mind. I don't really read into dreams,they are just dreams to me,nothing more and nothing less. My best friend believes our dreams are telling us something. I have no clue. I never dream about people or friends,I did last night and it was just strange to me that i would dream about him. If what she says is true then I should believe in this dream and be happy.If it is what i believe dreams are then it means nothing at all and was just a dream that will never come true,as so many of my few dreams have. I like her way of thinking but why get my hopes up over a dream.It was just a dream after all,wasn't it? There is someone very close to my heart.He makes me smile,laugh,cry and feel good about myself.He makes me think of things I want and need.That I could be happy again. He is my best friend and lover,but I will never completely have as my own. I think about him everyday and what he is doing and thinking.What he smells like.I

A Thousand Hells
A tear forms in the corner of my eye.From a pain no longer held inside.It slips and slides its way down my skin.From across my lips to the bottom of my chin. Then into the wind on a cold Winter day.To rest in the snow and dig its own grave.The Spring melts the snow and that tear insidePrepares itself for one more ride. As a river, a lake, or even an oceanThat tear becomes an emotion in motion'Til the emptiest cloud drinks its fill of pain.And cries to the world in the form of rain. Frantic people all run for cover.But not myself, I was born to suffer.And there I stand seeking death's embrace.And that tear finds its way back onto my face. I would crawl through ten thousand hells for just one taste of your lips slick with desire because I know that the heat of you shimmers with my name

Thoughts And Feelings
Here's the deal. I have been going to Lansing, KS for almost a year now, once a month to do some tattooing work at a friends house. I've made some pretty good money some nights, and other...not so good. Last night, Feb.23, I was there and the friendship was abruptly ended. A little background into this whole thing: Hugh and Denice invited me to "swing" with them, and being a horny widowed guy, I accepted. This was in October of 2006. Recently though, I have been trying to get involved with some of the other females that are brought in to the mix. Three times...three mistakes. I've been getting sick of HIS leftovers. Every time I start getting to Emotionally involved with these CUNTS, Hugh would tell me to "man up" and "quit being a pussy". Meanwhile he's fucking them every weekend 50 miles away from me. Pretty easy to say this shit when YOU'RE getting laid all the time. The last time this happened, he called my cell phone to bitch at me, to tell me I needed to "man up".

Thoughts For The Day
I just wanted to share my thoughts about valentines day with you all. I didnt write this and dont know did, but I wish I could give them a big hug. Valentine's Day Hearts and roses and kisses galore What the hell is all that crap for? People get mushy and start acting queer. Its definetly the most annoying day of the year. This day needs to get the hell over with and pass Before I shove something up cupid's ass. Ill spend the day so drunk I cant speak And wear black the rest of the week. Guys act sweet but soon it will fade For all they are doing is tryng to get laid. The arrow cupid shot at me must not have hit Cause I think this love thing is a crock of shit. So here's my story. What can I say? Love Bit My Ass. Screw Valentine's Day.

Thoughts
Was a bulletin but was good enough I wanted to keep it here too There was a blind girl who hated herself because she was blind. She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He was always there for her. She told her boyfriend, 'If I could only see the world, I will marry you.' One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her. When the bandages came off, she was able to see everything, including her boyfriend. He asked her, 'Now that you can see the world, will you marry me?' The girl looked at her boyfriend and saw that he was blind. The sight of his closed eyelids shocked her. She hadn't expected that. The thought of looking at them the rest of her life led her to refuse to marry him. Her boyfriend left her in tears and days later wrote a note to her saying: 'Take good care of your eyes, my dear, for before they were yours, they were mine.' This is how the human brain often works when our status changes. Only a very few remember what life was like before, and who was always

Thought Of The Day!!
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Thoughts During Insomnia...
I have received many emails from concerned friends wanting to know why I haven't responded to their emails, so I thought I would post a blog to explain why I haven't been online, even tho my status said I was. As some of you know, my Mother became very ill a couple of weeks ago. She was diagnosed with Diversticulitis. On Wednesday of last week she became even more ill with the flu. I had been sick, as well, for some time now. I had a number of tests run and was still waiting for the results when I began caring for my Mother. I am rarely ever sick, but for some unknown reason, I have been plagued by illness the last few months. On Friday of last week my oldest son, Alex, became ill with the flu, as well as my Step-brother, Coty. I too, had to be taken to the Dr. by Alex on Thursday morning, I had developed pneumonia. Basically, everyone in my family had fallen ill, and we had no one to care for us. Saturday morning, I awoke, and felt like I had been run over by a semi. Every part

Thoughts Of A Disturbed Mind
just woke up... i'm sitting here on my bed and i'm thinking of the people i love. It' amazing how many people don't seem to like me very much, few even care but one loves me.... i love her... so much... I guess there comes a time when u have to step up and take ur place in the grand scheme of things. Guess what i'm doing hurting myself might be on the agenda... don't know yet. part of me is debating going away from everything. but then i'll hurt the people i love, but the problem is that usually, people who get involved with me get hurt... and i don't want them to get hurt. I've already recieved a text from a friend saying that i'm responsible for them having depression... usual crap then yeah.... whatever keeping my mouth closed is a good idea... i ruin thing for people forgive me

::thoughts::
OMG, guys I'm very excited right now and can't sleep! In about 6 hours I will be in a car and on my way to a 7-hour drive back to my original hometown of Los Angeles =] I'm going down there until Sunday mostly to chill and to hang out with the family, some of them I haven't seen in years...I haven't been down there since I was 17 and even then it was a real quick trip and I didn't have much time to visit family....so I'm very excited!!!!!! Ok I have to get back to packing but talk to some of you when I get back!!!! =D Kisses, Message In A Bottle Seriously, today's a good TV day!! So I come home, cook me some lunch [[yes I cook]] and I turn on the tv to see me some fighting [[Silva is one, big scary but hot mofo]]...now while I'm actually interested in MMA and hope to pursue it more once I gain some more finances, I admit, I just love watching big dudes shirtless in those cute little tight shorts beating the crap out of each other with sweat and blood everywhere [[I know, a bit

Thoughts
Lighting flashes in the distance casting his shadow on the stone work around him. A sound to his left brings him to attention slipping behind the a crumbleing wall where he is hidden. A woman dressed in fine silks walks to where his fire burns bright. Knealing she studies whats around her then stands turning towards him. Hunkering down even lower he watches as she walks towards his hideing place. " come out Sire for I wish to see you," she says with a cool air. After a few moments without him showing she turns away slowly unlaceing her dress. As if the wind has the same thoughts as this woman a breeze slowly helps slideing the dress away. Standing before the fire she looks over her shoulder looking at him a sly smile spreading across her lips. Standing slowly he walks to her lighting dances in the air above them. Turning to face him her voice a soft whisper "do you not find me attractive sire?" that same smile on her lips as her eyes drift up and down his body. His eyes glea

Thoughts
you say you care yet get pissed cuz im trying to confide in the one person i trust. each time i feel as if its safe to really talk to him again i get hell for it. hes the one who has kept me from depression, the one who has kept me from just sayin the hell with it and givin up again. it has nothing to do with you or against you but it seems like you always think it does. you never believe a word i say when i say that i just need my friendship with him. yeah so we said we wouldnt talk as much and yeah lately we have been but thats cuz he knows i need someone who can make me smile, and i know that he will do all he can to help make me feel better. i have tried all i can to keep from getting depressed again as it never ends good and the one way i have found that works is confiding in him, talking to him when it seems as if every thing is just going to fall apart on me. im sorry if that seems like we are talking too much , sorry if you cant let your paranioa go but thats the way it is.

Thoughts For 2008
10 Thoughts For 2008 -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Number 10 Life is sexually transmitted. Number 9 Good health is merely the slowest possible rate at which one can die. Number 8 Men have two emotions: Hungry and Horny. If you see him without an erection, make him a sandwich. Number 7 Give a person a fish and you feed them for a day, teach a person to use the internet and they won't bother you for weeks. Number 6 Some people are like a Slinky . Not really good for anything, but you still can't help but smile when you shove them down the stairs. Number 5 Health nuts are going to feel stupid someday, lying in hospitals dying of nothing. Number 4 All of us could take a lesson from the weather. It pays no attention to Criticism. Number 3 Why does a slight tax increase cost you $200.00 and a substantial tax cut saves you $30.00? Number 2 In the 60's, people took acid to mak

Thoughts And Emotions
Listen Do you hear it that awful sound of screams, what could it be? the sound of broken dreams, and total misery, Or is it the sound of death knocking on the door, with misery its depth, and destruction its core, Is it demons from hell, so far before seen, out of the wishing well, cold dark disgustingly mean, Sinking claws into the heart, tearing at each piece, ripping it apart, the pain never seems to cease, Maybe its a mind trip, with no sense of control, that soon looses its grip, and just forgets to grow, I bet its a broken heart, trying to glisten, do you hear it, sshhh, Listen!

Thoughts 2
The pain in my heart The pain from loosing this dream, my wish. The love I receive from you, the pain I give you. Why must you do these things. Excite me get to prepare and take it all away, just the same. Do I mean so little to you. Is your intentions true or game plays. I feel the pain of loss. If you love me, where are you. Make up your mind, Stop playing with me. I am not a cat toy, I have a heart. Do you not see what you do to me.Back and forth I go. Happy then torn down. To be made happy again with false truths. When will it end. Can you really love someone Or are they just your panthers prey. Something to love for now and kill eternally later. I am so tired of living in the shadows of sorrow. I want your love. Please don't close your eye's to me.

Thoughts
idk what to do about stupid, silly things. like this site, for example. i put these pics up and then i wonder why. i am not "the shit" i am not a superstar. i wonder what keeps me here. i just got home from the cruise! crazy times!.. oh well.. what's new?? well, it seems that because im a medic, im cursed.. lol. well, they must really need them overseas, so im going back over there. my unit is deploying me, and ill start training in october this year. boots hit the ground in jan.. then i got 9 months before im home. im going to be changing my profile around, now you know why.. well.. idk. haha. life is interesting.

Thoughts..
you know when you do something wrong, and you know it's wrong but you do it anyways?, than after like 30 sec you are like"what the fuck did i just do?" yeah.. bad thing.. i need to quit that. and cigarettes are bad. really bad. this is confusing. should i follow my heart ? what i most want at this moment is that this month goes by really slow... this is going too fast and i can't catch up.graduation is coming up,and damn it! the last show is on! this is so crappy!..

Thoughts 1
OMG, did anyone watch Big Brother 9 After Dark on Showtime last night? My husband and I watch it a few times a week. It is filmed live in Los Angeles so it comes on at 9:00 for us and midnight for East Coaster's. There have been some funny ones like them all getting into a fight and ganging up on Amanda and Josh calling her a Fucking Cunt a million times. I kind of felt bad for Amanda but it made for good tv, that is for sure! What was funny is the night before, they were all loving to each other and then the next night....BAM, they were all screaming at each other. Oh what a difference a day makes! So last night, we were laying in bed and watching the show and Chelsea and Natalie were going to put on a strip show for everyone. So they went up stairs, put tons of make-up on and got naked in afront of the camera's for the world to see! Then Josh came up and decided to join them (he is gay) and he was wearing a candy thong. Hilarious! The rest of the gang sat in the ro

Thoughts
To all the memories made... My love shall never fade... I see the sparkle in your eye, I know I made you cry... To see that perfect someone... a dream come true... To watch what we could have had... Fade and trickle through To see you with another... a knife in the heart... Hoping, praying,and wishing we were never apart... True love... a brave and beautiful thing... Silent is the pain, Leaving that black stain... Why me? Why now? Is there some way i can turn this all around.... I see the end in sight... I thought about that night... You were mine for a while, at least I made you smile... I hold you in my dreams, I hold you in my heart... Try to think of ways, we could have changed things from the start... The sun is rising, another new day... In my dreams you never go away... I've lost you, never had you from the start... So why in the world is this still breaking my heart... Another love, another day, I never wanted you to go away... Your gone now, the end is near

Thoughts 2
I am making cookies for tonight's class. We go to a class for "Parents with strong willed teens and troubled teens" every Tuesday night for a 10 week course. Each week a different group brings food for everyone. There are about 50 parents in this class. I volunteered to make cookies. One of the things I do really well is make cookies. Mine always turn out better for some reason. Not sure what it is I do? I do know that a lot of it has to do with the flour I use. I have always used Pillsbury. My husband was going to the store Sunday so I asked him to pick up some flour since we were low. He bought me Gold Medal because they don't sell Pillsbury in that store anymore. Now for sure I know I am sold on Pillsbury! I had to use the Gold Medal and my cookies are flat :(. They taste good but aren't the fluffy cookies I am used to making. Damn! I think I might need to make another batch too. It looks like 2 isn't going to be enough, especially if people et 2. They are ch

Thoughts 3
It is almost 10pm. I worked really long hours today. Spent a little time talking to Boober and Ms. Australia and other then that, work work work! My daughter made dinner for us tonight. It was so unhealthy but damn good! She is a good little cook but doesn't do well with making more than one thing at a time. So we had rolled taco's with salsa she made and some bean dip she made. I guess that is 3 things but WHERE'S THE VEGETABLES? She told me the salsa was a vegi. LOL It was good and neither Peter or I had to make it so it was good to me. Then we came in our room and watched television because our kids were in the other room watching tv so damn loud. I really think they are going def from wearing earphones and having it be loud. It was kind of nice to be watching tv in bed and being lazy and then fooling around ;). That is always fun. I think tomorrow I will tackle my taxes and get them done. I am just not looking forward to it because I know that we are going

Thoughts....
Again, as I write this, I have much on my mind. I had a rather intimate conversation with someone very close to me tonight and I feel as if I might have pushed them away slightly. I've discussed things that I swore to myself that I'd take to the grave with me, however, I felt a huge weight being lifted from my chest. I feel closer to this person than I have ever felt to anyone. I myself feel slightly scared inside as I feel this person might grow distant to me in the days ahead. I worry. The person I speak of also shared secrets buried deep within themselves. I fear that they feel I have been pushed away. I have not. I feel that this person's ability and willingness to share such things with me is a sign of deep trust and faithfulness in me as a person. I shall not fail or betray this trust. My committment to this person's honesty, will, and soul will keep them safe from anyone having the spoken carnal knowledge that was shared tonight. I only hope for the same from them. I hold

Thoughts 4
I had a very busy day yesterday with going here and going there. Peter and I went and bought new towels and rug and stuff for the front bathroom to finish it off. It will look nice when I put it all together today. I went with browns and blues. We were planning on making hamburgers for dinner (something the kids love!) and I was going to make a macaroni salad to go with it but ran out of time. So when we were at Bed Bath and Beyond yesterday buying the bathroom stuff, we decided to go next door to the grocery store to just get a salad. Only thing is, we haven't been in that store since the infamous date of 12/06/07! Why? Because it is the store my son decided to steal a soda from and got caught! When we passed the doors, we thought for sure that alarms were going to go off. When we got to the check out stand, we just new that when we used our debit card that flashing red lights were going to spotlight us! It was kind of funny. We made it out of the store without any harm

Thoughts
It feels like my soul tries to escape the dark confines of what used to be a sanctuary for what we tried to keep alive. Now I know, now I see, this love was never meant to be... love...misshaped chaos of well seeming forms. A truly beautiful mutation of harmony and distortion. There’s no explanation for the way it all occurred. I guess there is, but maybe its better left unsaid. There’s no reason trying to reason something with so many reasons... Let’s just call it fate. Now, here I am and there you are… separation not as simple as the distance between us. We carry on.. But for how long... My logical mind has no idea Day by day pondering Unselfishly giving it my all without ever expecting nothing in return Trying my best to do things the way they should be done Whoever said things should be done a certain way? Whoever wrote the manual of life? Trying to make sense out of nonsense Trying to find answers when questions are never clearly defined Contradict

Thoughts, Rants, And Events
This is in response to two things: -the blog post "Frank" under my Novels -AngelLady's 9/11 Distress video in her stash Clip from the comment I left AngelLady: Whether or not 9/11 was planned by the government or the outside, I don't know. What I do believe is that the United States is very two-faced right now. Those that are unaffected or very indirectly influenced by the government are thriving. I believe that is in the nature of the people. Those involved in or influenced by the government are in a very bad situation. Our politicians are corrupt. The value of human life is less than the dollar. The natural traits of humans - being inconsiderate and selfish - are highly evident in these people. The United States needs to change. Should the 9/11 attacks be the work of outside "terrorists," they were successful in showing the country's weakness and showed that the government structure and people in government need to change, though the methods they used were horrible and did

Thoughts Of Men
I see him in a thin fog, He seems to be waiting........... For what I do not know. I turn my back and look away to yet a deeper thicker fog. I know he is out there somewhere with the voice that sends shivers all over my body. with passion, love that knows no end. I have thought several times that he had found me. But I was wrong. I have thought several times I had found him.I was wrong again. But I know in the end he will be there a smile that melts my heart and the kindness of a saint. I thought bad boys were the answer to find a man that was full of life and passion and compassion. but once again I was wrong. I think now that the good guy is the one he has all his raw passion and compassion hidden and it is up to the woman to bring it out of him with her love and devotion and nurturing ways to bring the tiger out of hidding. Anna

Thoughts 5
I was taking my son to school this morning and I was listening to the radio and what do I hear?? A FUBAR commercial! Yes, they are making so much money now that they can advertise on the radio stations. I was a little surprised. Maybe I should change my profile picture to be something other than my face? I can only some of my family members coming across my profile and freaking out over it. I have a very uptight family and that would not go over well. It is a beautiful day and I am finally over my hang over from yesterday. I started feeling better in the afternoon. Damn, is drinking worth it? To be out of it and feel like crap the whole next day? It isn't like I do it that often but I have done it twice in the last couple of months. My left breast has been hurting in the same spot for over a couple of weeks now. I am starting to get concerned. It hurts all the time. I am going to call the doctor and make an appointment. Even laying down on my back it hurts. Never

Thoughts
The Coupling Of Passion And Erotic Lusts A touch of skin soft and slippery, With the hint of hint of sweat. We fought our resistance beneath the cool sheets, As the wind flowed from the window above us. Eyes met briefly and begged for the chance, To abandon all of our uncertainties. You began your work on my lips, Probing gently as if drawing sex, From a deep well of longing and need. Then heated tongues met in the midst, Of hot and quickening breath. And greedily we drank the wine of our lusts. Then intoxicated with those spirits, Our clothes found resting place on the floor. Piece by piece, Until there were no hiding places, For the two glistening and wanting bodies. Hunger revealed in this hot moment. Then skin meshed with skin, As the floor became the stage. You moved atop of me easily, And lowered yourself gently. Kissing me as I was filled with you. As a gasp broke the kiss, Your hands stroked the stray strands, Away from my forehead, then became enta

Thoughts 6
I have been on this site for over a year now. Wow. I started back in early Feb of last year. That was under a different profile then...Attia. It was different then, that is for sure. It was new and exciting and I got caught up in it fast. Cherrytap seemed to me to be less bullshit then when it changed to Fubar. A friend wanted me to enter a contest and I was reluctant to do it but he convinced me. That is when things got sour on Fubar. A crazy person decided to start drama with me and got my right to comment on anyone taken away even though she could write anything and everything about me. I chose the higher rode and deleted that profile and started over. I would more than likely be a godfather or higher by now. When I started over, caring about levels and points went away. It was fun helping people in contests when you could comment really fast and not have to deal with the dreaded Bouncer check that comes up way too often. Now when I help people out, I am just being

Thoughts
You fail to realize the power of your eyes. They keep me in a daze, I am amazed at your disguise. I see you smile and for awhile I wish I knew you better. A smile so loud but yet so subtle it calms my stormy weather. My worries seem to fade as your beauty rises high above. All things around me freeze, how I would be pleased to feel your tender breeze of love. But as seconds leave my life like golden grains of sand, my only demand is for you to touch or hold my hand. To feel your touch is almost too much for me to stand. You stabilize my anger and give me peace when you touch my hand. I see in you a field of flowers and you shower me with blooms. I want to know your deepest secret. I can't help but assume, that the light of God is in you because you compliment a room. Shine your light on me because I want to consume the traits that make you so sweet and unique, developed in the womb. I acknowledge the physical, but I see your soul and heart, but th

Thoughts 7
hmm? this has lots of meaning! lmao Can you tell I am not in the best mood? Fuck! ~ciao~

Thoughts
I have always been amazed how people judge before they even know the person. Is it looks that make you look away, or the fear that one might see though your own facade. Everyone of us has secrets that have created shame, we are creatures of a curious nature. Always wanting what we might not have or need. I have walked a path trying to experience all that I am intrigued by. I have hurt others that I love and some that I don't, I have been hurt by the one's I trust, only to know it is I who allowed the pain. Life is mine to decide the path and I hope that one day the judgement won't be and you shall see, I always will love you, with all the tears and lies, laughter and joy. Our path will cross and I will be there with a smile just for you.

Thoughts
wanting so bad to be with you your all I've hoped and everything I've dreamed could of had you if I just relaxed but I cant let go of all my past taking no chances I just pushed you away what will I do if you dont stay I cant forget you even if I tried yet here I sit just letting you walk by I want you close so I need to speak please give me the chance your all I need give me time to relax a bit I wana love you and never regret Scared to move I hold my breath tears fall again so many regrets to stubborn to give even a little bit watch my whole world completely cave in open my mouth just ot speak everything fixed if only I could speak wanting so much to just be with you pushed you to hard now were through grasping at air as I reach for you you backed away cause I didnt give lost you now this pain will never end

Thoughts 8
Yesterday I was not in the best mood. Just thoughts and insecurity getting to me I guess? Yes, even I have those days Australia! So for a crappy day, it turned out to be a really good day. After my son yelled at me in the morning and then slammed the car door, about 20 minutes later I got a text from him saying he was sorry and that he had been fighting with his girlfriend and he was mad. That made me happy to no that he was not really mad at me and that he was sorry. I got his progress report on Saturday and none of the grades were a surprise because we have school loop and it tells me what his grades are every day. Also tells me just how many assignments the little shit has been missing too! The shocker grade was a D in p.e. Come on! How the Hell do you get a D in P.E.? Not dressing out I suppose? Although, he says he is. What ever! He came home yesterday after school and rushed in my room to tell me that he is now passing English because he turned in all his writ

Thoughts 9
I hope everyone reads this. I am planning on making some changes to my profile pictures. I took a class last night and they discussed the internet and what can be found on the internet and how your photo's that you think only certain people are seeing could end being the whole world! It made me think, that is for sure. So I have deleted photo's that are too revealing with my face in them. I am only going to post naughty photo's without my face from now on. Yes, it may be too late because who knows what people have done with them once they have seen them? I hope that the men were not rude and doing things like posting them for other's to see. I would have to hunt you down and kill you! lol So no more um....bj photo's. sorry ~~~> ain't going to happen. You will just have to look at a faceless body from now on. I just need to protect myself from the world. That big giant world out there in cyberspace! So just a heads up. I am not doing this to you to punish you but

Thoughts
well, i'm rarely on this site anymore...in case some of y'all hadn't noticed, lol any of you who are on myyearbook or myspace, y'all can look for me there too...im on yahoo messenger too. anywho, this is whats up with me. i'm still working, same job. still lonely...but in a different way...i'm still single, but my heart is taken. i've met a guy who makes me feel so great, he's a good friend, i know he has feelings for me too, but it just hasnt happened. i dont even know what to do, do i swear off all other guys? do i wait for him to be ready? i dont know. he says he just doesn't want to jump into anything. but i kinda feel that if we don't take that leap...we might lose our chance. anyway, bri is 3 1/2 and smarter everyday. ive got my van paid off and will hopefully be able to start saving to move soon. its going to be hard cause i got stuff on the van that needs to be fixed now. the ac went out, the headliner is coming down...there was an oil leak, but i think that part is

Thoughts
Merlin Strack August 4, 1998 - April 3, 2008 Hope to see you soon my lil buddy! Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge. When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable. All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by. The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind. They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent; His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over th

Thoughts 10
Damn, my arm is killing me and I have taken 2 muscle relaxers so please forgive me if I make some mistakes in this blog. My friends just left. I feel like a drug dealer! My friend Sean called and told me his prescription for his muscle relaxers ran out because he didn't think he would need them anymore so I told him I would give him a few of mine to get him by. Damn, Cristi the dope dealer! I understand what it is like to be in pain though. We planned our next trip to the cabin. We had a blast the last time they went up. So we are going again next weekend. Leaving early Friday, right after the kids get out of school and taking off. Bringing lots of alcohol and food! Party!! When you put the 4 of us together, you never know what's going to happen. Strip poker anyone? My damn arm hurts from doing my 10 key all day long and then typing on the computer right after. Sam motion over and over. So exciting, let me tell ya. So now my arm is like spasming or some shit

Thoughts 11
Some times I think I am an attention whore and other times....who knows? A girl getting any good attention is great for her ego. We all know it. I put up some more photo's today and all it did was get attention and I knew it would. LOL what ever. I am what I am. It's Friday and time to relax this weekend. Other than going out to dinner tonight with some friends for his birthday that was yesterday. We are going out fairly early. I am NOT going to drink tonight. I refuse to feel like shit tomorrow. After last weekend, I don't want to be hung over the entire next day. getting too old for that. I think I may take myself to the mall tomorrow. I still have not replaced my make-up that went missing the night my son decided to throw a party when we were gone so I need to go out and replace it. Just irritating. I am going to buy the make-up and the laptop and give the receipts to my son and tell him he had better et a job to pay me back soon! He will be mowing my father's m

Thoughts 12
I went to bed late last night and got woken up by the rude sound of the phone ringing this morning. So I am dragging this morning and my 4 shots of espresso just isn't cutting it. I need to get motivated and do some cleaning but that doesn't sound very exciting at the moment. Does it? Going out and maybe pruning my plants in the backyard in the warm sun sounds better. I changed my music on my profile. I do it all the time for what ever mood it is that I am in. Music means a lot to me. It is about the lyrics for me. Do you have music on your profile? If so, is it your favorite song or is it a song that really has meaning in your life or do you just love the sound and beat of it? Do you just leave that same song on your profile never changing it? I notice I go on a lot of profiles and they don't have any music. Maybe they don't know how to put it on their profile or maybe they just don't care? I for one need to be surrounded by music most of the time. I listen to s

Thoughts On Love
allowed you to take my hand thought you would show me love cried inside tears of pain as again I wasnt the one hurt so much now its hard to breath never enough not good enough it seems wasting away as I look inside dreams all shattered in the blink of an eye no room left to run as I am broken enough just laying awake so many tears in my eyes keep myself sheltered I can not love takes me away and always crashes to a stop no more dreaming no more fears doomed for eternity to be alone here scars on my body and the tears ive cried are nothing compared to the scars inside gave up the fight nothing left inside just holding my breath hoping death comes tonight

Thoughts 13
It has been a very busy weekend. Shopping, going out to dinner, going over to a friends house for drinks, more running around today, laundry, cleaning and baking a batch of chocolate peanut-butter cups cookies today! Damn, it is only 4pm and I am worn out. I feel like I got a lot accomplished this weekend. Trying to get things done since we won't be home next weekend. My son took his motorcycle out to the local track and blew up his top half of his motor! Good thing he has a friend that is going to fix it for him for little cost! He tends to ride it a couple of times and then bam! It's broken. very frustrating. Peter was doing some pruning out in the backyard today because it is another beautiful day here and he was reaching to pull a vine that is growing wild and he fell off of the latter! I didn't see this or hear it as I was listening to music while I was making my cookies. He came in with this look on his face. He was in a lot of pain. I guess his elbow saved his

Thoughts From The Princess
Hey Everyone - Okay so I thought it was time to post a blog. Thanks to Krzyitalian for making me come here, she's Dana and an awesome person to me! I'm blessed for her being in my life! I owe her everything! This place is nuts! I love it and its a bit overwhelming, so if I don't get back to you right away, forgive me, but I"m a spaz with the 'net and it takes me some time to get around lol! Its great to meet everyone and everyone has been so sweet to me, thank you for that! I promise to be here more often, and hopefully everyone will check out my photos, share the Dale Jr love, the Disney love and hopefully I'll get more gifts! XOXOX Kisses!

Thoughts 14
I am beyond tired! Today just seemed kind of stressful and I felt like I was being harassed. Really only since I picked up my boys. Everyone is in a mood. Anthony has been a jerk today and Christopher has been moody all day. I just wonder why it is I put up with what I do sometimes? I am worn out. Good night. I think I am finally waking up now that it is after 12:00pm! I was really wanting to bash in my alarm clock this morning. I think I could have slept another 2-3 hours. I was tired because....at 8:00pm my son Anthony decided that he wanted to go to his girlfriends house. Mind you it is in the next town over. Since he hasn't seen her in a week, I guess we thought it was ok? So Peter took him over there after we ate dinner. Had Anthony drive on the freeway for the first time which Peter said was funny. Peter had to keep reminding him that the speed limit is 65 not 45! He was acting like a granny driver. Then Christopher decided that he has to see his little g

The Thoughts Of Another
The beauty within I see when i hear your heavenly voice,to hear a smile upon your face thru the small giggles you lot run free,Makes me feel like heaven on earth with the heart so big wanting to halp so many others an thinking so little of yourself,I see the true angel that you must have deep within your soul giving me one great desire to call you my ownnot knowing how to express my thoughts an never wanting to lot you down i hold my tongue until the time is right an I dream of you each night wanting to hold you bye my side an place your gentle lips next to mying. One Man's Desire With one mans desire there is nothing that can hold him away with the thoughts of a goddess an the sounds of the heavens she speaks his name chasing at his soul for every breathe that she takes with a simple thought of her beauty life can feel like such a dream an to yet hold her bye his side an never lot her go there is nothing that can be more sweet. The Thoughts of Another The thoughts of another

Thoughts 15
I just about had a heart attack! I kid you not. Some friends of mine got their cell phone bill last weekend and were in for a huge shock! Sean knew it wasn't good news when the cell phone bill was about twice the size it normally it is paper. He opened it up and it was a $1,200.00 phone bill because of his son going on the internet a bunch of times. That is what he looked like when he opened it up! He did end up getting most of the charges reversed because he had called to cancel it and they just kept charging for the time. It got me in a panic because I had added unlimited text messaging to all of our phones. This also allows internet so I immediately called the boys to ask if they had been going on the internet. They both said "NO". So this morning, I thought I would not take their word for it and check the bill myself. Sure enough, my youngest, Chris has been going on the internet to Myspace. FUCK For February he racked up $250 in fees. I then called and told the A

Thoughts 16
It is Wednesday and I have been very busy and not much time to be on this site lately. I miss talking to my friends for sure. Last night was out last class for parenting strong willed teens. The two police officers that teach the class brought the food last night and it was from one of our favorite restaurants. It was very nice and a lot of fun. Kind of bitter sweet. We enjoyed going there every Tuesday meeting with the other parents and talking about our week. Last night we went over listening to your child. Something that we as parents think we are doing but most of the time are too busy to really listen. It taught me a lot. At the end of the class, we all sat in a circle and each person said something, either thanking the two officers or talking a little about how the class affected our lives. It was a great way to end things. Hopefully we continue to be in touch with our group and we plan on getting together once a week at Starbucks but I know how busy lives can b

Thoughts And Feelings
My heart goes out to him more than he knows but I don't know how to tell him.  All I want is to let him know how I really feel but can never seem to find the words when I have the chance to talk to him.  For some reason the words never come to me.  I want to tell him how he's the only one I want and how I want for us to be all that everyone thinks we are and then some.  I think him and I could be something very amazing but at the same time I'm so scared that by saying something I will only push him away.  He is the best thing that has happened to me in a long time and I really don't want to lose him.  He is amazing.  Treats me and my lil girl like nobody ever has and doesn't ask for anything in return.  He's happy just spending time together...don't have to spend money or anything just to be together.  So now all I have to do is figure out how to tell him how I truly feel about him. So much damage has been done You tore my heart to shreds Never thought I could hate you Had to believ

Thoughts, Questions, And Rambles
so it seems like lately everyone i know wants a baby or is having a baby. i think spring is coming. or maybe its because everyone that i hang out with are at that point in our lives where we are ready for children... well the women anyways.

Thoughts 17
I am getting ready to leave and go pick up boys to head up to the cabin. It is getting cold and starting to rain so it looks like games and drinking this weekend! lol So I hope you all have a wonderful weekend. I am going to enjoy mine. It may get cramped with 10 of us though! Nah....the boys don't mind getting wet. They have fun no matter if it is raining or hot! ~ciao~

Thoughts And Such
Sunday was the longest day of my life. I got up at 0515, which was about an hour and 15 minutes later than I wanted to. I got a shower, and was at the bus by 0530. Then we rolled at 6:00 to the airbase. We sat there all day, went through three briefings on standards of conduct, no alcohol, customs brief/clearing, no alcohol brief, the chaplain's brief, and then finally got on the road to the airport. I got lucky, and was able to get on Baggage Detail. This meant that we got the VIP seating, which wasn't that VIP. We had a bit more room to move, but not much, and we only took about 5 minutes to load 200+ bags into the plane. I slept off and on for the next too many hours of flying. I know that I got at least a 2 hour period of sleep, only cause apparently I slept through the movie. We stopped off in Germany, got to stretch, get some drinks, and got teased by the alcohol in the "canteen". I got to Atlanta, and my original flight at me getting into Maryland at 1630. I

Thoughts Of A Broken Heart
Today is not my judgment day, for I am still alive. I have lived by the ethics and morals that have been instilled in my very core: my heart, my mind, my body and my soul. My love flows deep and strong through my very being, just like the great rivers that course through this great nation. I stand up for my beliefs and would die defending those beliefs. I would die defending the things I love…..my children, my loved ones and my country. I have been broken….which has taught me strength……I have been hurt …. which has taught me to be kind......I have been made fun of.......which has taught me respect........I have been looked up to.......which has taught me humility......I have been lost.....which has taught me leadership……I have been loved….which has taught me compassion…..I have been in danger…..which has taught me to fear………I have conquered fear …… which has taught me percerverence…….I have been the protector……which has taught me to be selfless….. Judge me not for what you think

Thoughts For A Day!
"You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before, she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect - you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being a human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more then she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there." - BOB MARLEY Work like you don't need the money. Love like you've never been hurt. Dance like nobody's watching... Sing like nobody's listening... Live like it's Heaven on Earth. May there always be work for your hands to do; May your purse always hold a coin o

Thoughts 18
I had a really good time this weekend despite it's start! We intended to leave by 3:00 so we could get up there early and enjoy ourselves. We should have been there around 5:30-6:00pm. Only there were a couple of snafu's! One is that I ran to Long's Drug store to buy me some new headphones for my Ipod since mine were borrowed from my son and somehow broke! Anyway, I had Chris with me because I had just picked him up from school. When we pulled up to our house, there were about 15-20 kids that looked like bad news walking away from our house. I asked Christopher if he knew who they were? He said no. One of Chris' friends was up by our door and told Chris that he thinks they were wanting to beat up my son! I wasn't quite sure what was going on. Peter was at the hardware store and not home. Chris said that a girl likes him at school and he doesn't like her so her male cousin was going to get some gang kids in Middle School to "jump" him. I about flipped out! I started wa

Thoughts & Poetry
When I was a kid, adults used to bore me to tears with their tedious diatribes about how hard things were when they were growing up; what with walking twenty-five miles to school every morning ... uphill BOTH ways yadda, yadda, yadda And I remember promising myself that when I grew up, there was no way in hell I was going to lay a bunch of crap like that on kids about how hard I had it and how easy they've got it! But now that I'm over the ripe old age of thirty, I can't help but look around and notice the youth of today. You've got it so easy! I mean, compared to my childhood, you live in a damn Utopia! And I hate to say it but you kids today you don't know how good you've got it! I mean, when I was a kid we didn't have The Internet. If we wanted to know something, we had to go to the damn library and look it up ourselves, in the card catalog!! There was no email!! We had to actually write somebody a letter ...with a pen! Then you had to walk all the way across th

Thoughts 19
So to continue my story about the weekend, we had a rough start with the gang incident and the crazy woman that I became and then to top it all off, Chris throwing a hissy fit! We made it up to the cabin but it was snowing on us. It had stopped by the time we actually made it to the cabin so we were a little bummed. We ate and drank and played cards and went to bed. When we got up in the morning it had been snowing! It wasn’t much but I made a tiny little snowman on the porch. The trees were lightly dusted with snow so it was so beautiful. Then the sun came out and it all melted away. It was pretty while it lasted. It turned out to be a nice day. My friend Sean was getting ready to take the quad up in the hills and I asked him if I could ride on the back. So I hopped on and we drove off. He had to go up in the hill to make a phone call. There isn’t any cell phone reception at the cabin so you always have to go up in the hills. I held onto him for dear life since the fir

Thoughts
why is it that when you are drunk all you can think about is things you really don't want to?  The last 3 serious relationships I have had ended badly and they all moved on before we were even over.  One cheated on me and left me for that girl, the next moved on emotionaly, and the third was already talking to the girl he is w/ now when we were still together like 2 or 3 months before we even broke up...even left the same comment on her page and my page on the same exact day.  I know I'm not perfect but I try as hard as I can when I am w/ someone.  Even now the guys who claim to like me don't actually want to be with me, they just wanna get in my pants. I guess I look easy and slutty, thats all I am.  I just want something real.  I don't want hook ups or to just have fun, I want someone that will take me flaws and all. I'm looking back at entrys in my old written journal trying to fit it all in one note book and every word I wrote hurts and it makes me wonder why I tried so hard when

Thoughts 20
It is Thursday already. This week has kind of gone by fast. I have been busy working and busy trying to keep my son on the right track. I am so not ready for Easter to be Sunday. I have not been into Easter for many years. It seemed like once the kids got older, it just lost it's appeal. There is always the dreaded family thing too. Taking a million pictures. When I was a kid, we got a new Easter outfit to wear to church. We hunted easter eggs and did the big family dinner thing. We always got easter baskets as well. I have been so lame the last few years that I didn't even get my kids an Easter basket. Aren't they a little old anyway? I think part of my not getting into it this year is that my daughter's birthday is Wednesday and Anthony's birthday is Saturday. Kind of makes it a pain. Also the whole thing of dealing with Anthony on a daily basis kind of takes the life out of me at times. We were supposed to have dinner at Peter's brother's house tomorrow nig

Thoughts
*Ask me why I keep on loving you when it's clear that you don't feel the same way for me... the problem is that as much as I can't force you to love me, I can't force myself to stop loving you. *Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it's better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together. *Giving up doesn't always mean you are weak; sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go. *As the tears roll down my face.. i realize i miss you more and more the indescrible feeling is emerging shes tired of being depressed and she doesn't want to know shes losing you.. *I wait for the days when I will forget who you are. When the taste of your name sounds old and worn. I wait for the days when I won't remember why I needed you so bad. Thoughts on love True love cannot be found where it truly does not exist, Nor can it be hidden where it truly does. You will never know true happiness until you have truly loved, and you w

Thoughts Of A Squaw
Trace your fingers on my lips can you feel the unspoken words there? Trace your lips against my curves, can you taste the passion you ignite there? Trace your finger tips along my face and look into my eyes, let yourself get lost there Place your body up against mine, let’s just stay this way for all times, Baby, I don’t ever want to leave here Make sweet love to my body, lace your fingers through my hair, flame my passion for I want to feel your body upon mine Feeling your warm breath as you lovingly kiss every inch of me, leaving me breathless, making me ache with a pain that only you can take away Joining our bodies as one, letting our passion inflame as my body aches With needs that only you can feed for all times Sweet release, light sheen of moisture clinging to our skin, we’ll never cease to be amazed by the love and passion we still ignite everyday and every night Baby, when we are done, we’ll catch our breath and see that we’ve o

Thoughtful Thursday
My soul is gone.Lost and broken.The dreams have faded and This charade is faulted.The endless sorrow continues Through the night. While the hope flies off into the distance. I'm so bored right now... I'm trying to level myself but its not going fast enough... any ideas? >US TANKER: lol it's not past my bed time, I don't have a bed time US TANKER: ok well sweet dreams im sure its past your bed time ->US TANKER: no thats ok US TANKER: maybe next time when you come over to the adult side of the site ->US TANKER: lol ok US TANKER: I deleted my bid ->US TANKER: you already bid though ->US TANKER: you obviously didn't read my offer carefully enough US TANKER: oh well nevermind I thought this was an adult site ->US TANKER: No adult fun, what I offered is what I offered. US TANKER: win sorry ->US TANKER: if you will me? US TANKER: so if i will you do i get any adult fun ***From my shout box earlier. I realize this is an adult site, but adult doesn't necessarily mean stripping of

Thoughts....
I Miss You - Blink 182 Hello there, the angel from my nightmare the shadow in the background of the morgue the unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley we can live like Jack and Sally if we want where you can always find me we'll have Halloween on Christmas and in the night we'll wish this never ends we'll wish this never ends (I miss you, miss you) (I miss you, miss you) Where are you and I'm so sorry I cannot sleep, I cannot dream tonight I need somebody and always this sick strange darkness comes creeping on so haunting every time and as I stared I counted webs from all the spiders catching things and eating their insides like indecision to call you and hear your voice of treason will you come home and stop this pain tonight stop this pain tonight Don't waste your time on me you're already the voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you) don't waste your time on me you're already the voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you) Don't waste you

A Thought
A THOUGHT TO PONDER A THOUGHT TO PONDER RUNS ACROSS MY MIND WITH EVERYDAY GETTING OLDER AN YET TRUE HAPPINESS MUST SOON PASS ME BYE WHEN I THINK OF MY PAST I TRUELLY AM BLESSED FOR THE GOOD TIMES I HAD AND THE WONDERFUL PEOPLE THAT MADE IT SO BUT YET THE THOUGHT STILL ARRISES WHAT MUST COME NEXT AND WITH EVERY SUNSET THE MOONS FINAL GLOW AND EVERY DAYS PASSING LIGHT I STILL DREAM AT NIGHT OF THE HAPPINESS YET TO COME WANTING ONLY THE BEST OUT OF LIFE I REACH FOR YOU TO HOLD I LOOK SO DEEPLY INTO YOUR EYES AND KNOW DEEP IN MY SOUL THAT THERE IS SO MUCH MORE JOY IN THIS WORLD YOU WILL BRING SO WHY SHOULD I BE THE GREATY ONE AND HOLD IT ALL TO MYSELF THIS I WILL NEVER REALIZE BECAUSE SINCE I HAVE FOUND YOU I WILL NEVER LET YOU GO

Thoughts And Opinions....
....what's up with that? I don't like those things....they stick to you. Someone please make them go away! It's nice to know that you're precious to someone. This means that the person has a special place for you in their heart. It means that you're valued, loved, cherished and appreciated. Oh to feel like this once again. Isaiah 13:12 ~ I will make man more precious than fine gold, even a man than the golden Wedge of Ophir. There comes a point in our lives when we all have to take responsibility for our own actions. At that point, no longer can we blame our parents for how we were raised in their home. The choices we make can affect us and others around us long term, temporarily or permanently. That can be adversely or positively. Either way....it's a choice...a decision and we made it. No one else made it for us. We made it. It will and should be us that deals with the repercussions. So how do you decide to make the choices you make? We can ask for guidance from

Thoughts
I know this can't be wrong my feelings are so strong Falling hard for you I think you feel this too You make me smile and it's been awhile Since I have felt this way but I look forward to each new day What a surprise how I just melt seeing your eyes And that little devil grin baby you make me think of sin Emotions so real I can't wait to feel Your tender caress as we slowly undress Burning up with desire you set off my inner fire I feel so wild and free see what you do to me A day of pure sin my mind in a spin No feelings do we hide as we take this reckless ride Holding each other tight it just feels so right All is perfect and great We are each others soulmate

Thoughts 21
Fuckity fuck it has been a real shitty week. Last night was a big blow up between me and Anthony. Peter and I were told that we don't ever do anything for him and we never give him anything. I think I wanted to kill him! WTF is going on with this kid? Is this what puberty is? I went into his room last night and took his wallet and Diesel cologne. His 2 things he loves. Now if you seen his room, you would wonder how he would know where it is in the mess! He was throwing a fit this morning looking all over for it and getting mad. Accusing his brother of taking it and then called his Dad asking him if he took it. My point was....to make him realize that he needs to clean up his mess so he knows where stuff is. He spent a half hour looking for it. He went out into the garage and I went and put the wallet and cologne back in his room but kind of hidden. I think he found them because all of the sudden he was calmed down but he never said anything. I hope it made him think

Thoughts
Life is too short. Let me tell you that when you have the opportunity to say something .. Don't be afraid to say it you may never have the opportunity to say it again and you don't want to regret that for the rest of your life nor leave the ones left behind to wonder what could have been. I am not sure why this is..... I wonder when you put your heart on your sleeve there are those that tend to seek you out to play manipulative games to benefit only themselves. I guess maybe I think of people as being good... I like to give people second changes.. However screw me over and I stop giving... Sorry I am in a bad mood this morning.. but WTF why would you use me? I am not sure why this is but, I have a hard time with people who cannot commit to the things that they say. If you are going to say something I think you should mean it... Otherwise don't waste my time!

Thoughts!
What is love? What is lust? What is in love? What is the difference? We're all pretty certain we know the answers to this, but do we really? At all times and in every circumstance of our lives? We feel that chemistry, that rush, is it the stirrings of love? Do we wait till we know the certainty of a particular relationship before we can truly define it? Why do some things and some people capture our attention and our hearts while others do not? Is it brought on by a sense of safety or a sense of danger? Is it the same for all people? This I am fairly certain, it is not. We can look at some people and see the obvious attraction and yet they may or may not captivate us. Celebraties are the best examples of this. Some, no matter the physical beauty, bore us, while others feel compelled to that. Others charm us and we are drawn to their personality or spirit. Sometimes if we can somehow see ourselves in them we are drawn to that. It can be that it's something we have in common, s

Thoughts 22
Well, it is Friday. I am glad for that. It was a shitty week to say the least. Yesterday was good though. I decided to send my son a text saying "I love you no matter what" and he sent a text back saying "I love you too". He came home in a good mood despite his girlfriend making him mad. I talked to him about his homework without him yelling at me about it. He told me he really is trying and wants to do good because he really wants his license. I do believe him and think that most of the problems we have been having with him is him being angry at himself for getting bad grades and lying. I think he is disappointed in himself and takes it out on us like it is all our fault. It is just really hard to make him see that he is doing this. It is also very hard to control my temper when he blames us for his fuck ups. But....I did not shed a tear yesterday, not one. That is fantastic considering I have been crying most of the damn week! I also got a call from my friend who

Thoughts That Escaped
push pull ebb flow win some lose some always balanced Duty Duty is a binding allegiance to those ideals that we hold most dear.  It is the most chafing bond we wear.  It is a multi-faceted claim upon our being.  Only to be broken down in context by individual limitation.  We are bound as individuals to bring to the world a unique perspective and make that voice heard so others have a guideline, a basis for comparison or a counter introspective to their own individualism. As a woman these duties have clear definition yet no line of distinction.  I am bound by womanhood to be strong for all those who look up to me or to me for comfort, encouragement, definition of self, independence and leadership.  I determine what people see and it is my duty to present the best possible example of all the things beautiful and strong about being a woman. I am bound by marriage to be the rock that my husband can lean against in his struggle for balance.  Man’s duty being vastly different yet

Thoughts And Wasteful Chatter...
Today's wasteful chatter. I am not a professional protographer but have been paid well. I love what I do and I strive to constantly do better. I noticed thought that a lot of amateur models bare their stuff here in fubar. Now, I am all for first impressions but let's face it some of these photos are down right nasty. Maybe the model is trying to say, I am a slut- I need sex. Or I am a messy girl - don't look at my background concentrate on my sexy outfit - which does not match. Take the time to seduce. Simply having a sexy outfit does not make you at all sexy. Its your eyes, your face, and your smile... I guess its left to the eye of the beholder. But let me tell you this, I saw a sexy photo of Betty Page - simple. I fell in love.

Thoughts 23
What was supposed to be a calm, do nothing kind of weekend, turned out to be a very busy weekend. We went to Paul and Betty's for dinner Friday night. Every time I go to their house, it makes me want to sell my house and move there. They live in town but it is up a hill on a secluded area that feels like when you drive up it, it is totally away from everything and feels like the country. It is so peaceful there. The only problem is that the very few houses that are for sale there are over 1 million for the price tag! Ouch. It will be a while before we can move. Not until this terrible market turns around. I really do want to get out of this area. Saturday I spent cleaning and shopping. Then we had some friends over for dinner Saturday night. I was wanting to eat outside in the backyard but that didn't happen since the weather turned cold that day. We played cards and had a good time despite my son who was a total jackass to us that night when he came home. Yesterd

Thoughts 24
I am very scared right now and just need to write and get this down. For about 2-3 months now I have had blood in my stool(sorry for being gross) off and on and for the last 2 weeks it has been every day. I also have been having lower abdominal cramps for the last few months and just thought that it was menstrual cramps. I have been having issues with that for the past year so I just didn't think much about it. For the last week I have been really scared and knew that I needed to call my doctor and should have months ago. You see, my younger brother had colon cancer at the age of 34 which is very young. It has been in the back of my mind for months now and have had this nagging feeling of needing to call the doctor. I just did and talked to a nurse since the doctor was gone for the day. I told her my symptoms and when I told her that I have had cramps and they are very low in my pelvic area, she was very concerned. She said that the bright red blood and lower cramps is u

Thoughts From Ladie_in_pink
Like air and water needed to live, I need you. Like a infant needs a mother to care for it, I need you. I'm helpless, lost, and scared if I don't have you. When I''m alone and crying I think of your face and It makes me feel better. When I feel I have lost all hope, I remember I have you by my side and I can accomplish anything. Like a funny joke to cheer me up, I need you to make me laugh. I can't think of another person that can ever do that. You are my wings to carry me away when I am falling. You are very special to me. I live for you. You watch over me as my guardian angel and keep my safe when in danger. I think of you as the sun that shines down on me. I think of you as my only world. Please don't ever walk out of my life. If there is no you..........there will never be me again An open heart finally set free. A heavy feeling lifting up light. Confusion and doubt are far long gone. Bad dreams and memories of you ar

Thoughts 25
Well, my doctor's nurse called me back and told me that the doctor wanted me to come in and get some blood work done, pick up a prescription, stop taking all anti-inflamatory meds at once, take home a kit for a stool screening test (oh joy) and wait to hear from the GI clinic and if they don't call within 2 weeks, give them a call! I don't know how I am going to survive without being able to take anything for the arthritis in my neck and knees. I imagine by Friday, I will be in a great deal of pain and probably feel like I am dying. The last time I stopped taking Motrin (was taking 2400mg a day) I literally though I was going to die. This was years ago and I had to go back on it and wean myself off which worked. I don't have that luxury this time. It could be that the medicine I have been taking has caused big problems in my intestines and if not treated, could end in death. Isn't that nice? A few of my tests came back today but are always hard to read. One says my Eosinop

Thoughts 26
It is 3:30 in the afternoon and I have had quite the day. I felt pretty good this morning and most of the afternoon until now. I am starting to feel sore. My doctor called me this morning and gave me quite the scare. They were thinking that I might need to be admitted to the hospital immediately because the Internalist thought that I might be bleeding internally and should be rushed to the hospital. After discussing all of my symptoms, he is pretty sure that what is causing all of the bleeding and pain is the medicine I have been on for about 5 months now for my neck. I still have to discontinue the use of any pain relievers, still need to do the stool test in 6 days and stay on the medicine that I had to pick up yesterday. A G.I. specialist called me today and set up an appointment for me to go in but they can't even see me until the 29th of this month! My doctor said that if I continue to bleed after the medicine is out of my system, then they will go from there. So th

Thoughts 27
Well, it is the 3rd day without my medicine and I am doing better than I thought I would. I am sore and my neck is stiff and in pain but i think the more I move, the better it will get. Having arthritis between each vertebrae sucks and it will be something I deal with the rest of my life. I will get through this. The bleeding hasn't stopped which kind of worries me. I thought that it would have stopped by now. I will give it some more time before I call my doctor back and tell him that it is still happening. He has me on 2 different meds to try and stop it. My daughter has been wanting to move out with her boyfriend for about 6 months now. I was not fond of the idea only because of thinking they really couldn't afford it. They are both going to college and working full time so as long as they stay in college, I guess it is ok? Her Aunt told her of a really cute old apartment that isn't too expensive down town. It is the perfect location! I told her we would help the

Thoughts From A Dead Mind
i sit here in the dark with a massive head ach that i have had all day sence i woke up at 6:00am and i relize just how lonly i truely am with no lap to rest my worry head no hands to run through my hair no lips to tell me its ok or to kiss my forehead softly yes it is a truely lonely life i lead i sleep away the days and work away in the nights i sleep in the day so not to see other people holding hands walking down the street or kissing in the park i work hard at night to lose myself in my work couse at work i dont think i do my task at hand my mind does not think of sleeping next to someone warm and soft i do not think of going out to bars couse one truely is the lonelyest number when you go out more to come later just had to write things down ty

Thoughts To Ponder
Don't go for looks; they can deceive. Don't go for wealth; even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Find the one that makes your heart smile. Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do. Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss and ends with a tear. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past, you can't go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches. When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying. It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong p

Thoughts 28
Ugh, monday morning. I had nightmares all night. Getting to a car accident. having a psycho serial killer after my kids. crazy stuff. I woke myself up after the car accident. I got up and went into Anthony's room and he wasn't there which scared me. He went to a concert last night with 2 friends. I told him I wanted him to come home after being that he has school today! I called and called his cell phone and he finally answered. He said that the friend that he went with was too tired to drive him home so he stayed there at his house. The concert apparently ended at 1:00am. I told him it would have been nice to get a phone call, that i was worried. Kids never think parents worry. I was very sore yesterday from way over doing it on Saturday. I thought I was superwoman and cleaned and was dancing around. So I wasn't moving a whole lot yesterday. I was quite sore and in pain. I spent most of the day out in the backyard reading. It was a BEAUTIFUL day! Peter was work

Thoughts
It's been the longest winter without you I didn't know where to turn to See somehow I can't forget you After all that we've been through Going Coming Thought I heard a knock(Whose there, Noone?) Thinking that (I deserve it) Now I have realised That I really didn't knooOooOw If you didn't notice You mean everything (quickly I'm learning) To love again (all I know is) I'm be oooOook (Chorus) Thought I couldn't live without you It's going to hurt when it heals too Oh yeaah (It'll All get better in time) Even though I really love you I'm gonna smile because I deserve too Oooh(It'll all get better in time) (Verse) I could of turned on the TV Without something that would remind me Was it all that easy? To just put us out your feeling [ Better In Time lyrics found on http://www.completealbumlyrics.com ] If i'm dreamin Don't want to let it (hurt my feelings) But that's the past (i believe it) And I know that, time will heal it If you didn't notice

Thoughts 29
Sorry, my neck has been hurting me a lot. It hurts to type and do repetitive things. Oh and my son decided to act like a shit again this week. One week good, then the next week bad. Is he Bipolar? I am wondering? My daughter is moving out at the beginning of the month. She got the cute little apartment she wanted. I am happy for her. Lots of people have been giving her stuff like a couch and a microwave so she will be all set. I am going to miss her being around every day! :( Have a great day and I miss chatting with you all. Kisses and love! Ciao

Thoughts 30
It is Saturday and I should be in a good mood. Should be. This last week has been pretty much Hell for me. Between pain and my son being a complete jerk to me and his Dad. I haven't been online very much at all this last week. I had it our with Anthony the other day. He went on and on about how we never spent any time with him and never buy him anything. I about flipped my lid! I told him that him always being gone was his choice. He always wanted to spend the weekends at his friends house and when ever we wanted to do something, he never wanted to do it because he thought it was stupid or boring. I asked him how many dirtbikes, bicycles, phones, ipods, clothes and such have we bought him? He has had things stolen or loses his crap. Lets see, I just replaced a laptop computer that he had gotten stolen from having a party at our house! I am just sickened by what he tells us. I told him I take him to school, pick him up, take his friends here and there. Feed his frie

Thoughts
This house is so unfamiliar. Edges of my vision blurred into a darkened bronze haze. Death is in this house. The world outside is gone for now, yet I can hear its frozen silence. The air is so dry; I feel my throat crave any kind of moisture. It could not have rained here for ages. In the confusing haze and darkness, I find myself momentarily amazed at how perceptive your auditory senses enhance. As I hear my grandmother whom I survived for more than a decade, sing lightly the songs she would play on her piano, to lull me to peaceful slumber when I was a child and ill. My feet are so heavy. Slow is the way up the stairs. It is as though I am willed up the flight, with two different levels consciousness warring inside my heart. One wrestling with my body to wake up, this has to be a dream, and there is no way it can end well. The other warmed by Mary’s songs, tears flow harder with each step. When I bump into a table or nightstand of some kind, which seems to have no b

Thoughts From Skittles
He didn't care and neither did she. She was my best friend How could he hurt me? Feeling like someone has ripped out my heart I take my memories and tear them all apart As I stare at the broken pieces I feel like a dying fetus My memories have consumed me Causing my heart to swell and bleed I think about ending it all When I hear my memories call I slit my wrists with my broken memories As the blood flows like a red river of tears I drop to my knees Trying to forget all my past years I crawl outside and lie in the rain As each drop washes away my pain My memories flash before my eyes Followed by faint angel cries Good-bye Father and Mother my sister my brother I love you all But my memories have taken my fall It's times like this when you wonder where your life is going. You wonder about society and how fast it's falling apart. You just don't want to wake up and face what the news has to say. You look at your child and pray they become better than what you

Thoughts 31
It is Tuesday and I just got done doing sales tax while my friend took a walk with her son. I am going to pick them up in a little bit and then we are going to have lunch. I thought I would sneak on here real fast before I head off again. Lots has been going on. Some good, some....not so good. I just wish my son would get it. Get that he is hurting himself by doing bad in school. We went to my friends Dad's memorial last Sunday. It was a little emotional and a lot of people showed up! People I have not seen for like 20-30 years! It was great seeing my absolute favorite teacher there. Mr. Mendle was my 5th grade teacher and he was the best! Loved him. He walked up to me and said, "you must be Cristi Rinearson!" (my maiden name) I have not seen him in a good 20 years. It was so good seeing all those people. An old friend gave the greatest Speech about my friends Dad and it just summed it all up perfectly. Now, Tricia and her son are staying with is although we ar

Thoughts
why is when your heartbreaks it usually deals with family? i really wish that i had the answer to this question because i know that 99.9% of the time when i want to cry it is over my family. i have never been close to any body in my family before. well that isn't totaly true, i have always been close with cousins who are close to my age but other then that i have always felt like an outcast and it has gotten to the point where i don't really care any more, but every once in awhile it does hurt to know that those who should love me don't. i just don't know what to do any more. i wish that i had grown up in a loving family but i didn't i grew up in a family who always told me how bad my father was and a family who looked at me with hate because i reminded them of my father. i just don't know what to do any more. even now living with family there are times i feel that i am not wanted and i just don't know what to do any more. i have those bad thoughts again and i really don't wnat them a

Thoughts On Stuff
I have been kinda down as of late. Down, because it seems no matter how much effort, care, and trust I put into my romantic interests, nothing seems to pan out. I have had 2 (well 3) romantic interests as of late. the first one was a 21 yr old woman....it was fun for about a week, but you remember how it was like when you were that age...relationships end as soon as they begin...fast! The other 2 are friends I have. The second one...well that won't happen...oh we are good friends but im about as sexually appealing to her as a house cat. The last one is a bit more complex. we are great friends, and we had some history of romance in the distant past. She's different now. She still sees me as a dear dear friend and thinks I'm attractive...but she doesnt want me like that anymore, if she did, she would have done somthing about it by now. Its too bad really, becasue honestly, I could see myself spending the rest of my life with her. Im thankful and greatful we are sitll friends (even tho

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I had one of the longest days in my life yesterday! My girlfriend that was here for her father's memorial was supposed to stay through the weekend but had been having headaches every night from the stress she has been under with dealing with her Dad's death. So her husband was up North and was hoping we would bring their son to him so he could go riding with him before heading back to Washington. So I told her I would drive them up there. She also decided to just drive back home with her husband instead of flying home Sunday. Sad because that meant our trip to the city was canceled but I totally understood her just wanting to go home. So I drove to Colousa and then over to Stonyford to drop off Kellen to his Dad and then to Willows and Tricia and I waited in the Hotel room for them to get back from the riding. It was a log day. We drove around and had dinner and they got back by the time we were done. Then, I had to drive to the Sacramento airport to take John (the guy

Thoughts And Other Such Rubbish
Sometimes we need to stop analyzing the past *stop planning the future *stop trying to figure out precisely how we feel *stop deciding with our mind what we want our heart to feel Sometimes we just have to go with........ ""WHATEVER HAPPENS - HAPPENS!"" """""Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind""""

Thought For The Day:
Calling an illegal alien an 'undocumented immigrant' is like calling a drug dealer an 'unlicensed pharmacist'

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Well, it is almost the witching hour at my house. That time of the day when my boys get home from school and the fights begin. At least it is Friday! It has been a bit of a long week for me. My friend and her son here, a memorial, driving all day Wednesday and just about being bored to tears and then fighting with Anthony yesterday and this morning! I need a drink. A drink and relax. I wish it was somewhat warmer outside so that I could have my drink poolside. It has been cold this last week. Not normal weather for us at all. I teased my friend and told her she brought it with her from Seattle! Burr. I am ready to start laying out in my pool naked! Getting that all over glow. Only...we have new neighbors that bought the house next door and they are fixing it up. I don't want to scare them if they are up on a latter or on their roof! Oh my. I would be embarrassed to say the least. This weekend should be a quiet one. Nothing planned. Our daughter is moving out

Thoughts For The Day....
WHY is it so bloody difficult for people to say what they mean?!?!? WHY is honesty so hard to come by?!?!? Why do we always want what we can't have - but never really seem interested in who wants us? Do we just like the game of it all? Any ideas? Anyone have any amazing INEXPENSIVE ideas... or favorite things they did or liked about theirs? Was there anything you hated? Let me know in comments please!!! I'm having to help plan ours... and its very last minute... haha we always were a bunch of slackers....

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Saturday.....ahhhh. It is sunny and warm. I have been out in my backyard soaking up the sun. It was cold in the middle of the week and now it is going to be in the 80's today. Crazy weather! I am trying to get some things done inside the house but the sun keeps calling my name. It says "cristi, oh cristi, don't you want to be outside?" Our pool cover is on so maybe it will warm up enough to get in it soon. I am looking forward to that. I wish we had solar heating but when we were thinking about putting it on, it was the same price as my son's braces and I think he needed them worse. Peter said he is going to try and build solar heating for our pool. Not sure when he iss going to find time for that? We have to move Asthon out Thursday night, leave for the cabin Friday. The next weekend we are going to actually finish our room that we have been planning to do for the last 3 months! Then, both boys rooms need to be done. So now we are into summer and who wants to

Thoughts
I stayed until the end. So much of what we shared was like a nightmare...but I wouldn't give up a single minute i spent with her. she woke me up to things i never felt before, things i never knew i could feel.I never knew how dead i was until i met her. born like this into this as the chalk faces smile as Mrs. Death laughs as the elevators break as political landscapes dissolve as the supermarket bag boy holds a college degree as the oily fish spit out their oily prey as the sun is masked we are born like this into this into these carefully mad wars into the sight of broken factory windows of emptiness into bars where people no longer speak to each other into fist fights that end as shootings and knifings born into this into hospitals which are so expensive that it's cheaper to die into lawyers who charge so much it's cheaper to plead guilty into a country where the jails are full and the madhouses closed into a place where the masses elevate fools into rich her

Thoughts On Love
Love is not something we find, love is something we DO! Just because something good ends doesn't mean something better won't begin To love you must be willing to let go, to let go you must be willing to love You can only be as happy as you want to be Love is like swallowing hot chocolate before it has cooled off. It takes you by surprise at first, but keeps you warm for a long time Love is too strong a word to say it too early, but it has too beautiful a meaning to say it too late Love is looking at him and knowing that even if you can't be with him, you feel happy because he is happy with someone else Love is like a box of chocolates. You don't know how good it is until they are all gone Love is what none of us can point out because it's that unexplainable thing that only appears when you realize you are not asking yourself, 'What is love? Never question if you are in love or not, because if you were you wouldn't need

Thoughts
STOP!!! and take a moment with me……. Close your eyes…… and remember……. Remember that first moment…… the first moment you saw her….saw him Can you see it? Now fall deeper…. deeper into that moment…… feel her…..feel him reach….Reach out…. With your soul….. Are you there? Her smell….his smell… INHALE and hold Savior it, relish in it… Freeze it, take a picture…. Remember…. the first touch…a hug…a hand….a body Now….are you still with me? Are you still with her? Are you still with him? OPEN!! What do you see? I see….I feel…I know…. Eyes wide open I SEE!! You are real. With me…away from me…but IN me You and I are WE….. Can you…… I reach…I touch….I connect WE connect It is that moment…this moment those moments….. future moments….. I know…I KNOW…you me we Alone…together Far and so CLOSE always I know…you know…. The little things….. still alive….feeling…touchi

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Odd that I wake up on a Monday at 6:00am awake! Thats what great sex will do for you, help you sleep like a baby. It was nice because we went to bed early and were able to enjoy sex without worrying about how late it was. Some friends came by yesterday and we sat around out in the backyard talking. I was told that I am much like Sean in the way I handle Anthony. I was wrong in how I treated Anthony last week and they called me on it. I do need to learn what to say and what not to say sometimes. He always has a bad reaction to me trying to talk to him. His attitude has been really good all weekend and today so far. I have been thinking a lot about him having an incentive to do better. I feel like he thinks he is in such a deep dark hole sometimes that there is no way out. He needs hope. he needs positive and not negative that I have been lately! So I will do a lot of soul searching about this. He was very excited about how well he did on his driving lesson on Saturda

Thoughts About Fate Love And Perfect
Fate: The supposed force, principle, or power that predetermines events... It also brings who comes and goes out of your life. It's fate who I've meet and who I let go of. I've been dealing with all kinda of fate these last weeks and not knowing what to make out of it. I sometimes feel as if I can't handle it anymore. I'm tired of no one seeing my pain and yet fate is what I keep running into. What does fate have to show me in there days. Why is all the fate I deal with fucked up right now and what is it meaning? Love: A deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness. I feel so lost when I read what love is suppose to be Becuase I feel so empty inside now and days. I feel as if its a unfinished painting that will never be completed because it has been put to the side and forgotten. Will I truely ever be found and finished and if i am will i be under

Thoughts
I was invited to "Fubar" by a friend who knew I would be addicted immediately ... he was right I was here for 20 hrs straight having a blast. Worked my way up to level 9 almost level 10 with commenting, rating, and making lots of friends and inviting my friends to join. 8 of them came to Fubar to join in on the fun. Got wonderful gifts and plenty of drinks to get me Sh*t faced as I did for others as well ... Then I knew from reading the FuBible that I had to verify before I could level past 10 so I took a photo with the info paper as described, it was denied ... so I tried again, making a new info paper to show different from the first one just in case ... then out of the blue less than 20 mins after the second try for verify ... my account was deleted =( I have no idea why, I sent a email to support, so am hoping to hear a responce of why my original account was deleted. I am a lil upset that all my hard work, points, and FuBucks are gone ... *sigh* I just dont know

Thoughts
I have severe anxiety and depression, i can't help it that i easily fall for a woman or that i like someone right away. my disease is from years of being rejected because nobody saw beneath the outer appearance to the nice, caring and sweet guy i truly am. and i also have short term memory loss. oh well the reaper can come for me now, put me out of my misery. I have to admit to a few things. Mostly because it is how i am and also what i love. I am obsessed with bbw and feet! The bigger the better and the sexier the feet appear the hotter it gets for me.

The Thoughts
I walk into the house. I was very surprised at how modern the house looked. I was still afraid of this man yet I seemed to not be able to voice all the questions that were bubbling in mind. He went into what seemed the butler’s pantry which then led to the kitchen. Juxtaposed to the kitchen was a dinning room and a living room. He went to the fridge and pulled out a bottle of water. He drank from it and then set it on the counter. He looked at me and held his hand out, as if telling me to go in the direction it was pointing. I walked into the living room as he followed me. I followed his suit as he sat down. He looked so calm, almost as calm as I felt at that moment. This was quite absurd since he did kidnap me, in a way I suppose. Maybe he had slipped something into my drink and I was under some sort of control. Or maybe it was mind control. And the reason I stood outside of my car for so long was because he was controlling my mind, and made sure I paid no attention to him entering m